Tony laughed h is ass off when I told him what had happened with Mac. I told him it wasn't funny and that I could be compromising his position but he didn't relay care except to laugh some more. I swear I would be better off as a nun. I would never have to deal with all of these idiot men. Maybe I'll go live with Abby's nuns. But seriously no sex? I'm not a nympho but I really like sex, I don't want to give it up. Ughhh! Seriously I'm still throbbing and it's been 12 hours. And now, now I have to go into work and pretend like nothing happened. This case isn't even close to being finished and it looks like their going to be here for at least another wee. GRR. If I can stay away from him for that long it'd be a freaking miracle.
I'm in the car now; I took the long way to work so that I would have time to think. I really don't know what to do. I love Mac, but this seems like just a conquest for him. I know in my heart that he's not that kind of guy, but I've been hurt before by him and I can't help but think he'll do it again. I realized with shame that I'd started to cry. I wiped them away quickly as I pulled into the navy yard.
I was still here earlier than anyone else on the team even though I'd taken the long way. I went in and on up to Jenny's office. She was in already but just doing paperwork. I rely on her for advice more than anyone else. I've never been especially close to my mother; I'm a constant reminder of her former life. Jenny was there for me even before she was director.
"Lindsay, come in and sit down." She told me, I did and she noticed immediately that something was wrong. She's never been one to beat around the bush and immediately came out with, "Lindsay what's the matter." I told her everything, from my life in New York to the elevator scene with Mac. Somewhere along the way I had started to cry again. She rubbed my back gently and calmed me down. "Lindsay, you love him, and that's not something to give up on. He hurt you yes, but he does love you. Even your father has noticed. He was just in here yesterday bitching about it." I gasped; if Dad had noticed then it must be blatantly obvious. Jenny chuckled and said, "Listen to me Lindsay, as of last night Tony's involvement in the La Grenouille investigation ended. He's been made. So today you can tell everyone the 'jig is up' so to speak. But if you want my advice, and I assume you do since you're in my office, I suggest that you don't tell anyone. He's finally got a fire under his ass prompting him to move because he might lose you. Don't quench it. Feed it." I smirked. I knew I kept her around for a reason.
After that little pick-me-up I was ready to face everyone. I went down into the bullpen where everyone was congregated and waited for assignments to be given out. Peyton was glaring at me and I smiled. That meant Mac had told her then. She wouldn't tell anyone. It would hurt her pride too much. Tony looked at me and mouthed 'still married?' I nodded. I liked Jenny's idea. Even if it was sneaky…and devious…and was only going to end up landing me in a load of trouble. I went over to him and he put his arm around me. I looked over to Mac and saw him smirking at me in the damn infernal way, the sad thing about it; it pissed me off…and turned me on. Damn him.
It figures you know that my dad would pair me up with Mac for the day. No one else, just Mac. We were walking out to the car when he said something to me. I was to busy damning the gods and my father and just about everything else when he said it to hear him. "Huh?" Oh very eloquent Linds. "I said did you have pleasant dreams." That stupid smirk was back on his face and his eyes were mocking me. I looked around to see if anyone was in the area then looked back at him. I guess he sensed something in my eyes because his eyes widened. I smirked now. I stalked slowly toward him and leaned against his front. "Nothing memorable." I whispered into his ear. My smirk grew as I turned around and walked toward the car. That should leave him reeling for awhile. I heard him catch up to me as I neared the car. I guess he wasn't going to be reeling as long as I thought. He pressed my front against the car. I could feel his muscles against my back and could see his arms pinning me by my waist as he leaned in to breathe into my ear, "I guess we'll just have to fix that later. You know, make some new memories." He ground his hips into my backside and kissed my neck once. He then turned me around and laid a gentle kiss on my lips. I sighed at its promises. It promised so much: passion, tenderness, care, but most of all love. He pulled back and smiled at me. I smiled back and we got into the car, not talking until we reached the apartment of our newest suspect. But halfway there he reached over and took my hand.
"Well that was a bust." I said, "Unless you know, we want to give credit to the women for her tarot readings." Mac mock glared at me and said, "Remember Lindsay believe in the science." I smacked his arm and said, "Are you mocking me?" He chuckled and sarcastically said, "No, of course not." We laughed and headed back to the car. When we got there he leaned against my door so I couldn't open it. "You're not really married." He said. My eyes grew and I stuttered out, "Wh-What are you talking about?" He smiled in this infuriating knowing way and said, "Lindsay I may be dense about some things but I can read you like a book. You aren't romantic with Dinozzo. If you were really married you would never ever kiss another guy. You're too loyal for that." I sighed and said, "He was working a co-op and needed a wife. It ended last night. But we were going to keep it going to make you jealous. I guess that's over now." I tried to open my door but he closed it again. He turned me around and kissed me like there was no tomorrow. I sighed and kissed him back. It wasn't terribly passionate but it was like he needed to make sure I was still there.
"I was afraid I'd lost you." I smiled and leaned into his embrace. "Mac you'll never lose me. I…I love you." I looked down at that last part, fearing what he would say. He lifted my chin and said, "Well that's good, I was worried I was going to be alone in that department after everything that's happened." I laughed and hugged him. He picked my up and spun me around. When he set me down he looked very serious. "Lindsay I need to know something." I nodded, a bit worried about what he had to say. "Were those dreams really not memorable?!" He asked, the incredulity obvious in his voice. I laughed outright at that and pulled him in for another kiss.
AN: I hate to do this but before I post another chapter I want someone else to post a new Mac Lindsay story. I need inspiration.