Kate heard his words and the sincerity in which they were delivered, but put it out of her mind for the moment, his kiss swallowing her mouth and his hands moving over with a surgeon's skills and the familiar ache for him down below the only thing she could focus on. She didn't have a lengthy list of past lovers to use as reference material, but she was sure she'd never had a lover that could make her wet with just his voice and that was probably the least sexy thing about him, the mental list of things about Jack that made her stomach turn summersaults surpassed any past relationship making him completely irresistible to her. She craved him and not just sexually and she found that a little unnerving, but in this moment her cravings were all about sex and satisfying the hunger to have him every way possible.
She could feel his hands moving inside her shirt, cupping her breasts and pinching her nipples through the thin material of her bra and she wanted to get the material out of his way, but she couldn't move, too much of his weight lay over her, trapping her. His hot, wet mouth began to move away from her lips and over her jaw line, the light scratch of his whiskers making her long to feel those whiskers grazing the inside of her thighs while his mouth worked it's magic. He carried the kind and patient demeanor he showed during normal every day activities into the bedroom with him and could make love to her with his mouth unlike anything she'd ever experienced.
His body shifted slightly and she could feel his hardness through the shorts he was wearing pressing against her leg and moaned, the sound making that hardness twitch slightly and making her center flood with wet heat. She lifted her hips up, needing to make contact with him and felt him smile, his lips now moving slowly over her neck and upper chest. He forced her shirt open by quickly pulling and popping all of the buttons off. It was his shirt so he didn't waste a second worrying about damaging it. He lifted the cups of the bra up and over her breasts, pushing it up until they were completely exposed to him, not bothering to take the time to unclasp the bra. The tightness of the out of position undergarment was a bit strange, but the way that it pushed down on her breasts as if to keep them in place for him was also a bit of a turn on to her. She watched as he teased her nipples with the tip of his tongue before closing his mouth over one and then the other, sucking and biting gently, each little nibble sending a twinge of electricity through her loin.
She watched him sit up on his knees, straddling her legs and admiring his handy work for a moment before taking hold of her hands and pulling her up to the seated position. He reached behind and unclasped her bra and made quick work of discarding the shirt and bra. She sat in front of him and closed her eyes while his fingers gently glided over her hot flesh, down her sides and across, lightly tickling her tummy and then up, cupping her breasts and gently massaging and caressing them. He positioned the bed pillows and throw pillows behind her and motioned for her to scoot back and relax into them. She let her bare back relax against the mound of cushy softness he'd created, sitting up enough to watch what his next move would be.
He reached for the waist band of the sweatpants that were too big, but had kept her comfortable all day and with little effort pulled them down past her hips, down her legs and off. She shivered for a moment, not because she was chilled, but in anticipation of his next move. She watched him watching her, naked except for the bikini panties that remained and she closed her eyes when he moved forward and kissed her again, his clothed body brushing gently against her nude body, his tongue moving slowly over hers, but with a hunger and intensity that made her hold her breath and squirm beneath him, wanting him to touch her where she needed to be touched and becoming impatient.
He moved back again, sitting on his knees between her legs. He put his index finger and middle finger in her mouth and let her suck on them before gliding them slowly down the center of her chest and stomach, letting them glide along the elastic waistband of her panties and then along the creases of her legs, just outside of the elastic, the crotch of them soaking wet, the familiar scent of her need for him making him feel animalistic for a moment and she smiled as she watched him get that hunger under control and then slowly pull her panties down, so agonizingly slow she thought she might come just watching him enjoy the slow, purposeful act so much.
She'd been with Jack numerous times over the past few days, but it was the moments like this that made her believe in the depth of the feelings they had for one another. He was so intent on taking his time, making sure the experience was as pleasurable for her as he could make it and he seemed to be completely lost in her during these moments. She'd never been with a man that could actually get lost in her and she liked it. He spoiled her and pampered her and made her feel like a sexy, desirable woman and while she wasn't going to break out in song over it, she did find the experience to be overwhelming and was positive she was caught up in something special.
With her panties out of his way, he took a moment to enjoy the view, her leaning back onto the pile of pillows looking like a sex goddess to him, a sex goddess that was squirming in front of him, her flesh hot, her nipples hard and her center dripping with desire for him. The way he was looking at her made her gasp involuntarily and he smiled just before he moved forward again, kissing her neck, his tongue feeling like fire against her flesh, his hot breath moving closer and closer to her ear and then finally whispering the details of what he was about to do as he let a fingertip glide lightly over her clit, making her whimper. He had her now, she'd turned to mush, unable to speak or act, but just be at his mercy, too turned on and too close to the edge to form a coherent thought, much less verbalize it.
