Authors Note: Sorry I havent updated in a while. Alot has been going on in my life in the past year that I cant begin to explain but just please understand. I still love you guys to death. Hope you enjoy!

Chapter 2

Lacrymosa

Out on your own,
Cold and alone again.
Can this be what you really wanted, baby?

She was somewhere dark. So dark and cold. Emptiness owned her, her dark, shadowed eyes stared down before her. Darkness surrounded her small frame, she had never felt such a feeling before. Silence screamed in her ears. A small puddle lie before her huddled body, a picture of Inuyasha rippled in the water.

"Is this what you died for?"

Kagome just stared forward into the puddle, her eye contact never being broken. "Yes."

"Hmph, you're no better than I, I suppose." the voice laughed at the small girls ignorance. Kagome had been given a life. Life. And she had thrown it away over that pathetic half-demon.

"I suppose not." Kagome muttered, still staring into the water.

He sat in the waiting room, his annoyance growing and becoming evident with the growl that escaped his lips. His mind raced. 'How could she do this to herself. What the fuck was she thinking? How could she put me through this?'


Blame it on me,
Set your guilt free.
Nothing can hold you back now.

Inuyasha glanced at the clock, then the main desk, then a bypassing doctor, anything the avert his gaze from Kagome's mother. The pain her face wore was overwhelming. He couldn't take it, knowing he had been the cause and all.

His gaze fell on a doctor making his way down the hall from the emergency room, the same doctor who had introduced himself earlier as Dr. Totosai, but Inuyasha could not bring himself to stand and hear the news that everyone dreaded.

Dr. Totosai walked up to Ms. Higurashi, his eyes low and saddened, he slowly shook his head as he spoke and a cry of anguish escaped the older womans lips, "No! Not my baby! Why, God, why?!"

Kagome stared at Inuyasha's rippling face in the puddle for what seemed like hours, now that he wasn't there, or rather, she wasn't there with him, she felt okay, like nothing could hurt her ever again. She took slight pride in her suicide, knowing that Inuyasha was feeling pain equal to that which he had caused her.

Now that you're gone,
I feel like myself again.
Grieving the things I can't repair and willing...

Though her facial expression said otherwise, she regreted her decision for the life -or rather death- of her. She wished she could second chance to take it back but she knew that was impossible, She had chosen death over life and now she had to face the consequences, no matter what they may be.

"I have something that may be of use to you." the source of the voice wore a smirk but wore a look a sincerity. Kagome weighed her options; let her weakness show in her curiosity or remain strong and face her death?

"What is it?" Kagome asked, keeping her voice in monotone.

The source of the voice rolled a small object along the floor.

"The Shikon Jewel?" Kagome asked curiously, grabbing for the small jewel.

"Wish yourself alive, I have no use for it anymore."

'Why is this so easy? Is she setting me up?' Kagome thought. "Kikyo, what is this?" she asked, looking up from the jewel to find the preistess gone. She gazed around the darkness; she was alone in the emptiness once again. Her gaze fell back to the jewel. She regreted her decision to die with every ounce of her. She had so many other options she had never contemplated. She missed her family and hated to have put them through such an ordeal.

"What the hell." Kagome whispered and closed her eyes, if there was anything she had ever wanted it was her life and she had made a stupid mistake and now she had the chance to fix it and she would not pass this up, not even for Inuyasha.

To let you blame it on me,
And set your guilt free.
I don't want to hold you back now love.

Dr. Totosai came bursting through the double doors, screaming "Ms. Higurashi!" The trio turned to find him just a few feet away, his voice booming, " She's alive, she's alive!"

"What?" Ms. Higurashi asked, spinning around to face the doctor, "What do you mean?"

"She's alive. she came back." Dr. Totosai smiled, "She wishes to speak to an Inuyasha?"

Ms. Higurashi, overjoyed but still concerned asked, "Are you sure that's a good idea?"

"She insists." Dr. Totosai pleaded, "I tried to explain to her that she needs her rest and that family would be able to visit her within the hour but she just kept asking for Inuyasha."

Ms. Higurashi turned her teary gaze to Inuyasha. it wasn't so much that she disapproved of Inuyasha, though she just knew her daughter had done this to herself over the hanyou. "Well, if she insists."

Inuyasha quickly turned his eyes to Ms. Higurashi in an 'are-you-serious' gaze. The truth was that he was petrified to go into that room. He had never been so shooken up in his life to face anyone. Now all his fear came down to facing the one person he loved the most as he followed the doctor down the hall, through the large double doors, and into the emergency room.

In the emergency room, there were many doctors, many of which whom were running and yelling orders, many of which didn't make the slightest bit of sense to Inuyasha, considering he wasn't a doctor.

He followed the doctor behind a large white curtain where he saw Kagome, lying on a bed, her wrists wrapped in layers of gauze, needles sticking from her arms, all types of wires around her. She turned glassy, emotionless eyes to him and smiled coldly.

As creeped out as Inuyasha was, he tried to smile back with warmth. He could feel his heart beating a mile a minute. "What is this about Kagome? You need you're rest so you can come home to me soon."

"No."

"What?"


I can't change who I am.
Not this time, I won't lie to keep you near me.
And in this short life, there's no time to waste on giving up.
My love wasn't enough.

"Inuyasha, the harder I try to please you..." she trailed off, "It's never enough. All you ever want is Kikyo. She's all you've ever wanted. I can't be her for you. And thus I'll never be good enough for you."

"What are you saying Kagome?"

'He didn't deny it.' Kagome thought, 'That's all the proof I need.' "Inuyasha, I don't want to be with you anymore."

"W-what?" Inuyasha stumbled backwards. The news both shocked and confused him. How could this be? Was she serious? After all they had been through, she was telling him that she didn't want him anymore? "Kagome you don't mean that."

Kagome looked down to the sheets of the bed. Her bangs shadowed her eyes and it was a good thing because by that point tears had started flowing. "Inuyasha, I did this to myself because of you. I can't continue to be with you if all you bring me is pain. It's best this way. Please leave."

Inuyasha could do nothing more than stare at her before taking a few steps backward and jetting out of the hospital room. His entire body felt numb and he felt like he was going to be sick. He couldn't believe this was happening. He couldn't believe she was doing this.


And you can blame it on me,
Just set your guilt free, honey.
I don't want to hold you back now love

Well thats it for this chapter. Really hope you enjoyed! I'll also be updating this story alot more frequently now so you have nothing to worry about. As for my other stories, Im still tryna get back into them so give me some time, kay? Okay.

Later dayz!

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