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Chapter 4 Destruction

January 6, 1975


Dear Diary,

All of hell has broke loose. Naturally, Papa is the cause of it. What did he do you ask? Killed the Minister of Magic and his family, five well known and powerful Aurors and their families, ten additional families, save the ones in Hogwarts, a whole muggle village, and to top it all off, he has decimated the Ministry itself. And what was the reason for all of this? Because he was bored and wanted to have some fun.

I don't find Papa's idea of fun all that fun.You can only imagine what's happening here. Its like an apocalypse here. Screams of 'Were all gonna die' ring in the halls. I don't think Madame Pomfrey has ever worked so hard in her life. Calming draughts, cheering charms, you name it she's doing it. I think she's having a meltdown herself as she has taken to stunning people, even those who are calm.

Reinforcements from St. Mungo's are on their way. I guess your wondering what the students are like. Half are crying because they lost a love one, the muggleborns are running around trying to figure out what village was massacred, the ones who didn't lose anyone are trying to console their friends, and of course, the Slytherins are having a field day. My guards are having so much fun knocking people down when they get too close to me.

Their like kids in a candy-shop. While they continued their fun, I went on by myself. As I walked the corridors, I had an encounter with Sirius Black and his brother James. No longer did they have a mischievous glint in their eyes. In James' eyes their was sorrow, fear, worry. In Sirius was just blank black eyes. I shall repeat the conversation that took place:

Walking up the corridor aimlessly I was surrounded by fighting screaming students. However, two were walking towards me. I stopped and waited. Sirius looked at me for a few seconds before he said a word."Well, well, well if it isn't her Highness walking by her lonesome. It's dangerous for you to do so Princess.", as he bowed to me. I kept me voice as dead and blank as possible as I responded. "Do not mock me Sirius Black. My name is Marie, call me otherwise and I will kill you." Behind him I saw James laughing.

"To what do you find funny James Potter?" As he caught his breath, he amusedly looked at me.

"That a little fourth year says she is going to kill Pads that's what. Like you could ever do such a thing." Sirius looked at him warily. "Prongs, she means it. Don't cross her, she'll kill you in the blink of an eye." The boy Prongs quieted at this and had a look of horror upon his face, I observed with satisfaction.

Sirius turned back to me. "But really what are you doing by yourself? Where are your guards?"

"Out mauling students most likely. Besides I do not need those weak humans to protect me, I can handle myself just fine."

As I turned to go he called me back. "Who is responsible for this?"

"And here I was thinking you were smart. Who else would it be besides my Papa and his slaves?"

"Why? Why is he doing all of this? What is the point?!" The look on Sirius' face was full of rage and hate. I found myself growing to like this boy more and more.

"I have no answer for I am not in direct contact with him. And what does it matter anyway? Papa is a manic man and any answer would hardly make since of this massacre. There is no point in all of this. My Papa just likes to kill that is all."
This just seemed to make him madder. "But why?! why does he like to kill? What will we gain from this suffering? Why do people do these things for him? It makes no sense!"

I waited for him to calm down. "Papa is the way he is because he is unloved by all. He was never loved so why would he have a sense of right and wrong? Why would he care for people when no one cared for him? Its to be expected. He was brought up in the pureblood mania and has it in his head the magical world needs to be pure. As it is with his slaves. You know how the process is as you lived through it. Brainwashed into believing that they and everyone like them are superior. People not like them need to die because they were not born pure. They are weak Sirius, you and I know it. They can not survive unless they are told what to do. They need someone to lead them, and it just so happens to be Papa. They will give their very lives for a man who sees them as nothing more then as pawns in his game. He cares for not one of them, they are dispensible to him and yet they think they are needed. For once I wish they could see the truth. You, you are the only one who is strong. You see the truth and I thank you for that. I only wish you could have saved your brother. We shall gain nothing from this except that the witch and wizarding death toll will be at its highest."My words seemed to calm him. He was looking at me with an emotion in his eyes that was new to me. He spoke quietly "Then why aren't you like the rest of them? Why are you able to see the wrong in this?"

"Because I am not human, nor was I ever. I feel no hate no hate for themas I have no reason to. I am able to rationalize things unlike my Papa. I find no point in the killings Papa commits. No being in this world ids perfect and Papa is for from even being called undecent. It is my belief that a mudblood is able to use a wand just like a halfbreed and pureblood do. I see no reason why they should be hated."

At this point I was walking away and called over my shoulder to him. "You have my respect Sirius Black. This is a good thing as not many do."

I have not seen him since are little chat but I have a feeling that he sees me not as his enemy anymore. I am now back in my dormroom while the school is on lock down. Hundreds of Aurors are protroling the school as are the professors. Calm has finally taken over the school but I find myself having an internal battle raging war within my body. I am torn let again on my decision on whether to follow in Papa's footsteps or to make my own path on what is right.

Some days I find myself wanting to do right while other wrong. I most choose wisely. I don't know if I should please the purebloods or please the wizarding world. Either way it will be hard and will affect the future of both worlds. What do you do in these situations?

- Marie O.

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