Well
all I have to say is thank god for Sam. Well that's not all I have
to say, but quiet a large part of it.
I was losing consciousness
when Sam came walking up the stairs, he saw Dean trying to choke me
to death and immediately knew what was going on. He pulled the slip
of paper that I had given him that had the phrase to repel the Djinn,
and read the Arabic saying. Dean pretty much flew backwards off of me
and slammed, face first, against the worn out wooden floor of the
attic. Sam rushed over to my side, I was struggling to not pass out
but I could feel my consciousness slipping away, I finally gave up
and let the darkness take over.
I woke up being carried
down a flight of stairs, I assumed it was Dean's arms carrying me
as they usually were, but when I looked up, I was looking at Sam's
face,
"Sam?" I said, my voice was gravely and I was finding it
a little hard to breathe.
Either Sam wasn't listening or he
didn't feel the need to respond to what I had said, but he didn't
say anything until he was helping me into the car. I saw Dean sitting
in the front seat and when I tried to catch his eye it seemed like he
was trying to avoid making eye contact at all cost. I noticed Dean
had a large bruise forming on his right cheek,
"You good Dean?"
I asked, I knew how little fun it was to be possessed by anything and
to be honest the fact that he wasn't saying anything was freaking
me out.
He mumbled that he was fine and continued staring out the
window and not looking at me. Sam slid into the driver's seat and
started driving back to the motel.
We pulled into the motel
parking lot and Dean immediately jumped out of the car and went
inside the room, Sam helped me out of the car, even though I shrugged
his hands off and informed him that I wasn't in need of his
help.
We got inside the room and I lay down on the bed, I wondered
why my life was so complicated. Most girls my age were thinking about
babies and marriage. Me on the other hand, I was thinking about
repelling and killing psycho evil ancient Arabic creature. I mean,
what the hell? And what is with my luck? My boyfriend finally tells
me he loves me and now he's not even looking at me. Oh yes, my life
is fantastic.
Sorry, I've distracted myself with complaining,
which I am very good at. Anyways Dean had wandered into the bathroom
and I heard the shower turn on, I didn't blame him for wanting to
clean up, the attic was really dirty and both he and I were covered
from head to toe in dust, but I had a feeling that Dean wasn't
showering because he felt the need to be clean, I was pretty damned
sure that he was avoiding me.
Sam was looking at me
expectantly,
"What?"
Sam rolled his eyes, I guess he had
been talking to me and since I seem to be unable to pay attention to
anything other than my own very strange and moderately twisted
thoughts, he was pretty annoyed,
"I said, are you sure you're
okay. You're neck is looking pretty bad."
I brought my fingers
up to my neck and immediately felt slightly swollen and very sore
bruised skin. Dammit! I
thought, just in case my
life wasn't complicated enough, now I look like a victim of abuse.
I might not look like it, due to the whole being short and having
that cutesy blonde thing going on, but I can take care of myself. And
when people try to help me when I don't need it, well it pisses me
off.
I sighed,
"Yea Sam, I think it'll be fine. We've
gotta figure out a way to kill that Djinn son of a bitch."
"Dean
and I convinced Ted to get out of dodge for a couple days. There's
no way we're going back into that house tonight."
"We are
going back tonight. That thing could kill someone else. I'm not
letting that happen." Came Dean's voice from by the bathroom
door, I had just noticed he had come out of the bathroom, "I'm
going to kill that bastard."
"Dean-" I started, but he just
waved me off, mumbled something about going to get some food and
walked out the door of the motel.
I slumped forward in the chair I
was sitting, my chin resting on my hands,
"Sam, what is going on
with him?" I said mostly into my hands. I was determined not to cry
but Dean was kind of starting to freak me out. Having him acting so
distant made me wonder if something was seriously wrong. He usually
made jokes to cover up his emotions, but this was different, he was
flat out avoiding me.
Sam sighed,
"I think he feels bad about
what happened."
I nodded my head, yea that made sense, and
sounded very much like Dean,
"Should I just let him chill out,
or should I confront him about it?"
Sam stood up and walked over
to the small fridge in the corner of the room, pulling out a bottle
of water,
"Kaiden. Talk to him. You know he won't come out and
share anything unless he's seriously prodded. I'll say something
to him if you want."
I told him that would be good, grabbed my
duffle bag and walked into the bathroom. I was still covered in attic
dust and grime that I wanted to remove from my skin desperately. When
I had gotten out of the shower and found a pair of boxers and one of
Dean's t-shirts, I heard Dean come back into the room. I could have
gone back out of the bathroom but Sam said that he was going to talk
to Dean and I figured it would be best if I wasn't here hovering
while they did talk. I began brushing my hair but stood close enough
to the door so that I could hear their conversation,
"-freaking
her out. You need to talk to her. Tell her what's going on." Came
Sam's voice from the other side of the door
Dean's voice
followed in a much less calm tone,
"Don't you get it?! If you
hadn't have come up there I would have killed her!"
"It
wasn't you Dean! You know that, it was the Djinn!" Sam's voice
was losing all the calm that it previously had,
"I can't
protect her. I love her and I can't do anything to protect her.
Just like I can't protect you Sammy."
I couldn't just stand
in the bathroom listening to their conversation anymore. I put my
brush down on the sink and walked into the main room, trying to stop
my hands from shaking. Hearing Dean's words had scared me down to
the bone. Dean had always been my rock even while my father had been
gone, and now he seemed to be so much more human. He put so much
responsibility on himself, it was only a matter of time before he
cracked under the weight of it all,
"I don't need you to
protect me Dean, I just need to you be there."
Both Sam and
Dean's heads whipped around to look at me. I gave Sam a meaningful
look, he grabbed his coat and headed out the door, he got the
message.
Dean sat down heavily on the edge of the bed he was
standing in front of, he looked so defeated, with his head in his
hands,
"I can't lose you. Not like a lost my mom and dad."
My heart broke at the sound of his voice, it was so tired,
"I
know" I whispered and I gently stroked his cheek, I could tell that
he hadn't shaved in a while since there was a fair amount of
stubble growing over his strong jaw and cheeks.
He looked up at
me, his eyes full of tears that threatened dangerously to spill over.
As I watched him struggle with his emotions I felt my own tears slide
out of my eyes and down my cheeks
"I promise you I'll always
be here, even when you wish I'd just go away."
He laughed at
that,
"This hunt is screwing everything up. I almost killed
you."
Dean pulled me into a tight hug, my cheek rested against
his flannel covered chest.
I knew what happened earlier had
seriously rattled him, but I was determined to be the comic relief,
no stewing in guilt for my boyfriend,
"Yea well, I was planning
on killing you. But you beat me to the punch, literally. Hasn't
anyone ever told you that you always should let the lady go first?"
I
felt a chuckle rumble through is strong body, he released me from the
hug and ran and hand through his already messy hair,
"Shit, this
Genie's badass, eh?"
It was my turn to laugh,
"It's not
a genie Dean. It's a Djinn, and yea, it's pretty badass."
He
shrugged,
"Same thing."
I smiled and then yawned, I was
exhausted. I looked over at the clock and it read 1:23am. Well that
explained the being tired.
Dean noticed my yawn,
"It's
late, you should probably get some sleep. We have a big day tomorrow.
That is if mother Sam lets us do any hunting." We both climbed into
bed, he pulled he covers over us and turned off the light. He wrapped
his arms around me, "Sometimes I wonder which one of us is the big
brother."
I let myself melt into his body and fell asleep with a
smile, finally something was going right. At least, as right as it
could when you professionally hunt demons.
