Bella's Point of View.

I stared up at Edward for a long moment, and shook my head. I knew something far different and serious than what he guessed was happening. My head was pounding more than it ever had before, causing me to squeeze my eyes shut.

"Bella? Bella, are you alright?" Edward said, touching where I was on my head- where it was hurting most. "Did you hit your head when you fell?" He attempted to hide the concern in his voice, but he knew as well as I that something was not right.

I shook my head, and felt his cold, strong hands pushing me back to lay down on the bed. "I don't know if I hit it or not." I said, nearly crying now because it was starting to feel excruciating. "Edward, what is going on with me? What aren't you telling me?"

"Bella!" Edward said, with such passion in his voice, and I knew if he could be, he'd be crying. "You know I would never hide anything from you. I'm so worried about you right now, they're trying to figure it out." He said, before touching my cheek softly. "Please, just relax. Okay? We will find out what's happening. You are probably stressed. Jacob-"

"Where's Jacob?" I said, jumping slightly, which made my head ache even more. I closed my eyes again and took a few deep breaths, trying to make it go away, but still the pain drew tears from my eyes.

"I don't know. He left. Bella, they think that this might be from stress. What are you stressed about?" He reached forward and brushed my hair away from my eyes, before kissing my forehead. "Please, talk to me."

After staring at him for a long hard moment, I looked away. His voice was desperate, pleading, and it hurt more than even my head did at this moment. "You cant be mad, okay?" I said, moving my hand so I was holding his as he nodded. "Edward, how can I possibly not be stressed that you get so angry every time I talk to you about how I want to be with you forever. "

"Bella, you don't understand-"

"No, Edward, you don't understand." I said, shaking my head, and already crying as I spoke. "I want to be with you forever. I don't want to grow old while you're still so young. I want to stay like this. What is it? You don't want to be with me?" I said, and then I began feeling a little dizzy.

"No! You know that's no the truth, Bella! I want to be with you more than anything!" Edward's body stiffened as he spoke. "How could you even think that I don't want to be with you?"

"Edward, please." I begged him, hearing the buzzing noise again in my ears, before the door was thrown open.

"Edward, Bella!" Alice said, moving into the room. She looked at Edward and I knew she was telling something. He looked perplexed, but nodded.

Looking behind Alice, I saw Jasper come in after her. After a few moments, my worries and stress faded, as did the buzzing noise and dizziness. I could tell Alice and Edward were having a conversation, but I chose to act like I ignored it.

Jasper smiled and moved beside me. "How are you feeling?" He said, sitting in a chair a few feet away from the bed. "Carlisle says he's not sure what happened. Any idea?"

I shook my head at him. "They think maybe I fainted from stress." I swallowed the lump in my throat, before watching him nod.

"Yeah, I've been getting nothing but stressed vibes from you lately." He said, before turning to Edward and telling him something, I'm sure, with his mind.

"Why do you guys hide so much from me?" I complained as I watched them all speaking. "Can't you please just stop telling Edward things, and say them outloud?" I said, frowning, though I felt relaxed with the help of Jasper.

Alice frowned, "I just, I.." She looked at Edward, "I'll go and tell dad about a few other tests he needs to be sure and run on Bella." She said, before leaving quickly/

"I guess you're right, Bella." Jasper said, looking from Edward, who seemed angry with Jasper for even thinking of saying anything, and then back to me. "Well, I was just telling Edward that.." He sighed, "I'm fine to be around you. You dont smell right right now."

"I know, I was around Jacob." I protested, "Thats why. He carried me here." Jasper shook his head, and then Edward touched my hand.

"No, my dear Bella. It's not because you've been in contact with that d- Well, with Jacob." He squeezed my hand tightly, running his thumb over the back of it. "Your blood doesn't smell entirely right- but it's nothing to worry about. Probably the medication."

Apparently, they'd heard my heartbeat accelerate at the mention that it didnt smell right. I nodded slowly, "If not, what else could it mean?"

Before anyone answered, Edward wrinkled his nose. "Leave!" He said, before even turning around. Jasper got up and snarled, moving in front of me to protect me- though I didnt need it.

"Stop!" I said, staring at them. "Dont fight. Please, dont fight!" I begged, looking at the two of them and feeling a slight pain begin to register in my head again. Jasper touched my shoulder, and as I calmed down, it subsided.

"Let me talk to Jacob, Edward, it will be okay." I said, nonchalently. "Just a few moments. You can stay in here if you like, and if you dont interrupt."

Edward looked angry, and his arms were stiff, but he nodded. "Fine." He said, moving from my beside to the other side of the room, and bringing Jasper with him- no doubt having a conversation with Jasper's thoughts.

Jacob moved beside me and sat down. "Are you okay?" He asked, moving his hand to hold mine, and I heard a growl building up in Edwards throat.

