July 13, 2005
Dear Diary,
One week until he gets here… I'm surprised he's even coming still! No, I didn't tell him what happened… It's more like I've been avoiding the subject altogether. I think we honestly talked about the weather one day. That's how bad I've been at ignoring the truth.
It's so stupid too! I mean, I'm so freaked out about losing Tommy that I'm pushing him away! M logic is getting so screwed up that even I can't understand it anymore!
Seriously… I haven't had a decent night's sleep, eaten much of anything, or even really left my room since Florence. I just with I never went! Then maybe instead of hoping Tommy doesn't hate me, I could be hoping he loves me again.
Because I love him…
Sadie.