Maximum Ride is property of James Patterson. Kisha, Jamie, Saber, and Deveann are property of ME! Kumali is property of Jwan! But It's Better When We Do is property of Panic! At the Disco. Wonderful is property of Everclear.
I'm listening to Thnks fr th mmrs by Fall Out Boy; it's really good, surprisingly. So then, you'll find Kisha deals with stress in a rather odd way.
Kisha's POV
I bobbed in time to the music in my ears as I chomped down on my Arby's fries.
Isn't this exactly where you like me?
I'm exactly where you like me, you know
Prayin' for love in a lap dance
And paying in naivety
"I need no one." I said between bites. This is how I get over myself, denial, I lie to myself until the numbness edges away. "Wha-" My vision blurred, for a moment I thought that I might have been crying but looked up to see it was raining. I sighed. "No, of course I can't feel it. What would be the fun in satisfaction?"
Kisha, Deveann loves you.
"I know that. Do you think I'm stupid? I had to go." The School was gonna kill me and anyone that stood in their way, I'm too much of a threat.
No, you can take on those guys, so can Jamie. You didn't need to run anymore, they can take care of you-
"Ahsik! Do you think that I can really be taken care of by anybody? Only I know how to handle myself, I'm just a burden to them." I moaned. I supposed that talking to myself must have been a site to see but I knew that someday Ahsik and I would be separated and we wouldn't have to deal with this any longer.
But Deveann…"If he got too attached to me how do you think he'd react when I died? I'm going to die on my twentieth birthday, you and I know that. We need some time to ourselves anyway… I don't need anyone to get by. Company is over rated."
You do, you need the love and acceptance of others and the warmth of your species just as much as anyone else.
"Tch! Warmth?! And how long have I gone without that? And "species," Changelums and humans aren't the same species."
Technically they are. They can breed and produce healthy offspring. Not that that matters, Deveann's a Changelum now anyway. I blushed at her comment.
"I wasn't made to have kids." I said solemnly. My vision blurred again, I was crying this time. If there was one thing in this world I wanted more than Deveann it was a daughter to hold and love the way Max does with her flock. I wanted to be back there with my family but understood that the thought was selfish. "I am a danger to those around me, I'm sorry you're stuck with me no matter what. I really am. I'm going to die soon, if I'm not already dead. For all I know I could be." I touched the tree behind me. "I can't feel myself, much less this world. I could just be a spirit condemned to walk this world in a tortured chase." I stood. I had to keep going if I was going to keep from getting caught by either my friends who would be searching any time now or the Erasers who had no doubt figured out that their friends weren't coming back. The song switched.
"Close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them." I sobbed/sang. This song always made me cry but I loved it so. "I have to keep going, I have to or we'll all die…" I assured myself.
I'm sorry this is so short. I want to make sure you all understand that Kisha's doing this for a good reason, I don't want you hating Kisha or anything. Try to see things from where she stands.