He moved his mouth back down her body, sucking her nipples into his mouth again and pushing her grinding hips back down into the mattress. He kissed her stomach with such soft, teasing and tantalizing kisses that she shivered again, her body desperate for him to bring sweet release and he hadn't even moved to most sensitive area yet. She felt him moving down and took a deep breath, not realizing she was holding it. He stopped and looked up at her.
"Breathe." He said softly.
She let out the breath she was holding and opened her eyes, watching him nudge her legs until she relaxed and let them fall back, opening up for him, the anticipation of his mouth making contact with her heat making her squirm beneath him. She watched his head move down, between her legs and then she felt his tongue make contact with her crease ever so slightly as his lips and tongue began working together, gently sucking at her lips while his tongue made it's way in-between and finally finding a slow rhythm, gliding up and down her crease, sucking her clit in his mouth briefly and then gliding back down, sucking up her juices as fast as she could produce them. She felt his thumbs barely penetrate her and then open her up so he could push his tongue in and out and she sat up, holding his head, refusing to let him come up for air.
He moved his mouth away and pushed a finger inside her, feeling her clench around it and let out a light squeal, still holding onto his head, too close to orgasm to let him get away. He pushed his finger in and out of her slowly while sucking her clit and the warm gush of pleasure flooded her groin.
"Don't stop Jack, there's more, oh god just a little more….." She panted and then finally screamed as the second flood hit, so powerful she was shaking.
He pulled away and let her ride it out, keeping a hand clamped firmly over her mouth, the most intense orgasm he'd had the pleasure of watching her experience and watch was exactly what he did. He finally pulled his hand away and moved forward, kissing her deeply until he was sure she was finished. He stopped kissing her and pulled back just enough to look into her eyes.
"Sorry about the hand over the mouth. Don't want to wake the boy and spoil the fun." He said with a grin.
"I thought you said he could sleep through an earthquake." Kate panted.
"I think that was louder than an earthquake." He laughed.
"It was definitely off the Richter scale." Kate commented her brain still lost in the euphoria.
He stopped kissing her, sat up on his knees and pulled his shirt off. He reached for the button on his shorts and Kate's hands clamped over his. She wanted to do the unveiling to see him, to hold him in her hand and taste him on her tongue. She loved his cock, loved the way it seemed to fit perfectly in her mouth and the way she could feel it grow harder while her tongue provided just enough pressure and suction to finally bring him over the edge.
She unbuttoned and unzipped his shorts and let them glide down his hips. He wasn't wearing any underwear and his erection presented itself, the joke about poking someone's eye out running through her mind and amusing her briefly. He was as ripe as he was going to get without exploding and he grunted and groaned and steadied himself on his knees as she ran her soft hand over him, letting her thumb glide over his dripping head, swollen and purple and ready to come.
"Kate, I won't last." He warned.
"So don't last." She giggled and took him into her mouth.
"No Kate, I want to last. Please. I just want to make love to you." He pleaded and she pulled her mouth away from him.
"I thought you were going to let me indulge." Kate said and shot him a fake pout that was so cute he was sure his dick grew another inch.
"Oh like that's helping. How about an IOU?" He suggested making her giggle, his desire to not let things ends prematurely endearing to her.
She let go of him and laid back onto the pile of pillows he'd made for her. If he wanted to pamper her all night long that was fine with her because she wanted him inside of her as bad as he wanted to be there. She watched him finish removing his shorts and then position himself between her legs. He moved forward and pushed into her, making both of them moan and groan and remain completely still for a few seconds. She felt so full, like there was no room to stretch any further and then she felt him go deeper and pulled his face to hers, kissing him hungrily and encouraging him to move.
He pulled out of the kiss and held himself above her, moving in slowly and then pulling back out, watching her the entire time. That he could maintain such an intense stare and continue to bring so much pleasure to her down below made her shiver again. It felt like he was looking right through her and if she wasn't so preoccupied with the feeling of his hard cock pushing in and out of her she might've bothered to care that he might see something she didn't want him to, not yet anyway.
She felt the orgasm building as he continued loving her at a pace that allowed him to maintain control of his own release. She was there and she needed him to be still so she grabbed onto his butt and held him down, clenching hard around him and flooding their connection with more of her hot juices. He kissed her while she came, tasting her tongue, teasing her with his own, his hunger growing and his need to release becoming stronger than his desire to keep this going. She'd been with him enough to recognize when he was teetering on the edge and she loved to help get him over, to break down his resistance and make him go for it and pound into her relentlessly.
