Chapter 2
Angela watched the passing trees as they drove towards the loft. A permanent smile sat on her mouth. She had her Catalano at last.
Angela V/O- Is it possible to feel so completely content? What a roller coaster first I'm down then I'm up. Can things be any-more perfect?
Angela-" So you like me then huh?" smiles at Jordan knowingly Jordan- "No i don't like you Ang, Like I said I love you"
Angela-"I just wanted to make sure I heard you right the first time round"
She affectionately squeezed his knee.
As they pulled up to the loft, Jordan leant over towards Angela.He pulled her into him and took in the scent of her hair.
They kissed passionately. More needier for each-other than ever.
After a few minutes they pulled apart, both breathless and somewhat shocked at the urgency of their passion.
Jordan-"So um, we better go in, there's this thing that I've gotta like , show you"
Angela couldn't help but giggle. Angela- looking at Jordans crotch " I can see it very well thanks"
Jordan was taken aback by Angelas last words, he decided to let her lead things, he didn't want to ruin what they had just rekindled.
Jordan- "Ha, well.. we better get in c'mon"
they both climbed the stairs and entered the loft. Magazines we strewn everywhere, in the middle of the room was a dirty, battered sofa.
A hammock was on the right wall and studio equipment lay against the other side of the wall.
Posters adorned the walls mostly bands and some pin ups.
Angela V/O - It's weird, the first time I came here was to hear Jordan sing that bloody song RED. I was so pleased 'cos I thought it was about me.
Turns out it was about his damn car! So here we are once again. I wonder what he's planning..
Jordan- "If you sit over there, I'll start." He gestured towards the sofa.
Angela slumped down onto the sofa, her legs tucked under her, she leant on the sofa arm resting her chin on her arm. Eager to see what Jordan had to say or do.
Jordan grabbed his guitar and sat perched on a stool. He cleared his throat and started playing a beautiful haunting melody.He sang..
"What If I wanted to break, Laugh it all off in your face. What would you do?
What If I fell to the floor, couldn't bear this anymore. What would you do?
What if I wanted to fight, beg for the rest of my life.
What would you do? You say you wanted more what are you waiting for I'm not running from you
Come break me down bury me bury me, I am finished with you.
Look in my eyes , your killing me killing me all i wanted was you..
I tried to be someone else, but nothing seemed to change I know now this is who i really am inside finally found myself , fighting for a chance I know now this is who i really am..
You say you wanted more, what are you waiting for I'm not running from you Break me down, bury me bury me all I wanted was you."
Jordan -" That song I wrote for you"
Angela- "Jordan I don't know what to say, it's beautiful"
Jordan set down his guitar and sat next to Angela. He took her hand in his.
Jordan-" so are you"
Jordan-" You've always believed in me angela, always. I've done nothing but let you down as well as myself. It's cos of you that I now beleive in myself.I can be the person you want me to be. I wont like pressure you or anything. just wanna be with you, talking or whatever. So long as you're with me"
Angela- "I can't forget what you and Rayanne did Jordan, but I can and have forgiven you"
Jordan-"I'm so sorry about that, It meant nothing, I was drunk and pissed off. She was there, I pretended she was you, she wasn't. I just wanted to... i dunno, I'm sorry"
Angela-" I know you are. It's ok..Just don't do it again..EVER"
Jordan- "ew no fuck that. I'll never hurt you again I swear"
they both laughed quietly, relaxed in the knowledge they had hit a new level in their relationship.
They wrapped their arms round one another and held each other tight, both afraid that if they let go one would dissapear before their eyes.They kissed, laying on the sofa both facing eachother. Jordan had his hand under Angelas shirt, he was swirling his fingers over her belly.
Tingles shot through Angelas body, she wanted his touch more than ever. She slid her hand onto Jordans crotch. Excited that she felt this daring.
Jordan could feel Angelas hand on his jeans crotch, he hardened to her touch. He moaned into her neck, not wanting her to stop but also not ready to her go so far until she was certain.
He groaned, licked her neck and then broke away from her. He removed her hand from his crotch area.
Angela shrank back against the sofa, shocked that Jordan out of both of them,had decided to halt this before it went further.
Angela- " Jordan, did I do something wrong"
Jordan-" No you didn't babe, I just want you to be like sure. I don't want you doing anything you may not be ready for. It's got to be special"
Angela-" my god,, I never thought I'd hear YOU say that Jordan, it's.. haha refreshing"
Jordan-" See, I'm not fucking this up I told you. It isn'tt gonna be in some grotty loft. You are better than that, you deserve somewhere great"
Angela-" I love you so much Jordan, you constantly bowl me over with your unconscious consideration"
Jordan- Confused but flattered "yea well sure...What does that mean anyways"
Angela smiled at him, the sheer cuteness of him. She could ravage him. She kissed his forehead and whispered "Thanks. For making me stop"
Jordan V/O - What the fuck , I could have got layed! Shit this girl has got to me big time. I stopped her. Shit I stopped her.
