Hey everyone! I have had a little bit of writer's block this past weekend...but I think you will like this chapter. It is my first attempt to write from Edward's point of view, so don't be too harsh! Again please give props to my beta Monkey-en-TuTu, without her my sentences would run together and I wouldn't have any commas. Mahalo nui loa!(for those of you who can't read Hawaiian it means, thank you very much). I dedicate this chapter to Henry Cavill, who will forever be my Edward. Stephenie Meyer made a statement on her website that he is now too old (24yrs old) to be Edward, but she thinks he could play Carlisle. Hopefully we will see Mr. Cavill as a vampire soon!

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Chapter Eight

Deliberation

EPOV

My eyes are betraying me, the love of my life is in another mans arms, a man we both hate. He just asked her to be his, what is she waiting for to say no. She will say no, right? She seems to be thinking about her answer. I try to push my thoughts into her mind, screaming No, no, no! But she doesn't say no, instead she says yes, and now she is kissing him.

My dead heart crumpled. A forceful growl escaped my lungs. "No! Bella how could you?" I feel like my soul is being ripped to shreds. I have to get away from here, I can't even look at her. How could she? I thought she loved me, I thought we loved each other, how could I be so stupid? I turned and ran as fast as I could, she couldn't catch up with me and I wouldn't let her.

I can hear her screaming my name behind me, I push harder I can't see her like this. Edward don't go, she doesn't love him she loves you. Stop this you are over reacting. Alice keeps screaming at me in her thoughts. I am off the castle grounds now, still running, far away from both of them, their voices have faded.

I ran for what felt like days, not knowing where I was going. It was already getting dark again and the moon was peeking out from the night clouds. I came to an open meadow and collapsed on the grassy surface. Breathing erratically, I leaned over my legs trying to calm myself. My mind was replaying the events of the night, everything from our private moments in Bella's room to seeing her kiss Drake. How could I be so blind not to see this would happen? He is a prince she is a princess, they are meant to be. Isn't that how fairytales go? But she told me she loved me and I could see it in her eyes and in the way she smiled. Oh Bella, why did this happen to us?

I was sulking and I knew it, I wanted to be left alone to wallow in my own stupidity. Did I trust her too soon, or did I trust myself too soon? I allowed my mind to remember her lips, her smile, and her beautiful brown eyes staring back at me. She is the one I have been wishing for, there is no other. But if this is all true, why did Bella willingly dance with him? She could have refused; she refused Felix many times, what made Drake so special? The earth around me looked like a mole had been there. I was so deep in thought I didn't notice I was tearing up chunk after chunk of grass.

The sun was beginning to rise. I could see it behind the trees peeking through the branches. I must have been far from anyone living because not one thought passed through my head but my own. I tried to block out even my thoughts I didn't want to think of anything, especially Bella. Then I heard footsteps behind me.

Alice had found me. She must have been concentrating hard because she tripped over me when she stepped into the meadow.

"Ouch!" she hissed. "What are you doing on the ground Edward? You're going to get all dirty."

I stifled back a chuckle, "What are you doing following me?" I raised an eyebrow at her waiting for an answer.

"Please, like you don't know. I am here to make sure you don't do anything stupid." She said with her hands on her hips. "We have to get back to the castle before the sun gets any higher. This is so absurd, even for you."

"I can't go back to the castle; I'll be a laughing stock." My voice was weak with sorrow. "Plus she already made her choice and it wasn't me."

Alice stood up taking me with her. "Are you serious? Did you not hear her screaming for you as she ran after you last night? If she'd really chosen Drake, she wouldn't have tried to stop you."

I tried to say something but Alice just gripped my shirt tighter. "Edward, she loves you. What you saw between her and Drake was all part of his plan. He knew he could use his power of persuasion to lure her in. He wanted you to see it all so you'd run, and you did just what he thought. You ran away leaving Bella alone and vulnerable."

"Vulnerable? I left her vulnerable? I don't think so. You are the one who left us both vulnerable. You said that everything would be fine that you only saw happiness in our future. You didn't say Drake would try to hypnotize my fiancé and take her away from me." I was seething now; I kept poking my finger at Alice. I could see her face twist into a fury.

"How dare you Edward Cullen! Don't you even start blaming me! If it weren't for me, you would have never had a chance with Bella." She was waving her finger around in my face. "And you know I can't see everything clearly all the time, I don't have control over other people's actions."

