A/N: I didn't forget about this story, but I'm afraid I've got to put it on hold for a little while. I won't be updating it until like three weeks after the 21st. (Reading DH and all) Sorry! ; Hope you enjoy it all the same.


Chapter 6: Just a Little Fun

May 30th

I'm sure most people, who might find out about me, would look at me with the utmost disgust. Relationships was a fruitless endeavor for people like me, but I wanted one…I wanted…I just wanted for once, someone to like me for me and not the mask I wear…though it was thin, the possibility of someone finding out what I am scares me. Especially Hayden.

Needless to say, someone besides that of close friend's found out. Someone along the lines of say--- Severus Snape? All thanks to my best mate--- Sirius Black. I could have hurt Snape or possibly killed him! Sirius refuses to apologize for it and simply says that he just told Snape what he wanted to hear! Of course skipping over the minor detail that a snarly Lycan laid just beyond the door, who did not have the Wolfsbane to depend upon. Needless to say, Snape is alive, but was sworn to secrecy. Like that's going to help. I'm sure Snape will tell anyone who'll listen.

I want to tell Hayden, but I'm rather afraid she'd leave me or possibly hate me. I don't like to be hated…I'm hated enough as it is...and I especially don't want her to hate me…

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School was almost over, it was going on June and by the end of it, I wouldn't see Hayden until September. She had mentioned, wondering if I'd come to see her over the summer, but I had declined her like the stupid idiot I was. Why would I do that? Oh, that's right! The full moon. I knew I was still going to want to see her and that I'd more than likely miss her. ---Especially our snogging sessions--- okay maybe I shouldn't mention that!

I had decided at the beginning of May that I was going to tell her and I am…at least later…maybe. No! That is my short term goal for the start of Seventh year. Tell Hayden you're a Lycan--- and hope she doesn't run.

I had to keep telling myself to think positively whenever I got around her. It was rather hard for me not to turn with my tail tucked between my legs and run. I was going to do it at the beginning of next term--- I just wanted to sort of--- bask for the lack of a better word in the great relationship I had going.

"Remus, you talking to yourself again?" Hayden asked, as we sat in the library going over our Transfiguration homework.

"Did I say something out loud?" I asked hesitantly, truly hoping I hadn't.

"Just wanted to get your attention," she chuckled. I love her laugh.

"Oh; sorry, were you saying something?" I questioned, running my fingers through my hair.

"Yeah, I was wondering if you got the answer for number twelve," Hayden said, peeking over at my homework sheet.

I laughed. "Yeah, here," I replied, moving my paper over for her to see.

"Oh!" exclaimed Hayden. "I knew I skipped over something."

"But of course, love," I said smiling, grabbing a hold of her hand briefly.

Hayden's eyebrows rose while a smile played across her lips. "I should have known you didn't think me intelligent," she said, letting her grin cover her lips.

"Nope, not one bit," I teased as we leaned in a bit, our lips brushing softly, and before either one of us realized it, Madam Pince was upon us.

"The library is not for snogging contrary to popular belief!" she shrieked, grasping the back of one chair particularly hard. "Either study here or snog elsewhere!"

Hayden looked to be biting her tongue not to laugh as it was hard for me not to as well.

"Sorry," I mumbled, and the great scary librarian disappeared around a pile of her precious books, which were stocked at a rather precarious angle.

Hayden burst into fits of laughter as I chuckled, hoping Madame Pince won't return to reprimand us about our laughter level.

"Maybe we should leave," Hayden spoke up finally, wiping the streaming tears from her cheeks.

I smiled, collecting up some of the books scattered about our table. "Yeah, I think you're right," I replied.

"Ah ha!" Hayden suddenly said, pointing at finger at me; a feigning triumphant looking on her face.

"Ah ha, what?" I teased a bit, stuffing books and parchment into my bag.

"So you do think, I think!" she chuckled taking up her things.

I laughed a loud this time, shaking my head while we began to leave the library.

Outside of its doors I quickly captured a kiss from her, which seemed to throw her off a bit. "So, you've figured me out, love," I said with a soft smile.

"You're terrible," Hayden said, smiling at me with a bit of something in her eyes I hadn't seen before. What was that look, she just gave me?