I stared at Edward for a long moment, giving him a knowing look, before turning back to Jacob. "I'm okay. What happened?" I frowned. "The last thing I remember was you telling me.." I paused for a moment, looking away from everyone in the room- and staring out the window. Of course it was raining. Every word Jacob had spoken stabbed at my heart like a daggar. "You said exactly this. 'I don't want you in my life anymore. I want to live in a world where you don't exist. I want my memories of you to escape my mind. I don't want you bothering me anymore.'" I swallowed deeply, before turning to look at Jacob.

"How dare you, you useless bastard!" Edward screamed getting up, but Jasper grabbed his arm, and pulled him back. "Stop, Edward. Let them talk-" And then his voice faded into his thoughts, and Edward was nodding slowly at whatever it was he was hearing.

Jacob frowned, and looked me straight in the eyes. "It's really what's best. You-" He glanced at Edward uncomfortably, before leaning down and whispering in my ear. "I'm so in love with you, Bella. It hurts me to see that you love him. I don't think I could ever just be your friend. It's best if I'm out of your life."

"You don't even realize, do you? Jacob, you and Edward hate one another, but in so many ways you two are alike." I said, giving Jacob's hand a soft squeeze. I wasn't sure if it was the warmth of Jacob's hand, Jasper, or the comfort of having both Jacob and Edward with me at the same time. "You both want nothing but the best for me. Both of you care about my safety." I paused as the two exchanged a glance. "Do you want to know why Edward got so mad when I repeated the words that you spoke to me?"

Edward tried to interrupt me, but I put a hand up. "Please." I said, befor turning to Jacob, who nodded slowly. "Edward spoke almost those exact words to me, just before he left." I continued, but lowering my voice to a whisper. "Look where I ended up when he left, Jacob. You want me out of your life just as little as Edward did. Jake, you thought you were helping me. You know what would make me happiest? If I could be with both of you, like today, and not feel so much tension. I want to not have to sneak to see one of you or the other."

Jacob and Edward glanced at each other again, and I felt Jacob stiffening, just as I saw that Edward did. "We'll never be friends. Its impossible. Edward and I-" Jake shook his head.

"I'm not asking you to be friends. I'm asking you to co-exist. You know that me being out of your life won't help anyone. It will just make everything worse. " I said, feeling tears begin to form in my eyes. "Please, just say that everything can be okay."

Edward cleared his throat, before standing. "Carlisle is on his way in here." His voice low, he'd obviously already heard him coming. Moments later, Carlisle stepped into the office.

"Bella, dear, how are you feeling?" He asked, moving over and standing at my bedside as Jacob stood. Carlisle glanced at Edward, who nodded, and then turned back to me. "Have you been expieriencing any pain?"

Not wanting to cause anyone stress, I shook my head. "No, I havn't." I lied, but Edward and Jacob both spoke in unison. "Yes, she has." They said, before glancing at one another aghast.

Carlisle frowned. "Alice spoke to me, and she told me she had a feeling of a couple other tests we should run on you. I think first we're going to take you for a cat-scan, and then we're going to get some more blood tests, to send the the lab."

I frowned at Edward and Jacob, but nodded at Carlisle. "Okay." I said, before he continued.

"The nurse will be in to ready you for your scan, and it should be done fairly soon. Alright, Bella." He said, touching my head softly. I nodded, and he frowned again. "Please, dear, do tell me when something is wrong. I can already tell you've been in pain. Your eyes give away more than you know." He said, before turning and leaving the room as a nurse came in.

"Alright, Ms. Swan, we're going to move you onto this gurney." She said, and before I could get up, Edward had picked me up and moved me to the other bed. I watched as the nurse unhooked me from the IV and heart machines, before moving and wheeling me out of the room- as the others followed.

I was taken downstairs and lead to a room with a huge machine, before I was put onto this bed-looking table. I sighed and laid down, before the nurse explained the procedure of a catscan. Out of the corner of my eyes, I saw that Edward and Jacob were standing awkwardly, stealing glances of each other every couple of seconds, with Jasper between the two.

Finally, the nurse finished babbling, before moving and having everyone stand behind a wall. I sighed and tried to relax, like she told me, before the entire table moved into this tiny hole-like space. I closed my eyes, to keep from panicing, and before I knew it, I was back out in the open, and being lead to have blood taken. Of course, Carlisle was there, and advised that it might be best for everyone to wait back at my room- and they did so.

I looked away as the nurse took my blood, and tried my best not to breathe, so that I wouldn't be naughtious, but still, I routinely felt lightheaded after. When everything was finished, Carlisle smiled at me. "Everything is going to be alright, dear Bella. No need to worry so much. Edward will come around."