I knew she was right I just hated admitting that she was. Alice would never let this one down. There was really no other choice if I really loved Bella and wanted her for eternity, I had to go back and fight for her. "I will return with you Alice. But, I don't want Bella to know until I see her myself."

Alice just nodded in reply and took my hand, she eyed me up and down, must be taking in my filthy appearance. "First you must hunt, your eyes are black, and you don't want to be weak when you take on Drake." Alice was right again, I needed to feed before I lost all control.

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BPOV

"He told me he loved me Rose. How could he just run away like this? It was all just a misunderstanding, why couldn't he see that?" I was dry sobbing again. Rosalie and Sophie came to comfort me when Alice left this afternoon.

"I told you he is just being an idiot. All men are like this, I remember once when Emmett caught me flirting with another guy. He totally flipped and ran off pouting like a big baby. We didn't talk for like 3 days until he came crawling back, begging and pleading that he was sorry. See? You have nothing to worry about, Edward will come back asking for your forgiveness, they all do." Rosalie was so sure of herself.

I just stared at her in disbelief. I could never see Edward begging for anything. I had already lost all hope when he kept running. He didn't even look back once. I knew he didn't really love me, it had all happened too fast, too easily. I am a silly child, no, better yet, a delusional child. Sophie was tracing little circles into my back, something she used to do when I was younger to make me feel better. "Thank you Sophie," she just smiled back at me.

"Well you need to get ready for these evenings festivities," Rose said as she opened the door to my armoire.

I hid my head under my pillow. "I'm not going; you can tell my parents how sorry I am not to attend." Rosalie and Sophie looked at me like I was speaking Chinese.

"Oh Princess, I cannot tell your parents this. You have to come your father has been worried sick about you all day. And I promised him you'd come tonight." Sophie was on the verge of having a panic attack.

I hid further under the blankets. "Well too bad you made a false promise, because I am not going." I sounded so muffled this time I could barley understand me myself.

It was Rosalie who spoke this time. "Are you crazy? Your dad will be furious with us. I am not telling him, she can." She said as she pointed at Sophie.

Sophie gasped, "No, no, no I will not tell his Lord. You get up right now you are going if I have to force you."

I was up against the wall now trying to push them away from me. "I am sorry I will not be attending tonight. You can't force me, if Edward isn't going, neither am I. If I must I will tell my father myself." I crossed my arms to show I meant every word. It was enough for the both of them I guess because they looked at each other and quickly ran out of the room. I threw pillows at them with my mind and yelled after them "Chickens!"

About a half hour later there was a knock on my door. "Bella, may I come in?" His voice was light and airy he must be in a good mood. Thankfully I won't have to lie my way out of this one.

"Yes father, you may," I almost choked on my words, great he will know I am up to something now.

He gave me a sweet smile and sat next to me on the bed. "Darling, I have been informed that you will not be joining us tonight. Is this right?" He never looked away waiting for my reply.

"I can't dad. I have embarrassed myself and Edward. I won't let them talk about us like that and I don't want to see Drake if I can help it." I could feel my throat catching. I was on the verge of more dry tears.

Suddenly I felt my father's big hands around my shoulders. He pulled me in to a soft hug. "Oh Bella, you shouldn't worry about what others say. You have nothing to worry about. And it is Drake who should be worried about embarrassment. He tried to trick you into loving him, which was low even for him."

"I still don't feel like going tonight dad. I just want to be alone for a little while. I have a lot to think about you know?" I gave him my best puppy dog eyes.

"Alright, I will let you have one night. If Edward doesn't come back by tomorrow evening you will be expected to attend regardless. We only have a few more nights here in Volterra you don't want to be rude. Do I make myself clear?" His voice was full of love even when he tried to sound tough.

"I understand daddy." I nodded "Thank you."

He placed a gentle kiss on my forehead and got up to leave the room. He reached for the doorknob and turned to wish me a good night. "He will come back my sweet, just be patient. I love you, good night." With that he closed the door before I could say anything back.

I lay back in bed pondering my father's last words. He was right, I just had to be patient, and Edward would come back. We love each other and that's all we needed, right? When Alice brings him back I will show him it was just a misunderstanding. And we will put this all behind us.

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