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A/N: Okay, I'm finally posting my dreadful chapter 20. This will be the last one. I know, I suck. It has to be done.

Disclaimer: NatShiz belongs to Sunrise.

DEADLY LOVERS

by Kara Papas

Chapter 20:Synonyms for The End

I wanted to stay in my memory. The world around me was unreal and very cruel; this much like Shizuru's and my profession. However this was a way to describe us within that cruel world; cold, heartless, soulless; words to describe a killer. The words to describe a murderer. The world was full of murderers what I did was not so evil. I pulled a trigger which released a hammer that ignited the case of bullet that would tear through, into, and out of a person's body. However, I am not supposed to relate life with those that I kill. No, they are not real, they are a mission objective. "My target for this week," that is what I always thought until I found Shizuru.

The steam surrounded my body as I stood in the shower of a vacant house. Silence has never been a problem for me, but this silence was too much. The vacant house was surrounded by many others. The day Shizuru and I fled Richter Base project Grey Cloud was launched. If it were possible the sky shook from the explosion that was Grey Cloud. Less than half of the world's civilian population was affect by this fast spreading neurotoxin. It had mainly blanketed the eastern countries that included Karis, Webstein, Pulz, and Ratus.

Shizuru and I did not have enough time to relax. We were more than likely being trailed by Takeda. The man had apparently gone insane after that day eight months ago. We had run into him several times during our escape. He is the reason we were pushed into the outskirt of Karis and Webstein. We had let our guard down during the second month and he managed to raid the camp we setup taking all our weapons. This left us to scavenge. It was fitting though. I've been in that situation before, as well as Shizuru. We are no strangers to that lifestyle. However here we were back in Webstein. I had one goal at the current moment and that was to reach the hospital. I turned the water off and stared at the tiled wall in front of me. We are going to survive? A question I wondered about. I had no qualms with our ability to defend ourselves or offensively protect ourselves. We should survive.

The shower curtain pulled open all of sudden startling me. My eyes locked onto crimson ones that were framed by damp hair. I let my eyes wonder as I'm sure she was doing the same and I could feel a need starting to build up inside me. No we don't have the luxury for that right now, but to look at and feel Shizuru is an experience in itself. Her skin is a beautiful ivory that traps a secret from unsuspecting victims. Her lips are soft and cruel as they drive me to hunger. I always wish to taste those lips. It's not just a maddening lust, but an incredible love that can only be described as a lust. Her body makes mine tremble without the slightest thought. Her touch was for me and mine for her. A destiny unspoken was what lay between us though our paths were crossed with the lives of many. The lives of these many meant nothing to us making our love all the more warped, but not so.

I stepped out of the shower with a furious blush covering my face knowing my body was tense in her presence. Shizuru smiled slyly at my blushing face as she held out a towel for me. This ritual of meeting each other outside of the shower seemed almost planned. Shizuru had a very sick fondness for the scar on my stomach. I watched her eyes trail down my exposed body to my stomach. I draped the towel over my shoulders and smiled smugly at her.

What do we do from here, I wonder? I walked in the bedroom and looked at the pictures on the dresser. Newlyweds and they had to fall in love right about this time. I feel sorry for them, but at the same time I don't. People are always falling in and out of love. What makes this young couple any different? What makes my love any different? I felt arms wrap around my waist and a head rest against my shoulder. I placed my hands over hers and we sighed in unison. Perhaps that is what makes my love different. There are no words to describe my love for her and yet there is so much I can say. I know what I would do for her. I have already killed in her name and I already died for her by her own hands. What more was there for me to do? I did not need her to kill or be killed for me to prove her love. The first time I held my gun against her head. I knew. She could have defended herself from me with no problem, but she didn't. Instead she defeated me with her tears, those lips, and the words "I love you." Those words are so powerful. It made me realize I was human. I am real because of those words.

"Natsuki…" the way she said my name ran hotly from her mouth to my ear. I cannot resist her.

"Don't…" was my only response as I felt her hands trail upward. She moved my hair over to my other shoulder and kissed my neck.

"Natsuki please let me…" she said with an intense longing in her voice. My heart is starting to race as I grabbed her hands again stopping her.

"No, we don't have that kind of luxury…" I'm not going to win. I always lose to her this way because she knows my needs and wants better than I do. I can feel her against me. Her heart is racing just as mine is and for her that isn't good. Why are you tempting me, Shizuru, and placing yourself in harms way? I tightened my grip on her hands.

"Do you want me to let go?" She said against my ear baiting me for a response. She is baiting for response that will satisfy her.

"No…" I started to breathe harder. She is a highly skilled seductress and I know for certain that these particular skills are just for me. Only for me. This is raw sexuality. Completely untamed. My hands fell slack at my sides as I succumb to Shizuru.

"It's okay Natsuki…" Shizuru said softly tugging at towel ever so gently. It had always been me who instigated making love, but this time she took control. Her hushed voice, her hands gentle, and her mouth hot. My will power and strength is no match for this. I'm trembling just feeling her bare form brush against my backside. I could not look up as I kept my gaze trained to the ground by my side. Shizuru placed a hand under my chin making me look ahead into the mirror that I refused to recognize earlier. My face became redder as my eyes locked onto the reflection of the red ones behind me. With one hand she covered my eyes and the other rested above my navel. I felt her lips again at my jaw and nipped and licked at my earlobe.

