Disclaimer: To my great regret, I don't own CSI, the Characters or any of the songs mentioned in the story. I do however own all the mistakes.
A/N: Just something I though of one night. Doesn't really fit into any time frame of the series. Hope you enjoy it and please review. Thanks ;) Enjoy.
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Hearing a noise outside, Sara looked out the window to see Grissom's car driving off. What was he doing? She asked opening the door to see if he'd left anything.
Once she'd registered that there was nothing on the floor by the door, she picked up the mail and walked back inside. He was probably just driving by. She thought as she searched through the mail. She flicked through each letter thinking I'll open it later until she reached one that she knew didn't contain a bill. It was written in his had writing.
Dear Sara,
Though I know my apologies are worthless after the pain I've caused you, I must say that I am sorry. There is no justification for my actions. Though I was confused about our relationship and your attitude towards me these past weeks, I should have acted differently. For all it's worth, you should know Heather and I are nothing but friends. You are the only one I ever loved and ever will love.
I understand that you want some time away form me and I will respect that. But please, Sara, I love you and need you and I will do whatever it takes to retrieve your trust and earn your forgiveness.
I expect this won't come as a surprise to you, but as usual, I have chosen others' words to express my feelings.
So, since words and actions aren't enough, I hope these songs will be.
I have enclosed in this envelope a CD with two songs I hope you listen to. They both convey my feelings perfectly and hopefully will let you know just how sorry I am and how lost I fee without you.
Please forgive me, Sara.
Love,
Gil.
Sara read the letter twice, tears streaming down her cheeks. Then, looking back in the envelope, she removed the CD and placed it in the stereo.
The first song was 'Let's Hang On' by the four seasons.
Lying down on the couch, she listened to the lyrics and couldn't help smiling; he was trying.
There
ain't no good in our goodbye-in'
True love takes a lot of
tryin'
Oh, I'm cryin'
Let's hang on to what we got
Don't
let go girl, we got a lot
Got a lot of love between us
Hang on,
hang on, hang on
To what we got
You say you're gonna go
and call it quits
Gonna chuck it all and break our love to
bits
(Breakin' up) I wish you never said it
(Breakin' up) No,
no, we'll both regret it
That little chip 'o diamond on your
hand
Ain't a fortune, baby, but you know it stands
(For your
love) A love to try and bind us
(Such a love) We just can't leave
behind us
Baby (don't you go) Baby (oh no no)
Baby (think it
over and stay)
Let's
hang on to what we got
Don't let go girl, we got a lot
Got a
lot of love between us
Hang on, hang on, hang on
To what we got
There
isn't anything I wouldn't do
I'd go to any price to get in good
with you
(Patch it up) Give me a second turn
(Patch it up)
Don't cool off while I'm burnin'
You got me cryin', dyin' at your
door
Don't shut me out, open your arms for
(Open up) Your arms
I need to hold
(Open up) Your heart, oh girl, I told you
Baby
(don't you go) Baby (oh no no)
Baby (think it over and stay)
Let's
hang on to what we got
Don't let go girl, we got a lot
Got a
lot of love between us
Hang on, hang on, hang on
To what we got
When the song was finished, she could picture Grissom lying in some hotel room, and it made her heart wither. He was really trying.
The second song was 'Can't get used to losing you' by The English Beat and it too made tears flow down Sara's face.
Guess
there's no use in hangin' 'round
Guess I'll get dressed and do the
town
I'll find a crowded avenue
Though it will be empty without
you
I can't get used to losing you
No matter what I try to
do
Gonna live
my whole life through
Loving you
Called up some girl I used
to know
After I heard her say, "Hello."
Couldn't
think of anything to say
Since you're gone it happens every day
I
can't get used to losing you
No matter what I try to do
Gonna
live my whole life through
Loving you
Can't get used to
losing you
No matter what I try to do
Gonna live my whole life
through
Loving you
I'll find somebody wait and see
Who
am I kidding, only me
Cuz no one else could take your place
Guess
that I am just a hopeless case
I can't get used to losing
you
No matter what I try to do
Gonna live my whole life
through
Loving you
Can't get used to losing you
No
matter what I try to do
Gonna live my whole life through
Loving
you
Smiling, she turned off the stereo, I forgive you she thought. However, what she thought and what she was ready to let him know were two very different things.
Picking up a sheet of paper, she began to write a letter to him. She didn't want him to be as depressed as the men in the songs, but she wasn't ready to welcome him back. She needed time.
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"Dr. Grissom" Grissom turned at the receptionist's voice "This was just delivered for you."
"Thanks, Pat." Grissom took the letter and recognizing Sara's writing took it into his office.
Dear Gil,
Thank you for your letter. As much as you hurt me, I don't want those songs to mirror your feelings. It will take time for me to have enough trust in you to fully forgive you. But I understand that I was the one to push you away and I'm sorry for that.
Please don't look for me, I'm in Vegas and I'll be back to work in some months. I just need time to think and be away from you.
Sara.
He read the letter over several times and then crushed it in his hand. It doesn't even say 'love Sara'. He kicked the couch as he stood up just as Catherine entered the room.
"Um…Gil…" She looked at him tentatively.
"What?" He shot out a little too aggressively.
"We have the killer in custody, Warrick's interrogating…but Heather's here and she asked for you."
He gave her a frustrated look but followed her.
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"Grissom." Heather smiled and nodded at him.
Grissom motioned for them to go into a more private room as Greg and Nick passed by looking angrily from one to the other.
"You're upset" Was the first thing she said once inside.
"I…"
"Grissom, you know I can read you better than anyone. You're upset."
"Look, Heather. Yesterday, I…we can't…I can't…" He wasn't sure how to say it couldn't happen again.
"Look, Gil. If what happened yesterday had been about love, it wouldn't have happened like that. I understand that you might not want it to happen again but I hope it doesn't damage our friendship. That would be a great shame."
Grissom sighed of relief; she was saying all the things he wanted to.
"Anyway, I just came by to thank you for solving the case, hopefully it will be the last time we meet under these circumstances, but not the last time we see each other. Take care."
She leaned forward and kissed his cheek before turning back and opening the door. Before exiting, she turned back "I hope you work it out with her."
Grissom barely had time to smile and nod before she was gone.
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