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Alright bear with me in this chapter… lots of information to clear things up… But a lot of stuff to wrap your mind around..
Bella's POV
As I walked out onto the Cullen's porch I immediately felt the emotion that was obviously missing before, overcoming my every movement. Sadness about Jacob, vicious fury towards the vampire I once loved, regret for ever choosing Edward over the warm and cheerful boy whom I owed my happiness to, beleaguered by all that had occurred in the past two days; everything crept upon me as I carefully made my way down the porch steps clutching the railing so I wouldn't collapse.
I suddenly realized that Alice had driven me here, and that I had no means of getting home. I thought for a moment and decided that it was going to be a long walk.
As I started down the meadow path towards the street I heard the soft purr of an expensive engine behind me. I turned around to see Jasper and Alice sitting in the front seat of the BMW. Alice gently smiled at me, getting out of the car and surrounded me in her strong and graceful arms.
Alice kept her arms around my shoulders, leading me to the car. She helped me into the back seat before sliding in gracefully next to me, without a single word.
The car ride back to my house was silent, except for the sounds of the other cars on the street. I laid my head on Alice's shoulder suddenly excruciatingly tired, and thought about how I was going to be able to stay away from not only him, but also the pixie-like girl that had easily become my best friend.
Finally, we reached the small town home that had been my home for only about two years, and I was suddenly struck with the enormity of my decision. I would never get to be close to Alice ever again, I would never be crushed by Emmett's bear hugs, and never be comforted my the loving Esme, never see Jasper and feel the relief in his calming effect, and never get to listen to Carlisle's always trustworthy advice, I was even going to miss Rosalie, a little.
I smiled warmly at Alice trying to convey my apology for everything to come. "Thank you Alice, for everything, you were amazing to me and I don't know if I can ever repay that," She started to reply, but I quickly continued, " You were my best friend," Her face turned from confusion to realization. She shook her head and pulled me in for another hug.
"Bella, no, you don't have to leave. What Edward did is horrible, I know, but that doesn't mean, you and I can't be friends, please Bella." She held the top of my arms in her delicate hands and pleaded with me.
I could only shake my head slowly in response to her begs. "I am so sorry Alice, I love you like a sister." With that I gave her another quick hug and smiled half-heartingly at her.
Before I unlocked the door I waved at Jasper who was now comforting a sobbing Alice in the passenger seat. He looked at me and mouthed, "It will all be alright." And I ran inside to pack my things.
About an hour later-
Finally I had everything together, all my clothes were stuffed into suitcases, not surprisingly in 5 more bags than I came with, because of Alice's shopping habits. I had my sock full of emergency money and was searching everywhere in my room for the photo album I had finally completed two weeks prior.
I finally gave up on finding the book and started loading all my suitcases into the truck I was severely going to miss. I got into the old cab and started the engine with a loud roar. As I backed out of the driveway I thought about Charlie, I couldn't just leave him here not knowing where I went. He would have a heart attack.
I quickly decided to stop by La Push on my way to the airport. As I was driving all I could think about, was everything I was leaving behind. Charlie, the Cullens with the exception of him, Billy, everyone from school. I made a mental note to make sure to write to Mike, as I passed the sporting store him and I worked at together.
Finally, I reached La Push. Looking out of the window, memories flooded my mind. Memories of the first trip that had brought Jake and I together, the months that him and I worked together on the motorcycles debating on how old we both really were, the day I had jumped off the cliff, everything revolving around Jake in some way.
These memories tore at the newly present hole and threatened to pull me under the dark waters that had almost drowned me when he left.
I was nearly scared to death, when I heard a knocking on the passenger door of my truck. I hadn't even realized I was stopped. I thanked God for the skill to pull over to the side of the street in the state of being I was in.
I looked up to see the face of Quil Ateara smiling lightly at me through the window. I leaned over and opened the door for him, greeting him with a simple hello.
As soon as he entered the cab the temperature rose making my body more relaxed. He looked at his hands resting in his lap and put us both in an uncomfortable silence.
"How are you?" he asked never taking his eyes off of his hands.
