Manner of Devotion

by DJ Clawson

"Everybody likes to go their own way--to choose their own time and manner of devotion."

Jane Austen, Mansfield Park

Author's Note: And at last, we've come to the end of Gregoire's story. Not that I'll never use him again as a character, but he doesn't overgo a radical transformation again. So I'm betting when you guessed where he would end up after leaving monastery, you didn't think "in an adulterous relationship." If you look up at the quote above, it will probably make more sense to you as to why I chose it to open every chapter. This story, by the way, is not meant to decry the idea of monastic lifestyle. It was a story about dealing with the cards you're dealt, which are not always the ones you want, and making good of it.

The next story is currently untitled, though it's almost ready to go; I'm just bad at titling things. So between me and my beta Brandy, we both feel story 6 is the best one. It just is. The next story is the first one where we see the kids as emerging adults (something I ironically promised I wouldn't do), and begins when Geoffrey and Georgiana are 16 and George Wickham II/III is 17. Obviously a lot of things in this story were laying the groundwork for the personalities of the various children, though they still share the stage with the adults.

If you have questions, email me, leave a reply with your email, or just post it and I'll answer it (to an extent) in the preview for the upcoming story, which I'll post probably sometime next week. I'm in the middle of an intensive publishing course at NYU right now, so when I get out in mid-July, the next story should start going up. Everyone please say "thank you" to Brandy for betaing thing for me and catching all of my horrible typos and inconsistencies. You wouldn't believe how hard it is to keep everyone's ages straight.

For your information, the first two stories have been revised and are sitting on various publishing desks, and I'm hoping for a positive response. So far people have been encouraging but no one's said "yes" yet. No, I am not interested in self-publishing through LuLu or even my own company at this time.

To answer a question I'm pretty sure will be asked, Mugen will not be in the next one, but he will eventually return to the storyline. His presence, however, will certainly be felt.
Chapter 39 - Epilogue

1 Year Later

Abbot Francesco had been composing a reply to the Roman bishop, but he was lost in thought again, as had been often to happen as of late. A product of getting old, he supposed. His wandering mind was focused again as Prior Pullo entered. "Father, there is a priest here to see you. Father O'Banan."

"Father O'Banan?"

"He says he has come a long way. From Ireland."

He nodded, if not in understanding. "Thank you, Brother Prior. Send him in."

The man who entered was all in black, except for his collar. His red hair was not particular contained, and he looked a bit disheveled from his journey, but otherwise was quite composed. "You are Abbot Francesco Chiaramonti?" he asked in Latin.

"I am."

He bowed. "I am Father Michael O'Banan, from Belfast. Please pardon my intrusion."

The abbot gestured for him to sit. "What brings you to Spain, Father O'Banon?"

The priest opened his sack and nervously removed a tiny bound book, which he held almost reverently in his hands. "On behalf of the archbishop of Belfast – and myself, I admit – I've been making inquiries into the author of a series of anonymous editorial columns of an inspirational nature that have been published in the local papers for two years now. They've become so popular that the first set were recently compiled into a book, which is now a bestseller." He set it on the abbot's desk. The abbot opened it, but it was in English. "The author is 'A Poor Sinner.' His real name is Grégoire Bellamont."

That name had never been far from the abbot's mind, even mispronounced through an Irish brogue. He flipped through the book, but his English reading was far worse than the little English he could speak, and it solved no mysteries for him. "Have you met him?"

"I have, in fact. He lives south of Dublin, and despite the fact that he wishes no attention to himself, he did greet me quite warmly." He swallowed. "I understand he was once a brother here."

The abbot closed the book. "He is an excommunicate. It is forbidden to speak of the monk who was dismissed from this abbey."

"So he said. I thought I would try anyway."

The abbot leaned back in his chair. "It is not forbidden to speak of this layman, assuming he has not taken holy orders in secrecy."

"He has not."

"Then how is – Mr. Bellamont?"

Relieved, the priest continued, "He is quite well. He is married, and has a son named after Saint Patrick who is still an infant. As I said, he is not known as a literary celebrity, but locally, he is known as an extremely charitable man. He teaches at an orphanage. Besides writing, that is his primary occupation." He added, "There is something ... strange about meeting him. He never says an ill word, and he is all reverence and joy, but also humility despite his obvious vast scholarship in religion."

"So Grégoire is still as he was, in many ways," the abbot said with a smile. "You cannot fathom what it means to me to hear that he is well. But – he is under investigation for his writings?"

"No. Technically, yes, but it is a matter of curiosity. They are extremely popular, as I have said. Priests and preacher alike are known to use the material for their sermons. He writes of the joy of daily living, the ways to see how Christ and his saints influence our lives – all very positive, which is quite different from the hellfire sort of speeches more common in Britain. But he has written nothing controversial to any church doctrine."

