A/N: WOW, lots of ppls responded. hehehe Uh here is the chapter that I hope will make all of you squirm. Without further ado I give you my new, not really new, chapter.

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Don't Go

We had not reached the hospital yet; we had only covered about six miles at the outskirts of the functioning parts of Vlas since Grey Cloud. Functioning meant as in human beings that had not been contaminated by Grey Cloud. I had broken through an abandoned house's window to get in so we could rest here. Hopefully this place had running water and power still. I opened up the door and carried Shizuru in; she was going pale and her breathing had grown hoarse. I laid her on the couch and looked for a kitchen. Please let there be running water, Shizuru hang on. I went to the sink and turned the faucet; water clear running water. I found a cup near the sink rinsed it out filled it with water, and ran to Shizuru.

"Shizuru, drink this. It may help you. Let me see if they have an anti-inflammatory meds. That should help calm it down." I said as I sat her up handing her the cup and went to search for bathroom. I open a cabinet and found a many prescription and over the counter meds. What was this person? A from home pharmacist? There! I grabbed a bottle and walked back over to Shizuru who seemed no better from earlier.

"Nat..su..ki I'm…getting..tired" Shizuru wheezed.

"NO NO SHIZURU!! STAY WITH ME!!!" I yelled as I sat down next to her hysterically pouring the pills into my hand getting two from the pile. I laid Shizuru across my lap and put the pills in her mouth and force her to swallow them and waited until I past out. My thoughts ran wild as I slept and I had the oddest dream. I'm not certain it was truly a dream. It was a message to me in my sleep; a reinforcement of a feeling I had when I met Shizuru for the first time. We are meant to be together, and this dream was like another life in another world when we were younger. The dream though, it saddened me, deeply, in my sleep. The two young girls, Shizuru and I, were tightly embraced surrounded by debris roaring past them. In this dream I shielded Shizuru in our passionate embrace and then we faded out of existence, together. I woke up screaming with tears running down my face.

"SHIZURU!!!" her name was the one I called as I awoke.

Flashback

I felt everything in my being tense up as Shizuru reached a hand out to place on mine. When her skin contacted mine, my mind split to two thoughts. She's going to kill me, she knows who I am and she's going to kill me; I have to kill her first, just one hit will do it. NO! NO! I know she is telling me this in confidence! I will not believe she is after me. I can't think she's going to kill me. Shizuru moved her hand and cupped the side my face seeing the fear in my eyes she leaned forward to kiss me just on my lips.

"Natsuki, are you scared of me now?" Shizuru whispered so easily as she moved her lips against mine and gently traced my lips with her tongue. I felt like I was being short circuited as I willing opened my mouth to let her in as I closed my eyes. She broke our kiss and leaned back placing her hand back on mine.

"Is that better." Shizuru asked waiting for me to open my eyes. I nodded as I opened them.

"I'm still a bit frightened, you know. After all I don't even know who you are anymore." I said cautiously trying to get more information out of her. Damn I'm being a soldier again, but this is my assignment.

"Yes you do. My name is Shizuru Fujino and I'm a resident of the Karisan government who just happens to be an infamous assassin. I've never lied to you, Natsuki. I'm with you for a real relationship it's just happen stance that you're in the military." Shizuru said.

I sighed fighting the soldier inside me and myself because I loved her madly and I was the Ice Princess. I did not know what her mission was here. I got up from the bed and look away from Shizuru as I removed her hand from mine.

"I'm going to sleep on the couch if that okay with you, Shizuru." I said in my husky voice.

"No, it's not okay, Natsuki." Shizuru said grabbing my hand again holding on to it tight. She stood up by me and pulled into her embrace. "Natsuki, I won't hurt you. I can't hurt you. I love you. Stay with me in my bed."

I cannot say no to her. I will not disobey her because I love her too. However the soldier in me can say no and can kill her, but I must silence that demon in me tonight or for as long as I need to.

I woke up the next morning before Shizuru did and as I opened my eyes there she was asleep next with both of her hands still grasping my hand since last night. I smiled as remembered what she said as we laid down together. "I will never let go you, Natsuki, never." I wonder what time is it. I looked around for a clock and saw that it was still fairly early. I have to give a report today to the intelligence board about my progress. I don't want to them to know exactly what I know. Their answer would be simple; terminate the target now, worry about clean up later. I pulled my hand gently from Shizuru's grip and got my clothes on from last night. I'll change at my office. I looked back over my shoulder at Shizuru one last time; I will protect her from me, I must. As I was walking out of the apartment I dreaded what would happen.

I hopped into my car turning my cell phone off so I wouldn't be bothered by the threat of Shizuru calling me. I had to get to Richter Base so I could write up a fast report. The morning traffic kept my mind busy as I sped as fast as snail. It would be about thirty minutes before I got to the base giving me about three hours to get ready. I looked across outside of my window wondering about everything from the lowest level importance to the highest; all of it being Shizuru. I guess that made the importance one level; important. The traffic started to give and I was on my way. Damn I have to turn on my cell phone and call my secretary.

"Sgt. Harrison, I know I never ask you to do these things for me, but can you check my office closet for my extra uniform." I waited until the sergeant came back on the line. "It is. Thanks so much. One more favor. Turn on my computer. Thanks so much." Not much further to go.

As I approached Richter Base I was formulating the kind of report I could give them. I'll tell them everything relevant except the Red Princess part. I just need more information on her before I can be certain. When I went to park I saw Col. Takeda standing right in my space glaring at me with his arm in a sling. I honked my car horn and rolled down my window.

