Disclaimer: I make no profit form this at all… except for my own person pleasure.

A/N: So the new Reid story will be called Black Liner Run. It's gonna be good guys. I hope anyway. The song is 'Undone' by Suicide City. They're amazing and they put on an awesome stage show. If you get the chance to see them, do it.

Wild Pagan Heart by Cara Mascara

Chapter 25: Myra

"C'mon Myra. Your friend can come in here if she wants to visit," a tall, brown haired nurse that I didn't recognize who had been leading Myra and two other girls into the hospital from outside. She ushered Myra through the girl's ward doors. I was going to go in there and see her, I really was. I hadn't been to visit her the last few times I came for my appointments because my mother had insisted on coming with and nagged me to leave as soon as our session was finished. She hated the fact that I'd been sent here.

I watched as Myra disappeared behind the door., not looking away from me until the door closed behind her. I swallowed the lump in my throat, feeling bed for not visiting her. "You haven't been visiting her, have you?" Carter asked, reading my expression. I shook my head and looked at him.

"It's hard. Every time I leave, she has a meltdown. I mean… it can't be good for her," I told him. Sure, my mom had been the one who whined about staying here longer than needed, but I could have easily argued and visited Myra. I was just… it was too much.

"Yeah… but staying away and making her feel like you don't care enough to visit her can't be good for her either," he reasoned with me. He was right.

"I know. She's never going to get out of here," I said, shaking my head. She never made progress. An obsessive compulsive, manic-depressive with bipolar disorder and schizophrenia. Myra just got dealt a shitty hand of cards. It didn't shock me that she was so messed up though. She witnessed her mother be brutally murdered by her boyfriend of the week when she was ten. She grew up in a crack house, her mom was a prostitute and she never knew her father.

Carter shrugged, not really knowing what to say, but surely agreeing with me. "Hey, so are you still at Spenser?" he asked, trying to lighten the mood again. I smiled.

"Yeah I am. Still live in Salem. Still…"

"Practicing tree worship?" he joked. That was his term for Wicca. I laughed.

"I've moved on to rocks," I joked back, feeling an arm wrap around my waist from behind. Reid. "Hi," I said, turning to face him. "Reid this is Carter. He's a nurse here."

"Hey, only until I finish Med school," Carter defended with a smile. Reid didn't look too thrilled to meet him.

"Interesting. Ready to go?" Reid asked. He certainly didn't seem too interested.

"Oh, actually. I wanted to go into the Women's ward… just to visit an old friend. If you don't mind anyway." I asked carefully. I'm sure he didn't want to stay here.

"Yeah that's fine. Let's go." I smiled. It was nice of him to stay, even though it was quite obvious he didn't want to. I wonder what Dr. Chaucer said to him.

Carter led the way through the door into the women's ward after punching his code and scanning his fingerprint to unlock the door. I wonder if they ever figured out that all you had to do was pull the door really hard and it would open without the code…?

"What brings you in here Carter?" the head nurse, LeAnn asked from her desk where she was going through some files.

"Brought an old friend," he answered. I gave LeAnn a small wave when she looked up. The chubby woman grinned and rose from her chair.

"Lux! Good to see you sweetheart!" She hugged me tightly. It reminded me of the day I left. Of course, it was no secret the two of us had our spats, but she cared about me. I was one of 'her girls'.

"Hi LeAnn," I greeted, hugging her back, not nearly as tight though. "This is my fr-" I began introducing Reid once we broke our embrace, but he cut in.

"Boyfriend. Reid Garwin. Pleasure." What did he just say? I know my mouth must have been gaping slightly and my eyes were wide. Reid kissed LeAnn's hand, then glanced at Carter, before looking at me. I must have looked like a fish out of water, trying to find my voice and ask what the fuck Reid said that for? Is he my boyfriend? If I have to ask myself that… then probably not. But what the fuck?!

Reid just threw a smirk my way and draped his arm around my shoulders, as if he hadn't just said that. "Oh my, Lux. Isn't he charming? And a looker," Le Ann whispered, nudging me in the side with her elbow.

"Yeah…" I muttered, still shocked. I was nearly tackled to the ground by Myra.

"Lux! You came back! Who's that? Where have you been? How come you didn't visit? Got anything for me? When are you coming back?" Myra rushed her words. Oh great. I can't even remember everything she just asked me.

"Hey My. How are you?" I asked the girl, leading her over to a set of chairs. There were two girls on the floor and one on the couch, who I didn't recognize. But I did recognize Emily, who was one of the girls sitting on the couch. The other was a girl named Lila. She was a cutter and bulimic. I was surprised to see her. She had always seemed the most sane. But I noticed the cutters are the ones that usually seem the sanest. They hide behind a mask.

"Good. Great! Great. Great Great…" I shook my head, wanting to sigh, but holding it back. She was smoothing out her hair. Three times on the right, three times on the left. That caused me to decide her OCD hadn't improved much, if at all. "Who is he?" she asked, pointing to Reid.

"Uh… Reid. He goes to school with me," I told her, not quite sure how to introduce him to her.

