A/N: The story is going to take a dramatic twist this chapter. As I promised, I resolve the in justice Natsuki does in Ch3. I'm thinking about posting the remaining chapter and taking a brain break before I start thinking like Natsuki or Shizuru. I'm not good at writing intimate scenes and this isn't really an intimate scene...it more of "i want you now" lusty kind of thing. Nosebleeds and all I wrote it. I have a friend who has offerred to write them for me, but he'd, yes he, would take the characters out of it and make a bit much. But if you all like that...I guess I could say yes. I don't know. But I think I'll post the remaining chapters tonight and halt my work until I can get fresher ideas.

Disclaimer: I do not own Mai-Hime or any of the characters, but working on this has given me a split personality named ShizNat.

Fear

It been about two weeks now. Shizuru and I have left the beautiful meadow paradise behind. We don't have time to play around. Our goal is to get the Harbor of Angels in Vlas, but the problem was we had to get back into the country. Good portions of the people were still affected by the Grey Cloud chances are we could slip in during the night. We were approaching the outskirts of Vlas, the military was canvassing the entire boarder. I recognized the pattern. It was Col. Takeda's beta group.

"Shizuru, we have to lay low. The patrol should be crossing by in about thirty minutes. Then we should have about an hour before the next wave. Hopefully Mai survived the Grey Cloud attack." I whispered as we lay prone in the field.

"It's about ten miles to Mai's, Natsuki. I'm going to slow you down. We'll both get caught if you stay with me." Shizuru whisper back stretching her hand out to mine.

"Shut up damn it. There is a hospital about seven miles in just forty degrees west from our original path. If we raid their pharmacy, I'm sure will find the correct medication. Murmurs aren't that rare." I grumbled holding her hand.

The patrol past by and there was our chance. I kept my grip on Shizuru's hand just in case she fainted so I could carry her in. We bolted across the boarder heading in the direction of the hospital. We had to run for at least six miles in order to stay ahead, just in case we got spotted. I know Takeda, though. His team was never on the ball we should be fine. Shizuru is holding her other hand against her chest. Damn it, we've only been running for ten minutes and we've only cleared two miles. Shizuru looked at me and gave me the signal to continue running. I won't let go of her, I won't let her die on me. If she dies…no, I can't think that way. We'll make it to the hospital. We have to.

The committee went a little longer than I had expected as I walked out after the four day of deliberations. The committee had not resolved the issue with Karis, but Webstein had made some new alliances thanks to the GGC. The nation of Roses had seemed impressed by our defensive outbursts to defend our nation's name. The monarch of the Roses was to meet our president in about a week's time, and I was finally on my way home as I stepped out of the hotel in Karis's capital, Yultin.

It would be about a month since I've been home, and I know Shizuru is waiting for me. I will get back to Vlas in about five hours making it about 7:00pm when I get to her apartment. I was actually in casual clothes for once instead of my formal military uniform. Khaki hip hugging slacks with tight black tank top on. The items were simple to get on and very easy to get off and to me that's all that mattered.

The plane shook around from turbulence while in descent to land. All and all I enjoy the ride. It's not often when you get to ride in a presidential airplane. The president could not make the trip to the GGC this year, partially because he refused to set foot on Karisan soil. The rest of the information didn't matter to me. The plane finally landed at Richter Base and as I had requested my car was waiting for me. Unfortunately so was Col. Takeda.

"Hey, Kuga!" he said as he tired to act confident.

"Col. Kuga." I grumbled as I put my duffle bag in my trunk. "Get off my car, Colonel."

"What's the rush Col. Kuga?" he mused.

"I have an important dinner date." I said as I opened the driver's door and sat down.

The bastard was still leaning on my car. I don't think he realizes that I'll drive off even if he is on my car. So I started the car, switched the gears, and pressed my foot firmly against the gas. I smiled devilishly as heard the thumping sound of Takeda in the background as I sped off the flight line to the nearest gate. Technology hadn't improved the driving and cell phone dialing abilities of man, but military technology did. I set in the autopilot for my car and grabbed my cell phone.

"Shizuru, I wanted to let you know I'm back in Vlas." I said to my phone sending a voice message rather than calling. By the time Shizuru gets the message I'll already be at her apartment. I grabbed my steering wheel and switch back to manual mode. I should have gone through with this before I left. I had the weight of what Chie said on me. She was here to kill me and yet I was there to kill her too. I couldn't do it until she confirmed her identity to me and even then, could I do it? I parked along the curb as always and waited for someone to leave the building so I could slip in and just knock on her apartment door to surprise her.

I stood in front her door for about ten minutes as I pushed my assignment to side in my mind. This, for me, was a real relationship. I was having difficulties continuing on with it like an assignment. I was in love with this red eyed beauty. So I knocked on the door to hear Shizuru walking over. Is she just going to open it? She really doesn't seem to fear much. The door doesn't even have a peep hole. The door opened and there she was in a robe, slippers, and wet hair.

"Natsuki? How did you do that? I just got your message. I'm not ready to go anywhere." Shizuru said in absolute astonishment.

"I wanted to surprise you." I said suggestively walking in forcing her backwards into the apartment shutting the door behind me.

"Natsuki." Shizuru whispered as she got the hint.

