January 6th

Back from the holidays and a new term. Fresh start.

My new years resolutions

Study a bit harder, Decide on what job I want, Stop spending so much on clothes, Eat more veg, Forget about Harry

I've decided I'm staying away from Harry. It seems to be working because I haven't seen him around. I've been hanging out more with Roger...who is STILL going on about Emily. He can be such a bore sometimes. I always try diverting his attention by talking about Quidditch.

January 10th

Harry... haven't seen him...

January 11th

Harry who? Potter? Don't know who you're talking about.

January 16th

Bumped into Ron and Hermione, looks like she dragged him to the library.

I asked how Harry was... you know I was just being polite.

"Oh he's fine," said Hermione, "He's been rather busy though"

"Yeah...you could say that," snorted Ron.

I could see Hermione shooting him a look and then he stopped. She went over to a desk and started pulling out endless rolls of parchment. But Ron wasn't doing anything so we hid behind a row of books to talk.

"What do you mean by busy?" I said whispering.

"Oh...you know...stuff...secret stuff..." he picked of some random book and pretended to look at it,

"DA secret stuff?" I said.

"Well..."

"Hey guys," It was Harry. .

My stomach flipped.

"Oh Hi" said Ron, "I was just telling Cho how busy you are with things".

"Oh right." He said. He put his hands in his pockets and looked down at the floor.

He looked so handsome today...

Someone called out his name. It was that Parvati.

"I think this is what you were looking for," she said sweetly and handed an old book to him. It seemed like she held the book a fraction to long. She was teasing him with it...she was forcing him to look at her. The hussy. He finally won the book over and then she made him laugh. I felt terrible.

Her eyes were on him as he looked through her book.

"Yeah this is good...this is really good... I can't believe you found that information so quickly." He said excitedly to her, "Even Hermione didn't know where to look."

I don't believe it...she did it...she has even dethroned Hermione the Great.

She peered from under her soft lashes, "Well the references you made helped a lot in my search... I dog eared a few pages for you; the ones I thought could lead to some new clues."

She took a step closer to him to turn the pages for him and I noticed how he had his sleeves rolled up...his bare skin brushing next to the soft skin of her own naked hand. I hated them both.

He looked up at her and smiled again, "This is really great," His eyes sort of twinkled and then I swear his gaze briefly dropped down to her perfect bare lips and then back to the book. I wondered who else he had been kissing during the holidays... and then Harry looked at me, then Parvati followed his gaze and then Ron did as well. I stood awkwardly. I realised I was listening to a conversation I wasn't supposed to be hearing so I made my excuses and left.

January 17th

It's ok being on my own if I didn't fancy anyone but...what I need is a de-lusting spell. I saw that on a muggle television show once... I tried asking around but the shopkeepers laughed and said they don't really exist. Stupid television.

I hate it but it's true. I just want to be with Harry.

January 18th

Snape surprised us with an exam on Potions. That was so lovely of him. BAH! Then Flitwick then made us all spring clean our dorms...he said it was good to pick things up for ourselves once in a while instead of leaving it to the house elves.

"But the house elves love it we protested!"

January 19th

It was another Hogsmeade trip and I decided to forget about Harry with Roger. We sat ourselves a little café. I think it's new...it looks like a muggle coffee shop with sofas and everything.

Roger was talking about his favourite subject...

"She's like an ice queen," he said to me, "I'm going to thaw her one of these days...I know it..."

"Emily this, Emily that...Can we just stop talking about Emily for once?" I said passing him his drink.

"Sorry...I can't help it...she's such a challenge." He sipped the froth from his coffee, "I like that in a girl and I really do think she's warming to me."

"I'm sick of love." I said.

Well I didn't love Harry. I'm not sure I know what that is... I think I might have been close to it with Cedric but of course I was never going to find out because You Know Who had other plans for us.

Roger put down his drink and put on a funny voice, "Oh...does ickle Cho like someone?"

"Maybe..." and then call it fate or just a bloody coincidence. Harry walked in with the DA. All of them. Paravati as well. She was standing right behind him giggling as usual. Harry nodded to me and I half smiled at him.

"Oh I see," said Roger following my gaze and then he put his arm around me.

