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Legally Disguised
Chapter 2: The Legal Fiancée
Melody Number Two:
I breathed in slowly
As you breathed in slowly
And held your hand
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I know what I did wasn't right… but I couldn't let him go there alone. I couldn't let him go to the hospital all alone like that. Especially since he's so severely injured.
So as they rolled him into the hospital, I ran along, still holding onto his hand. But eventually I had to wait outside while they were doing an emergency operation on him.
I couldn't help but cry. But why was I crying? I didn't know him that much for me to cry for him right? Then why am I crying?
"Miss?"
I must look like a complete idiot right now. Bawling my eyes for Mr. Dream Guy.
"Miss?"
Oh crap! I might get in trouble if people find out I'm not really his fiancée and I'm just a poser! Since I did my part and accompanied here, maybe I should just leave before I got caught…?
I slowly turned around but…
I was met with a light brown haired nurse.
"I'm sorry to bother you Miss, but may I know the patient's name?"
The nurse asked me very politely. But I couldn't help but feel a wave of dread coming over me. I don't know his name. How am I suppose to tell her that? She thinks I'm his fiancée… but his fiancée doesn't see to know her soon to be husband's name! How lame is that suppose to be?
Perhaps it's one of those arranged marriages? Where you get arranged to someone you don't even know and have never met before? Oh wait! Then why would I be crying then? I wouldn't even know him!
Why don't I know his name?
"I… I… "
This isn't right. Maybe I should right out tell her that I'm not what she thinks I am.
"Take your time Miss."
This nurse seems so nice. Would she mind if I told her I didn't know his name? I mean, I think since she saw me crying and I'm his fiancée and all. I think she thinks I need some time to think things over since I'm in such a mess right now. Even if she is just is asking for his name. Nice people like this really existed?
"Li Syaoran."
I quickly whirled turned around to look for the source of that voice.
Li Syaoran? Was that his name? But then who just said it?
My eyes quickly locked with sapphire eyes. The eyes looked back to me with an amused glint and almost knowing look. I couldn't help but shake a little and look to the ground.
Did I just get caught?
Did I seriously just get caught?
I slumped against the wall behind me.
This isn't a good day. Despite the weather and all…
"Mister…?" the nurse politely asked, walking a little closer the sapphire eyed guy.
"Ah, pardon for interrupting. I am Hiiragaziwa Eriol, his cousin."
"Hiiragaziwa-san, would you mind telling me Li-san's allergies?"
"Of course not. He's not really allergic to anything that I know of. Unless he has allergies that he doesn't tell anybody of."
"I see, well then…"
I couldn't help but eavesdrop a little. I mean, even though I told a little lie about me being his fiancée, I'm learning more and more about him! His name is Li Syaoran, and he doesn't seem to have any allergies…
"… talk to his fiancée. She seems really shaken up. Please, excuse me."
The nurse's heels echoed through the hospital halls as she turned and walked away from us.
Busted.
She just told him that I'm Syao-chan's fiancée! This is bad! This is really, really bad!
"Konnichiwa."
The voice was gentle. Not harsh. But it still startled me when he spoke. So being the scaredy cat that I am, I didn't look at him in the eye. I think I twitched when he spoke… or was it just me?
"K-Konnichiwa." I whispered.
This always happens in movies. After the victim gets caught, the other person would still be nice to the victim but then start screaming and shouting at the victim for being such and idiot or something! This has to be it! He's going to yell at me after! I know it!
"So, Syaoran got himself a fiancée, eh? He sure likes to keep things to himself. Wait till I tell auntie about this."
Wait.. what? He seriously thinks I'm his fiancée? Is this guy crazy or is it seriously my lucky day? I didn't get busted! Yahoo!
"Hai…" I meekly mumbled back to his statement.
Even if I didn't get busted, I'm still in big trouble. What happens when Syao-chan wakes up and finds himself a fiancée? Or worse… two fiancées!
"Why don't we sit down?"
I looked up a little and noticed him motioning towards the chairs near the wall to my left. Giving a small nod, I walked to chairs and sat down with him following and doing the same as I did.
"So what's your name?"
My name… what's my name again? Oh right… Sakura…
"Sakura. Kinomoto Sakura desu."
"Sakura, eh?"
He seemed to say my name, testing on his tongue. But I don't think it was a good idea giving him my real name. Was it a bad thing to do? But at least I'm not lying again… right?
