A/N: This chapter was particular difficult to write. I don't know if I truly captured what I had imagined for Shizuru, but I had major monologue usage and lots of stream of consciousness. I plugged the TomoeXShizuru relationship in there some of it. And that should be it. Because it is all ShizNat from there out.

Disclaimer: I do not own Mai Hime.

Broken

Natsuki stood there silently as I debated whether I should tell her about my past. My gaze had locked onto Natsuki's form that was framed by the darkness.

"Natsuki, where should I start?" I asked wondering if she'd really want to hear.

"Tell me about the happy stuff. What little you had? I want to know." Natsuki said simply. I sighed and thought, the happy moments in my life, you are definitely one of the best things in my life. I understand what she wants though.

"Well let's see, I suppose starting with the positive parts of my life, is a good start." I said as I watched Natsuki walk over to me. "My family wasn't rich, but we were well to do and rich in the sense of family ties. Nothing could destroy us. It was me, my mother, and my two younger sisters. My father is probably still alive, but I really don't care for the man much. When I was little he use to beat my mother and tried to molest me. Of course my mother caught him trying it once and that was it. He left one day and never returned, but after that my family was perfect. I had an exceptional education all the way up to the end of high school. The day I graduated the Karis government had employed the use of the draft youngest age was 16 years of age. I was 18 when I graduate high school, and I never got a chance to go to college." I sighed as Natsuki rest against the railing.

"The military forced me into the spy service and directly told me what they expected of a young woman like me. I spat on the face of the officer who told me that as we stood in a room with a tinted mirror." My voice faltered as the memory started going grey my eyes filled with an indescribable void. "They switched a light on and I could see into the other room and they turned on speakers so I could hear what was happening in there. I watched helplessly as my family was tortured. They told me that for going against my government's wishes I would be punished in the most painful fashion. I often thought that your life is important, but I was wrong. I was so wrong. Their screams, I can never get their screams out of my head Natsuki. My sisters screaming my name begging me to come and save them… I remember screaming at the officer that I spat on. I remember telling him I'd do anything that I'd sell my soul, my body, do anything they wanted, so they'd stop hurting my family. That man, grinned and pulled a contract out that I had to sign…signing away my rights as a human being. I cried and begged them to release my family. And they did, just not the way I wanted. A man walked in the room with a semi-automatic and all I remember was the walls going red, a deafening scream, the sound of the gun, and silence." I stood there looking at my hands. Natsuki just stood there wide eyed probably not knowing what to do. What can you do when you discover the horrible truth of your lover's beginnings?

"It ended so quickly. My life, ended there. I died. I became a shell. Gone. Lost. I'm told I went insane and catatonic after that. They actually let me in the room and let me wallow in the remains of my family. I can't remember, but I was told I did anything they asked and let them do anything they wanted; anything. I was greatly rewarded for my services. By the following year I had killed over 300 people and earned my code name Red Princess and my reputation for being the whore of Karis. A few years later I was on Berlin Base in the very same building I had been in the day they killed my family. I heard screaming and gun fire. I quickly walked down the hall. My thoughts had been jarred. I knew what had happened. A soldier walked out of a room laughing. I glared at him and told him to give the girl that was in the room. He just laughed:

"Oh the whore of Karis wants me to listen to her." The soldier laughed.

"I may be the whore of Karis, but I'm still your superior!" I yelled. "Now give me the girl in that room. I know there is a girl in that room. Give her to me, now!"

"No. Blow it and then I will, bitch." He said smugly.

"Only general officers receive that service. I'll just get her myself." I said curling lip as I pulled out my gun. The soldier screamed no. What sad last words. I emptied my gun into his body licking my lips as I watch the blood flow to the ground. My

I finished my recollection and Natsuki was horror struck. You know Natsuki, the girl I met in that room, was Tomoe. She suffered the same fate I had, but I demanded the general officers let me train her and take her under my wing. She was just barely 16 years old. I would not let my superiors defile her body." I said looking across the horizon. I did not tell Natsuki the rest as we stood on the silent moonlit veranda.

Yes, that's right I would not let my superiors defile her. I did. I took the crazed girl back to my penthouse.

flashback

"What are you going to do to me?" Tomoe said shaking. I smiled darkly walked over to the young girl and dragged her into my room and pushed her against the bed.

"Anything I want. They gave you to me. So I could train you properly." I said cryptically as Tomoe fell back against the mattress. "Let me take your pain away, girl. Let me take your remaining innocence and I will give you anything you want." I said in lustful voice as I ran my hand threw Tomoe's hair. Tomoe gulped turned her head to the side and weakly said yes.

Flashback end

"So you took it yourself, didn't you?" Natsuki said out of the blue in a low voice appearing behind me.

My heart beat heavy and I breathed in the same fashion. How did she know? Is she that dark hearted as well? "Natsuki, I'm not as warped as I use to be." I said shutting my eyes as Natsuki's arm wrapped around me .

"If I was you that is what I'd do. I know I would have done something like that. That's why I choose to be a sniper. I cannot stand the darkness that lurks inside my heart, but you. Oh, you make it go away Shizuru, but you taint my soul too. I will kill anybody to stay with you." Natsuki said and kissed the back of my neck. "Did I tell you that you're beautiful?"

What is this? She is accepting it. Her grip loosened as I turned around only to hear the door slam open. Natsuki and I looked to the door to see Reito Kanazaki standing there with craze wrapped in his eyes.

"KUGA!!!!!!!" Reito charged. Natsuki pushed me away from her as Reito crashed into her sending them over the railing.

"NATSUKI!!!!!!!" I screamed watching them disappear from my sight.

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Chuckabutt: -finishes edited Myspace profile- Phew, that god no one saw that...

Shizuru: -reads ch 17-

Natsuki: - reads over her shoulder-

Chuckabutt: - Kara stares at them -

ShizNat: -they look up and glare-

Chuckabutt: -smiles-

I hope you liked it. I know this chapter is shorter than my other chapter BUT...there was a lot of stuffs in this chapter. I've got to keep the intensity on a slowly rising high.

Remember review so I can respond. :p -bows respectfully- Now I must go and see transformers the movie.