She moved her tongue over his lips and squeezed his butt gently before gliding her hands over his firm butt cheeks, allowing her fingers to glide down in-between them to where they were connected and then up his stomach and chest, rolling her finger tips over his nipples while moving her mouth to his ear and whispering things so naughty these were the only moments when it wouldn't shock him, but instead turn him on and make his own need painful enough to forget about her briefly and just go.
She heard the groan and then felt him start moving again and smiled, holding onto him and making him kiss her while he pushed himself to the brink of exhaustion, moving so hard and fast the bed was making noises. She knew he'd keep going, trying to get her off one more time and she worked along with him to make that happen and just as he finally gave up the quest and allowed himself to release, her orgasm flooded through her and they held on to each other, his seed filling her womb, the rest of her exhausted and pleasured to the point of feeling like jelly.
He moved off of her and they lay on their backs allowing their bodies to cool. His mind was slowly relaxing and succumbing to sleep and her mind was coming back down to earth and hearing the three words he'd said to her over and over. She moved closer to him, snuggling into the crook of his arm, her head resting over his heart, feeling his arm close around her and the comfort she drew from that, settling her mind and eventually shutting it down. She closed her eyes, sighed peacefully and drifted off to sleep.
He woke the next morning with a blanket wrapped around him and a pair of eyes staring at him. He took a moment to focus and looked at his young son with his really bad haircut and smiled.
"Hey." Jack said.
"Isn't it time to go to school yet daddy?" Conner asked.
"I thought you might want to stay home today and hang out with me." Jack answered.
"Really?" Conner asked in an excited tone.
"Really." Jack replied with a light laugh amused over how excited the child was.
"Where's Kate daddy?" Conner asked.
The question drew Jack into full consciousness, remembering the lovemaking and that he fell asleep without getting dressed and without closing the bedroom door. He looked over his shoulder at the empty half of the bed and he too wondered where Kate was.
"I don't know Conner, maybe she's downstairs. Why don't you go check and I'll be down in a second." Jack suggested.
Conner left the room and Jack stumbled out of bed, grabbed his shorts and walked into the bathroom. He joined Conner downstairs a few minutes later. Kate was sitting in the kitchen with him, dressed and apparently ready to go. Where she wanted to go he had no idea, but it was obvious that she had something in mind. He leaned over and kissed her before heading to the coffee pot. He prepared the coffee and hit the brew button and walked over to the bar where Conner was eating a bowl of cereal.
"He said you let him eat that for breakfast so I hope it was okay." Kate said.
"It's fine. Thanks for getting it for him." Jack said.
"Can we go to the zoo dad?" Conner asked.
"The zoo? Didn't we just go to the zoo?" Jack asked.
"No, it's been a long time. Please daddy, I love to look at all the animals." Conner begged.
"Would you like to go to the zoo Kate?" Jack asked knowing she obviously had other plans, but deciding to go ahead and get it out in the open.
"I would love to guys, but I need to go home and take care of some things." Kate said.
"Will you come back and see us?" Conner asked.
"Maybe you two could come see me." Kate said.
"Can we dad?" Conner asked.
"We'll see. Why don't you go upstairs and brush your teeth and get dressed and let me talk to Kate." Jack encouraged.
"Do I have to?" Conner whined.
"If you want to go to the zoo you do." Jack reminded him.
Conner climbed down from the barstool he was sitting on and walked over to Kate.
"Don't leave before I get back." Conner said.
"Your dad will have to drive me sweetie so I think we'll all leave together." Kate told him.
Satisfied with that answer Conner left the room. Jack walked over to the table, pulled a chair out and sat down.
"Is everything okay?" Jack asked.
"That's kind of a stupid question Jack. Of course everything isn't okay, but one day at a time, right?" She answered.
"Are you upset with me?" He asked.
"Why would I be upset with you?" Kate asked.
"I don't know, maybe because I told you something you didn't want to hear." Jack suggested and took hold of her hands.
"How do you know I didn't want to hear it?" She asked.
"Because you're uncomfortable and don't want to be around me." Jack said.
"Jack, I need to go home and face things. I can't keep hiding from the pain by playing house with you and your son." Kate said.
"Is that what we're doing?" Jack asked trying to hide that the comment stung.