"Hai."
"Well then, Sakura-chan, where's you engagement ring?"
"Eh?"
I quickly looked down at my neatly folded hands and glanced at my left ring finger. Sure enough it was empty. But I don't have any idea why I even bothered to looked down since I know that there won't be a ring there. No matter how much I wished it.
"Eto…"
Now! All I have to do is come up with another lie… another lie… this day seems to be dedicated to me lying.
But luckily, before I could make another sin, yet again, and make up another lie, yet again, the doctor walked out through the doors, with the doors swinging behind him, and saving me.
Me and Hiiragaziwa-san quickly rushed up to the doctor but he beat me to asking how Syao-chan was.
"Don't worry too much," the doctor said. "He's in stable condition and should wake up pretty soon, if not, tomorrow morning. If you want to go visit him later, he'll be wheeled to room one hundred forty-nine in a few minutes. If you like, you can go wait there first." Suddenly he turned and looked at me with a smile. "He's going to be alright Miss, don't worry."
With that, he walked away.
And I blinked.
What was that?
Did I look that bad? Or was it just a simple mental way to make me feel better? Or was it both?
"I think its both," the voice beside me said, as if reading my thoughts.
I looked over at him, but all he did was give me a small smile.
"Iko."
I nodded, following behind him as he walked.
Hiiragizawa-san seemed smart. An aura of intelligence seemed to surround him, although it be just my imagination, and he seemed to know that I wasn't his fiancée but was playing a long anyways. He seemed to know a lot more that I do. And now that I've started to study him, he actually looks quite handsome. Not hot, sexy or cute, but just handsome. Although I must admit, his sapphire eyes seem to always have a glint in them that freaks me out. Perhaps it was because of the glasses? But well, besides that, he also had a mop of navy blue hair. It was messy like Syao-chan's, it was neatly parted in the middle and combed to the other end and slightly gelled. His build was average. He wasn't too muscular like those buff guys I see at the gym working out every single day, but he also wasn't that scrawny like most of the students in my music class back in those university days.
He also seemed to have this elegant touch to him. Each step of his seems so precise, and accurate, it almost seems as if he calculated and thought of each step before he took it all in just a split second. And that aura of intelligence… maybe that was the only thing right not that I know of Hiiragizawa-san that I don't like…
We stepped into the elevator.
"Hiiragizawa-san, I-"
"Please, drop the formalities. Eriol is fine."
"Well, Eriol-san, are you a close cousin of Syao-chan?"
Why am I asking this? I think there should be other stuff I should worry about more.
"Hai."
I wasn't looking at him, but I could tell he was smiling. Maybe even like a maniac.
My question really was stupid.
"I'm assuming that Syaoran doesn't talk a lot about his family?"
I nodded.
He's really making this easy for me!
Umm.. maybe because he knows that… Ugh! Stop thinking about that! I don't know! And maybe I don't want to know!
"Well, yes. Syaoran is my cute little cousin and we love each other very much."
"Souka."
Wow! They must have a really close relationship!
"Syaoran also has four sisters, or quadruplets."
Quadruplets? That's crazy! I thought that quadruplets don't exist! I guess I was wrong all this time. But wow. I really want to see his sisters! Since Syao-chan is so sexy, his sisters can't be half bad!
"His father died when he was young, so he grew up in a single parent home."
Awww! Poor Syao-chan! He grew up with just one parent… oh wait. Didn't I grow up with just one parent too? Oh my gosh! We have a similarity there!
But this isn't something that I should be happy about though, right? Hehehe…
"He's also pretty close to his other cousin, her name's Meiling."
I see. But wait! That's a girl!
I heard a small chuckle from Eriol-san so I turned to look at him.
"Don't worry, there's nothing between those two."
What?!
"Was I that obvious?"
"Like an open book."
Oh geez. He didn't need to be that honest. But this isn't good! I'm obvious as an open book? Is that the reason why I always thought that everyone around me was a telepathic except for me since I'm such a failure? Well this definitely explains a lot of things! There aren't an telepathies! And I'm definitely not a failure in that area since it didn't even exist in the first place!
That definitely explains a lot.
I gave a small nod to myself.
And then we entered room one hundred forty-nine.