I knew tonight would settle this assignment relationship conflict. The pull between us was too strong to be fake. I kissed Shizuru slowly as we lied against her bed. I hesitated as we broke our kiss, I thought, one day I'll have to kill her.

"Natsuki, what's wrong?" Shizuru panted.

"Shizuru, I never want to hurt you, but this job of mine…" I whispered until she placed a finger over my mouth.

"Shhh, this is now. Live in this moment only." Shizuru simply said.

I gently took her hand and kissed her palm and returned to her eager lips. Our lips parted as continued our passionate kiss only stopping for air. I opened her robe little by little as I kissed down her body finding myself at her ample breasts. I traced the tips with my tongue and gently teased them with my teeth which elicited a moan from Shizuru. Shizuru's skin is like silk to the touch and for me so real and wanting my touch; needs my touch. It explained why men could never pull themselves from her when she did her assignments. I felt myself get angry at the thought of men gaining pleasure from her body as went back to kiss her. The kiss was a bit more violent as I gently bit her lip while glaring at her. How could she simply use her body like that? God I'm becoming completely intoxicated by her. I pulled my clothes off to feel everything with my body as we lay side by side entangled with each other; our bodies writhing with ecstasy.

"Natsuki, stop fooling around and touch me already." Shizuru panted as I kissed down her neck.

I obeyed her commands as I reached past her navel and push my fingers into her moist crevice forcing them in and out as many times as she commanded. The very sensation of Shizuru's body tensioning in complete pleasure made my body hot. I moved down her body until I found myself tasting her ultimate pleasure as I force my tongue in and out of her body. Shizuru was mine through and through as the night went on until she humbled me to my own weakness.

Shizuru switched places with me pushing down against the bed flat against my back. I never imagine I could blush as hard as I did then. Shizuru eyes must have gone a richer red during the night as I watched how she just took in every last inch of my body with her eyes. She focused in on my battle scar that is across my stomach and she gently reached out and touched the scar.

"Natsuki should be safer when battling my Karisan brethren." Shizuru purred.

"Shizuru…I…" I tried to respond until Shizuru slowly assault me from within over and over.

"Mmmm, Natsuki, you have told me sooner. I could have waited." Shizuru mused and smiled wickedly.

"Shizuru, stop teasing me…" I panted until she pushed two fingers in mouth which I happily sucked on until Shizuru gasped.

We lay beside each other as our legs entangled between another as we moved our bodies faster. I wrapped arms tightly Shizuru, and she wrapped her arms around me as well as we climaxed together. I did not completely fathom what just happened. I was completely out of breath as I felt Shizuru lie her head against my chest and run her hand across my stomach.

"Natsuki, when did you get this injury?" Shizuru asked as she rubbed the large scar on my stomach.

"That. It was during the Border War between our countries six years ago. I had just entered the military at the lowest rank of an officer. The battalion I was in, the cyclos division; armored motorcycles you could say. They had been called out to attack the heavy artillery units Karis was trying to move in. They were stationary and our division leader took that as a good sign rather than a threat of mines. My bike went over a mine and I was flung into near by ground combat. A soldier came at with a strange bladed weapon instead of using a gun and stabbed me right in my gut. I was pushed backwards as he drove the weapon into my body and I took advantage of the shock I was in and shot him threw the head. I should have died, but somehow I managed to get back behind the lines to a field medic. I was terrified." I said staring at the ceiling.

"Have you gotten any other injuries since the war?" Shizuru asked with concern.

"Of course, I didn't completely dodge enemy fire one day and three bullets scraped across my back. I thought I had been torched or something. It burned initially but I had to keep fighting; always fighting the battle for Webstein." I almost chanted.

"Natsuki, I have to tell you something. I think I'm in love with you; completely in love with you." Shizuru said against chest sighing.

"I'm in love with you too Shizuru, but I'm scared my job will…take me from you somehow." I sighed as started to caress Shizuru's head.

"I'll probably leave you before that." Shizuru said with pain in her voice as she rolled on her back placing her hands on her chest. She gasped for air several times. I panicked I didn't know what was happening or how to help her.

"Shizuru! What's wrong?" I said in a panicked terror.

She got up and stumbled to her bathroom. I followed to make sure she didn't hurt herself. I heard the rustle of pills and watched her take three of the same pill at once. She started to take deep and slow breaths after she swallowed her pills.

"Natsuki, I should have told you about my heart murmur." Shizuru gasped and sighed.

"What? There is no way someone in your shape can have that? Is there?" I said in astonishment.

"It's genetic defect. I'm not perfect. Yes, I'm definitely not perfect." Shizuru said while looking at her hands showing a look that I would get every so often when thinking about the reality of my job.

"Is there anything else I need to know about you?" I asked with an awkward amount of concern.

Shizuru expression went cold and pale as soon as I said that. She avoided answering me and decided to clean up instead offering for me to join. After she and I had both cleaned up Shizuru asked me to stay the night. It was already late and I had no problems staying with her. She had kept that same pained expression ever since I asked if I should know anything else about her. She made sit down on the bed and joined me at my side.

"Natsuki, I'm the Red Princess." Shizuru simply said staring in my green eyes with her deadly red ones.

Flashback End

Mini-feed:

Natsuki: AH! NO WAY!

Shizuru: fufu, more sex please!

Chuckabutt: I'm tired of sex

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