"What is your problem Colonel? I need you to move." I yelled. Takeda just glared at me some more and I decide why not break his legs too. I drove forward not hesitating in the slightest as I watch Takeda slowly inch back until my car pushed him back.

"Kuga! What's wrong with you?" Takeda yelled pulling himself from under my car. I walked past him and into the building not even giving him the time of day.

I waved at my secretary and walked into my office and shut the door behind me and proceeded to strip as I walked to my closet. I got my uniform on, gather my clothes and threw them in the closet and went straight to my computer to write a semi-honest report about my target. And before I knew I standing there in the intelligence debriefing room with my lying report being hand to all the intelligence brass.

"Col. Kuga, this report is not satisfactory." Intelligence head one said.

"It is what it is, sirs!" I said standing at attention.

"Explain this to us Colonel." Intelligence head three asked.

"My target is a Karisan apparently suffers from heart murmurs and has identified herself as Shizuru Fujino. She, as far as I can tell, is a real journalist and just writes political columns. This person is no threat to our government." I said standing still.

"Very well then Col. Kuga. Keep on it. Our intelligence bureau has never been wrong before. Perhaps this Fujino character is very good at concealing their identity. If something is suspected Col. Kuga, that you've been compromised, we will send in Black Widow. You are dismissed." The last intelligence head stated.

I saluted them and left the room. The Black Widow, not Nao, she enjoys killing people. This is bad. I must have forgotten to cover up my mood. No, by now I'd usually have what they wanted, but this time I didn't. I've always been sent in to finish other people assignments so this is what they heard when they are doing the job fast enough. This means they'll be sending in the Black Widow anytime meaning as earlier as today and no later than tomorrow. God damn, I have to move her to my apartment. They would never suspect me, right off the bat. I was walking back to my building when I heard my cell phone go off; Shizuru.

"Natsuki, I need to talk to you right now. Meet me at my apartment. No questions, now!" She said quickly and hung up. What's wrong? Have they already sent the Black Widow, and did Shizuru kill her?

I walked faster to my building going straight into the parking lot pulling my keys out to get in. Once in I started the car without delay tearing out of the parking lot almost hitting ever car on my way out. If it did look like I wasn't hiding anything earlier I must have then. I spend down the open road to the city cutting through the thick traffic like mist not caring if I scraped piece of my vehicle off on others. I must get to Shizuru. I got into the city and drove to her apartment. When I got there I just basically parked up on to the curb damaging the undercarriage of my car. I ripped the keys out and ran into the building leaving the door to my car wide open. I didn't care. The building wouldn't open. I buzzed Shizuru number. No one is answering or letting me in. Damn it. I looked around to see no one. It's the middle of the day. I can do this. I pulled out my gun screwed my silencer on and shot the apartment building's main door open. I ran up to her apartment and from the door unlocked.

"Shizuru!!! What's wrong? I know you're here." I said hiding my gun behind my back. The apartment was dark, cold, and silent. I was on the ready listening for anything. I don't do close combat, but at least I know how to point and shoot. I can also use brut strength if need be.

"I got a call before I called you, Natsuki. It was my contact from the GGC." Shizuru's voice echoed. My eyes widened. What could they have gotten there?

"They managed to bug Representative Chie Harada without her knowledge before she went off to trade information with a Webstein official." Shizuru continued with slight hurt in her voice. I looked around everywhere I could not see Shizuru anywhere. I see why she's the Violet Snake too.

"You are Blue Wolf, Natsuki Kuga, colonel at Richter Base and a standing member of the Webstein Republic's GGC representation." Shizuru continued as her Karisan accent became more pronounced.

"You are also the soul contact of the sniper, Ice Princess! Tell me who Ice Princess is Blue Wolf." Shizuru yelled.

"So this is how you're going to play it. You're going to kill me, aren't you? I knew you'd end up using me." I shouted as I got closer to the apartment's entrance.

"No, I won't kill you Natsuki, I just want Ice Princess." Shizuru's voice got closer.

The door shut from behind me. Damn it, I should have realized she was waiting outside for me the entire time. The lights switched on and I darted towards the door trying to predict Shizuru's movement. We struggled until we both fell to the ground wrestling for my gun. I sat there straddling her hips knowing she could kick me anytime as I held my 23 special against her head.

"I am Ice Princess. Blue Wolf is just a cover." I cried holding my gun switching my safety off. Shizuru eyes started to glisten with tears.

"No…" Shizuru choked closing her eyes letting the tears roll down her face. My heart trembled as I sat atop my lover with gun to her head ready to kill her. Shizuru opened her eyes as she felt tears strike her face. I was crying. I did not want this. It was wrong.

"Natsuki, do it. Weren't you here to kill me, too?" Shizuru said fixing her red eyes on mine. I heard a sound outside of the apartment and shouted keeping an eye lock on Shizuru.

"Who's there?" I shouted.

"Black Widow. I see you already have Red Princess." Nao said in an upset voice. "I've never killed them in that position before. Tell me how it feels. I'll call in a report letting the four headed monster know you've completed you mission." Nao stepped outside making her call. Shizuru still keeping contact with me whispered, "I love you." And she shut her eyes sending the last of her tears falling that day. I fired twice hearing the sounds echoing in my head. What have I done?

No mini feed today. Sorry...this chapter too serious for the girls to see. Looks over shoulder seeing Natsuki and Shizuru crying in the backround. They got emotional. So, hate me yet?