Um, I'm about to throw up right now because I'm pretty sure I'm going to do a horrible Edward chapter though I think I might just opt for peeing my pants. SO, this is a fair warning, I'm scared about doing this, but my new year's resolution was to be brave and try new things to anyways, deep breath here goes nothing. Feeling fully free; say that 10 times fast.

Oh yeah, EPOV

I thought it strange that Bella wanted to drive herself to school tomorrow. But then again I thought she did a lot of strange things like accepting me, or the dump of a truck for that matter. I would definitely have to find a way to send her a new car so she could dump that truck once and for all.

I really had no idea how I was going to do this. I never thought I would be leaving Bella. Ever since even before I met her I found her fascinating.

She was truly amazing and I never deserved her. She really shouldn't die at my expense. Someone better deserved her, and she deserved someone better. She deserved the whole world. Not a half-world, full of night, cold, blood and never feeling fully free.

I would only be able to give that to her and that, was an unbelievably horrible idea to me. The whole earth should be able to rejoice in having walk on its soil. The heavens should shine upon her every day. And yet I had to be selfish; I wanted to keep her in the dark with me forever. I wanted to spend eternity with her. I wanted to say I am her husband, and that she is my wife.

I was lost in my own thoughts sitting in my Volvo. I was going to stay in here until I was sure Bella would be asleep. I would have gone inside if there was actually anything in there, but everything was gone just like I would be within the next 24 hours.

The thought pained me. I had no idea what I would do with myself once I left. I couldn't imagine life without her. My Bella, beautiful, caring, sincere- nothing I said, not even a million words, could describe her. They would have to make up new words just so they could try to come close to what she was.

I looked at the clock and noticed it was midnight. This would be the last night I would spend listening to her thoughts as she slept. I would miss this a great deal. I always hated how I could not truly hear what she was thinking. The closest I could ever get was her un-edited thoughts as she talked in her sleep, though I couldn't always understand what exactly what she was saying. I would miss the way I could calm her down in her sleep too. I knew that she still dreamt of James from time to time; but I could always calm her down and make her peaceful again.

I ran to her house, and went in through her window, being as quiet as possible, so I didn't wake either of the tenants of the house.

Just like I thought, she was asleep though she seemed to be having a bad dream. I went up to her and whispered softly in her ear, "Bella, it's okay everything is all right", but she just went on dreaming as restless as ever.

It was times like these I wished I could read her thoughts. I really hoped she wasn't having nightmares about her birthday party. I don't think I will ever be able to forgive myself for that night.

The whole time I watched her she only uttered two words, "no cliffs." Unfortunately I would never know what she meant by that. I was leaving tomorrow, and I couldn't come out and ask her that after I said I wouldn't be staying the night.

As I looked around the room, I noticed it felt different, but I didn't know why. I took another look around but I still couldn't place it. I sat there frustrated for a little bit, but then I just sat there watching beautiful Bella in her restless sleep.

I left at four, just in case. Bella was always unpredictable to me; whenever I expected her to do one thing she always ended up doing the complete opposite, and I would never get tired of that.

I got dressed for school like always. I couldn't believe I would ever be able to fake it and go to monotonous high school ever again. The best reason there had ever been to go to school was to see Bella. But that wasn't supposed to happen ever again after today. I was going to commit this day to memory as one of the best and worst days in my entire existence.

I got to school a little early to wait for Bella, honoring her choice drive her wretched truck. It was still a half an hour but I was horribly impatient when it came to seeing her. I knew it was going to be unbelievably hard to leave her like this, when we could spend so much more time together. I didn't want to cut our meeting short but I had to for her.

The bell was about to ring for homeroom, so I hurried to class. I was really worried that Bella was late, it was unlike her. But then again she was riding with me; not in a truck that went slower than a snail.

I kept expecting her to stumble through the door, but it was a lost hope. I went through all of my classes worrying about her, and waiting to hear an explanation from her. All the classes were a haze and at lunch I felt out of place without her. There was no one here to be with me for the first time in a hundred years I felt completely alone, and it scared me. I knew I would be feeling like this a lot though in the many years to come. I wasn't sure if I would actually be able to function around my family.

At three o'clock I finally heard the shrill ringing I had been waiting for all day. I was free to go check on Bella one last time. I was free from this purgatory the government called a school.

When I got to my car I noticed that it smelled wonderful. It smelled like Bella had just been in here. I took a minute to inhale deeply wishing the interior would smell like this forever. Then I sped of towards her house.

