Redundant: Part 3 "Martin Sheen or JFK"
Author's Note: I'd been thinking about what song to use for the next chapter and Yellowcard's "Martin Sheen or JFK" keep popping into my head. Today, I finally sat down and listened to it with the lyrics on hand. I like it. I think it fits in with the story. For those of you asking whether or not this is a Seth and Ana story or a Seth and Summer story...well you'll just have to wait and find out. It could be neither or it could be one of them. I don't want to give it away yet. Please read and review! Thank you.
Disclaimer: I do not own The O.C., Yellowcard or their song "Martin Sheen or JFK." I'm just borrowing.
Here it is one more glass for these broken hands
As Summer continued on with her life she couldn't shake on thought out of her mind. That thought was Seth. Seth. He was always in her mind. Him and all of the good times, as well as the bad times. But the bad times didn't matter because they were always able to overcome it. Until now. Neither of them was willing to give up the battle. As a result of that both of them ended up losing the war.
Goes down for you
What hurt Summer the most though, was that Seth had cheated on her. She had only ever been with him. The went for him with her. Now that had all changed. She always thought - or hoped - it would always be like that. They would only ever be with each other. Seth had shattered the hope into a million pieces though. He had ruined her hopes and dreams. Yes, Summer would admit it. She dreamed that together they would be forever. Cheesy right? Of course it was and she knew it, but she loved him so much that she didn't care if people thought she was cheesy. It didn't matter because at the end of the day, all that mattered was Seth. She always thought Seth believed the same thing. Apparently not. Apparently she wasn't good enough and now she was had to live with that fact that her boyfriend didn't think she was good enough. Or so she thought.
Seth never meant to hurt Summer like he did with his "actions." It wasn't supposed to turn out like it had. He was supposed to win the battle. Instead, he was left with nothing. Nothing at all.
I've fallen in, I sink then swallow, I never meant
To see this through
But he had hurt her. In a way that he may never be able to fix. Even if he did tell Summer the truth, it would still hurt to know that he was willing to lie so much just to hurt her. That's what it was supposed to do, right? Hurt her. It was just a game though. A stupid game gone too far. So it's okay, right?
Wrong.
I'm taking them all
Taking them all back for good
Too a place where I know that I'm safe
Then I can fall
Then I could fall where I should
In the bottle with all my mistakes
Seth was now forced to live with his mistakes. His mistakes that ripped everything he cared about out of his hands in the blink of an eye. He didn't see it coming. She didn't either. They were both living with it. And it was killing them both.
All the days since I've landed I lost the way
Seth wished now that he could take it all back. He wished there was some sort of time machine so he could go back and fix it. But then, so do we all at one point in our lives when we've made a seemingly unfixable mistake. It never works though. As much as you wish for it, the time machine never comes. It was the exact same for Seth. He wished he wouldn't have lied to her. He wished he could have told her the truth from the beginning. But he didn't. No, he had lied. He had severed the last tie that held them together. Now it was all gone. All the truth. Gone.
To find my truth
Summer was slowly making it through each day. She, very much like Seth, pretended to be okay. She put on the brave face. It was just another lie though. Almost as if Seth had rubbed off on her. She didn't want to lie to herself. She didn't want to lie to everyone else, as Seth had. She didn't know how the get through life any other way though. It would be too hard. Lying was easy though. You grow used to it, and it's just easy. It's a way of life. Unfortunately, Summer was getting a little too used to lying to every one and everything.
You float away and leave me stranded
Seth not only found himself missing Summer, but alone. Something he hadn't been for roughly seven years. It was a strange feeling. He did have Ana, but it wasn't the same. It wasn't Summer. It wasn't what he was used to and what he loved. It was just Ana. Though, at the beginning she had been comfort and brought out seemingly new feelings, she didn't anymore. He almost began to hate her. He blamed her for Summer leaving. Leaving him, alone. It was easier to lie and say it was Ana's fault. It was easier take the blame off himself. It didn't really work though, because he knew it was his fault.
What's left to say
He also knew if anybody was going to fix it, it was going to have to be him. But if he didn't have the courage to talk to Summer in the first place, how was he going to have the courage to fix the biggest mistake of his life?
I'll hurt for you
Summer was still struggling with why she wasn't good enough for Seth. Was she ugly? A 'loser'? Fat? She started to believe she was all of these things. It only hurt even more. To think that Summer Roberts was ugly or fat was just crazy. Even being a "loser" was crazy. (But what is the 'proper' definition of loser? You tell me.) Summer no longer felt confident with herself. She wasn't pretty and that was because she was fat. The only reason she was fat was because she ate too much. Only one way to fix that.
I'm taking them all
Taking them all back for good
Too a place where I know that I'm safe
Then I can fall
Then I could fall where I should
In the bottle with all my mistakes
If only Seth knew what Summer was putting herself through.
I could sleep but when I wake here
Then maybe he wouldn't have done what he did. But it was too late now. He'd already done it and now he left Summer feeling horrible about herself. The way she looked and acted. But he didn't know this because she gone. Far, far away from him.
You'd still be gone
Which made the days go by very slowly for Seth.
And you're my air
And if things continued to be the way they were now it didn't look as if that would ever change. He would always be alone.
I could breathe if you would stay for another song
So I could stare.
Always.
I'm taking them all
Taking them all back for good
Too a place where I know that I'm safe
Then I can fall
Then I could fall where I should
In the bottle with all my mistakes
I'm taking them all
Taking them all back for good
Too a place where I know that I'm safe
Then I can fall
Then I could fall where I should
In the bottle with all my mistakes
A/N: I think I may have actually used the wrong song because a line I thought I was gonna be using isn't in this song and I looked and found it in another song so maybe I did use the wrong song. Oh well. It's okay. Feedback would great. As well as that I would really like to know what your definition of a loser is. What makes somebody a loser? You tell me.