Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in New Moon or Twilight… Stephenie Meyers does… that gets annoying…

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Recap- He looked up at me and grabbed my face in his hands, "You promise?" He said sternly. I nodded a little unsure, but I knew that nothing would stop my love for Edward. This is bad. This is really bad. I thought, as he kissed me just as he had before he left me in the deserted forest.

He released my face from his grasp, and took a deep breath, before grabbing my hand and began….

"Bella, you know that I love you more than anything else in this entire universe?" I nodded my head slightly begging him to continue. "I love you with all my being and want you with me forever. I would do anything for you, absolutely anything you wanted, and anything to keep you safe." He accentuated that last sentence and a small shiver ran down my spine but I ignored it.

I smiled warmly up at him and leaned in to kiss him softly. "I know Edward. I love you with all that I have. I would do anything for you also." He nodded his head and smiled but the beautiful happiness didn't reach his still pained eyes. A moment passed before anyone spoke,

"Edward, please," I took the sides of his face in my hands and tilted his head to look into my eyes, "Please tell me what is going on." He took a deep breath that he didn't need and brought my hands down into his lap.

"Bella, when I said I would do anything to keep you safe, I meant it. I meant absolutely anything," he paused and began very softly. "Even if that something might hurt you." He looked at me for reassurance and I realized that I was holding my breath.

"Okay," I gently prodded Edward to keep going.

He shifted in his seat so that he was directly staring into my eyes. "Bella, the other day my family and I went hunting. We were out in the woods behind our house and we ran into that wolf pack from La Push." Oh no! This cannot be good. I thought to myself wincing at the way he spat out the word wolf. He continued immediately. "I didn't mean to, but I- I just couldn't help it I was just out of control and I listened to his thoughts-, he- he" Edward was shaking now, his eyes were bitch black as he watched the scene replay in his mind. "He immediately thought about you!" My eyes shot open; he's talking about Jacob. My heart started beating furiously. As Edward shook and described Jacob's thoughts about my safety with a "monster", the way I had chose Edward over him, the way he was going to take me back.

Edward jumped up and paced as he said those last few words, "How he was going to take you back," he paused, "By force." Edward had his back towards me as he said this and I knew he was thinking about the hurt we would both go through if that occurred. His body shook with fury.

But then I remembered. Jake's dead, he can't take me back no-. I stopped mid-thought. No, no! Edward you didn't! No not Jake you didn't kill him! I was the one shaking now as Edward walked back towards me. I decided to finish his story. "Edward, you- you killed" I winced at the hole this ripped through me. "YOU killed Jacob." I was astounded at my own words. Thoughts were swimming through my mind. How could he? He knew how much he meant to me! My sunshine, my best friend, my everything when Edward left me, was dead, because of him.

I looked up to see Edward kneeling beside the sofa where we were sitting. My body was still shaking as I strangled out the last few words I could think to say, "How could you?" I tilted my head and pulled away from the arms that were being outstretched to me.

His eyes searched for anything that would comfort me, but I could tell he was being unsuccessful. "Bella, it wasn't like that." I turned slowly to look at him. "I couldn't let him take you! I couldn't let him bring you to that! I wouldn't let him!"

"I wouldn't have gone with him!" I screamed and jumped off the couch when he touched my arm, as if he had burned me. "I would NEVER have gone with him!"

"I know Bella," he whispered softly. "I know, I couldn't restrain myself that's all I could think about when I was with you." He paused and looked up at me on the opposite side of the room. "I wouldn't let him take you away from me. He could have Bella," he stated rather informatively. "If he tried he could have, even if you didn't want him to."

I stared at him shaking my head in disbelief. "So you KILLED HIM!" I said with more acidity and power than I was expecting. Edward looked both shocked and almost scared.

"Bella, I didn't know what else to do." He hung his head, and his shoulders started shaking in a tearless cry. I could feel my face burn from lividness and grated my teeth at the vampire I thought I loved.

"I hate you." I whispered. And the worst part about that was that it was true.

Edward's body froze as I said these words. He stood up slowly and looked at me through the most gorgeous face I had ever seen. My arms ached to comfort him out of habit but my mind felt nothing but pure hatred for the monster standing across from me.

"You killed my best friend." I stated blatantly. "You killed the only being that kept me alive when you left." His face got even more sorrow filled when I reminded him of this. "Someone who loves me would never take that away, even if it meant risking hurt of themselves." The words coming out of my mouth rang with certainty and precision, but I couldn't bring myself to look into Edward's eyes.

Edward's cold body looked almost like if anyone breathed to hard he would blow away, I stood my ground not showing any emotion to the vampire, and came to a realization. "I can't love you Edward." I looked at the ground, and inwardly I whimpered at the truth of my statement as I realized that statement myself. I could never love someone who took that much from me.

I stared at Edward, and when he did not make a move to continue I moved towards the door. He stayed in the same spot the entire time.

When I grabbed the handle of the door Edward finally whispered, "I will always love you Isabella Swan. I'm so sorry." And I walked out closing the door before I could hear my ex-love collapse.

Edward's POV

As I heard the door close behind her, my entire body was engulfed in misery. My beautiful angel, she left. And I made her leave. I was the reason she did.

I cried to myself remembering her every perfection. The way her cheeks would beautifully blush at any embarrassing statement or happening, the way she would quietly mumble in her sleep, the way her chestnut hair fell down her back, her gorgeous chocolate colored eyes that showed her every emotion, her amazing floral smell that intoxicated every pore of my body, the way her lips felt pressed against mine.

I couldn't believe I had pushed that away in 10 minutes of losing control. All it took was one move and I killed him. But, that one move hurt Bella also, what have I done? God Damn that dog. If it wasn't for him none of this would have happened. But, she wouldn't have met him if I hadn't have left her unprotected. It was all my fault.

I lay on the floor curled up in a ball, thinking about my angel until the family came in. I blocked out all of their minds which were sure to either be full of sympathy or anger and ran into the forest to wait until, I could watch the beautiful girl that held my love peacefully sleep.

I paced in the dense forest outside of Charlie's house until twilight thinking about how I could win Bella back, if there was a way. Then, as I replayed our conversation over and over in my head I noticed something.

The entire time she was yelling and I was trying to explain things to her, she didn't cry, not one single tear. What could that mean? Did it mean anything?