I want to say that I am so sorry that I did not update yesterday. I got some kind of food poisoning or something late Saturday night. I went to a fast food place with friends and when I got home I started feeling very strange. Anyway, I wasn't in any shape to get to a computer. Please forgive me. I am feeling much better now.

Okay, so here's the chapter that I used in my other story "Coming Back To You" after he proposes on the Space Needle. Honestly, I like how it turned out in the other story better than this one, but oh well.

Recap: Bella was boarding a plane back to Forks and she got an e-mail from Edward right before she left saying he would be there waiting.

I wanted to put the words to a simple song here that fits her heading back to Forks perfectly. It fits the very end of the last chapter too when she is waiting for the plane and it's raining. When I wrote this story back in February, this song inspired me. It is "Ordinary World" by Katharine McPhee. Every time I hear the piano part at the beginning, I picture her staring out the window of the plane as it takes off. I did change one word from "you" to "I" in the first stanza.

The sun has forgotten how to shine,

And the colors all have faded into shades of gray,

There's no rhyme, in this hollow heart of mine,

Ever since I went away.

Close your eyes and feel me hold you,

Can you lead me through this ordinary world?

Let the sky run restless rain,

To wash away the miles between us,

Cause without you, it's just an ordinary world.

If time could find a way to turn around,

I would walk along the stars

Till I was back at your door.

Every word spoken but without a sound,

And I found out what my heart was for.

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There was so much for me to think about, but I slept all the way to Seattle. I think the fact that I was finally on my way back to Edward made my body relax. I had been on edge and nervous ever since our last phone call, and of course there were my dreams and visitations keeping me awake. It had been a long two weeks.

When I got off the plane, I went to the ticket counter. I had not been able to get a flight on-line to Port Angeles. As luck would have it, there was one more flight leaving that day. I bought one of the last seats, but it was leaving in fifteen minutes. I asked the lady to alert them I was on my way and then I raced through the airport to the gates with the smaller planes. I was clumsy enough when I was just walking through the airport with my suitcase, when I had to run, it was much more difficult. I am pretty sure I badly injured one man when my suitcase rammed into his leg, but I just kept running as I turned my head back yelling, "Sorry!" I made the plane wait for me for a few minutes. I breathlessly plopped down in my seat and settled in for the hour flight.

By the time I got out of the Port Angeles Airport, it was after midnight. I wanted to just drive right back to Edward, but I knew that by the time I got a rental car and started on my way it would be around two or three in the morning when I finally reached him. And even though I slept from Chicago to Seattle, I was exhausted. I needed rest for my big day tomorrow, so I found a hotel room.

The next morning, after a good night's sleep without one dream or visitor from the past, I was ready to see Edward. I did my hair just like the girl at the hair salon did it, and I put on the blue sundress Renee had bought me. I even still had a slight tan from laying on the beach for three days.

I purposely did not let my parents know I was on my way to Forks. Renee still thought I was in Chicago, and I hadn't really kept in touch with Charlie while I was gone. I could have had Charlie or Edward meet me in Port Angeles, but I rented a car so I could drive back in silence and use that time to think. As I paid for the car, I tried to ignore the dent this trip had made in my college savings.

When I drove out of town, I passed the Italian Restaurant, La Bella Italia, where Edward had taken me the night I told him I knew he was a vampire.

So much had happened since then. That night, on the drive home, I had been so afraid that I was falling deeper and deeper in love with someone who could never love me in the same way. How could I ever even imagine that someone like Edward could love me? That night, he began pushing me away, telling me how dangerous he was, telling me it should matter very much to me that he was a vampire. He seemed so upset that I obviously cared so much for him.

I closed my eyes. I needed Edward in my life as much as I needed air to breathe. Miraculously, he seemed to feel the same. I prayed that after today, he would no longer push me away, that he would see that he was so much more, so much better, than he thought he was.

I went over and over in my mind what I planned to say to him. My heart pounded harder with every mile. The surroundings gradually became more lush and green and I laughed at how this calmed me. I used to hate this wet, dense greenness all around me, now it was home.

I didn't stop at my house. If Charlie didn't know I was home, that would give me the freedom to stay with Edward much longer, maybe even until tomorrow! I knew this was definitely a unique opportunity for Edward and I to be together. Being with Edward that long without any interruption made me almost giddy.

