I'm sorry about the last paragraph in chapter 2 being hard to read. Not to sure what happen to it.

Chapter 3

Spinelli POV

6 years earlier 2 weeks after the accident

O my god I let out a little groan as pain shoots through every nerve I have. My head is killing me. I try to think back to who I had my last fight with but nothing comes to mind. O man who was able to do such a number on me.

I open my eyes and quickly close them again when the light is way too bright and causes extreme pain. I let out another groan and slowly become aware of someone beside me.

"I see sleeping beauty is waking up. How are you feeling Ashley?" Ashley! Who the hell does this person think she is! Nobody calls me that… Wait a second… who is she? That's a good question. I don't recognize the voice. Where am I? I can feel myself begin to panic. Ok, deep breaths I have to open my eyes, just a little bit of pain so I can put a face to the voice and maybe just maybe figure out where the hell I am.

I open my eyes and focus quickly on the lady leaning over me and the things around her. Then close them again to shut of the pain. Alrighty then…. Nope still don't have a clue where I am or who this lady is who thinks she can call me Ashley.

I mean calling me Ashley is right earned by my parents only and that's because I can't exactly beat them up for calling me that. My brothers only call me Ashley when there pissed at me or want to get me mad. So who does this lady think she is!

What is that awful beeping sound? G's that thing is going to drive me nuts. Will someone please turn the alarm off I'm up for God's sake. Opening my eyes slightly I look toward the offending sound….. Is that a heart machine… is it hooked up to me! I didn't mean it please don't turn it off.

"Calm down Ashley, your brother and aunt will be back soon I sent them home to get a little sleep. We weren't expecting you to wake up so soon." Her voice is almost calming, and I might relax if someone would tell me what's going on.

Did she say Aunt? I don't have an Aunt. And why didn't she mention my parents? Shouldn't my parents be here?

Deep breath, alright Spinelli what is the last thing you remember. School, it was the last day of school. Okay that's good….um ice cream with the gang…. shoot am I going to be late meeting them… Damn it what time is it? Slow down Spinelli one thing at a time the next thing I remember is going for dinner with the family. No wait not the family Vitto didn't come and is going to be in so much trouble from mom when he gets home…. O no the car.

My eyes shoot open as I sit up quickly ignoring the pain shooting through every bone in my body. I'm in a hospital. I feel the lady trying to push me back into bed but I have to find my mom and dad and Joey.

O god where are they. Please let them be okay.

The door opens and I feel a sense of relief at seeing someone I know but at the same time dread why is she here?

"Miss. Finster?" I croak out feeling like my throat is swollen but the desperateness comes through loud and clear.

"It's going to be okay Spinelli, everything is going to be okay" She walks to my bed and sits down. I look towards the door and see Vitto there standing in the door way like he wants to come in but can't and finally turns around and leaves me alone with Finster.

I look back at her and for the first time in my life am scarred to death. She's crying.

And I know. "There was accident and I am so sorry" I don't hear the rest but I don't need too…. my family is gone. All I have left is Vitto and for some reason he wont come near me. Does he blame me? Was it my fault? Did Joey and I distract Dad? Tears begin to fall down my check and I wish for the darkness that I was in before.

A Month later

"Vitto please don't leave me" I beg my brother as we stand outside Miss. Finster's house at midnight.

"I can't stay here Ash, I just can't" he whispers still not looking me in the eyes. I had been released form the hospital a week earlier into Finsters care. For the whole time I was in the hospital I could count the number of times on one hand that Vitto had come to see me. Finster had surprisingly been there almost the entire time helping me grieve and keeping me company. She brought books and when she saw I wasn't too much of a reader she brought me art supplies and I began to draw like crazy.

But it was Vitto that I had wanted. When I had been released I had thought he would start to spend time with me but instead he had started staying away from the house at all costs. And now here we stood at well past midnight in Finster's front garden.

I had woken to a noise in my room and had been surprised to find Vitto looking down at me. He swore when he saw I was awake and told me to be quiet that he had just come to say goodbye. Then he turned and left, I of course had gotten up and followed with my crutches.

"Ash, go back inside" he said once again impatiently.

"Please Vitto, take me with you" I was once again crying. G's I had done that a lot lately.

"Ashley, listen to me. I can't stay here. I just can't do it. I'm eighteen so can take care of myself but I can't take care of both us. Please try to understand. I just…. I just need to get away for a little bit. I'll be back, I promise" He looks at me and for the first time since the accident he looks me right in the eye and hugs me awkwardly. I cling to him as he tries to back away; praying that if I hold on to him tight enough he won't leave me.

"Ash…… I'll be back…. I… promise. I just need to get things worked out in my head" and with that he breaks out of my death grip. He looks down at me and attempts a smile, but it doesn't reach his eyes.

Then he turns around and gets into Joey's old car and without another look he leaves me as well.

I go back up to my room and throw myself into my bed and cry for all that I'm worth knowing that I can't stay here either but not knowing what to do. Why couldn't I have died in the car accident too?

My friends should be back soon from all the camps they went to. I know that Finster contacted their parents and told them about the accident and they all agreed it would be best for my friends not to know about the details until I was better. For a strange reason I think Finster wanted this because she knew I wouldn't want them to see me lying helplessly in hospital hooked up to machines.

It's funny though; even now I don't want to see my friends. I can't help but feel that Ashley Spinelli died that day; I'm not the same person that I was.

The Ashley Spinelli that they knew never cried, she had been able to sleep through the night without nightmares and now I couldn't even make it through a day without crying, and I haven't slept a full night since I had woken up in the hospital.

I feel hollow inside, like the last bit of Ashley Spinelli died the minute Vitto left, so where does that leave me?

I get up and begin to draw.

A Week Latter

This was it! I look at the internet page and feel for the first time joy. This was my new beginning. I get up slowly and go down to the kitchen where Finster is.

"Miss… Muriel" She looks up at me with a weak smile. "I know we haven't really talked about it….." I say looking down at my feet then finally up into her eyes "but I want what Vitto wants" her face falls quickly.

When she had woken up the morning after Vitto left she had flipped her lid. She had called the police to report a missing person only to be told that he wasn't missing if he had left on his own and was legally allowed to be on his own.

"I mean.. I want a new beginning. I know that its running but I can't stay here" Once again she looks like she's going to interrupt so I speed forward.

"I've found a School which specializes in Art and I'd like to attend. I know" I pause for second taking deep breaths "I know that I was left some money after the accident and I'd like to use it to go there" I now look her in the eye. She looks like she wants to object then just as suddenly that look goes away and she nods.

"That's what you really want?" I nod "Then lets see what we need to do to get you enrolled."