Chapter 11

Danny set down his stuff and sat down on the couch next to me, wrapping an arm around my shoulders.

"Hey, what's wrong, Abby?"

Ok, I couldn't hold it in any longer. I had to get this out, so I spilled the whole story to Dan. I told him how Dougs and I got together all the way to the fight we just had and he sat there and listened to the whole thing. By the end of it I was crying on Danny's shoulder while he just sat there and hugged me, letting me get all of the built up emotions out. When I finally calmed down, Danny looked at me and smiled this warm comforting smile that immediately made me feel better.

"You know, maybe Dougie is right," he said after a while.

"What?"

"Maybe you don't really love him. Maybe you're just trying to make yourself believe that you don't love Tom by dating Dougs."

I sighed," Danny, you're not making any sense. Why would I do that?"

"Because you're scared," he said like it was the most obvious thing in the world," You're scared that if you love Tom as more than a friend, then that's going to ruin everything between you two, mess it up."

"So then why would I go to Dougie, oh great and powerful one?"

I meant that as a rhetorical question and was on my way to my bed when he answered," To make sure that you didn't do anything with Tom and that you didn't fall for him any more than you already have."

I stopped dead in my tracks and turned to look at Danny. He was smiling at me like he just knew he was right.

"You know I'm right, Abby. Just think about it, ok?" with that Danny stood up and walked into the bathroom to get ready for bed.

So I sat down on my bed and thought about it, and I didn't stop thinking about it. Three hours later, I was still as confused as ever. I needed to clear my head so I got up and wrote a note to Danny in case he woke up. I grabbed my coat and walked out of the door and down to the lobby. I walked out of the hotel and into the cold dark night, heading for a park I saw earlier today. When I got to the park I sat on a bench and started to think about this messed up situation I was in. I didn't know what to do, was Danny right? I did love Tom but I liked Dougie too. Like, Abby, not love? Oh, mother of pearl, Danny was right! When the hell did he get so smart! How the hell did he know this crap and not me? That's kind of freaky right there! Wait Abby, focus on the situation at hand. Dougie's a great guy and I don't want to hurt him, but I'm not in love with him like I thought I was. I don't deserve Dougie, hell I don't deserve anyone with the way I've been treating these guys. I need to talk to him, but I'm not sure if he'll go any where near me after what happened last night. Man, I really f this up, didn't I?