"I don't know what we're doing Jack, but I need to try to figure it out. Why did you have to up the ante on me so quickly?" Kate asked as a tear escaped down her cheek.
"I'm sorry, I don't want to upset you and I don't expect you to say it back. Okay?" Jack said as he tried to comfort her.
"Maybe I want to say it back." Kate said softly.
"So what's stopping you?" He asked.
"Do I love you? What's not to love? You've been my night in shining armor. I don't want to love you for the wrong reasons Jack. I need to put things into perspective and I need to let go of my own child before I allow myself to fall in love with yours although it may be too late. Can you understand how confusing all of this is for me?" She asked and wiped the tears from her cheeks.
"There's no way I could ever hope to understand how confusing this situation is for you." He admitted.
"Thank you. I needed to hear that. I need to figure out what's in my heart, but right now my heart hurts too bad to do that." Kate asked.
"Take as much time as you need and if you need me to back off and give you some space just say so." He said.
"You're probably the one that needs some space. When was the last time you didn't have a neurotic woman clinging to you while you were trying to sleep?" Kate mumbled.
"I happen to like neurotic women." He said and smiled at her.
"I'm serious Jack." She said.
"Kate, I could sleep with you draped all over me for the rest of my life. It's not a bad thing. I happen to like it." Jack said.
"Wouldn't you like it more if I didn't need to be draped all over you, but just wanted to be?" Kate asked.
Jack pulled on her hands until she stood up. He then pulled her into his lap and wrapped his arms around her. She let her head rest on his shoulder and enjoyed the tight hold he had on her.
"Do you need this or want this Kate?" Jack asked.
"Both." She answered and buried her face in his chest, the feeling of warm fresh tears on his bare skin making him wish he could do more than just let her cling to him.
"You know Kate, I didn't expect you to wake up this morning ready to shut the door on your past and live happily ever after with me." Jack explained.
"It all feels so screwed up Jack. I don't know what I'm doing. I'm calm one minute and a pile of pain the next. I like being with you and your son and how can I like anything this soon? What does that say about me?" She cried.
"It says you are human. I want you to smile when you feel like smiling and I want you to cry when you feel like crying, but I don't want you to judge yourself for how you are feeling at any given moment. You are dealing with enough without adding self-inflicted guilt to the mix." He said noticing that she was trembling and tightening his hold on her.
"If I told you that the idea of going back inside that house scares me so bad I can't breathe what would you say?" Kate asked.
"I'd ask why keep forcing yourself to do it and insist I take you home." Jack said.
"I can't stay here forever Jack." Kate said.
"Why not?" Jack asked.
"Because I need to behave like a grown up, deal with what's happened and get my affairs in order." Kate answered.
"And you can't do that from here?" Jack asked.
"Jack, shouldn't you be pushing me to get back up and stand on my own two feet instead of enabling me and allowing me to be weak?" Kate sighed.
"I guess if I thought you were being needy and weak, but since I don't, I'm not going to push you to do anything." Jack said.
"Sitting in your lap sobbing like a baby isn't being needy and weak?" Kate objected.
"Kate, you are grieving and there is nothing I can do to help you through the process except be here for you and support you. I realize it feels like a more fitting punishment to suffer through the process alone, shut everyone out and beat yourself up for still being here while someone you loved with all your heart doesn't get to be here anymore, but it's not. You don't have to go through this alone. I don't want you to go through this alone." Jack stressed.
"Is that why you said it? So I wouldn't be alone?" Kate asked.
"No, I said it because I meant it. I do love you Kate. I think I fell in love with you when you licked the pie off my mouth." Jack told her and chuckled.
"What kind of woman does that on the first date?" Kate said softly.
"The kind of woman that makes me feel like I haven't felt in years, that made me feel alive again when I wasn't even aware that I had stopped living." Jack said as he tilted her chin up so he could kiss her.
"I really don't want to go home Jack." She admitted and snuggled in closer to him.
"I know." He said.
"I don't want to go to the zoo either. I'm sorry, I just need some time alone." She confessed.
"Don't be sorry. I'll take Conner to the barbershop and then I guess to the zoo and if you need anything just call. Otherwise, just hang out and enjoy the peace and quiet." Jack said.
"If you've got a decent pair of scissors or some clippers I can fix his hair Jack." Kate offered.
"Do you want to fix his hair?" Jack asked.
"Sure." Kate said as she sat up, wrapped her arms around his neck, hugged him, kissed him and hugged him again, bringing her mouth to his ear and speaking softly to him.
"I'm sorry you went through your grief alone." She said and kissed him again.