As I pulled in front of the Cullen house, I smiled. It looked absolutely beautiful. Esme's flowers were everywhere. I wondered how many of these flowers Edward had planted. I stopped the car and got out. I became very anxious when he didn't come to meet me. Was he still planning to push me away?

I went to the door and Esme answered. She looked surprised to see me, and then gave me a loving hug.

"We did not expect you so soon," she said. She guided me inside and then answered what was to obviously be my next question. "Emmett and Jasper took him hunting last night. He was pacing the floor until after 3:00 a.m. They'd had enough." She laughed again retelling the story. "They each grabbed an arm and said they would be home about 11:00 a.m. this morning." I glanced at my watch and my heart palpitations began all over again. He would be here within the hour.

Esme could sense my anxiety and she said, "Bella, the back yard is so lovely this time of year, would you like to sit and talk with me in my favorite spot?"

I gratefully smiled and nodded my head.

Esme grabbed a blanket from a window seat and we headed out the back door. I stood there in surprise. The back yard looked magical. I felt like a fairy princess stepping into an enchanted garden. Every flower, every tree was blooming. It was breathtaking.

"Did you plant all of this?" I asked wondrously.

She smiled her widest smile and said, "Edward helped me plant all of this. He has tended this garden like a mother hen." She laughed and said, "When he wasn't helping with the greenhouse, he was with me. I had no idea that your leaving would release so much penned up energy in my son."

I stared out. Even as a vampire I would think they would have had to work day and night on this without rest. We walked down the large steps and the flower garden gradually opened into lush green grass. She guided me to a beautiful ancient tree that seemed to envelop you as you stepped underneath it. It was just feet from the slow moving river. I had been in the backyard before, but I had never walked under this tree.

Esme spread out the blanket and sat down. I sat to the side of her and we looked out at the river. The weather was just how I liked it. The clouds were thick, but for now there was no threat of rain. The air was warm and calm, with just a small breeze. I could see a portion of the greenhouse as it wrapped around the other side of the house.

"Will you show me the greenhouse?" I asked. Esme smiled at me and said, "I will let Edward show you." Her forehead knit into concern as she said, "Bella, that was a very heavy question you asked me a few days ago. Do you know what you plan to do about it?"

"Esme," I said thoughtfully, "I can only answer this way. If Carlisle had been able to talk to you before he changed you and given you a choice, what would you have chosen?"

She thought for a moment then answered, "Carlisle asked me that shortly after we fell in love. I'll give you the answer I gave him. At first, I was scared. I knew nothing of this life. Plus, I had the added complication of just losing a child and committing suicide. I was very confused. I went from not wanting to live at all, to suddenly living forever. After the change, I was overcome by urges I didn't understand. But, Carlisle was always there, patient and loving. He became my life and I love him without measure. He has given me my every wish. Even a family." Esme looked at me with that last line.

She continued. "I am thankful I was not given a choice. I would have chosen not to be changed, but oh, I am grateful everyday that I was."

I smiled at her. She was definitely more poetic than I was. "I feel the same way about Edward that you feel about Carlisle," I said.

She smiled and nodded her head, "I know. You love him a great deal. For that I am so grateful."

I looked at her and realized that was just what Elizabeth had said to me in my dream, that I loved him a great deal. Esme did love him just as a mother would.

We talked and laughed for a while then all of a sudden she perked up and smiled at me and said, "He's here."

I sucked in a large amount of air. I searched frantically around the house for his face. Esme stood up and said, "You stay right here. I'll guide him out the back door." Then she was gone.

Suddenly, the back door swung wildly and I just had time to stand up and then he was there. His face had been never been out of my mind, but his beauty took my breath away. His hair was blowing slightly in the breeze. He got about fifteen feet in front of me and then he stopped. I realized he wasn't sure what he should do. I did.

I ran and jumped into his arms and I heard his musical laugh as he swung me around. He didn't let go of me. He held me as close as he could. How could I have been away from this dream for so long?

He buried his face in my neck and said, "You came back."

I didn't say anything, all I could do was take in the scent of him. His face was still in my neck when he said, "I can hear my family, they are so glad you're back. They couldn't take one more day of me without you."

He was still holding me up. I released my stranglehold on his neck and looked down at him and said, "They will never have to go through it again."

