"Shut up! Goddamn it, shut up! Look, fuckhole, I'm behind on the deadline because of your antics and Riku's antics. Shut up and fucking leave! Get out of here! Run to Hiro's fucking arms, or better yet, Ryuichi! I'm sure that fucking J-Pop singer would be more than happy to be with you!"
Never in Shuichi's relationship with Yuki has Yuki ever yelled that much… or that harsh… or that demeaning. What, doesn't Yuki still think Shuichi's head over heels for the Nittle Grasper singer? Is Yuki jealous that Sakuma-san is still chasing after him? Normally Shuichi would squeal with joy because Yuki wants him. But the searing pain in his left cheek that Yuki had just forced on just a few seconds before makes him forget about the definition of joy and cheer and everything Shuichi was.
This is the first time Yuki has ever hit him and meant it.
Riku climbs onto Shuichi's leg, trying to soothe the singer, as Yuki looks on with disbelief. What does Yuki feel regret? The one time he's actually hurt Shuichi with meaning and feeling and with the determination to hurt or to shut up or to disappear, Yuki feels regret? Why not before? When Yuki made Shuichi cry on days on end, when did Yuki feel regret?
Yuki reaches out to hold Shuichi's cheek which is glowing a faint pink. Only from the sight of his own bruise, Shuichi can tell from Yuki's paler than pale face that his lover's heart has fallen to the deepest pocket of the body.
"Hey, S-shuichi… I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done--" Yuki stumbles on Shuichi's name from lack of use. Should Shuichi love someone who can't even say his name when needed?
No.
But Shuichi can't let that happen--he can't let his lover for the first time feel sympathy because yet again, he's hurt him--so he picks Riku up, with tears stinging his eyes, and slowly walks toward the door.
Only, Shuichi well knows he'll come running back to Yuki, or maybe might come after him for a change, like he did in New York. Shuichi will probably run to Hiro or Sakuma-san, like Yuki said, begging for comfort. Then days later, they'll go back to each other, smiling and loving, until they being to hate each other's guts. Well, most likely Yuki would.
However, this time Shuichi will not come back. He will make sure he doesn't.
At least he'll try, because the more Shuichi thinks, the more he wonders if he should love a man who verbally and now physically hurts him, even if he 's so sorrowful right after. Shuichi knows he shouldn't. And to end this cheesy tale, all Shuichi knows is that he can't help it, so maybe he'll go to Sakuma-san's house with Riku, because if he's going to defy gravity, this is it.