Sorry for not writting yesterday guys! I got busy helping my dad with something and my muse left me for the day.

But now I'm back, and even though I'm sick I wrote you guys a super chapter.

Just please, don't hate Syaoran after you read this!

Love for Royalty

Chapter X Memories of a tormented soul

Two kids were running in a park. A little girl followed the boy. The girl had long black hair, the boy had short brown hair. After a while they sat in a nearby bench and the boy buys an ice cream for him and his friend. They shared jokes and laughs while eating and the girl tells the boy something that shocks him and then she kisses his cheek. Then the image fades and Syaoran wakes up from his trance. Sakura was calling his name from the terrace door. Syoran was still in the porch drinking. His mind should have drifted again. He hated when that happened.

Syaoran stood up and took out a chair for Sakura to seat down, the girl accepted the offer but said nothing more than a simple thanks. Syaoran couldn't blame her, he behaved like a jerk with her so he apologized inmedietly. Sakura took his hands and looked at him with eyes full of concern. "Did I say something wrong Syaoran? Did I make you upset?"

"Of course not! You…I was just a jerk. I admit it" he answered but Sakura wouldn't let go just yet. It was as if she knew there was more to it, but Syaoran didn't want to talk about it. He never wanted to unleash those memories he hated so much.

"Please Syaoran. I…I hate to see you like this. I know we started out on the wrong foot"

"That was my fault"

"But I want to help you feel better!"

Syaoran was surprised at these words. He expected Sakura to be angry at him. To start avoiding him altogether again for his rudeness. But here she was willing to give him a helping hand. At last the girl let go of him and he sat down again.

Watching him Sakura's heart started beating hard. She was nervous about something. But Syaoran just kept silent and had a faraway look as if lost for words. Finally he told her. Sakura listened intensely and at the end of the evening she could understand his pain.

The girl and the boy playing in the park was Syaoran and his childhood friend Sayuri. Their parents were good friends, and her estate was ver close to his. So every afternnon she came to play with him. Their relationship grew over the years. They told each other everything. There were no secrets. She knew him like the back of her hand and he thought he knew her too. But he was wrong. When they started middle school, Sayuri started to hang out with selfish, prissy, and vain girls. She wanted to be like them. An soon enough she stopped hanging out with him. She even ignored him and avoided him whenever possible. Syaoran couldn't understand why and he didn't know until years later.

So Syaoran started hanging out with his own group of friends and soon enough became popular in his school. He was an easy guy to like. And he was pretty good with any sport. After his freshman year in middle school, he got in the soccer team. Girls started to idolize him and that's how his string of admirers started. But he never payed any attention to them. His mind was focused on one girl only; Sayuri. But she was still intent on acting as if their friendship never happened. And Syaoran was left with no other choice than to forget her or at least try. Just as Syaoran became popular with the girls, Sayuri did so with the guys. She was beautiful. Her black hair was always straight and high in a poneytail with bangs on the sides. Her honey eyes made her white complexion seem all the more radiant. And she had developed at a young age, she had curves here and there. Guys drooled when they saw her walk in the hallways, and she always winked at them. It made Syaoran furious and jelous, and Sayuri only smirked at his expression. Soon enough, he even grew to hate her.

But everything changed in high school. Somehow, her heart changed as much as her body. One afternoon, she was waiting for Syaoran in the school entrance after school was over. Before he could protest she took him to the school gym and pushed him against the wall. Then she for no reason kissed him. He wanted to push her away, but feeling her lips touching his, having her arms around him, he couldn't resist her and kissed her back. When their lips were apart she hugged him as if holding for dear life and confessed everything. Her parents asked her to stop seeing Syaoran. They had a dispute years ago with his parents and because of that their friendship crumbled. Her parents explicitly told her to stop talking with him or else they would move to England. Sayuri didn't want to change schools or loose the frienships she had there. She had a life in Hong Kong. And besides, living in England would mean living with an evil aunt she had there. Her aunt Kikyo always reprimanded her for the most stupid of reasons; either she was not sitting straight on the table, or holding her utensils wrong, or being too noisy, she always said something bad about her. She didn't want that life so she did what she had to do. She broke her friendship with Syaoran. At least this way she could still see him, but not talking to him broke her heart.

