Lifetime Unchanged
Chapter Four

"Um... oh! Sorry, May! I have to pack everything and get ready to return back to Cerulean City..," Misty said. It was the first thing she could think of to say to avoid talking to May about that. She didn't want to lie, but she didn't want to talk about him for the time meanwhile. And besides, what was May going to tell her, anyways? How much her and Ash were madly in love? She was already sad enough about seeing them together; she didn't need to hear about them being together.

"Oh... Well, once you finish packing, can we talk?" May asked.

"I don't know."

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"Hey Misty." It was Mrs. Ketchum. "Do you need a hand in packing all of this? To tell you the truth, sweetie, you didn't bring that many stuff along with you. Yes, you had many presents, but I don't think you can use packing all this as an excuse to just sit here and do nothing else. I heard what you said with May. Sweetie, I know when Tracey is coming back to get you; that ain't anytime near. Why don't you talk to her? It may be something important. And besides, I just packed everything for you." Mrs. Ketchum smiled and left.

Misty sighed. I need to stop being so pathetic for a guy, she thought. I don't like him. So why am I so sad? I guess I can't let go of the past. I mean, we have been through so much. It is easy for a girl to develop feelings for a boy when you both been through so much. But, I guess that doesn't apply with the boy. It's weird... I can let go of my fear of a Pokemon, capture it, and train it all the way into one of my favorite Pokemon. I let one of my biggest fears be in the past and let it go. But when it comes to Ash, I can't.

But, compare me with May. She's beautiful; way prettier than me. I look almost like a boy. Just cut my hair short and there! It isn't hard for anyone believe a boy would pick her over me. She is also a better trainer. I know I may be a gym leader, but that's only because my sisters had to go wherever-they-went. If they didn't go, I wouldn't be a gym leader, not to mention a decent trainer. Plus, she gets along with Ash and is a lot nicer than I am. I have never seen them argue over one thing and when most people are dating, they argue easily. I guess that means that they are a picture-perfect couple.

Ash is cute. She's pretty. Ash is a good trainer. May is a good trainer. She has almost all the same Pokemon as him, and I only use water Pokemon. They almost everything in common! I mean, look, Ash has three letters in his name. May does, too. And they both have the letter 'a' in their name! They even have that in common!

Me and Ash? What do we have in common? Sometimes, when we argue, we both probably want to kill each other. Does that count? Maybe. Other than that? Nothing.

Talking to herself, Misty realize that, yes, she did like him. And maybe she still does. But, she won't be sad about it. She should be happy. May was one of her friends; not her best friend, but nevertheless, still a friend, so Misty should be happy for her being with Ash. She should also be happy for Ash. May was a perfect girl, and Ash deserves a girl like May, not someone like Misty. She was a ugly, look like a boy, had temper issues, wasn't as a trainer as May, and she had so many other flaws. Who would want that?

Even if I was a guy, I wouldn't want myself, she thought.

She smiled and decided to talk to May. She knew it was probably going to hurt her, but that was ok. Many times in her life, she has been hurt, and another moment shouldn't matter that much, right? Misty walked around the house and finally found May in the backyard, holding flowers. She went towards May. "Hi, May. So... how 'bout we have that 'girl to girl' talk?"

When Misty first saw May, she didn't know she was crying. May wiped her tears off her face, even though she knew they wouldn't stop. "Oh yeah, Ash bought some flowers for you. The ones I'm holding are the ones he bought for me. The one on the table kitchen are for his mom. The ones that over there are yours." Misty looked at the flowers over there. They were dead and smashed into the dirt. "I'm sorry about that. I was sad about something, and I just had to take it out on something, so I took it out on your flowers. If you do care, I can buy another one for you; they're not that expensive."

"Why are you in the backyard when it's dark outside?" Misty asked, clearly not caring about the flowers. "And, if you don't mind be asking, why are you crying?"

"If you don't want people to see you crying, you should cry in the dark; not a lot of people have perfect vision and can see in the dark," May answer, but not answering the other question. "Well," May started, "me and Ash broke up."

Misty was shocked. "Huh? What happened? You guys were just so happy a while ago! Did you guys get into a fight?"

May shook her head. "No."

"I wonder why he broke-"

"I broke up with him," May interrupted.

Misty was shocked again. She didn't understand how someone could be sad when they were the one who broke up with them, but she never broke up with a guy, so she probably wouldn't understand no matter what. "Why? I thought you really liked him."

"I do. But I don't think it was the same with him. Like today, me and him were holding hands, and I don't know, I like the feeling when we hold hands... but, after we went out of the house and door closed, he just let it go. It made me think he was just holding my hand as an act, you know? Then, we went to the park and he just didn't seem interested in me; he only does when other people are around, another reason why I think it's an act. Plus, when I broke up with him, all he said was, 'ok', like he didn't care about it at all."

sorry it aint the best chapter.. but i hope its ok... i dont really like the chapter but i tried so yeahh...