So here it is kiddies! Chapter 9! I didn't think I would have it up this soon but I can't sleep so I decided I would write. I think it turned out rather well.
FICTION, Don't own anything, yada yada yada yada
Jordan's POV
"Go ahead" I said softly my heart breaking seeing the fear in her eyes.
She took a deep breath and started.
"Do you remember that night, Tino had a party like a month before you left, and bugged me to go?"
I nodded, smiling to myself remembering the day I drove her insane about going. Even though we weren't together I still always bugged her to do stuff with me. I loved being around her, she was always challenging me and telling me I could do better.
"Remember what happened that night?"
I nodded again... We made love that night. And I can say is this, no one will ever compare to her. Being with her that night felt so right, and so perfect. I felt complete. But afterwards, we never spoke of it again. It's always the last thought on my mind at night when I go to bed.
She didn't say anything.
"Angela..."
She looked up at me. "umm well.."
"Take your time sweetie" I said holding her hands tightly in mine.
Taking another breath she nodded "ok...Well, after you left Three Rivers, I found something out that I never thought I would be able to tell you because I thought I would never see you again." She looking at our hands tears forming in her eyes.
"hey..don't cry" I whispered wiping them gently away.
"Jordan... I... I got to feeling sick a little while after that and.. One day whlie I was cleaning I well pasted out and Rayanne found me...I had to rushed to the hospital..." I felt my heart drop into my stomach. "Come to find out.. I was ...I ... I was pregnant, and had a miscarriage"
I'm going to be sick
"Wh...What?" I asked making sure I heard her correctly.
"I was pregnant Jordan, with your child, I didn't know it till I was rushed to the hospital where they told me I lost it" She said before breaking down. "I...really.. need to go" She stammered before getting up and running out.
I jumped up just as the waiter came over our table.
"uh... Change in plans... Sorry" I said before running out of the restaurant.
"Angela...Angela!" I called after her
She just kept running
"Please! Stop!"
I ran over getting into my car.
She was pregnant, with my baby, our baby, and we lost it. My heart was in pieces, I felt the tears well up in my eyes as I drove down the street looking for Angela.
Angela's POV
"Angela.. ANGELA!" I heard Jordan call after me.
Probably just to tell me he never wants to see me again.
God, why am I so stupid. Why did I tell him that. Why do I do anything that I do.
I continued to run trying to get as far away from him as I possibly could. After running fora while, and I thought I was a pretty good distance I stopped running and began to walk. It started to rain.
Great! Just fucking great!
I was walking towards the apartment tears falling from my eyes. My world felt like it was ending.
"Angela.."
I turned to see Jordan in his car pulling up next to me.
"Go away Jordan!"
"No.. Angela please we need to talk"
"NO! Get away! I already no what your going to say. Just go! I don't need to hear it" I screamed beginning to run again. Thank god I wasn't that far from the apartment. Once I got there I ran inside, up the stairs running inside going straight to my room. Laying on my bed I seen the song I had written a few years ago lying on my nightstand, remembering I forgot to put it away when I was reading it earlier.
Who would have thought, I, me, Angela Chase would ever write a song.
I reached over grabbing it and reading over it.
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
Letting it fall to the floor I buried my head into my pillow.
Jordan's POV
I pulled up at home, and parked the car. Resting my head against the steering wheel I closed my eyes and all I could see was, me and Angela and what our baby would have looked like. Sitting up after a couple of minutes I got out and headed inside.
When I got inside my apartment I seen Shane wasn't home. Shrugging I walked over to the cabinet, grabbing a bottle and going to room locking the door.
Half way through it I couldn't take it anymore.
Picking up my guitar I began to play.
Taking a deep breath I closed my eyes.
Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away
I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry
Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way
I let the tears fall sitting there still holding on my guitar staring at the wall.
Angela was, and is my everything. I wrote that song a few years ago after I had tried to call her and Danielle said she moved away.
I couldn't lose her again. I can't, I need her to bad. I know she's probably thinking that I wanna tell I never wanna see her again.
Sitting my guitar down I brought the bottle up to my mouth again drinking all it's contents before falling back on my bed.
-Hides eyes- There it is... Sorta a sad chapter I know... I got tears writting it cause I'm a big cry baby.
I hope you guys liked it. Chapter 10 should be up soon! Tell me what you think!
LOVE YAS!
Music: "My Happy Ending"- Avril Lavigne
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"Tonight I Wanna Cry"-Keith Urban