Author Note: Hi, I'm back and I'm late... again, I know it. But hey, I've graduated now and I've been having some trouble with mom's computer and I've been working. Biggest problem, when I was getting to the spelling correction I relized that Words didn't have it anymore because of some annoying reason I've been trying to correct so not to keep you guys waiting I've done my best with the spelling part but I can garante that there will be words that are wrong terms, spelled wrong, used badly and so on. I can't help it right now. Other than problems... I've been getting more and more inspiration lately so I've started to write on a few ideas just for fun and see where it might lead me or even if they can survive. I also have so many things that I want to write on this story that it's driving me crazy when I don't have a pen or papper or time. No telling yet. Thank you EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU. The feedbacks you sent me for the last chapter really warmed my heart. I mean it, I was so moved with how many thought that the last scene was sweet that it brought tears to my eyes. I will keep up the good work to bring you new chapters (still trying not to hit mom's computer). Time is running short, I have to get to bed, have work tomorrow but I hope that you will like this one.

Special thanks to: My three best friends for their support in my daily life. To my wonderful sister that have helped me so much, I don't know what I would do without her. And last but not least all reviewers for your support and kind words.

Ranting: K/T. Somewhere in between. This with rating is really hard.

Pairings: SasuNaru. Shounen-ai. It's very easy, if you for some reason don't like love between two guys then don't read this story. For the rest of you, it's time for some action in the romance section.

Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto.

Please Read, Enjoy and Review. All reviews of encouragement, joy, happiness and constructive criticism are welcome.

Music in My Heart
By Monkan

Part 12

Naruto stared up in shock at Sasuke's face. Sasuke... was... kissing... him? It dawned slowly to him the extence of what was happening to him but he still felt like in a daze. When the kiss ended and Sasuke opened his eyes and finally noticed Naruto staring up at him the boy just realized his mistake. Hands pushed him of the bed and made him crash to the floor where he tried to gather himself but found that he could only star at the other boy.

Naruto scrambled to the other side of the bed and was now staring at him with wide eyes as if he was afraid Sasuke would attack him.

Hurt and feeling rejected Sasuke came back to his senses and stod up. He hide his eyes behind his bangs, not really sure what he should do Sasuke opened his mouth to say something but all words were lost as he saw those deep saphire eyes staring back at him in fear. He hadn't wanted that. He didn't wanted to hurt Naruto in anyway. He never wanted to hurt the other boy but it all seemed like he had now.

"I'm sorry."

Sasuke left without a word the room. He kept walking calmly through the house and out. He didn't think of which way he took just that he needed to escape from whatever he was afraid of.

His own feelings was confusing him. He knew he cared about Naruto very deeply, even loved him and that scared him. He had come to realize it slowly but surely during the time that passed. He had never loved someone like this before and it scared him. These feelings that were so new to him was so intense that it felt like they would rip his heart apart. The kiss in itself had only been a sudden impulse but he didn't regret it. It had felt nice and made his heart flutter in his chest. But what he did think was a mistake was that he had made Naruto hate him. He was even scared of himself. He knew he liked girls from past experience but now he found himself in love with someone of the same gender. How twisted couldn't that get? It didn't make sense. Why now and why with his most precious male friend? Ever since Nuriko hurt him he had been afraid of loving someone ever again. But Naruto had taken all his reasons and made them seem insignificant.

If he could take back the kiss and just stay friends with Naruto he would, if only to be by his side but he also knew that his feelings were running to deep for them to remain friends forever. The more time they spent together, the more Sasuke found himself falling in love. Now, without a doubt... Naruto would hate him. If not hate him he woulnd't be able to look at him the same way again. He would figure out how Sasuke really felt about him, if he hadn't already.

He had never understood those that had fallen in love around him. Not if it was adults or children. He had never understood it because he had always felt the same around everyone he met. He had always thought that his heart was to locked up to ever find out what it ment to love but now he was here. In love and all and he was almost certain that it would remain a hopeless love.

-o-o-o-o-o-

"Your home late." said Itachi when he heard the front door slam shut. When he got no reply he didn't think twice about it but when his little brother walked past him without even aknowledging his existance he knew something was wrong. "Hey?" no response.

'What the... what happened?' Itachi could come up with several scenarious but he doubted any one of them was right. How he hated the age difference between them that made him unable to fully understand what was wrong with his little brother. He knew that one of the curses for siblings was the age difference. Only two years between them it would be enough for them to live oposite lives and this was twice more than two years.

The door to Sasuke's room was closed and left Itachi standing on the other side of it. Now he was really confused. Whatever happened must have...