I didn't want to have to separate us so fast, but I didn't exactly want to hang around for a couple of hours and then say, "Oh, by the way I'm leaving forever, see you never." That definitely seemed harsh. I knew she be over me soon though, while I on the other hand would be left for an eternity to-

"Stop it Edward!" I growled to myself out loud. I'd have to remain calm and collected in front of Bella.

After about five minutes I arrived at Bella's driveway. The first thing I noticed was that Bella's truck wasn't in the driveway. That was strange, but maybe she had gone to get some things needed. I could wait a couple of minutes. Heck, I could an eternity though I wasn't sure how long Bella could wait.

After twenty minutes, I was getting anxious she shouldn't be taking this long, no matter how slow her truck was.

I decided to go in and look around though I could hear that no one was inside. The first thing I did was go to Bella's room.

Just like last night it felt different. Unlike like last night I could place the reason why. Almost all of her things were gone, with the exception of furniture and a few nick nacks here and there.

I stood there in disbelief until I came to senses. The first thing I did was call the police station. Hopefully I would get some truthful answers out of Charlie the first time.

"Forks police station how may I help you?" answered an obviously bored female.

"Hello, I'd like to talk to Chief Swan. Tell him it's Edward, and it's kind of important."

I hear a little bit of scuffle as the phone was handed over, until I finally heard Charlie.

"Edward, hi, so what's the problem?"

"I was just wondering if you knew that Bella was gone. She didn't come to school today, and when I went to check on her at home she wasn't there. Her truck and most of her things were gone too. She never said anything to me." I couldn't decide if the silence was good or bad. "Charlie, are you still there?"

"She's gone, did she leave a note? If she did it would be on the counter."

I raced downstairs human pace considering I was still on the phone. And then I saw the note. It said Charlie on the front and was folded over. I scanned over it. It said she was missed her mother and was going to go see her. It also said she would check in later and to not call the police. I transferred all of this information back to Charlie.

"Why would she leave? I'm coming there right now."

All I said to Charlie was, "I'm sorry I have to go."

I left her house, got my car, and went to my house. Right away I called Alice.

It barely took her a second to answer.

"Hey Edward, feeling lonely yet?" She sounded bored. She knew about Bella.

"Alice you know something. Where is she?"

"I'm guessing you haven't looked in your CD drawer yet."

"No I haven't, why would I need to?" Alice was defiantly starting to frustrate me; she was the one who could see the future she should just get to the point.

"Well dear boy, there would happen to be a note in there, once you find it do reflect. Oh, and p.s. I give my props to Bella, we all do." That was all she said before she hung up.

I looked in the drawer and sure enough there was a note in there, addressed to me this time in Bella's sloppy, hurried, hand writing.

Edward,

You are a total and complete imbecile if you thought I would take this (you leaving) sitting down. You would also be idiotic if you thought I would let you guys leave because of me. You frustrate the hell out of me, but I still love you though. Since I turned the tables and left you, I think you should take some time and reflect about how I would feel if you left me. Oh tell everyone goodbye for me, and tell them I love them all. Don't forget to reflect and once you're done come find me, that is if you want. I love you, always and forever. Never forget that.

Love,

Bella

I read the note and I couldn't believe it. I was sure that if it was even possible, I fell even more in love with her after reading this. She was right about everything I was a total and complete imbecile to think I could leave her.

It only took about ten seconds to realize how horrible both of us would feel if I left her. This way I would get to go back to her and beg her for forgiveness that I even thought about leaving her. I just hoped it wouldn't take so long to find her on my own because I could tell Alice might not be giving me any help on this one she thought I was an imbecile too. I couldn't wait to find Bella I was missing her every second.

I started trying to track her right away as I sped out of my driveway. I noticed it was dark outside. I also noticed how bad I was at tracking when I followed her scent back to her house.

I don't know why but this reminded me of last spring when James was the one tracking Bella. Luckily, this time the person who was tracking her would rather torture himself to death than hurt a hair on her.

Then I realized that my vulnerable Bella was out there alone; and god knows what that danger magnet would attract.

I called Alice again.

A/N: okay guys this one is my longest yet. So you better like it. Anyways thanks to my reviewers. Oh and guys the chaps might start coming out every two days though I will try my hardest. This chapter took me like millions of hours. But I did it all for you. Hey anybody on aim want to talk to me it's andie56001 and my email is Anyways I got to go I will try to reply to you guys but my butt kind of hurts. And that's how I saved Britain. Andie out!!!