Raiting: 14+ maybe...
Couple: hints for KuroFai
Disclaimer: Kuro and Fai still NOT MINE... yeah, and I am very sad about this fact. CLAMP has everything. Currently what I have is my tooth-ache .
Warning: spoiler for currently chapters / ch 159 /, angst, shounen-ai, angst, drama, angst, Fai POV, angst, angst, angst, angst...
A/N: Thank you Kaoru-chan, for proof-reading this piece! I really own to you!
And hope everybody will ehm...enjoy? or just angsting more... anyway, thanks for reading it!

Too Late

What if I don't listen to the things you say?

If I don't care what happened yesterday or the day before that?

If all of my words, my movements were just part of an act?

That my whole being is a shaky citadell built by cards of lie.

I wonder what would you've said?

How would you've looked at me?

If you would've had that knowledge which I kept from you?

Would you

Be

Here?

By my side?

Holding my hand?

I am scared.

I am feeling dread.

I don't want to be a loser!

I don't want to be the last to stand!

I don't want to see you passing away!

I don't want to tie you to myself!

If only we could land on your world tomorrow!

I would wish to you happiness, love, health!

I would wish you everything that you truly deserve!

What you deserve - everything but me!

Hurting.

Burning.

Breaking .

Why were you the one to be fated for this jouney?

Why did we have to meet?

Why won't you stand up and leave me behind?

Teardrops

Stone-cold stare.

A heart bound by chains of pain.

You know I am sanctimonious.

You know that my blossom of life is languishing in the past.

You know that in the future all I can do is hurt you.

Touch.

Whispered words.

Warm glance.

Don't!

Let me go!

Get away from me!

Get away while I still let you!

Dummy, don't look at me like this!

An embrace.

A squeeze.

Longing.

Too late.

If only

If only

If only I wouldn't be me!

I want to tell you!

But I am scared.

I hate myself because of you!

I am scared.

One day you will splinter my tiny, lying, glass heart.

I am scared.

You will discover what I am hiding.

And then

What kind of lie will I recite to you?

Please, help me

Fai.

grrr... let's angst together cause it's more fun than alone XDD