Redundant: Part 2 "Discovering the Waterfront"
Author's Note: I started to write this chapter a day or two ago when I was feeling like writing something depressing. But not that I'm out of the 'funk' I was in, I have decided that I don't like that chapter. It wasn't the same writing style. It also wasn't as, I guess, delicate as the first chapter. I really liked how the first chapter came out so I'm going to try and write like that. Sorry for the wait, but I haven't had any ideas. Please read and review. Feedback is greatly appreciated.
Disclaimer: I don't own The O.C. or Silverstein or their lyrics to "Discovering the Waterfront."
I will promise myself I won't care
Summer and Seth continued on how they were. The same lives, the same things, the same days. Time just seemed to blend together seeing as everything was the same. When they were out with their friends there was, for a fraction of time, something good in their lives. Something to look forward too. When they surrounded themselves with the people they loved and loved them it almost seemed that they still did love each other. But at the end of the day, when everyone else was gone, it was just the two of them.
Though Summer surrounded her self with just her friends, Seth surrounded himself with a special friend. Ana. When he wanted that sparkle back in his life he went to Ana. When he was about to break down he went to Ana. When he needed to get away he went to Ana. All behind Summer's back.
Distracting myself from your stare
Ana was his distraction. His distraction from life. Seth couldn't face the problems in his life so he went to Ana. A bad decision on his part because all the energy he put into lying to Summer so he could sneak away could have been put into trying to fix his broken, tired relationship. That would have been to hard though because he couldn't bear to face his problems. So instead he used Ana. As he had went behind Summer's back to be with Ana, Seth went behind Ana's back when it came to lying about him and Summer braking up a while back and being just friends. And Ana fell for it all.
And I've seen this mistake once before
All while doing this Seth never thought of Summer or her feelings. During all of Seth's lying Summer was feeling angry. Angry because she wasn't stupid. She knew that Seth was "Off so see his parents." It was so painfully obvious as to what he was doing and where he was going. And it hurt. It hurt to think that he didn't care enough to at least break up with her before jumping into Ana Stern's arms. But the more she thought about it the more she realized Ana probably had no idea about Summer. Seth had probably lied to her too. Seth had two very different secret lives, with two very different women.
With your games I will never fall for
Summer would never dream of calling Seth out on his actions though. She was Summer Roberts after all. No, she wasn't going to confront him about it. What would the high school bitch do? She would get even. Though she thought she had moved on from this, something inside of her stirred when she thought about getting even. And she liked it.
I've hung up my guns
I won't kill again
As Seth continued to lie to both women and begin to feel guilty he realized that eventually he would have to make a choice. Summer Roberts or Ana Stern? As this thought dwelled in his head he slowly walked home from Ana's home. Only to return home to see Summer sitting at the kitchen table, looking as she had back in high school and he had pined for her. And at the moment he thought that he had made up his mind. He thought that maybe things would go back to normal between Summer and himself. Just then, Summer interrupted his train of thought, by slyly whispering in his ear about going out and not to wait up for her.
It was then that he realized that Summer knew and this was all a game. It was something the old Summer would have done, but now, it seemed that the "old Summer" was here not only for a visit, but here to stay. Seth, however, was going to do everything he could to not let her win.
I won't forget you... (I won't forget)
I'm not gonna let you win...(I'm not gonna)
But I'm tired of the lying
Tired of fighting you
And it's not gonna change
Summer returned much later that evening, just a little bit drunk and giggling. As she walked past Seth he could smell the alcohol on her. But even so, he couldn't deny how hot she looked. How much it hurt because he couldn't have her. As Seth followed her to bed, he realized that he would have do something soon, or this game that they were playing would soon spin out of control, and eventually blow up in their faces.
You ask for my heart
The game that had each of them begging for attention. Begging for love. Begging to be how it used to be. At the same time though, the game was being fought so the winner could get back at the other for everything they had put them through. Everything, from the lying, the cheating and the hurting. And this game was just asking for trouble.
You know that I'm down
This game was going to be filled with lying, deceit, pain, anger, tears, defeat and for one of them victory. Unfortunately for Seth, Summer had the upper hand in this battle because these were the same games that used to occupy his time in high school. They, at one time, were her life and it looked as if it was about to become her life once again. The only way Seth could think of to win this was to use Ana. Seth didn't seem to realize or maybe care about how he would end up hurting Ana in this. Ana wasn't important though. Winning was, and he would do anything he could to defeat Summer. Anything. Feeling of others be damned.