"Lux, are you sleeping with him?" she asked, rather loudly, causing me to blush. Reid chuckled and came over to us. "You are? He's cute…" she observed.

"Yeah… real cute," I mused sarcastically. "Hold on one second," I said, getting up and going over to Emily. "Hey Bingo, how's things?" I asked. When I started getting better, she began to like me much more. And she liked when I called her Bingo.

The girl grinned and leaned forward from the couch, hugging me. "Is that your boyfriend?" she whispered, giggling like crazy.

"Sort of…" I said. "Hey got you something." I reached into my messenger bag and pulled out a pair of fluffy pink earmuffs with a red heart on each side. "For when you can't decide which one you want to wear."

"Thanks!" she squealed excitedly, discarding the dirty looking red ones she had been wearing onto the floor and putting the new ones on. I smiled, patted her knee and went back over to Myra, giving Lila a small smile. I never had really talked much to Lila. She came when I was about to leave.

"I pulled more from my bag once I got back to Myra, giving her a box of chocolate (with knitting needles stuffed in the side) and a teddy bear (with a zipper in it's back and a thing of yarn stuffed inside as opposed to stuffing). Reid and I stayed and talked for a while. She was interested in hearing about all our friends from school.

"We should head out," I commented, noticing it was nearly six o'clock. We had class tomorrow and I had a little homework.

"What? Why? You just got here!" Myra said frantically, rising from her seat and looking between Reid and I with wide eyes. Not again. Please not again.

"Myra, we've been here for nearly three hours. I have class in the morning," I gently tried to reason with the girl.

"No! Lux! Please don't leave me! Not again! Lux!" the girl started to yell and two nurses ran over to her.

"Myra, calm down. I'll be back. I promise."

"No!" She kicked a chair over trying to wriggle out of the nurse's grasp. My chest hurt a she screamed my name while the nurses struggled to drag her down the hallway.

"Put her into the room! I'm sorry Lux. Maybe you'd better get out of here," LeAnn said, giving me an apologetic smile. I turned on my heel and stormed out of the facility to my car.

"Hey!" Reid yelled from behind me, trying to keep up. "Would you… stop!" I cut him off by slamming my car door after I'd slipped into the driver's seat. I immediately rested my head roughly against the steering wheel and slammed my fist into the dashboard a few times, getting weaker as I did it. I let out a broken sob as Reid climbed into the passenger's seat.

I sat up and dug the heel of my palms into my eyes, hoping to push the tears back into them. It didn't work. Another shaky sob escaped my lips and I pulled my wet hands away from my face, sniffling and wiping them on my pants. This always happens. Every time I come, when its time for me to leave, Myra throws a fit. It's not her fault. She's dependent on me. I'm her best friend.

"You alright?" Reid asked, putting a hand on my shoulder. I shrugged, avoiding looking at him and finding the gas meter quite interesting. "Want me to drive?" he suggested. I nodded and got out of the car, switching sides with Reid. But as our paths crossed around the car, he pulled me into his arms and held me very close to his body. It took me by surprise. This was a whole side of Reid I didn't even know existed.

I began crying hard. "She needs me... but I can't be there with her Reid. I can't stay there. I hated it there," I ranted. "It's so hard to watch that and be able to do anything about it. It hurts so bad…" He shushed me and rubbed my back, kissing the top of my head a few times. Once I'd calmed down I pulled away from him and wiped my eyes. I pecked him on the lips and said, "You're sweet," then walked over to the passengers seat.

"Well… that's a new one," he mused as he got into the drivers side and started the car. I'm not sure if he was serious or not. It'd make sense. Sweet wasn't exactly on the list of things that pop into your head when you think about Reid Garwin unless followed by the word talker.

"So… why did you tell them you were my boyfriend?" I asked after while of driving with just music playing.

Reid just shrugged and continued to look at the rode. "Just letting that Carter guy know."

"But I'm not."

"Aren't you?"

"Am I?"

Reid chuckled. "Look, I don't normally do this. But I'm making an exception for you. Are you or aren't you?"

"Well, thank you for the privilege God's gift to women. I'm honored, really."

You didn't answer the question," he reminded me.

"You have to promise, never to cheat on me, ever Reid. I will fucking kill you."

"I promise, never ever to cheat on you… ever."

"Alright then… I guess so. I'm pretty surprised you still like me after going there," I said honestly. If I were him, that probably would've freaked me out enough to break it off.

"It's not that weird. The shrink and all. I… go to one too. Me and my mom… we have issues." I could tell by the tone of his voice he really didn't want to admit that to me.

"Wow…" I didn't know what else to say. "I had no idea."

"Yeah well… shit happens. She just doesn't get why I'm not like perfect Caleb. We just fight a lot. She thinks counseling helps. All it is though is her announcing every little detail that irritates her about me to some stuffy old bat." He just shrugged it off. Like it was nothing. I could tell though. It bothered him. So, the mighty Reid Garwin does have a heart.

A/N: I hate this chapter. Sorry it took so long to get out.