The room was plain and seemed to be devoid of any life even if me and Hiiragizawa-san were inside it. In the middle of the room was a lone bed against the wall with the sheets neatly made, and next to the bed was a small table that was slightly higher than the bed. On it laid a lamp, and next to it was a flask of water with a small cup laid in front. But what kind of surprised me was that there was a balcony in the room! Not only that, but there was also a twenty-nine inch flat screen on the wall in front of the bed and there was even a little lounge in the corner of the room which held two couches, a small table and even a mini fridge!
This room seems expensive to me somehow.
Even my room wasn't this pretty. Well, it's much more livelier than this, that's for sure, but this room is definitely more expensive than mine. I don't even have TV in my room! The most expensive thing in my room is probably my laptop… which I couldn't even afford in the first place, but otou-san bought it for me probably because he felt sorry for me. Although he claims that he bought it as a congratulations for earning that scholarship to Tokyo University. And then after I graduated otou-san again bought me this high-tech cell phone! But he says this is a gift for graduating top student in music class. I so totally do not buy him!
"Why don't we sit down first?"
I nodded, immediately heading towards the couches. They look so comfy! As I sat down, my thoughts were right. The seats were nice and soft, but not so soft that you felt like you were sinking down.
"Eriol-san, but if you're his cousin, then where are his sisters and mother?"
Eriol-san smiled as I looked at him.
Again, that knowing look and amused glint flashed in his sapphire orbs.
"They're in Hong Kong. I called them about the accident but they were really busy and can't book the flight to Tomoeda yet. So I came in their place and to report to them if anything bad happens."
"Just anything bad?"
"Well, they said that since there will be bad news, there probably won't be any good news, and if there's good news then there probably isn't any bad news."
I nodded.
But still! They somehow sound so cold and heartless to me…
Hearing sounds and voices, I looked towards the door to see nurses wheeling in Syao-chan. I watched intensely as they heaved Syao-chan from the wheeled bed to the stationary bed in the room, after a nurse covered him with a blanket, while the other adjusted the bed, they left, closing the door behind them. After they left, I took in a deep breath before I stood up and walked towards Syao-chan.
This is it.
Somehow, I always thought that I'd never be this close to him. I always just seem to like him at a distance and I never really thought that I'd be so close to him. Touch him. My world almost seemed to freeze around me as I took one step closer to him. But as each step took me closer to him, I realized that I couldn't stop myself anymore. My heart was falling for him like there was no tomorrow, and there's no possible way that I can stop myself now.
I couldn't turn back.
Did you know? Love is a really strong word. So only use it when you're really sure it's the right person. Or else, you may regret it forever. Because I know how it feels.
I experienced it.
And it wasn't a pretty sight.
I sat down on the bed next to him and took his hand in mine. His hand seemed so much more rough and large than mine.
I studied his face closely and couldn't help but to sigh with relief. He wasn't covered in blood anymore. Even if there was a huge bandage on his forehead. He was breathing evenly.
Did you know? Love is a strong word opposite of hate. I loved him. Yet I hated him. And to this day, I realized the love I had for him was wrong. I didn't love him. But I still continued to hate him. It didn't stop.
Because meeting him was the biggest mistake in my entire life.
"Sakura-chan."
"Nani?"
My voice didn't sound all too familiar. But I didn't want to wake Syao-chan up. His sleeping face was so peaceful, if I speak too loud maybe I'll wake him up.
"I know you don't want to leave Syaoran yet, but I think maybe you should go clean yourself up. You don't want Syaoran waking up and seeing you in this state."
"Eh?"
Did I look that bad?
"Just go to a washroom and you'll see what I mean."
I gave a weak nod. I glanced at Syao-chan once more before leaving the room.
Did I really look that bad?
Turning the corner, I pushed open the door that led to the females' washroom. Then I walked in a bit further and glanced at myself in a mirror near by. I grimaced slightly. Now I knew what Eriol meant.
My tight ponytail somehow got loosened up and was now half undone with the hair tie half way down. Half of my left cheek was coated with dry blood, and some of the blood was also on my shirt and hands. Not only that, but eyes were slightly red rimmed and swollen.
Syao-chan's blood.
Giving out a little sigh, I reached over to the faucet and turned on the warm water. Damping my hands, I squeezed some soap onto my hands and began rubbing them together. Seeing the blood starting to come off, I rinsed my hands and grabbed a paper towel from the counter and dried my hands up.