But not the way you lie to me
Seth's visits to Ana's became more frequent and obvious. Summer saw his tactic though and decided that if he thought it would hurt Summer, it would probably hurt him too. Seth wasn't as good at these stealth tactics. Summer was an expert. And she was definitely going to use that to her advantage.
Summer began to outrageously flirt more and more with random men. Right in front of Seth too. She even went as far as to 'drunkenly' flirt with Seth's brother Ryan. And it pained Seth to see that Summer was winning so he decided to bring it up one more. He told Ana he loved her. Which was a lie of course, but she didn't need to know that.
You tear it all apart and beg for me to say
I'll sail off to sea...(I'll sail off)
This game continued, just getting dirtier and dirtier. One of them always a step ahead other one, but not for long. You couldn't stay ahead for very long and it was clear that this game would never end. It would continue, until the other gave. Seeing this Seth hinted somehow, without everything saying it, that he had slept with Ana. Even that was a lie though. He had thought that all hell would break loose, but it didn't. He just returned one day to see a note.
I'm not coming back
And Seth knew at that moment he had screwed up.
I won't forget you... (I won't forget)
I'm not gonna let you win...(I'm not gonna)
But I'm tired of the lying
Tired of fighting you
And it's not gonna change
Summer wasn't coming back. It still wasn't sinking in. She wasn't going to. He would never see her again. It was all because a stupid game he took too far. Now she was gone, and it was his entire fault.
Counting down
Soon he would have to tell Ana.
Make that sounds
It wouldn't be fair to lead her on and just hurt her.
When you know it makes no sense
As much as he knew he had to break it off with Ana, he didn't. He didn't want to be alone. It would be a constant reminder that Summer was gone.
Counting down
One day while looking out onto the water as the waves hit the sand, on a cloudy day Seth realized something. He had cheated on Summer. For what seemed like the second time. Ana had been his other woman for the second time. How could Summer have possibly stayed when she knew he was cheating on her?
Till you mess around
Maybe because she thought it was her fault Seth wasn't happy.
When you know I can't ever change
Maybe she thought things would change. But they didn't, because nobody tried to change them.
Why am I trembling?
Shivering slightly, Seth silently started to cry. And he did, because it didn't stop. It just continued. He had lost the only girl he had ever loved and now she was gone.
Throw it overboard
That's exactly what he had done. He had thrown it away when they hit a rough patch. The biggest mistake he had every made.
When I'm ready to we'll progress
Summer had waited, even though she was just as miserable as he was. He wasn't willing to break up and she wasn't willing to let go because she believed that they could work through it together.
Counting down
Makes that sounds
Break the silence
Neither one of them broke the silence. It just remained. Clearly, it no longer did, as Summer was gone.
Pretend it's not forever
I'll pull myself together
I'll say that I'll forget her
I'll breathe
He could never forget her. He could say he did, but it wouldn't be true. It would be a lie, like the rest of his life.
I'll say she never hurt me
And look at it as learning
And laugh about the good and the bad
He doubted he could do that though. He doubted he could just pretend it didn't hurt that she left. That he would move and use it as a learning experience. It was more than that.
Because I won't live forever
We don't belong together
I know I'll better
One day when I can make it through
It seemed though, that everyday he didn't have Summer with him lasted an eternity. Not in a good way, though. The days dragged on; he couldn't sleep and was tired. But he pretended not be. He put on a brave face everyday. Pretended things were fine. Another lie. But it wasn't a lie anymore because his whole life was a lie and it became everyone else's truth.
I won't forget you... (I won't forget)
I'm not gonna let you win...(I'm not gonna)
But I'm tired of the lying
Tired of fighting you
And it's not gonna change
I won't forget you... (I won't forget)
I'm not gonna let you win...(I'm not gonna)
But I'm tired of the lying
Tired of fighting you
And it's not gonna change
A/N: That took quite a while to write because the song was fairly long. I don't know how it is. I don't like it as much as my first chapter but I guess it's not that bad. It's kind of tricky though because you have to figure out what lines are referring to which person. Should I continue? Please review!