July 20, 2005
Dear Diary,
Okay! So my entry this morning was pretty depressing… Things aren't exactly super fantastic now, but they aren't so black and gloomy.
We just hung out today. Of course, we went out of our way to avoid the bistro… And we weren't exactly too friend with each other. But I think he did smile at once point. I smiled too, that's for sure.
It's really crazy, but even when things aren't so great between us, just being with Tommy makes me feel better. Does that sound stupid after everything we've been through? I don't know. It even sounds stupid to me, so what would other people think? Honestly, I don't really care what people thing when it comes to my relationship with Tommy, but I do wonder sometimes. I just want us to be us again…
Gosh! I'm such a girl… That stupid last paragraph I wrote is making me cry! The more I tell myself not to cry, the more the tears come out! Why the hell am I still writing?!?