He stared up at me and didn't say anything. I smiled and kissed his nose and he gave me that crooked smile I would walk through a desert to see. We were both so happy to be together again.

His strong arms could have held me up like that for days, but finally I said, "Let's go sit on the blanket and talk."

He let me down gently and took my hand and led me to the blanket.

Before we sat down he held me at arms length and looked at me. "You are more beautiful than when you left," he said breathlessly. He ran his fingers through my hair and said, "I like your hair very much." He pulled me closer to him and said, "This color on you is so lovely, and. . .your skin is darker." When he said this, he kissed my shoulder. His cold lips on my shoulder were intoxicating.

I somehow got out the words, "I did a lot of my thinking on the beach."

He sat down and pulled me into his lap, then he took my wrist and held it up to his face as he inhaled deeply. His eyes closed for a time and it gave me a chance to look at his beautiful face without him knowing. I kissed him on the chin then I buried my face in his neck. He rocked me gently as we sat in silence for several minutes. Finally, I took a big breath. I had been rehearsing this speech, now was the big moment.

Just as I opened my mouth to speak, Edward said, "Bella, I am sorry about the way that I said good-bye in our last conversation. I told you that there were things about my past. . ."

I put my hand on his mouth and said, "I do want to talk about that, but first, I need to tell you about the decisions I made while I was gone."

He began to protest but I said, "Edward, I have been preparing what I want to say, and I need to get it out, so for the next few minutes I need you to hold your comments. You can say whatever you want to at the end, okay?"

It was his turn to take a big breath, and then he got a resigned look on his face and said, "Okay."

I began, "As you know, I was very confused when I left. I knew I loved you, and wanted only you, but other than that, I didn't know what I wanted the next step in my life to be. All my life I had wanted certain things and then, after knowing you," I looked up at him. He was staring out over the river, "All those wants changed."

"I didn't know how I could have all the things in my life I had always dreamed about. There were going to have to be sacrifices, of that I was sure." I stole a quick glance at him. He hadn't moved an inch but his eyes were closed.

I kept on with my speech. "After a few days of solitude I realized that I had been thinking about this all wrong. All I had to do was figure out in my heart what was most important to me. What were the gifts I wanted in my life that I could never do without. Once I figured that out, the rest was easy."

I was so passionate about what I was saying that I climbed out of his lap and sat facing him. My eyes were alight with my enthusiasm, but his were guarded. He raised his eyebrows to urge me on.

I grabbed his hands in mine and continued, "Edward, there are some things I will need in my life. I need to tell to you what they are, and then I need to ask you a question."

I looked deep into his eyes and said, "The first of these that I will need in my life is true love." I reached up to touch his cheek and he leaned into my hand. "Now that I have had it, I can't ever be without it again."

"You have it," he whispered.

"Thank you," I smiled at him. "But, I need you to be quiet until I'm done." I kissed his forehead and he gave me my crooked smile again. I held his hands up tight to my chest and went on.

"The second is trust. I need to know that you will always be with me, not out of obligation but because I am your true love."

"I need assurance that you will be patient with me and love me even though I might pout or get angry now and then. I need you to grab my hand if I fall, and not get upset if I am not as brilliant or wonderful as you."

"I need you to hold me tight when I am afraid and don't know if I can handle things."

"I need adventure. I want to try new things and see places I have only dreamed about."

"I need family. I need to have contact with the people whom I have loved all my life."

"I need to be able to go after my dreams. I know that if I work hard enough I can make the things I want happen."

This last one was going to be embarrassing, but I had to say it. I leaned in and touched his forehead to mine. "And Edward, I want to be married to you and be. . .with you." I felt his intake of breath. I talked with more emotion, "Every time I kiss you, every time I'm close to you I feel it more and more. I can't go the rest of my life just kissing you. Someday I want to be. . . closer to you."

It was time to ask the question, "Edward, can you give these things to me?"

He swallowed hard. He was breathing harder as he brought his hands up to my face and pulled me back to meet his eyes. We were inches apart. His topaz eyes had love, happiness, passion, and longing all in one look. "Yes Bella," he answered huskily, "I can. I have dreamed about being the one who could give all those things to you."

Here it was. The last thing I had to ask. "Then please Edward, please make me a vampire."

I heard a sorrowful groan from deep in his chest and he lowered his head into his hands. My heart sank. I was hoping for a different reaction, but I was prepared for this.

