well...this is the second chapter of Missing!! ..as is obvious cuz u clicked on it...so anyway. here we go.

A/N--still in Sirius's Pov.

I let myself fall into a chair as Remus put a comforting hand on my shoulder.

"Siri..." Remus said softly. Everyone was watching. I could feel them all staring at me. I wanted them to stop, didn't they care what I was going through right now?

"Remus, I don't want to talk about it." I said barely above a whisper.

"You've got to sometime." Remus said. He was trying to comfort me, but I wasn't in the right state of mind. I wanted to be left alone, but everyone kept staring at us. I looked up, my eyes feirce.

"You. This is all your fault." I said to the room at large.

"Siri...come on. It's not anyone's fault." Remus said, he was the only one willing to talk to me.

"It is. All you people were here. You were there when Harry-- You could have stopped it. Some how! Died yourself if you had to! I would have...don't you care about Harry? Everything he's already gone through, and you had to let him--" I couldn't bring myself to say the word, it made it too real.

"Sirius..." Hermione spoke up. "Sirius, he told us not to interfere. Harry did. Told us he didn't want us to risk ourselves for him...he said he didn't want to be responsible for anymore deaths."

What was I going to say to that? I couldn't hold on much longer...a part of me felt like running around as Padfoot, going crazy on every one and everything. But the other part felt like collapsing in on myself. Like crying and not getting out of bed, like forgetting to eat and slowly whithering away...

I felt a tear fall down my cheek and barely stiffled a sob.

"Oh, suck it up." I heard some one say from the corner of the room as Remus put his arm around my shoulders. I looked up to the source.

"Why don't you, Moody?" I retorted.

"We all knew this was his fate, even a stupid dog like you must have. Harry was destined to die, to be killed by Voldemort, since the day his parents were killed." Moody said.

I couldn't think of anything to say. I could say so many things...but didn't know how to put them.

"How--" I choked, still trying to reign in my emotions, it wasn't really working "How could you be so callous?! That may have been his destiny, but we all could have tried harder to stop it!! Harry was like my son...I never cared about anything or anyone more...I-I loved him so much..."

I trialed off, unable to continue. Remus squeezed my shoulder in an encouraging way.

"Well, is it any wonder the blasted boy is dead? Look at who he had for a role model! Some one who can't even handle death." Moody said, he wouldn't leave me alone. I wanted nothing more than to punch the man.

"Shut up." I said, quietly.

Moody smiled in a mallicious way. "Why should I? You know it's true."

"Shut up. I mean it." I began to rise. I saw Mrs. Wealey ushering her children out of the room. Moody just stared at me. I was on my feet. I didn't have a wand, it didn't even occur to me that I didn't know where it was.

Remus was trying to hold me back, but gave up as I flung myself at Moody. Moody stood his ground as I landed a well-placed punch in his stomach. He didn't show any signs of pain as he took out his wand. I wasn't afraid, what else did I have to lose?

Moody swished his wand, using a non-verbal spell. I didn't know what was coming when the curse hit me.

It felt strange, I fell to the ground, feeling arms trying to catch me, hold me up. I could hear people yelling, muffled, as though they were holding pillows over their mouths. I didn't think I was dying. But I had no idea. I didn't even care.

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I opened my eyes. I saw Remus sitting in a chair reading a book. A moan escaped my lips.

"Siri? God, finally. How are you?" Remus said.

"I'm fine." I got out of bed and walked across the room. "Where's everyone? What's going on?"

"Moody's being held captive by the Weasley twins, after Arthur and I turned him into a turtle." Remus cracked a smile. I didn't feel like laughing.

"Why a turtle?"

"It was just what came out." Remus said, sencing the seriousness of my voice.

"Why am I still here?" I asked.

"Sirius, what?" Remus said.

"Why am I here still?" I said, not looking at Remus. "I want to be with Harry."

"Sirius. Please don't talk like that." Remus said.

"But I don't see any reason to be here anymore. I came back for Harry and now he's gone." I said.

Remus looked at me with clouded eyes. I couldn't read his expression. "Remus? Are you alright?"

"No." Remus answered. I waited for him to continue."Sirius...please. I can't stand to hear you talking like that. All I have now is you. No one else is there for me anymore. Since the Department of Mysteries, it's just been me and Harry." I cringed at his name, the wound was still fresh. "I need you." he finished quietly.

I had no idea what to say to that. It was amazing news, knowing some one cared enough to get all worked up over me.

"Remus...are you sure you really mean that? I mean honestly sure." I said.

"Of corse Siri...I mean it." Remus said. "I wouldn't lie about that...I solemnly swear..." He added smiling.

Leave it to Remus. I smiled in spite of my misery.

"Ok, fine, fine. You win. But I have to warn you, I'm not much of a house guest...especially not now.." I said.

"Ok...it's fine, Sirius. I understand. And I don't mind, you should know that..." Remus said.

"Thanks, Moony. It means a lot. Really." I said. Remus smiled. Suddenly a noise in the hall caught our attention. I opened the door to see Fred, George, Ron, and Ginny crowded around something.

"Oops.." Fred said.

"What happened?" Remus asked.

"Nothing..." Ron said. Remus pushed past him.

A pink furry rabit sat on the floor in the middle of the Weasley children.

"Moody?" I asked.

George nodded. "He's gonna hate us..."

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YAY! dedicated to Jemma.