July 3, 2005
Dear Diary,
I couldn't sleep last night. I just kept on thinking about Tommy and I just got more and more depressed. I even started crying in the shower this morning. And that was great because I'm pretty sure Luca and Adrienne could hear me. I mean, as soon as I got out, Adrienne knocked on my door to see if I was okay. Then when I cam out of my room, Luca asked if I felt better.
Then, during breakfast, Cranky Sadie was being a giant jerk to Luca. I mean, I know it's not his fault for what happened between me and Tommy, but it was just the only way I felt like I could stay true to Tommy. Like being mean to Luca would make up for all the time I've spent with him behind Tommy's back. It sounds stupid, but I don't know… It is stupid.
I guess both of them could tell I was giving Luca the cold shoulder, so Adrienne and I went out without him. We talked tons and I explained to her why I was acting that way. I even went in full detail of my relationship with Tommy since he became Jude's producer. She completely understood and told me not to force anything. My heart will tell me where to go.
It sounds kinda corny or whatever, but something about the way she said it made me feel better. It was like a reminder that fate has it's way with things. We're predestined in the way your heart belongs to a certain someone in the world. The love is always there waiting… Just that thought made me start to smile and have fun again.
We took some pictures in the Boboli Gardens too. She said she'll make me a portfolio with those pictures for free. I told her she didn't have to, but she said, "the beauty of Florence and the beauty of Sadie Harrison were meant for each other." She's way too sweet. I guess it just runs in the family.
Until tomorrow, Diary…
3 Sadie