Chapter 8

It's been a week since Tom kissed me and I haven't spoken to him the whole time. We've been avoiding each other and when we did have to spend time together we only said awkward hellos and the occasional what's up. The guys have no idea what's going on and are extremely confused. They keep giving us these looks like 'are you going to tell us what's going on today?' or something like that. Dougie keeps asking me about it when we get time alone together and I just say something like 'Doug, this is one of our rare moments together. Can we not talk about Tom?'. We were in Blackpool and the guys were off tonight, so we all decided to stay in tonight. Currently I'm in my room alone while the McFly boys were all in Harry's room playing X-box and having a great time. I can hear them laughing through the wall while I'm trying to concentrate on the papers I was reading for a television show they were doing in two weeks. Suddenly, the laughter died down and for a minute all I heard was silence, and then there was a knock on my door. I answered and saw Tom standing there, looking shy and out of place.

"What's up?" I asked, hoping he would get scared and walk away, because I knew he was here to talk about the kiss.

He sighed," Abby, you know what's up. We need to talk about what happened."

I looked down the hallway and saw all three of the guys' heads sticking out of Harry's door and then quickly retreat back into the room.

"Come on in," I said, getting a quesy feeling in my stomache.

He came in and sat down on the couch I had in the room. He wouldn't look at me as I sat down next to him.

"Do the guys know?" I asked praying to God that Dougie hadn't found out.

"No, they just know something's up and told me to come talk things over with you. Look, Abby, I'm sorry about what happened. I just... I think I just got caught up in the moment and went with it. I don't know what I was thinking," he said and then blushed.

I gave Tom a comforting smile and said," It's ok, babe. It wasn't all your fault. It takes two to kiss, you know and I agree, I think we just got caught up in the moment."

Now that was complete and total bulls. I loved him, a lot, and your probably sitting there thinking 'man what a b, she's in love with Tom yet she's dating Dougie. What does she think she's playing at?' but problem is, I think I'm in love with Dougie too. I know it's crazy thinking you're in love with someone after only knowing him a week and a half but I really believe I am. Dougie is so sweet and funny, lets not forget he's also amazingly gorgeous, but so is Tom, and now I'm in love with both of them, but I'm with Dougie and Tom doesn't feel that way about me.

"I'm sorry," he said," Can we just go back to the way we were, best friends who could talk about anything. I hate how awkward everything between us is right now."

"I'd like that," I replied.

He hugged me and we sat down and talked for hours about anything and everything. I really wanted to tell him about Dougie and I because I know he's going to be mad that I didn't, but I couldn't if I wanted to keep this job. So I held my tongue knowing that this whole thing was just going to get worse after the tour when Dougie and I could finally reveal what was going on between us.