So that afternoon their love affair started. When Sayuri's parents weren't home, Syaoran sneaked in from her bedroom balcony. And there in her bedroom, in secret they kissed and made up for lost time. Sometimes they only watched movies and told jokes, other times they spent the whole time telling each other sweet stuff and making out. But they didn't sleep together until their senior year, after the prom.

One afternoon, during their junior year in high school, Syaoran saw Sayuri with another guy. She was flirting with him. He remembered getting so angry at her that same day when they agreed to see each other they had the first of many fights. She kept on yelling about how he didn't trust her and acted all innocent making him look like the bad guy. In the end of the afternnon, they broke off their affair. They spent many months apart. He wanted to go back but she didn't seem to care. She just kept going out with other guys.

Then in senior year, Sayuri cornered him in the school gym again and kissed him as if nothing ever happened. He tried to refuse but his body didn't seem to respond to his mind. He kissed her back and their relationship started again. She apologized for her behaviour before and told him she wanted him and only him. He knew he shouldn't have believed her sweet talk, but at this rate she had gotten so good at it he actually did believed she was sorry. How wrong he was, and he would soon learn, on their last day of school.

By the middle of the last semester of school, rumors started spreading about how Sayuri was dating two guys at once. Like she always did. Of course, Sayuri always told him they were not true, rumors were never bound to be true. Her heart belonged only to him. This kept him quiet for the rest of the semester. And the after prom, he lost his virginity to her. And there was never anything he regretted more than that night. He can't say he didn't enjoy it. At that time he was so in love with Sayuri that making love with her was the best moment of his life. He wanted to make love to her for the whole night and have her by his side forever. But then, on the last day of school a guy and his buddies cornered him in the school parking lot and pummeled him. Two of them holded his arms and the other punched him many times in the abdomen and in the face. Then the guys let go of him and started kicking him. If it weren't for the school principal arriving, he though he could have died there. And sure enough, he did suffer major injuries in his ribs. And his face was disfigured. On graduation day he would discover that the guy was Sayuri's official boyfriend, and he somehow discovered about Syaoran. When he did he was so filled with rage that he was ready to kill him. Syaoran couldn't really blame him. That was when his real anger bagan. He had been fooled twice, he wasn't going to believe Sayuri a third time.

But then, in freshman year of college, Sayuri came to his dorm to apologize once again. Syaoran was about to close the door in her face but she stopped it with her hand. She begged for forgiviness but he wouldn't listen. He was tired of her excuses. But then she told him. It was all her mother's fault. She never liked the guy and when she knew what he had done to Syaoran she wanted to break up with him, but that would have meant giving him a reason and she couldn't think of any. She couldn't say because he fought against Syaoran because then her mother would know they were seeing each other and would disgrace her. She had no other choice but to keep quiet. The guy she was dating was the son of a prominent President of a National Bank, and her mother set the two up. Before she knew it they were a couple. And she didn't have a word in the matter. Syaoran didn't want to believe her, and anyways was sick of hiding, so he didn't forgive her and went and locked himself in his room. But then, when night came, she was still there, sitting in the couch waiting for him. She told him she wasn't going anywhere until he forgave her and went back to her side. And she was persistent. In the end he had no other choice. But he still didn't trust her.

