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I looked out onto the horizon as the sun had began to rise. I had to admit that it was a nice change in secenery with none of those creatures around, but still it felt odd. I had grown accustomed to only glimpsing at the sky for a few moments while trying to gather supplies from stores around the city. It was just so different. Well I guess a lot of things are different now. There are no more zombies. There is no more hiding.

It was just that feeling I guess. You know the one that you know where it seems the same, but changed. The feeling that things will never be the same yet at the same time never really changed.

I shook my head. I wasnt even making sense to myself now. Maybe I really was losing it. Maybe i already lost it and it was coming back. I really wasnt sure, but in any case I didnt care. I was alive and had my friends, with that, there is nothing I couldnt face.

I glanced back over at my friends who were still fast asleep on the floor. It amazed me how they could just sleep on that hard floor. Personally I couldnt sleep at all. So many questions were still running through me head, and the only way for them to stop was to get some answers.

I laughed. Answers. We all wanted answers. Why had this even happened? Was it something the goverment had knowledge of or was it something completly out of our control. No one knew and I dont think that we will ever know.

I sat on a broken peice of wall and gazed at the sky again. It truly was beatiful. I really dont remember a time when I was so interested in something as mesily as this. Sighing I put my head into my hands. Why was everything being so complicated. Why couldnt all these questions just go away. Surely I wasnt the only one asking, but I was the only one holding it together as best as I could.

I could feel the tears threatening to spill from my eyes. No. I couldnt cry. I had to be strong. I had to be strong for my friends. If they saw me falling apart, would they fall apart to. I couldnt risk it. No i just couldnt.

What if my family was dead? What if I never saw them again? What if we were on a wild goose chase? What if something were to happen to us on our way there. We would never get to the south before winter finally set in all the way. We would freeze to death. We would starve. We would.

Thats was it. The tears began to fall down my cheeks. I could feel the warm liquid coming down faster and faster. I really had just lost it didnt i? There was no way now we were going to survive. We were done. I had failed.

I dont know why I was thinking like this. Maybe it finally caught up to me. I couldnt rememeber a time in the last four years that I had cried. Maybe it was all coming out now. I couldnt believe it. This wasnt happening. Of all the time that I had to lose what ever sanity I had left it had to be now.

What would my friends do if I lost it. Maybe they would make it. They had to. I mean all those years of survival had to build something in them right?

I cried harder thinking more about this. Did they really need me as much as i thought they did?

All the hope that I had left was gone. I knew that. There was nothing there. Was their? Was this God's way of punishing me for not perishing with all the other billons of people? That was it wasnt it? He was going to make me go insane, lose my sanity, what ever you want call it.

I was alone with it. I was alone with all these thoughts and feelings. Was that it to? I couldnt think straight. Maybe I was over reacting. Maybe all this alone time for thinking was such a bad idea. Maybe..

I suddenly felt something come around me. "B..." A familar voice srupted through my thoughts.

I looked up to see Isabella looking down at me worridly. "Whats wrong?" she asked. I wanted to tell her. I really did, but I didnt know how she would take my thinking.

It didnt matter much because I guess something in my face gave it away. She didnt say anything more, but instead hugged me tighter.

I reluctly hugged her back. What more could I do. Since I wasnt talking about it, maybe this would help a little and I was willing to try anything. I buried my head into her shoulder crying harder. I just gave into the emition. If I was going to get through this, I needed not to hold anything in. Everything from the last four years, bottled inside were now emerging, and I could never put them back.

So thats what I did. I cried, not letting go of my friend. She didnt seem to have any oppsostion from my reaction as I thought they might have.

"Dont worry. Even the strongest fall at times." she whispered as a darkness crept over my eyes. What was going on? The blackness was drawing completly over me. What was happening?! .. I tried to think of something rational, but couldnt as I completly fell into the impending darkness.

The last thing I heard was my friend scream my name, then silence.

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