July 14, 2005
Dear Diary,
Sorry for the super ugly/messy handwriting. I've got to make this quick! Why? Because Tommy is still sleeping, and I want to this stuff down before he wakes up.
Mr. Quincy showed up on my doorstep last night… A WEEK EARLY! I thought I was going to have more time to think things through, but I was wrong! He moved his trip up because he was worried about me…
That's good, right? People get worried because they care. And if he cares, the doesn't hate me yet! UGH! I had to use the word "yet"…
Anyways, I guess the jet lad didn't his him right away, so we went for a walk. I felt a little better just being with him, but that fear of the kiss coming up kept creeping up on me. He even wanted to stop by the bistro to meet Luca and have some gelato. I was definitely quick to protest that one. And I'm pretty sure Luca saw us outside (Tommy trying to go in, and me pulling him away)…
Luckily, I know how to make Tommy think with his other head and I got him to go back up to my room… Gosh. That would've been so bad… Freakin' Tommy's first night in town, and he learns about the kiss from Luca… That would've been such a disaster, I can't even imagine it.
I still don't know what to say to him though! I was kinda hoping that seeing him would help me find the words, but it's just making it so much harder. I can't just tell him that I kissed someone else when all I want to do it tell Tommy how much I love him. And things were so great last night, that I didn't want to ruin anything. Maybe I just shouldn't tell him..?
Tommy's moving! I better get back in bed!
3 Sadie