The name Nuriko popped up in his head but he pushed it aside almost immediatly. If it had been Nuriko's influence Sasuke would be home hidding in a corner, shaking like a leaf. Not looking like he had issues of the hea...rt.

"Oh my."

-o-o-o-o-o-

Naruto didn't understand. Why had Sasuke kissed him? Why? He may have not had so many friends but he knew that kissing was something for lovers or similar terms. They were just friends. FRIENDS!

But... when he looked back on the kiss he found that he didn't hate it. Did it make him strange? If the kiss hadn't ended when it had he somehow knew that he would had kissed back and that frightned him even more. He was getting strange. But Sasuke would never pull of something like that as a joke. He just wouldn't. He wasn't that type of a guy. But what type was he? Did he like him so much he would kiss him.

Naruto thought back on the kiss, his mind suddenly began to make up different kind of acts he became flustered and pushed them aside. He was the strange one. Who would even think about doing that kind of things with his friend? And... some one that could never be... your lover. Not only did they have different outcomes with their lives but they were both guys. If anything that spoke of how wrong that action had been. Sasuke was from a rich and high standing family while he was a blind orphan kid who didn't even go to regular school.

He knew he shouldn't be thinking of it but he couldn't help it. He wouldn't say that he disliked Sasuke. If anything he liked him really much but... loved him? He wasn't sure. He was no stranger to homosexuality and he knew of all the prejustic in society. Their relationship was doomed to fail even before it even began. Just like the book he almost had finished reading.

After the hospital scene the boy and the girls older brother tried to make a relationship work but the consequences were to great. Most of their friends avoided them when the rumours spread. The boy's parents disowned him when they told them. The older boy was framed for sexually abusing one of the female teachers and kicked out of school. The girl tried to support them but the preasure from her parents were to great and they moved her to a boarding school. Their relationship went under a lot of preasure and even one of them was attacked.

It would be the same for them. They wouldn't had to leave town probably but there were few that would understand them and support them against the greater judgment of the town.

Now... he wasn't sure where to go. He and Sasuke couldn't go back to the way things were. In just one moment everything had changed and there was no turning back now. If they did turn back one of them would come to regret it later or simply turn away from their friendship.

From here on and out, there was no easy way and Naruto didn't know which one to take.

-o-o-o-o-

"My theory is that you did something stupid toward your cute little friend Naruto and now regret it so much that you can't even face him after four days." Itachi said as he leaned against the inside of the door in Sasuke's room. How he managed to get in, Sasuke had no idea but that didn't matter for all he wanted now was for him to,

"Get out!"

"Not until you talk to me." Itachi's voice shifted to a cold tune that implied that he wouldn't bulge from where he stood. "I know that Naruto and your heart is part of the matter because you haven't went to see him and you look like you got rejected."

Sasuke couldn't help but flinch and Itachi took notice of it. So he was getting close.

"It's none of your buisness."

"Oh but as your brother it is and I'm not leaving until you tell me."

"Get out."

Itachi said nothing and his silence and refusal to move made Sasuke look up and glare from where he sat curled up on the floor next to his bed. Itachi's eyes softned slightly but no matter how much he wanted to say something sharp he held his tongue for this situation didn't need it. Sasuke turned his head back into his arms and minutes passed without a word, minutes turned to an hour and when it was close to two and a half hour after that Itachi wasn't sure anymore that he would get an answer out of his little brother.

"I..."

Itachi's ears peaked up to catch the small broken sound.

"Naruto..."

A deep breath.

"I kissed him."

That took Itachi by surprise. It WAS one of the things he had thought of but it hadn't been one of the highest on his list.

"Hate me all you want but just get out of here."

A low chuckle echoed in the room. "Would it make any difference if I told you that... I too have been in love with a man?"

Sasuke blinked before rising his head. Itachi went on,

"In my second year of junior high. He was a transfering student and nothing about him was special but I loved him none the less." he paused to let his words sink into his brother. "Back then I wasn't really a little angel. Skipping classes, getting into fights, smoking, staying out late... the usual. But when he came it all changed. I thought that maybe I should think more about the future than about the rotten present. I started to hang out with him. I've had had countless girls, both younger and older than me at my side but none of them made me feel like that. We became best friends but I never told him how I felt."

"...Where is he now?"

Itachi's lips curled into a bittersweet smile. "He transfered again. But my point is... If you don't do things right or at least talk with him it will be ater when you regret it."

Even if Sasuke was scared of getting rejected again the thought of losing Naruto completely was something that hurt even more.

"Maybe you are right."