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James watched us approach, Remus' arm wrapped about my waist gently and I loved it for all that it was. I had decided that I'd tell Remus at the beginning of next term, that is if nothing happened to us to force us apart or if he still liked me despite my tomboyish nature. Shit I hope he still likes me!

"Don't you two look lovey dovey," James snorted. "I think I'm going to be sick."

"Is Ickle Jameseze sad cuz Lily turned him down again?" I asked, teasing him quite well in my opinion, while Remus and I took a seat at the Gryffindor table in the Great Hall for lunch.

"Shut up," James mumbled, running his fingers through his hair, unconsciously.

Sirius shook his head and went back to his roast beef sandwich he had concocted for himself out of the slices of roast beef at the table.

"I'm famished," Lily said, while she took a seat next to me. Avril tucked in next to Sirius, who looked rather happy suddenly.

"Wish I was," Avril mumbled, picking at the roast beef sandwich in Sirius' hand, upon which he pulled it away from her as though she might damage it.

Avril had started talking again recently, much to my surprise and the other's, but it was Sirius who didn't seem that surprised by it at all, which got me wondering back to why he had defended her when I pressed about her not talking in the first place. Was he hiding something for her that she didn't want others to know? ---I needed to stop reading mystery novels in my free time!

James had once again started showing off for Lily to Sirius and my annoyance. He had nicked the Snitch yet again since the start of the term and was letting to zoom out of his reach just barely, catching it of course before it got away. Like always Peter was clapping quite enthusiastically.

"Quite it before you knock over something," Sirius said. "And spill it down your front like an idiot."

"Sure," James replied, stuffing the golden Snitch into his bag at his feet.

It occurred to me then that Sirius seemed the only person that James might stop showing off for and now that I thought of it, James might only stop doing something for Sirius, if the teen should ever ask him to.

"We could pick on Snivellus for a bit," Sirius said looking over the Slytherin table as one particular teen sat with his nose practically against the piece of parchment he was looking over.

"Don't even think about it," Avril suddenly retorted.

I had almost forgotten that it was Severus that she teamed up with to prank the hell out of the boys before her and Sirius' friendship was on surer footing. She and Severus had become friends over the months, which was rather surprising for a Slytherin and Gryffindor to be friend's. Then again, Avril had her Slytherin side; that much was for sure considering she was on good talking terms with Lucius Malfoy. At least that would explain some of the things that had happened to several Gryffindor's and Hufflepuff's. I had always been partial to the regurgitating toilets; especially when they had gotten Sirius several times! Only Severus and Avril would have thought of such wicked, cruel torture to inflict upon Sirius.

"The good days," I mumbled to myself as the memories flickered past my eyes.

Avril seemed to be remembering the same thing, because she broke out into laughter.

"What's so funny?" asked Lily, rather confused.

"Toilets!" the long, black haired girl snickered.

Sirius' face darkened. "I'm still gonna get you for that one day!" he retorted.

"What?" Lily asked.

James went into a retelling of the days of old in an oddly good Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous impression.

"I hate that damn show," Morgan mumbled from beside me.

"Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous?" Remus asked, while he reached for his pumpkin juice.

"More like, Life Styles of the Rich and Shameless," Sirius said, and we all laughed. "You think I could get my ol' mum to go on there?"

James chortled and said, "No, no, no. If you put her on there, it'd have to be called Life Styles of the Rich and Ugly!"

For the rest of lunch we changed the name of shows Sirius' mother could go on and Wheel of Ugly, which eventually branched out to his brother then soon teachers and other students we disliked or knew. It was rather fun, not to mention it helped me keep my mind off the short term goal of mine that I was rather determined to do start of next term


A/N: This chapter was a bit forced more than anything else. Not to mention I am extremely tired, but I knew that if I didn't get it done tonight I wouldn't open it up again!

OTHER NOTE: If any of you read my other stories I'd like to say that I'm sorry I haven't update lately, but all my chapters are with my beta reader. My Sirius/OC story, George/OC story and Harry Potter seventh year story is with her as well. My HP seventh year story by the way won't have any Death Hallows spoilers in it at all. So it's okay to keep reading it if you'd like. Okay…off I go.