July 10, 2005
Dear Diary,
Apparently, avoiding the bistro is extremely hard to do if I try to leave my building. And that's super ironic considering that I always thought the architecture of the place was so beautiful. Now, I just think it's stupid to have so many windows and be in the middle of the village. I don't want him to know I'm purposely avoiding him!
I just don't know what that kiss meant to him… And he really is a nice guy! I just don't want to hurt his feelings… I don't want anyone to get hurt.
Also meaning I don't want Tommy to freak out on me. He could either get pissed at me for letting it happen and technically cheating on him (even though I didn't start the kiss and it wasn't my intention to start ANYTHING). Or, he could just get plain mad at Luca and want to pound o him. I guess Tommy could want to do both…
That is, if Tommy reacts to this situation. It might just be me getting hurt… I mean, what if Tommy doesn't care enough about me to react in any way..? Like, if he just brushes it off of his shoulder because he doesn't care to be exclusive with me. I'm not worth getting angry or upset about… Or even worse, if Tommy just ends things completely…
It looks like whatever happens, someone's going to get hurt. I just don't know who I'd rather have suffer…
Sadie