Hehe I am so glad everyone really enjoyed the first two chapters of this story, I only hope I can continue to please you with my future endeavors, I know I don't update frequently, but please be advised I am trying my best, alongside my other stories, I do have the real world to attend to haha, not that I don't take the Fanfiction world seriously! XP
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Sitting up she encircled her arms around his neck and pressed her forehead against his own, lips mere inches apart, behind his head, where her fingers were interlaced she successfully popped out the ring and pulling her right arm back that held the ring, she looked at his eyes glazed over with a mix of lust and love. Placing the ring on the table stand near by, Gwendolyn draped her lips over Ben's.
Please forgive me Edwin.
She sighed blissfully, the aftermath of her love making always made her toes curl, her breath heavy or more so heavenly pant whilst her chest moved in sync. She found nothing stood in their way when this time of union commenced.
Her vision, she found was blurry as always…
"What we are doing is wrong…" her vision was blurry and she tried to blink it out yet failed, he gently cupped her face and brought it back to his own.
He, she found was even more glorious when naked as always…
"look at me." she sighed and smiled. He was even more glorious when naked.
They, she found would love each other forever and always…
" I love you, I don't care." he gruffly stated. A mischievous smile playing on his lips.
Caressing the side of his face she kissed him lightly. "Then neither do I."
"Gwendolyn…" she turns to him and her smile is faint but present. She is exhausted but so inspired to move when she hears him call out for her, so she does so and places her hand gently on his bare chest. "Hmm?"
"They'll be returning soon…"
It's in these moments that her heart is pulled tightly apart, no, squished, hammered, stung, her breath is no longer heavy from the exhilarating act just recently performed with her counterpart, but from the truth they desperately try to run from. What they are doing is wrong, they know this. What this is, is wrong. They know this.
But how can they hope to fight it? To stop it. When it has become so addicting to the point where it's second nature, no first nature, and nothing else seems more right?
She doesn't want to move, not this time. For even though her memories compel at her to ascertain that this isn't the first time they have done this, it was her first time nonetheless. In all it's revamped glory, it was her first time.
She wanted to enjoy it, to continue to feel his skin against hers, sweaty and warm, his scent intoxicating and familiar, she wanted to reminisce she found. For in his action she could feel how he felt for her, but she wanted to hear it for herself, to find for herself, that her memories are indeed not false, that this isn't a dream, and she wouldn't wake up once the pornography was diluted from her perverted mind.
"Ben…do you remember, the first time we kissed?" He gave a gruff sound, maybe due to the question at hand and men being notoriously known for not wanting 'pillow talk' or maybe because she had moved her right leg to wrap around his torso to get him to succumb to her will.
She grins as he sighs, his breath mixing in with her hair, she shivers when his left hand grazes her right thigh in a comforting, rubbing motion. He is reminiscing. She smiles up at him and he glances down at her, a smile of his own evident in his eyes.
"Yeah… I do."
How could she! How…how could she! He was enraged, the reason known yet the reason for that unknown. Why would he be so mad that she had just agreed to go out with Edwin, let geeks be with geeks right? Why get caught up in their affairs?
Ew…you wanna go out with her? Good Luck, don't say I didn't warn you if you end up with a disease of nerdiness."
That's how he felt about her right….right?
Wrong. For as he looked upon Gwen moving to leave her seat and follow Edwin as he escorted her to the movie theater, he knew. Knew that he didn't feel that way about her. In fact, he ventured to say the way he was feeling for her as of recent was really, really bad.
She had placed money down at the table but Edwin had picked it up and handed it back to her. " Nonsense. I had interrupted your meal, the least I can do is pay for it."
"It's not necessary Edwin, really."
" I insist, really, paying for you is nothing Gwen." he smiled at her simply and Gwen protested no further. Ben scowled and gave a small "humph" that only Gwen heard but otherwise was not heeded by the other occupants of the little café.
"Tell Grandpa I won't be long." came her indignant voice and shortly after she left without so much as a glance back. He sat there for awhile and stared at his barely eaten food. How could things mess up so quickly? He wondered.
"Hey there darling, what happened to that nice little girlfriend-oh excuse me doll, cousin was it? You know the little girl with you?" the simple minded waitress looked down at Ben concerned and even taped his shoulder gently which snapped him out of his reverie.