"Edward," I began, "All those things I want in my life, that you said you would give me can't happen unless you change me. If I could turn back time to before I met you, I would come straight back to you. You seem to think you have done me some horrible wrong by loving me, it could not be farther from the truth."

I was getting a little bolder now. "You seem to think that my life is so much better than what you could give me. Human life is great, but it is also fragile and vulnerable. There is sickness and death, you should know that better than anyone."

I grabbed his arms. His face was still buried in his hands. He looked up at me and said, "Bella, it is for the best that you stay human. I will not have you live this life."

I let out an exasperated sigh and said, "Edward, without you this is just an ordinary world, and I can't go back to ordinary. Won't you please take my hand and lead me through your world. Would you be patient with me and teach me everything you know. Would you help me? Edward, I want to run beside you, I want to hold you tight and have you feel it."

He looked at me with earnest eyes and said, "I feel you every time you touch me."

He shook his head and said, "All those things you said you needed in your life I can give you as a human."

"No Edward," I shook my head slowly, "You can't."

I was hoping I would not have to go to this place, but I had thought this through too.

"Edward," I said, "I know you think this is the solution, I'm telling you it is not. It would work for a while, but I am going to get older. I'm guessing we have a good five years left that we could go places together, and then," I shook my head at him. "Do you want me to only be able to come out at night to be with you?"

He started to speak, but I was not anywhere close to finished with this argument. "As I grow older I know how I'll handle it no matter how much you say you love me." I was so angry I had to stand up. "I will become obsessed with looking younger. I will hate the way I look. You will still be this beautiful angel. . ." I wrapped my arms around my middle. "Eventually, no matter what I do I will be very old."

I turned and faced the river. "Edward, this is only if I have good health. I could get really sick when I'm 45 and it will all be over with so much sooner than we'd hoped."

I turned back to face him, "Edward," He had been avoiding my gaze. Now I made him look at me. "What if I end up in a wheelchair? What if I end up with a lingering illness and it drags out for months and months and I am in horrible pain?"

Edward's face twisted in agony. He whispered, "I don't know."

I made him look at me again. "I know." My voice was choking back tears. I would not let him see me weak about this. "When it gets to the point that I'm old, sick, or feeble. . . I'll leave." His head snapped up. I started to back away as I said, "I'll go so far away that Alice won't even know where I am and when I die you won't even know it! I'll die alone and. . ." He jumped up and yelled, "Stop."

He ran to me and grabbed my arms and held them in front of me. His eyes were crazed and he whispered again, "Please stop it."

I made myself look determined. He had to know how bad this life would be that he wanted to sentence me to. I could not live with him as a human. I knew that now more than ever. I didn't know what else I could say.

I looked into his face. He was so angry and he looked as determined as I did. My doubts came out. "Edward, is it because you are only attracted to me if I'm human? Will my scent go away if you change me? You love to listen to my heartbeat, and you love my warm skin and. . ."

"No! No!" He dropped my arms and was wandering around with his head in his hands. He stopped nowhere in particular and stared out at nothing.

"Bella," His voice was the most velvet sounding I'd ever heard it. "I wasn't completely truthful about when I told you what I do when I watch you sleep. There is one more thing I do." He came back to me and laid his hand on the side of my face and whispered, "I dream of you being . . . like me."

There, he'd said it. My heart all but leaped out of me. I didn't dare move. I was afraid to break the spell and I needed him to keep talking, Oh please keep talking this way was all I could think.

Edward touched his forehead to mine, "Sometimes I do dream of you being a vampire. I would love you just as much as now. That would never change." Something ran through his thoughts and broke the spell. He straightened and moved back from me. He dropped his hands from my face as he shook his head saying, "You deserve more, and I'm not worth it."

He stared at me and I assume he thought I would be upset, but instead he saw a calm smile on my face. He seemed confused by my reaction. I said, "You were thinking about your past and your lost soul weren't you?"

He didn't answer, he just kept staring at me.

I calmly walked toward him and laid my hand on his cheek. "I haven't told you everything that happened while I was away. The first half I made my decisions." I laughed lightly and looked in his eyes. "Edward, I was ready to come home after the first week. Now, I am going to tell you what happened after that."

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Tomorrow is the last chapter and epilogue. It is long. It is like 7, 000 words. Please, if you want, tell me what you think. Have a great day!