Han.

Poor Han.

Encased in that carbonite for an infinite amount of time.

I wasn't there with him to help him through the long sleep he was enduring. No, not me. I was stuck here in a building on Yavin IV trying hard to forget him. But no, that isn't working.

I need him. I need him so bad it hurts.

Just try to forget him Leia. But how can I when the possibility that when we find Han that he's already going to be dead is so high??

"Leia?" A voice broke through my thoughts. "Leia? Sweetheart, what's wrong?"

Sweetheart, Han calls me 'sweetheart'…

"Leia? Leia???" I turned my head and gasped. My god. I'm in a meeting. I straightened up in my chair and then turned to the people sitting around the table.

"Yes?" I said, looking at everyone around the room.

"Leia? Are you even paying attention?" Mon Mothma said to me, and I turned to her.

"Er…Yes." I lied. Luke's right. I'm a terrible liar.

"What are we talking about then?"

"Politics?" I took a stab at it.

Mon Mothma sighed and shook her head. "No dear." She stood up. "Meeting adjourned."

Okay, that was easy. I stood up and grabbed my datapad. I don't remember taking this from my cabin. Wait, what's the number of my cabin? 234…no…432? No….324? I don't think so… "Leia. Stop. We need to talk."

"Okay." I said, sitting down next to her in a chair. Is it 456? No I don't think that that's it. 546? No, wait…maybe its 265! Yes! That's it!

"What's going on? You haven't paid attention in the last five meetings we've had today. What's on your mind?"

"Wait, we've had five meetings today? I thought we've only had two meetings today…."

"Exactly my point dear."

"Look I'm sorry Mon. I guess the whole 'losing Han' thing really got to me. I'm really sorry. I'll pay attention during meetings. Really I will. Please forgive me?"

"I forgive you sweetheart. Now let's get ready for dinner." Mon said, standing up and then walking towards the door. Han said that to me once.

"Wait. It's dinner time??" I asked, and I could hear Mon laugh.

After Dinner…

I walked into my room and then closed the door. This is my room right? I looked around and noticed my clothes and Han's extra clothes on the floor and the chairs. Yeah, it's my room.

I sat down on the bed and then took out my diary, re-reading Han's message to me. Maybe I should write one to him.

Dear Handsome Han,

I miss you. I miss you a lot. I miss you so much it hurts me. Oh, and I'm delusional. I don't pay any attention in meetings anymore. I couldn't even remember my apartment number. I didn't realize that we were in a meeting until Mon Mothma asked me if I was paying attention or not. I didn't even know that it was dinner time. My thoughts have been filled with you, and only you. I had a dream last night. A dream similar to the one you had about me. You know, the one that you said was the worst dream you've ever had? Yeah, that dream. It was the same, except we were walking in Cloud City. We were walking to go to breakfast. It was just you and me. Stormtroopers surrounded us and I grabbed onto you as hard as I could. I wasn't strong enough. Several troopers came over and took me away from you, and you got mad and started to attack them. Then they shot you, and I fell onto the floor. I didn't get to finish the dream…thank god…because I awoke terrified and my face as white as a sheet. Luke thinks I love you, and its true, but I don't know how Luke is going to take the news when he finds out about…us. I know that you said he harbors strong feelings for me. I counted the stars last night. I pretended that you were there. It didn't work. I went crazy last night and screamed out for you during the night. That's what 3PO said. I was a little embarrassed that he caught me screaming out "I love you Han! No! NO!!" But I think that I've endured more embarrassing things. At least it wasn't Luke. I feel sort of bad for him. He doesn't know. I'm not embarrassed to say that I'm your boyfriend, if that's what you think, I just don't want Luke to find out quite yet. I have to go. I think its lunch time. Or maybe its dinner time? Breakfast? I don't know. Maybe its time to go to bed. Yes, the clock says that its time to go to bed. I told you I'm delusional. I miss you so much. I love you!

Much Love,

Han's Lover, Leia Organa

I put the book away and then a knock came on the door.

"Yes? Come on in." I said, crossing my legs onto the bed. It was Luke. "Hello Luke." I said, and he came and sat down next to me onto the bed.

"Listen, Leia. We need to talk. Mon says that you haven't been paying attention in meetings lately."

"I know I haven't Luke. Just forget about it. If that's what you're worried about it's really not…"

"It's because of him." Luke blurted out, cutting my sentence off.

"Excuse me?" I asked him.

"It's because of Han that you're not paying attention during meetings Leia…isn't it."

Is he using the….oh what's it called? FORCE! I think he's using some Jedi skills or something. He's so smart!

"It's not because of Han! How could you say that?" I asked him. I think I'm getting better at the lying stage.

"Liar." He smiled.

"You think I love him."

He nodded.

"Well think again. Because I don't. Now if you'll excuse me, I need to get ready for bed.

"But Leia…"

"No. I need to get ready for bed. I need my rest. I am very tired and need to sleep."

"I'm sure you'd rather sleep with Han than by yourself." Luke smiled and I pushed him out the door.

I turned around and then smiled. "Of course I'd rather sleep with Han than by myself." I laughed and went to take a shower, planning on getting a goodnight sleep.

So there's the chapter. I don't know when Leia's going to admit to Luke that she is in love with Han, but okay. Not anytime soon. Count on that. Anyways…there's the chapter. I think that Leia's diary is going to turn into more of a journal for Han to read after he comes back. So yeah. There it is. I hope you liked it! Please review!!! Thanks SO much for your support!!!

xoxoxoxoxoxo,

Alexandra