"What are you doing?" I said. But I left his arm there. It felt quite nice and protective.

"You need to learn the art of ...making people jealous," he said looking at Harry sternly.

I laughed, "You know you are talking to the master of that school ...and it really doesn't work on him."

"He's an idiot." Roger barked, "Just forget about him there's plenty of other guys you could go out with."

I saw Parvati had sat herself next to him. Of course no one else on that table could see...but she was reaching for his hand underneath the table. I broke my gaze away by talking to Roger. I didn't want to watch Harry holding her hand...playing footsie...

"I just want to forget about it." I said.

Roger was looking ahead in the direction of the table where they were sitting, "Yeah it's probably for the best."

January 20th

I was a bit depressed last night so I told Charlotte, Tomasin and Marietta what had been happening with Harry and me. They were all really helpful and told me it's not worth crying over. Then Charlotte organised a little lunch picnic by the Hogwarts Lake to cheer me up. But us being Ravenclaws...it really turned into a study session.

I had my book open on my lap trying to read what I had been writing. Rough notes just aren't good for revising if you can't read them. Anyway we were all talking about the laws of house elves...yeah very interesting. Then Tomasin pointed out that Harry was coming in our very direction. They all sat there and stared at him...you know the really scary way that girls can be when they are in groups.

"Er..Cho can I talk to you for a minute?" he said looking at the scary girls.

"Sure what do you want?" I said.

"It's kind of important" I think he was distracted by the icy glares coming from everyone. Suddenly Marietta stood up and looked at Harry, "I'd rather not be here anyway. Come on girls"

So they packed up most of their things and left. Bit rude but never mind. He sat down on the ground with me.

"Do you remember when we did our patronus?' said Harry.

"Vaguely..." I said. "Why?'

"I just think you should keep practicing it."

"Ok." I smiled at him and turned back to my book, "Is that all?"

"Yeah just keep practising when you can. It's really important." He said.

"Ok." I said again and went back to my notes.

"Good. It's just...just be careful and tell your friends too even Marietta." He said.

"Ok." I said turning a page in my charms homework.

"Cho?" I could tell he was smiling.

"Yes Harry?"

"You and Roger make a really nice couple."

"Oh." I smiled again, "You know what that's not really any of your business."

He nodded, "I'm just happy that you found someone new who you're happy with."

"What like you and Parvati?" I wasn't planning on saying that...especially in that nasty tone of voice I used.

"Well that's none of your business." He said mimicking me.

Oh he infuriates me!

"OK then..." I said rummaging in my school bag for another book.

Harry leant against a tree and said happily, "Ok."

"So is Parvati your type of girl?" I said trying to be casual...

"I don't have a type," he said looking towards the lake again.

I picked up another book and pretended to look at it. "Sure you have a type...everyone's got a type.."

"What's your type then?' said Harry.

"I'm not into girls."

"Very funny...Type of guy." he said.

"None of your business." I said. I don't know what came over me but suddenly I said quite angrily, "I don't like you seeing Parvati!"

"Ok then I'll stop seeing her." He said smiling at me again.

"Ok." I said turning my attention back to my book.

"Ok."

What just happened?

My eyes were on the page but I wasn't reading any of the words. I looked up at him again. Harry was leaning against the tree with this smirk on his face. His green eyes glinting in the sunlight.

Then it dawned on me...I'd been a pawn.

He was playing me at my own game!

He really had a lot of explaining to do.

I was so angry with him that I began shouting at him, "I can't believe you could do that to me...after al.."

He pointed his wand directly at me and said whispered "Silencio."

I felt my voice disappear into the air.

I was very aware of Harry then. As I watched him approach me I realised he was no longer that little boy who was afraid to ask me to the Yule Ball. He was so close to me. His eyes held mine for moment and then he leaned forward. I remember thinking to myself that I would allow him win this game and then we kissed. .

"Cho..." He said quietly.

I was leaning against his neck, "Yes Harry?"

"I don't want you seeing your fake boyfriend Roger anymore ok?"

I looked at him and a small smile tugged at the end of my lips, "OK then."

And then he kissed me again. It was then that I promised I would never be a slave to jealousy again...

What? No really.. I promise...

ok so maybe I can't make any promises...

But I'll try my very best.