I looked back at the mirror and wrinkled my nose as I looked at myself. Grabbing another paper towel, I dampened it under the tap then turned the running water off. Bringing the paper towel to my cheek, I began rubbing furiously until all the blood was gone. But I was left with a stinging, red cheek. Then, I folded the paper towel in half and began scrubbing my shirt, which didn't help all that much since even after a while, I still left with a red stain on my white shirt.
Disposing the paper towels, I looked back to the mirror and took the hair tie out of my loose hair. Running my cold hand through my hair after a while, I left my hair as it was since it seemed to be acting good right now.
Nodding at myself, I took a deep breath and walked out the washroom. Turning the corner, I walked a few more steps before I stood outside the door leading to Syao-chan's room.
I started hesitating.
I can still walk out and never turn back. I still have time. I can just pretend that this never happened and walk out forever.
But then I can't leave Syao-chan alone, even if he is with Eriol-san, but it's just somewhat different. And somehow… I might always be wondering back to this day and wondered what might have happened if I took the risk and stayed by Syao-chan's side. Who knows, maybe I might have had a happy ending.
That happy ending, maybe I'm willing to take a risk for it. Just once. I want to see if luck is by my side this time.
With my hand hanging on the door knob, I took a deep breath, turned the door knob, opened the door and walked inside.
I looked over at Eriol-san and give him a small smile, and he smiled back. He was still sitting in the same spot as I had last seen him.
I walked over to Syao-chan's bed and sat next to him on the bed. Taking his hand in mine, I gently began rubbing as it seemed so ice cold. I looked at his pale face a smiled at him.
"Nee, Syaoran, did you know? I don't when or how I fell in love with you. I don't know if it's even a good idea. But I know that I want to stay 'til at least you wake up. So will you accept me until then and let me stay by you?"
I whispered the last part, and looked down at our hands that were linked together.
"But no matter what answer you give me… I'll still love you."
Looking back at his face, my eyes watered a little.
"Because I can't stop loving you."
I tear fell down my cheek and silence engulfed the room all except for Syao-chan's breathing.
Realizing that I was holding my breath, I let it out slowly, waiting for something to happen.
And something did happen.
My breath seemed to have gotten stuck in my throat for a brief moment as I felt Syao-chan's finger twitched in my hand.
"Syaoran…" I whispered.
Is he waking up?
But before another thought could even begin crossing my mind, he began shifting slightly. And slowly, really slowly, his eyes opened, adjusting to the light, and blinking a few times but his eyes opened fully, and his eyebrows seemed to have knit together in confusion. He turned his head around, looking around the room and his eyes caught mine. I seemed to have been holding my breath when it happened. And we stared at each other for a few seconds, before his eyes widened and quickly pulled his hand back as if he was touching something extremely hot.
I couldn't help but be a little sad. Even if I unconsciously knew this was coming.
"Who are you?"
My eyes watered up as we continued staring at each other.
I guess I can't I have a happy ending after all.
Luck… was never by my side after all.
"Syaoran, she's your fiancée," Eriol said, seemingly replying for me from across the room, I heard some rustling and approaching footsteps.
His head quickly turned toward the source of the voice and he gave him a questioning look.
I didn't dare to look at Eriol-san. Not after all the mess I made. I just couldn't.
"She's-" Eriol was about to repeat it again when he was suddenly interrupted by Syao-chan.
"Who are you?" Syao-chan demanded.
What!
Wait a minute! I know Syao-chan isn't supposed to know who I am but to not know who his cousin is either.
Something isn't right here.
"Syaoran, stop joking around-"
And yet again, Eriol-san was cut off.
"Who are you people? Where am I?"
Somehow, at this point in life, at this moment in my life, I knew this was the turning the point. Because everything will start running out of control from my life and I won't be able to stop it. And I'll try my best to grab onto that happy ending, because I know luck isn't on my side this time, but this one-sided true love that I hold. And it isn't going anywhere.
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A.N: I updated!!! I never knew that this day would come. Although I am a little late for my every two weeks update. But I think the only reason I was able to update this chapter is because I already had half the chapter typed before hand. So expect the next chapter to take longer to come. And guess what?! Today's my birthday! And you know what would be the best present from you guys? Reviews! Lots and lots of reviews! Well, then... I'm off to eating my sushis. Hehehe. Hope you enjoyed this chapter!
P.S I was wondering if I was using too much japanese words. Does anyone need a translation for them? If someone doesn't understand, then I'll happily translate them for you!