"Huh…oh, hi." She frowned at his response and decided not to prod any further, she noticed the money on the table and upon counting it picked it up, it was exact change plus a tip. She was about to ask if he was really finished when she glanced at the food, but when he shifted to get up and aimlessly walk out the shop she sighed.
"Poor little guy."
"So…what movie would you like to see?" Edwin fidgeted slightly before straightening to look 'manly' when Gwen walked passed him.
"Edwin…this seems to be an old movie playing theater…"
Edwin nodded his head in agreement but then spoke after noticing she wasn't facing him and couldn't see him agreeing. "Yup, there's nothing else in this town, nothing near anyways. I'm sorry, do you wish to do something else?"
She shook her head and scanned the listings. " No, no this will be fine. Hmm…Haha Star wars…I am sure Ben would-" she stopped herself when she found she couldn't go for more than twenty minutes without thinking of Ben.
"Ben would what?"
"Nothing. Never mind, hey what's this-Flowers in the attic. Interesting name." Edwin walked up to her and examined the synopsis of the movie. He nodded his head in approval and turned to Gwen. " Quite an old film, well…not that old, 1987, but it's based off a book from 1979."
Gwen turned to the ticket teller. " I'm interested, let's see it 'kay?" Edwin simply nodded vigorously just happy to be doing something with Gwen. As they purchased the tickets, or more so Edwin did so generously Gwen kept thinking about the synopsis of the story. It would seem this movie was a mystery, suspense of sorts, where the mother locks her children in an attic in order to receive inheritance from the father.
As they entered the theater they immediately headed towards the concession stand, a rush of brown hair and piercing green eyes came into her peripheral sights and with a polite excuse of having to use the little girl's room she went off to find the boy who has been haunting her every thought based on that simple glimpse.
Rounding a corner she was indeed in the vicinity of the restrooms, and after searching every crook and cranny and asking the only male to come out of the men's room if there was a brown haired green eyed 'punk' hiding in there, to which the man, confused, responded lightly with a 'no' Gwen gave up.
Slumping against a semi pillar-esque wall she sighed. " I need to stop including him in every aspect of my life…"
"Who me?"
"AH!!!" slapping the air around her in a fit of surprise she came into contact undoubting with Ben's cheek. "OUCH! Gwen! OW! Why!" the stinging sensation on his cheek was only amplified when she smacked his chest in rage.
"Benjamin Tennyson how dare you scare me like that!!" Placing the hand she had just used to smack his chest upon her own she looked at him, anger and fright dying down. "What are you doing here anyways?"
He gave her an incomprehensible look before giving a grunt of disinterest. " I wanted to see a movie too." she raised her eyebrow at him in amusement and pointed at him lazily. "You? Glancing around the theater to emphasize her upcoming point she continued. "wanted to see a movie…correction an old movie, in a run down theater such as this, rather then reading comics of those super sum…slammer thingamabobs?"
"Hey! I do more than read comics!"
"I'm sure." she mocked.
"Yeah! I do! Like how you do more than be all…geeky, with your laptop!" She looked at him curiously and he followed up on his retort. "Yeah! Haha, who would have guessed that the great Gwendolyn actually dated?" at her facial expression he grinned in triumph.
"Shut it dweeb."
"Oh but I just started!" he opened his arms like an announcer, even though there was no one around to hear his words. " No, no people Gwendolyn not only dates! But she goes to see sappy movies as well!" She started to clench her fists tightly as she hissed Ben's name.
He ignored her of course and continued. "Yes people, be in shock, Gwen really IS a girl! Who would have guessed!" Stomping her foot and crossing her arms she yelled for him to shut up and leave her and Edwin alone.
Upon hearing the mention of the other boy's name, something inside Ben snapped a little and he glared at her raising his voice to match the tone of Gwen's. "To a rich jerk nonetheless!!" her eyes widened and she let her arms drop languidly due to her shock.
"…what?" she barely audibly asked.
"You heard me." was his curt reply. "you're first date is too…some conceited rich, 'I know everything' JERK!"
"why…you…you…" her voice was ominous, but more so in awe, shock from the words Ben were clearly saying. She stopped herself and let her head fall, Ben reacted instantly about to place his hand on her shoulder in guilt but reframed when he remembered how mad at her he was.