"I'm always right." Itachi knew that he didn't have to stick around any longer, he had done his part and it was only Sasuke himself that could decide what to do next.

'Never told him. Transfered again, huh! Who am I kidding?'

-o-o-o-o-

"Naruto!" Iruka's voice called through the door before he entered. "Phone for you."

The blond boy took the phone with a small thanks and Iruka left him alone.

"Hello?"

"...It's me."

"...Sasuke."

"... we need to talk...about what happened."

"...all right."

"...good..."

"... where?...when?"

"..Itachi is coming to pick you up. I rather that we talk at my place."

"..ok!"

"...See you then?"

"... yeah."

"bye."

"bye."

A few minutes later Itachi came and picked Naruto up and took him to their house. After that he took of, saying he was meeting someone.

Through his clouded eyesight Naruto saw the big brown wooden door that lead into the Uchiha household. He knew he still had the chance to turn around and something inside of him didn't want to have this talk. But he also knew that he couldn't, shouldn't run away from it. He raised his hand to knock on the door when it opened before he even had the chance.

Sasuke's blurry face greeted him and Naruto didn't know if he should be disaponted or happy.

"Come in." Sasuke said as he stepped aside. Naruto stepped forward but he missed the carpet that somehow had folded itself and made a silly but efficent little trap. Naruto's foot caught on the material and without much eyesight he lost his balance. He was prepared to met the floor but he never reached it. Arms had caught him and held him close to a chest and the musky but sweet smell that he knew came from Sasuke assulted his nose.

"You ok?" he heard soft words whisper into his ear.

"Yeah." Naruto muttered as he stood up but Sasuke still didn't let go of his hand. Without even asking Sasuke lead Naruto into the common room and sat him down on the couch.

This was feeling really awkward. Sasuke had so much to say and he didn't know where to begin. He could also see that Naruto was nervous and that didn't help his poor state of mind.

"Um..." he started, "I want to say that what I did to you... I'm sorry." the air around them seemed to fill with more tension. He saw Naruto fiddle with his hands, Naruto never fiddled with his hands. He was even refusing to look at him, if that was possible. "But I won't say I'm sorry for the kiss."

Sasuke knew he had Naruto's full attention now by how he flinched a little and the air around them seem to lighten up from the tension that binded them earlier. So he went on,

"Naruto, you are my most precious. When the accident on the ice occured I was scared to death. I thought that I would lose you and that thought scared the hell out of me." he looked almost shyly at Naruto's face. "My feelings for you changed slowly over time so I didn't notice at first but now I can't look away and not after the... kiss." he felt himself blushing. "I won't give you a long speach about this because even I don't fully understand it but there is one thing I want to say to you." Sasuke walked forward until he was standing in front of the other boy and he crouched down so he could look Naruto in his eyes. "I love you."

Naruto took a deep breath to steady himself from faltering at this confession. Sasuke took it as something else.

"Look, I know that this is a shock for you but it was also so for me when I realized I loved you. I-I'm not used to these situations. The last time I said those words it--" a dark flashback went through Sasuke's mind and he shook it to get rid of it. "Let's just say that it didn't go well and after that I was scared to fall in love. I'm not asking you to accept my feelings but I don't want you to look away from them. I'm not denying that they aren't there and I doubt that they will simply go away. I gave this long thought and no matter how I look at it there are few roads left for me to go from here and that is something else that scares me. There are so many things that I'm afraid of that I don't know what to do sometimes. I'm scared that you will hate me and never want to see me again. I'm truly scared."

Sasuke stopped his rambling for a second and took deep slow breaths to get the air back into his lungs.

Naruto looked into Sasuke eyes and at this close distance he could see the insecurity and fear in his eyes. But something was for sure, Sasuke wasn't the only one that was scared. He was scared too.

"...I... don't hate you." a light of hope entered Sasuke dark eyes. "but I don't love you the way you love me." the light faded slightly. "I know that I... really really like you. I don't know if that means I love you but... I didn't hate your kiss. I don't know how my feelings will change but I know that I don't want to lose you."

Hope returned once again to Sasuke's eyes slowly but surely. "Does that mean..."

"I won't say that I love you but... maybe one day I will and until then--"

Naruto didn't get to finish his words for Sasuke hugged him tightly. He didn't need to hear the rest for he already knew what they were about. It may not be a relationship that he hoped for but at least he knew that if Naruto 'really really liked him' then there was a good chance those feelings might turn into love one day. He had a new goal, no matter how long it takes or until Naruto didn't even like him anymore he would do anything he could to make the other boy fall in love with him.

Until then... they might as well give a relationship a chance.

Their relationship.

To Be Continued.