"Alright, what about you?" I immediately looked all over him for any reminisce of his and his encounter. I saw nothing, and for that I was extremely relieved.
"Okay," Quil's eyes were sad when they looked up at me, I instantly felt the need to cuddle him and tell him everything was going to be alright. I stayed put in my seat however, not wanting to make him uncomfortable. "I am so sorry Bella, so very sorry," Quil whispered to me, true sympathy in his eyes.
"Quil, none of this is your fault, none of it. I don't want you saying sorry." I asked him, trying to persuade him to believe me. He still looked as though he was startlingly guilty.
He nodded his head and looked back down to study his fingers. I reached over and put my hand on his shoulder, determined to make him believe what I had said was true. His beautiful hazel eyes set in mine. I haven't ever noticed his eyes were hazel. I thought to myself smiling.
Quil lightly set his hand on top of mine, smiling in thanks to my pleas.
Quil looked around the cab for a minute before his eyes turned into an expression of curiosity. "Are you going somewhere?"
I smiled remembering my plans. "Yeah, I'm going to leave for awhile." He looked very upset by this and I tilted my head in question.
"Don't leave." He said grasping my hand that was resting on the seat beside me. "Please, don't leave."
"I have to Quil, I can't be here with everything that's happening." He looked at me knowingly but still looked hurt by my decision.
"I'll protect you." He said as if proclaiming himself my guardian. I laughed slightly by his misinterpretation of my words.
"No, I'm not in danger, I don't think, I just… there's a lot going on and I- I don't think I can handle all of it right now." Quil had his brow wrinkled together and looked at me as if thinking of a proper way to propose an idea.
"Bella, stay here. Stay with me. I'll help you." I could almost see the shocked expression that must have been on my face. Did he just ask me to stay with him? Why? He barely knows me? "Please Bella don't leave." Quil grabbed my other hand so he was holding both of my hands pleading his point through his gorgeous eyes.
"I don't know Quil, I barely know you, I mean wouldn't it be easier for me to just go?" I shook my head and tried to comprehend what he had asked me.
"No, Bella, no it wouldn't be easier. Please stay I will keep you away from those disgusting leeches," I flinched at his use of words. "I promise you'll be safe." I understood then he thought I was leaving because I was scared of the Cullens.
"No, I'm not afraid of the Cullens. That's not why I am leaving." I exasperatedly explained. Quil's eyebrows furrowed and he cocked his head to one side showing his obvious confusion. I had to laugh at this. I am everything but scared of the Cullens. I could never be scared of Alice or Emmett or Carlisle even when I knew I should be.
"You're not leaving because of them?" this question stumped me a little. Yes, I was leaving because of what he did. I hadn't thought about it that way. When I did it made me very anxious. I shouldn't be running away from my home because of him. No, no I am not leaving. I decided
"Well I was," I dropped off the rest of my sentence in deep thought about how I was going to pull this all off.
"So, you're not leaving?" Quil was confused and his voice made me chuckle a little I could only imagine what kind of crazy person he thought I was.
"No, I am not leaving." I pronounced more to myself than anyone else.
"Okay?" I looked at Quil and he looked as if I had just been teleported by aliens or something. His eyebrows were wrinkled his head was cocked to the side and his mouth hung slightly ajar.
I burst out laughing because of his face and soon enough he was laughing also. Well the humor wore off I was contemplating how I was going to stay in Washington without bring with him. I swiftly thought of something and smiled to myself, I looked up at the handsome boy sitting across from me, "Quil?"
He looked up from his hands and nodded at me, "Yeah?"
"Ummmm… is it too late to take up your offer of staying with you?" I was scared at what his reaction would be. If he said, no, where was it I was going? But these thoughts were quickly interrupted.
"I would love that." I turned to Quil and he wore the biggest smile I had ever seen. And I returned one.
"Thank you," I said. As I turned the car back on, I patted the seat close to me motioning him to sit nearer to me. He slid over and to my surprise put his deliciously warm arm around my waist.
What now?.. hmmmmm… U have to wait to find out… I will try and update tomorrow!…
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