Instinctively, I wanted to question Carlisle, as he took me back up to my room, but I merely smiled and nodded. "You'd think that by now I'd get used to you knowing everything." I said, as he placed me back on my bed, only to be surrounded by Jacob, Edward, Jasper, and Alice again.

Carlisle smiled, "Eventually, you will. Now, I'm going to go down and wait on your cat-scan results." He said, nodding and staring at Alice for a long moment, before turning away and leaving.

I sighed, and looked at Alice, who smiled down at me. "So, Bella-" She said, sitting with me on the bed. I could tell there was something wrong by the way she spoke.

"Alice, what's wrong?"

"Oh, nothing dear. How are you feeling?"

"Alice?"

"Bella, please. I'm just on nerves since you're in the hospital again."

I could tell by the confused look on Edward's face that he wasn't able to tell what she was thinking. He looked frustrated, before he moved on the other side of me. "I think we should all just let Bella rest." He said, moving beneath me so that I was in his arms. This seemed to make Jacob angry, which made me frown.

Jasper bit his lip, "Alice, I think maybe we should go and find Rosalie and-"

"No!" Alice cut him off quickly. She was right, she was very much on nerves, but I doubted it was because I was in the hospital again, there was something she knew that she wasn't sharing.

Jasper jumped and stared at her for a moment- everyone did. "Alice, please, if there's something wrong just tell me!" I said, hearing the desperateness in my voice, "Alice!" I yelled, before Jasper came to soothe me. "No, I don't want you to calm me down! I want to know!" I said, before grabbing my head in pain again. By now, I couldn't help it, I just cried.

Edward held me in his arms until I'd stopped, and I looked up at him and frowned, "What's going on with me?" I asked him. Before Edward spoke- Carlisle walked in, looking Grim. "I have some news." He said, slowly, moving to the bedside. "Dear Bella-"

Both Edward and I began to stiffen as we stared at Carlisle. He paused a moment, looking at the papers again, before continuing. "We've found something- that-" He stopped again, clearing his throat, as if to keep his voice strong. "Bella, I'm sure you know what Cancer is. We've found a rather large tumor in the front left region of your head." He said, touching about where the temple was on my left. "We can try to operate, but chances of removing it are slim." He said, handing us the x-rays.

"What?" I said, staring at Carlisle for a long moment, before nodding. I didn't want to break down- not in front of Edward. If he had just changed me none of this would have ever happened.

Glancing up at Edward, he looked like he'd just been shot. "What?!" He screamed, getting up and pacing the room. "You're lying, don't tell me that!" He said, shaking his head at his father, before Jacob got up, "Edward, calm down!" He yelled.

"Don't you tell me what to do you dog!"

"Excuse me?" Jacob was furious now. "You stupid leeches, you shouldn't be here. This is probably all your fault." He began shaking.

Alice's eyes widened. "Jacob- you need to go. We don't want you hurting bella if you transform." She said, moving and pushing him out the door, following after him. Jasper, placed his hand on Edwards shoulder, only for it to be shrugged off. He sighed and followed his way after Alice, to be sure that Jacob would leave.

"Bella cant be sick." Edward said, looking at his father again. I just sat there with tears in my eyes. "She can't have cancer!" He screamed, looking at me and grabbing my hand, squeezing it tightly. "Don't you dare-"

Carlisle stopped him, "Edward, please. She's sick. There's nothing we can do. If we operate on her she'll die!" He said, reaching out to Edward, who pulled away again. Carlisle continued, but in his mind- saying what I guessed was 'you have to change her.'

Edward glared at his father and shook his head. "No! I won't put her through that!"

"Please, Edward, I want to be with you forever!" I was sobbing now, as Edward was backing up, towards the door. "Don't let this happen, please-" I begged.

Edward shook his head. "I wont do this to her, I wont have it." He said, before moving and turning out the door quickly.

Carlisle frowned and turned back to me, and I knew if he could be crying, he would. "I'll keep my word." He said, using his hand to wipe away my tears. "I'll change you, but not until it's closer to-" He stopped and looked at the door. "And Edward will come around." He said, before standing and making his way out of the room as well, stopping, and looking back at me. "All will be well, soon enough, my dear." He said, before leaving the room- leaving me alone.

I took a moment to think about everything that had happened- everything I'd been through with him. Did he really not want me? Why would he rather me die than have me with him? After all I'd been through, I couldn't die from cancer. Not after all I'd faced.

I stared at the doorway for a moment, half expecting Edward to run through and bite me, but I knew better. I touched my the left side of my forehead, where the cancer was, and I wished it away, knowing it wouldn't help. Finally, I turned my back to the door, and stared out the window at the trees being drenched by the rain, before quietly, letting my pillow become drenched by my tears. Again, if only for a night, I prayed for the numbness I had once been so accustomed to.