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Chapter 7 First Time

May 28, 1976

Dear Diary,

Today's my 16th birthday. As usual, we had a ball. Papa gave me expensive presents. Nothing but the finest for his daughter he says. I'm beginning to find this lifestyle dull. Everything is predictable. You always know what someone is going to say. You know that the say gaggle of women who talk enthusiastically now will talk harshly about one another when they get home that night.

Talk is the same. Death to mudbloods, bloodtraitors who had so much potenial if they were raised right and how Papa's quest is a noble cause. I can't believe that I ever found any of this interesting as a child. I was such a fool. Only two things peaked my attention at the ball. One being that Sirius continually smiled at me everytime I looked his way. It was starting to get annoying when he came over and we had a debate on how the mudbloods should be treated.

It sustained me for half of he ball until his mother came over and politely yet forcefully pulled him away. The second being that as I was mingling Regulus came over and led into a deserted corridor. I guess he thought that since I was talking to his brother that I was becoming one of those dumb broads at school who have fallen for him. Insolent boy, as if i'd ever degrade myself as to be a weak human.

Whatever the reason he wanted to make sure that I didn't stray from him. He decided that that his present to me would be him taking my virginity. I didn't lose it like normal girls. I didn't have the luxury of being in a bed or even on the ground. No, I had to special and be up against a cement wall with my legs wrapped around him. And of course he couldn't be gentle, not Regulus Black, pay no mind to the fact I'm not experienced at all.

He was extremly rough biting and squeezing me way too hard and yelling lude words into my ear. All I did was sit there and look at the ajacent wall and pretend that what was happening wasn't. He was going at such a fast pace that I was still bleeding long after he broke my hymen. I think he broke some other things I must go see the nurse. The whole experience was very painful, but I paid it no mind, I'm use to being in pain.

Once he was finished, he had the nerve to say he loved me and walked away leaving me by myself. The idiot didn't even bother to use a contreceptive charm, thank god I did it. I see know why Regulus never had any long term relationships. After he had sex with them they ran as far as possible away from him. I'd do the same if I weren't betrothed to him. I am or was a virgin and even I know he doesn't have a clue as to what he was doing.

It was like being humped by a dog. I cleaned up the blood on the floor, rearranged my dress, and stood there for a few minutes composing myself. I walked back to the ball and pretended as if nothing happened. Regulus had a triumpahnt smirk on his face as he couldn't manage to smile and Sirius looked at me with an odd expression on his face. If I know Regulus, and I do, he probably bragged to his brother about what just happened and from the angry looks the other boys were giving him, I suspect that quite a few others know too.

I should have expected that. When I went to my room later that night as Bellatrix brushed my hair, she told me she heard what happened. I inwardly cringed. I decided to tell her what happened and at the end she laughed. She told me that shwe knew he didn't know what he was doing and was going to warn me about tonight. How unlucky for me. She said Regulus is not boy you want to lose your virginity to, and I painfully found out the reason why.

She assured me that all boys aren't like that and most know what they are doing. Narcissa promised me that once we get to school she'd set me up with a guy who knows what he's doing. Even with this promise I don't look forward to it. There is no Slytherin girl alive that isn't a slut. Unfortunately I will have to become one also. I must do what every pureblood Slytherin girl does.

However I think i'll become a mild slut not a full blown one. Of course Papa knows what happened. He looked pleased and dissapointed at the same time. Inwardly I wish that he was dissapointed at me as I am dissapointed with myself. He told me that as soon as I graduate I will marry Regulus. He also said he wish that I would have waited a little while to consamate my marriage. Also he said that I should go see the nurse first thing in the morning, as he is aware that Reg had no clue as to what he was doing. Wonderful, Voldemort has smypathy for my, and about that of all things.

- Marie O

Kinda short I know, but I just wanted to get this scene over with. There is only like two or three more chapters in this story. Then I'm heading off two the sequel. Don't think I've told you this but I plan to start a new story every time Marie starts a new stage of life or something important happens. Anyhoo please review and if you have any requests you know what to do.