But it felt right and good.
Jordan-"No problem I guess"
He rubbed the back of his neck and stretched. Just then Shane came into the loft.
Shane -"Hey Catalano, I tried calling you but you weren't home, I figured you'd be her- oh, hey. Angela right?"
Angela sat up, she looked at Shane, smiled and tucked her hair behind her ear.
Angela" Oh um hi, nice to um meet you..again"
Shane shifted his feet awkwardly and smiled at Jordan.
Shane- "So you like finally got your act together huh Catalano"
Jordan -"Shut it man" Laughs.
Shane-" You two are enough to drive anyone insane, Just get together already, you're clearly into eachother"
Angela-smiling "That bad are we"
Shane-"Yea, fuckin roller-coaster dude, fucking roller-coaster"
Angela-"Yea, that's exactly how I've been seeing it too"
Jordan smiled at them and winked at Angela. She blew him a kiss back.
Shane-" So anyways, the reason I came here..Catalano, we got a gig on Thursday. I've been trying to find you all night, a talent scout will be there from some big label or whatever"Jordan-" Like a record label label"
Shane-"Duh yea! That's what I said dude"
Jordan- " So I guess we better get practising, we got like 5 days to get our shit together"
Angela-"Oh my god, Jordan that's great, you guys will get signed for sure"
Shane-"Lets hope so Angela, we sound pretty tight if we actually get through practise without an argument"
Jordan- "Fuck arguing bro, this is our big chance"Shane- "right, yea you're right. I'll get the guys to come round tomorrow, if we have to we practise all night"
Jordan-"sounds good to me, you don't mind right Ang?"
Angela-"Hey my Boyfriend is gonna be a rock star, why would I mind?"
Jordan" heh, you called me your boyfriend"
Angela-"Why is that funny?" Puzzled.
Jordan-" No not at all, it sounded good, like ..right or something."
Shane-"Ok guys, I'm still here, you want me puking over you or what? Quit the cheese already"Jordan and Angela both laughed at Shane and Jordan went over and playfully slapped him on the arm.
Jordan-"Don't worry man, you'll find your soul mate too one day"
Jordan-"Ok angela, I better be getting you home, I don't wanna fall out with your mum already, not when she likes me so much"Angela-"Yea, dont want to push your luck now your 'in' with her right? Ok Shane, nice to see you again. See you at school tomorrow"
Shane- " Yea sure thing, see you guys tomorrow or whatever. Oh and Angela"Angela-"Yea"
Shane-"You're not so weird after all. You're actually pretty ok. "
Angela-" Aw thanks Shane, It means a lot to know you don't think I'm like abnormal or something"
Laughing she gently poked Jordan in his ribs.
Jordan-" we're all abnormal dude, we all are!"
Angela V/O- This has been like the most perfect night. I don't want to think about Rayanne, or Krakow (god Krakow!) I just want to focus on the perfection that is me and Jordan.
On the drive back to the Chase house, both Jordan and Angela remained lost in their thoughts for one another. Both thinking about how close they were to doing it.
Angela V/O- I've never felt so ready, I scared myself there. I'm kind of glad he made me stop. and I love him for it even more.
Outside Angelas house.
Jordan-" Ok so like thanks for letting me play that song for you and thanks for giving me a chance to prove myself"
Angela-"You've proved yourself in more ways you'll ever know Jordan, that song was beautiful, You're beautiful"
Jordan-" So I'll see you tomorrow, I'll pick you up"
Angela-" I think I better get the bus, there's stuff I need to sort, y' know about Brian and stuff"
Jordan-"Shit yea, you gonna be ok"
Angela-"Yea I think so I really do. I know what I need to say to him, I'll see you at school"
She gave him a lingering kiss, but broke it off before they got carried away again.
Angela-"See ya then"
Jordan-" Yea see ya. and Angela"
Angela got out of the car and turned around Angela-"yea"
Jordan-" I love you"
Angela-" I know you do, me too."
Jordan smiled, gave her a wave and drove off.
Angela practically floated into her house. She went to bed thinking about how to explain to Brian that Jordan was all she ever wanted.
She didn't want to hurt Brian but she knew she had to have closure on the whole letter business.
Authors Note- Lyrics for 30 seconds To Mars "The Kill"