"And he writes – in English?"

"Yes. There was actually a question as to some of his quotes from Latin and Greek texts, as we did not recognize the precise wording, until we realized he was not quoting from direct translations, but using the original text and translating the work himself. Except for the Good Book, where he uses the King James. When I asked him about it, he said he knew it would be blasphemy to do otherwise, and he knows better than to write something to upset the church."

The abbot nodded. "Then he has learned well." He pushed the book back to the priest. "I cannot read English, unfortunately."

"The publisher said there will be a Latin edition next year. He is doing it himself."

"Very good. I would be eager to read such a thing," the abbot said. "So, Father – how can I help you, since you seem to know more about this layman than I?"

The priest hesitated. "Though he discouraged me from doing so, I cannot help but wonder the circumstances surrounding his excommunication from the Benedictines. He will not deny it, but he will not otherwise speak of it."

"Then he has a great deal of tact," he replied. "Grégoire was misused by the church and nearly killed by it – and I do mean that literally. Despite much penance, I have never forgiven myself for the events that led to his excommunication – though, in all truth, it sounds as though it was the right path for him." He stood up and went to his shelves, where he found the scroll he needed, and returned to the desk, unrolling it. "This is my condemnation of his actions and announcement of his excommunication from the order of Saint Benedict. My principle goal upon signing it was not to damn him and encourage penance but to save him from Rome, which was ready to label him a living saint and use him to their own ends. While I have never regretted my actions, they have always weighed heavily on my mind." He rolled it back up. "The precise circumstances of it do not speak well of anyone involved – myself, the bishop, or the Archbishop of Oviedo. However, now that he is delivered into safety, there may not be a need to have a document condemning him. If I am to tear it up, I would like his opinion on it first. You say he lives south of Dublin?"

"Yes," said the priest. "Are you in need of transportation?"

One last journey for one old abbot.

"We should stop here," the priest said, and pulled the horses to a stop in front of a large building not far from the last town on the dirt road, deep in the forests of untamed Ireland. "He may be at work."

The abbot just nodded and took the priest's hand to help him off the gig. He needed a staff to walk, especially on such a long journey, as they approached the building, which looked a bit – but not entirely – like a church. Made of stone and with a wooden roof, it lacked any signs, but it was obvious enough from the chorus of children's voices that it was an orphanage. The abbot was helped to a bench as Priest O'Banon spoke to the local priest in quick English, too quick for the abbot. At last, O'Banon returned to him. "The lesson is almost finished, if we would wait."

Abbot Francesco nodded. "We will wait."

They were offered beer, and accepted to parch their thirsts. Sitting in silence, they could make out some of the speech that was behind the closed door.

"And what letter is this?"

"Jaaaaaaaaaaaay!"

"And what does it stands for?"

The children answered him in their thick brogue, "Jesus Christ, our L-rd an' Savior!"

"Very good," said the teacher, who did not have the same accent. "Now I see it is time. You are all dismissed."

There were some cheers and the children came rushing out, but some of them stopped. "Mr. Gregory, candy!"

"Candy is for saint's days and Sundays, you know that. You'll ruin your teeth if you eat it every day, Miss O'Brien."

After some resistance the last of the children emerged, to be herded by the head of orphanage to the meal room. It was only then that their teacher emerged, and the two guests rose to greet him.

Grégoire Bellamont was not as the abbot expected, but he had not been sure what to expect. The former monk was not dressed like an English gentleman, nor like a priest or a local worker. His brown tunic and belt made him look more like a beggar and the cross around his neck like a pilgrim, and there was a bald spot where his tonsure used to be, but besides that, he was unchanged. He looked healthy, but shocked, and after a momentary stutter, dropped to his knees. "Father Abbot."

The abbot offered his hand so Grégoire could kiss the ring. "Grégoire. It is good to see you."

"But we are forbidden – "

The abbot had already removed from his satchel the scroll, and held it before Grégoire, not waiting for him to recognize it (if he would at all) before tearing it in half. "I would do so not only to try to undo some of the damage that was done to you, but so that I could speak to you once more before I die."

Father O'Banon, who spoke little Spanish and therefore could not understand their conversation, sensed the mood perfectly as Grégoire and the old abbot eagerly embraced.

"My son," the abbot said, kissing Grégoire on the cheek. "It is good to see you well."

"I have you to thank for that," Grégoire responded. "Please, let me invite you to my home. Father O'Banon has told you of my situation?"

"Yes. I am pleased."

It was not a far walk to Grégoire's house, and the abbot shooed Father O'Banon, insisting on walking there himself. "I will catch up with you." The priest nodded and took the gig on the road.

"Come, Father, I believe it is time for Sexts. I end my class just before so I can make it back on time."