About to start up again about how she was pathetic or something he was cut off by Gwen's livid voice. "I ONLY WENT OUT WITH HIM BECAUSE OF YOU!"
Stunned he fell back a few steps and almost succeeded in tripping, it was a wonder no one was coming to the bathroom…then again it was a pretty abandoned movie theater. He glanced around his surroundings first, making sure that the place wasn't about to crumble by the sheer intensity of Gwen's voice.
When she turned around so as to not face him anymore Ben was allowed to recollect his thoughts. Because of me? "Gwen…what do you mean, 'because of me'" She didn't answer him and he sighed in response. "Gwen…I'm sorry. I…I've been a major jerk lately. I didn't mean to say all those things honest."
"Then why did you say it." her meek voice came out after awhile only to fade back into the silence of the room soon after.
"I don't know…maybe…" the word following after stopped Ben from continuing and this caused Gwen to turn around slightly to get a look at him. "Ben?" When he hid his eyes with the bangs of his brunette hair she moved forward and placed a hand gently on his shoulder.
"Ben…go on." she wanted him to say it, she had no idea what he was going to say, in all honesty, but it felt like right now, in this very instant she desperately, life dependently needed to hear it.
An angry sigh escaped him, that of surrender, that of knowing consequence will arise from the action about to be taken. "I'm jealous. Alright Gwen? Happy? I'm jealous!" He abruptly stopped and as her lips tried to mouth out 'what' Ben with fury and pent up love reached for his cousin's shoulders and briskly kissed her lips.
To which Gwen did not deny.
"Hehe…" Gwendolyn giggled lightly, it was a new memory, but she was starting to feel accustomed to the new adaptations to her life. As Ben recalled the tale, she couldn't help but laugh, he said as though he acted like such a brave knight and swooped in with a daring attempt to take her away from, as he put…
"Dr. Edwin McEvil never saw it! There Gwendolyn, the damsel in distress, the most glorious maiden on the planet, no universe! Was saved from the daring, marvelously handsome hero, one Benjamin Tennyson."
"Haha…Benji stop it!" He grinned down at her. "Benji huh? You know I prefer other names my little sex goddess…" his voice was gruff mixed with a hint covetousness, lust to put it plain and simple. She blushed furiously upon his little nickname and instantly recalled all the names they gave each other before, during, and after their love making.
"WARNING! WARNING! Alert! Al-"
Sighing Ben shifted from his half slumped form over Gwendolyn's naked body to place the thin under cover around his torso to get off the bed. "Time to go hero." he simply stated and she nodded, knowing she too had to get dressed. In the back of her mind she sighed, this means their time was officially cut off, Edwin would be meeting her soon or even Grandpa, and once again relatives they would have to play the role of instead of lovers, like they would have preferred.
"Who is it this time?"
"Charmcaster seems she…rob…magic….null….might…void….Gwendolyn-Gwen-Gwendolyn."
She had to wonder why everything was jumbled up, the voices were shifting, and being cut off. She clutched her head in pain and succumbed to the pain in her knees and proceeded to fall to the floor. Ben ran to her, but with one eye squinting open as he ran to her, in the slowest motion she had ever seen anything, his form constantly morphed from older, current Ben to the young one and then back to the older Ben she knew before she brought their past selves to the future.
"B…Ben…" she cried out in pain. Something was wrong. Something was dreadfully wrong, upon hearing just Charmcaster her head started to spin, it was as if memories of fighting her just a week after she made her past self come to the future was slowly disappearing. When she switched bodies with Charmcaster and Ben in an whole array of confusion, everything was evaporating, her true memories were being replaced…
She found it odd she was the only one to remember how her world once was, and how Ben had no recollection whatsoever, and now she was coming to find, that maybe, she too, won't be remembering it as well.
"What's …hap-happening…AGH!!!" With an anguish filled scream she collapsed into the nervous arms of Ben as he tried to shake her in all his worry for her to become conscious one again.
Ohh la la! What's this? Gwen's current altered life's memories are replacing her old ones? Oh noes! Is that a good or a bad thing!! Haha sorry if that was crap, hope you all found the first kiss scene somewhat enjoyable, if not, meh, maybe I'll remake it…maybe not.
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