Now that they were both in college, they didn't have to keep their relationship a secret anymore. They were two adults who could do whatever they wanted. They dated until their second semester in college. That was when Syaoran's life really fell apart and he changed drastically. It was a spring day, and the flowers and trees were blooming beautifully. Syaoran was planning on surprising Sayuri with some tulips she really loved. But the surprise was on him. Her dorm door was open so he went in. But then he heard moaning coming from one of the bedrooms. He thought it was Sayuri's roomate with her boyfriend but then as he got in, he noticed that Sayuri's room door was a bit open. He thought she left it open and was studying, but when he opened the door completely, his heart started to beat strongly and fastly. The tulips fell to the ground. Tears started falling from his eyes. He was frozen; and athough he wanted to run away as fast as he could his legs wouldn't move. For in her bed, Sayuri was on top of a guy, naked. She was jumping over him and he was massaging her breasts. Hearing something fall, Sayuri turned her head and saw Syaoran. But she pretended as if no one were there. She just continued what she was doing.

Then Syaoran ran from her dorm into his own and loked himself in his room. He couldn't understand how stupid he had been. He should have known and expected her to cheat on him. After all, it was her third time. Syaoran grew angry and depressed at the same time. He blamed himself for being so stupid. But there was no turning back. Then a few weeks later, he spotted Sayuri again and this time it was his turn to corner her. He demanded an explanation from her. But he already had some sort of an answer. He called her a whore in front of her friends and hit her right in the face. She instantly started bleading from her mouth and ran away from him. Syoaran didn't know what had come over him, but he didn't regret doing it.

That day, it rained hard, but Syaoran left his dorm anyways. He had received a letter from Sayuri asking him to see her under the Sakura tree in the college park. And even though there was a heavy downpour, she was there, waiting for him with the coldest expression in her face. As soon as she saw Syaoran she went to him and slapped him hard.

"Did you really think for a moment that I was going to be faithful to you? What gave you that stupid idea?" she asked him angry.

Syaoran replied in the same tone. "A girlfriend normally is faithful to her boyfriend for your information. Why did you think I gave you another chance? I loved you Sayuri! And I'll be damned for doing so!"

Sayuri only laughed at his comment. "Well, let me tell you. You were pretty easy to convince, you know? And having sex with you was pleasurable. You have a way off making me hot easily. Maybe it was passion, but I liked sleeping with you. But that's all it was! I never told you I loved you Syaoran. You were just an idiot to believe so! And one word of advice; don't let feelings blind you, they are just a distraction. Don't love, have sex, and you'll soon learn what real pleasure is. Having any woman you want, sleeping with them, manipulating them. Yuo can do all that. You can have it all. After all, I don't know if you noticed, but half of the female population in this school wants you. And they would do anything to screw you. Why do you need me? When you can have them. That has always been the way I've worked. I never really needed you. You were just an entertainment" and with that Syaoran pushed her against the tree trunk and kissed her passionatly.

They made love for the last time, but Syaoran didn't leave without leaving her with one last memory of him. He got dressed and then took her clothes before she could. And then he kissed her in the lips and smiled malevolently. "I never really needed you either" he whisered to her and left carrying her clothes in his arms. She had to walk to her dorm room naked. She tried ruining Syaoran's reputation by saying that he raped her, but it only made matters worse for herlself. After that night, no guy ever wanted to date her. She became known as a whore.

As he told Sakura this, Syaoran kept on watching the stone floor. Sakura went to him, kneeled before him, and put her head in his lap to comfort him. She knew, the reason he was like that with women was because he lost trust in them. But now, she wanted him to know that he could trust her. She would never hurt him in such a horrible way.

From the glass doors, Jennifer watched the two together and smiled. She was the one who told Sakura that Syaoran was acting strange and asked to please find out why. She knew, Sakura was the only one he could trust right now.

Things are warming up between Sakura and Syaoran, don't you think? I personally love romances. They are like flowers. And even more beautiful than roses. They bloom slowly but once they are fully grown it's a sight for your eyes.

And sorry If I'm writting this a bit too dramatic. But I love dramas, I love fights and make-ups, I enjoy a good romatic comedy know and then but I'm not that into writting them.

Hope you guys liked this chapter.