Abbot Francesco and Grégoire Bellamont prayed together in the chapel he had added to his manor house, a structure of gothic stone. The abbot was surprised that Grégoire seemed to be keeping the monastic cycle, even if he was under no obligation – nor expected – to do so as a layman. Grégoire did not have stained glass, but someone had painted on the windows, and the paint was thin enough so that light could still come through, giving much the same effect.

"My wife," Grégoire said. "She likes to paint." He pointed to the different windows, all of men with halos. "Saint Patrick, Saint Bede, Saint Benedict, and Saint Sebald."

"Ah, yes, your old patron," the abbot said, referring to Sebald. He did not know a monk so dedicated to the Bavarian saint. He had not even heard the name until Grégoire joined his monastery.

"Dinner should be ready," Grégoire said, "and you have not met my wife – or my son."

"Yes, of course."

They made their way through the side door into the house proper, where the smells of food filled the room leading to the kitchen. At the sound of the door shutting, a woman emerged, wearing an apron over her dress and a scarf over her head. In one well-practiced arm she carried a boy, looking to be about a year old, with brown hair like his father. "I didn' know we 'ad company."

Grégoire kissed his wife with no shame, and took his son from her before turning back to the abbot. "Father, this is my wife, Mrs. Bellamont. Caitlin, this is Father Francesco Chiaramonti, the abbot who saved my life in Spain by ordering me away."

She curtseyed to the abbot, who bowed a little nervously. He had never met a former brother's wife before.

"And this, of course, is Patrick," Grégoire said of his son, who was currently pulling at his hair and babbling incoherently. "Named after the saint who brought me to Caitlin."

"'e believes all t'is stuff, about saints guiding 'im, like they 'ave nothin' else ta do wit t'ere time," she said, her local accent quite distinct. It took all of the abbot's English vocabulary to understand her. "And honestly, I'm startin' ta believe him."

She excused herself to get their meal, and Grégoire guided the abbot to the best chair at the table, grabbing a pillow for his old back.

"G-d bless you," the abbot said.

"Do you wish to hold him?" Grégoire said in Spanish.

He had not expected this. "Yes." How could he say no? Why would he say no? When he was safely seated and comfortable, little Patrick was set carefully into his lap, staring wide-eyed up at the mysterious old man. "Hello, Patrick. You are a sight I never expected to see." His only memories of children came flooding back to him – of the occasional child he had christened, but mainly of holding his younger brother, now the Vicar of Christ, as a newborn. Had his brother been so precious? Had his own father exhibited the same glow of pride that was so clear on Grégoire's face? For a monk, pride was a sin. For a father, surely there was no sin in that. "He is wonderful, Grégoire."

"He is a blessing from G-d."

"Blessin' from G-d what keeps stickin' things in his mouth," Mrs. Bellamont said. Patrick had just grabbed a wooden spoon from the table and shoved it in his mouth, and she moved swiftly to remove it, at which point, he began to cry. "'scuse me, Father."

"Of course."

She lifted Patrick out of his arms and into hers, rocking him into complacency as they sat down to eat. According to Benedictine custom, no one spoke until they were finished, when Grégoire showed the abbot his writing tablet, and some of the Latin translations he was working on. "I would be honored if you – "

"I would love to."

The abbot spent the afternoon going through the Latin translations of the columns, rough drafts though they were. The subject matter would vary, and Grégoire was wise enough to rely heavily on quotes from church fathers rather than making the key points himself, but the undertone was the same. The joy he found in a humble, ordinary life was transmitted perfectly. The arguments ranged from simple to complex, and he had scattered notes about revision in between the lines, but he had apparently found his calling – and an audience. That he believed that his entire life was destined to follow a specific path was reinforced by his attitudes.

As he read, the abbot occasionally looked up and through the window. Young Patrick was still mastering being upright and his father was helping him walk along the shore, the waves lapping at his tiny feet. Grégoire had finally found people to pour his love into – people who deserved it, and not just dead saints.

"My son," he said the next day, when it came time to depart, "can you forgive me for all the ways in which I have wronged you?"

Grégoire smiled. "Considering what the consequences were, I cannot help but thank you, much less forgive you."

"I'm old, Grégoire. And tired. I want to step down as father abbot," he said, continuing despite Grégoire look of surprise, "but I had to move on, and I could not do it without your forgiveness."

"You would be surprised of what you are capable of," Grégoire replied.

They embraced one more time. The gig was ready to go, and the abbot was ready to move on. He left behind his staff, and Grégoire gave him a parting promise to send along the Latin compendium of his works, and his greetings to all the brothers he missed so much. Mrs. Bellamont curtseyed politely to him, and Patrick's goodbye was not verbalized in actual words but with babbling as he flailed his free hand in the abbot's direction.

As the abbot boarded the gig beside Father O'Banon, the priest remarked on the loss of his walking stick.

"In the presence of a saint," he replied, "you find yourself without need for further support."

The End