Disclaimer: See Chapter 1, and I don't own Hearbeats by Jose Gonzalez which I mention below, he does.
A/N Thanks to for all my wonderful reviews I love you all. This chappie is dedicated to UFOhelena, freakzoid247 and Laura. Thanks to Shoomie for putting this on faves love you. No Zara, Kate doesn't know he's gay and he's a little reluctant to tell her, more on that later though! I wrote this listening to Jose Gonzalez's Hearbeats on repeat, Its the music from the Sony Bravia TV, the one with the bouncy balls? Well I love it and it may add to the chapter? I don't know, if you want to though you can hear the song on www. myspace. com /josegonzalez (without the spaces) and click on heartbeats. Heres chapter 4, and its got justin POV! Sorry if its a bit angsty!
Justins POV
It was never meant to mean any thing. We just did it because it felt good. It was never, at least for me, to make a statement. It wasn't for anyone else. And I genuinely think that at the beginning it was the same for him. Andrew always gets what he wants. He did what he did 'cos that's what he wanted to do. Pissing of his mom? – that was an added bonus. At first. And it didn't take long before I realised I was starting to fall in love with him. And before I knew it, I was in way over my head. And I've started to wonder if while I was sinking deeper and deeper into him, he was holding his emotions steady and perfectly in control. Finding more pleasure in upsetting his mom than from me. But then I guess I'll never know. Andrews always been so hard to read. But sometimes I lie there wondering. If his mom suddenly was okay with it all, would I be of any interest to him? It's not like I haven't tried to end it. But it always comes back to the fact that I love him, pure and simple. I'd do anything for him. And I'd do anything for him to say he loved me back. But he never will. Because it was never meant to mean any thing, and I know that.
We met outside the mall and wondered around for a while in and out of shops. After a while we decided to go have something to eat. We were sitting down eating, Andrew telling me about the latest in his mother's drinking problem when I noticed the girl I'd seen earlier at Andrew's staring at us. I interrupted him.
'You know that girl that was at yours earlier when I left?' I said leaning in.
'Yeah?' he said with an expression and tone to say "you interrupted me for that?"
'Well she's over there, totally staring' Andrew spun around. Then he turned back around not saying anything. 'Andrew?' I said 'Who is she 'cos now she's smiling and waving us over.'
'She used to be my best mate before she moved to England. Her mom died so now she's moved back to live with her dad'
'Right' I said as I didn't know what else to say. Andrew stood up picking up his tray.
'Well I can't ignore can I?' he said turning around. Reluctantly I picked up my tray and followed him over to where she and who I guess was her dad were seated.
'Hiya' Andrew said as we reached the table
'Hi Andrew this is ma dad' she spoke with a northern English accent
'Hi Mr Sampson. This is my mate Justin' he said indicating me.
'Hi' I put in pretty feebly. The man, Mr Sampson nodded at me. The girl smiled widely at me.
'Hi I'm Kate' she said.
'Sit down' said her dad. We drew up seats and sat down.
She was pretty, not my type obviously. She had light brown hair that was straight and pushed back away from her face. She wasn't over made up just some eye make up to emphasise her eyes and some lip gloss. When she smiled at me her eyes and whole face lit up. She was slim, maybe slightly overweight but it suited her, gave her quite a good figure.
We sat and ate together talking about nothing in particular. Kate and Andrew mainly discussed things that had happened when they were young, with Kate's dad putting something in every now and then. Having not know them back then I felt out of place although I laughed along at the stories and tales and pretended I was enjoying myself. When we finished eating Kate's dad stood up. 'Does anyone want anything else to eat? I'm getting a drink.' I shook my head
'Er thanks but I'd better be going' I said standing up. Andrew threw me a look but I ignored him.
'Ye same here but thanks anyway' he said joining me, reluctantly I expcet. 'I'll see you at school Katie'
'Bye' she said smiling again- she smiles alot- 'Nice to meet you Justin'
'Same to you' I said before we walked away.
We walked out of the mall pretty much in silence. 'You want a lift home?' I asked him when we reached the car park.
'Yeah cheers' we walked to my car. As we reached it he broke the silence. 'What is wrong with you?' he asked
'Nothing' I said defensively
'You've been totally cold since we finished eating'
'It doesn't matter' he looked at me, I couldn't lie to him. 'Its just I kinda thought it'd just be us you know? Not that I don't like Kate she seems really- what?' I asked he was pulling a funny smile at me. 'What?' I asked again. I never got an answer because he leaned in and pinned me against the car bringing his lips to mine, I opened my mouth allowing his tongue in. I could feel him smiling as he kissed me. When he pulled away he looked me in the eyes.
'Forgiven?' he asked knowing the answer. I nodded. There was no other answer to give because I love him and would do anything for him. And he knows it.
A/N I'm sorry. Its too short but I got stuck because... I don't get the American school sytem, It confuses me! If I have any readers from the USA please please can you explain it to me especially what year/grade Andrew and Kate are in if they are 17 and if Justin's one year older is he even at school? I'm confused by it, it comes from living in the UK i think! lol. One other thing I wanted to ask was what do you think of the way I'm doing thoughtiness/flashback etc at the start? I never intened to do it but it just hapened, does it work? Sorry the description of Kate sounds out of place I just wanted to get a description of her in and SORRY again its so short feel free to hate me but please review and explain school to me while you hate me. Update after 5 reviews! Love you all xxx