"Shizuru…" I breathed.

"Hmmm…" is her only response right now. She moved the hand in front of my eyes relieving to her my tightly shut eyes. I felt and heard her sigh in relief. Did I pass a test?

"Shizuru…touch me…" I said in a very embarrassed stutter making Shizuru smile. To imagine, all she has done was kiss my neck and say my name. I'm begging for her. I'm aching. I need her to complete that part of me.

"Natsuki is always so intense…take it slowly..." Shizuru said placing a finger against my lips. This is something worse than torture to take it slowly, but for Shizuru I will do it. I can feel everything of her; the heat of her skin, her breasts against my bare back, and that finger at my mouth. The finger that is tracing my lips so gently making them tingle and fill with blood.

She led me to the bed ever so gently laying me down running her hands from my shoulders to my hips. I know what she going for, that scar; I should ask her later about her fascination for it. I felt her tongue lick near the bottom of the scar. I got shivers all across my body. Shizuru brought herself up and our lips met in a tender kiss. I have never experienced this kind of prolonged ecstasy. I never knew what ecstasy was until her and I was being suffocated in it.

I'm surprised how aroused my body has become just under the power of her lips. Her lips mean everything to me. I want to cry and beg for her but the pleasure is too intense. No sound coming from my mouth. I only have the rocking motion of my hips to the rhythm of her steady hand. She is constant; there is no increase of speed or decrease. She is constant so very constant. I brought her face to mine so our lips could meet again in hunger crazed kiss. My eyes locked onto hers as smiled at my flushed face. I turned away biting down on my finger still unable to make a sound. I felt Shizuru hair go down my torso sending shivers across my body over and over until I felt her lips and tongue against my own warmth.

Relentless, wonderful, almost painful for my body as I finally screamed her name giving her endless praise. I am struggling to breathe and my body is shaking. Shizuru I know I say it too much, but for you I would gladly do anything. I felt her lie against my side and kiss me sweetly on my lips.

"And you said we didn't have the luxury or time…" Shizuru teased.

"You're right…" I panted looking at her body as I tried to get up but my body was still shaking and I fell back down.

"Natsuki, rest…" Shizuru said before kissing my forehead holding our bodies close. I listened to her heart. It beats with strength and yet it is flawed; that is not possible and yet, it is.

The world faded away as I drifted off into a blissful sleep. My thoughts were surrounded by the fact that we had no plan. We were in enemy territory and we were practically weaponless. I gave Shizuru my .50 caliber gun the only one we had left. The recoil on the gun was powerful but by god the person who was hit by it was going to be dead once that bullet ripped threw them.

I am laying out the plan in my head as I sleep. My first objective is to get to the hospital. Chances are, the departments aren't talking thanks to project Grey Cloud. I can walk in request to talk to a specialist and get the medicines I need. I will not let Shizuru die from a heart murmur. It's a very cheesy sentiment, but if we die. We have to die fighting. Together, I want us to die in each others' arms. It would be more than just agony for one of us to survive. No I mustn't think of that.

My eyes shot open. Shizuru is not beside me. No, where are you?

"Shizuru?" There is no answer. I grabbed some clothes and quickly went outside of the room.

"Shizuru, where are you?" My eyes finally found her. Shizuru hands are against her chest and she is breathing slowly. There are tears falling from her face. I came closer to see one of her hands she had a knife. Why?

"Natsuki, I'm dying…" Shizuru looked at me with sorrowful eyes. No, you can't be dying.

"I didn't want to…I'm so sorry." Shizuru looked at me and dropped the knife. I think she was going to kill me and then herself. I would have accepted it, gladly. She held her hands to her face and cried. I walked over and pulled her into a hug. We have to go. This can't wait any longer. We grabbed all our essentials to head out. The time was around midnight. The military patrol will be thicker but we should be able to make it into the city. It was by some marvelous chance we were on our way to the city on two motorcycles by night. I was afraid about leading the way to the city as I would occasionally slow down to ride by Shizuru who would motion me to get back in the lead. The surrounding sky was dark and ominous as flashes would go off in the distance. Webstein will fall and the Karisan government will succeed. Where are the wonderful allies of Webstein now?

As we pushed ahead I slowed to a stop. The military presence was thicker than what I had expected as I glanced toward the city. I looked at Shizuru and got off my bike. Shizuru was about to move but waved for her stay on.

"Shizuru, you know where the Harbor of Angels is?" I asked through my helmet.

"Yes, but…." Shizuru responded.

"No. You have to trust me. I'll go to the hospital and you need to head to the harbor and see if you can secure a ship for us or at least get us passage." I said as if I was still in a commanding position.

"I shall use any method possible, then." Shizuru said straight faced. I took off my helmet in a heart beat and showed my anger at that remark.

"You will do nothing of the sort!" I growled.

"Oh, it's too easy to ruffle your feathers, Natsuki." Shizuru said smiling. I paused in thought and just glared at her placing my helmet back on.

"Let's go. I want to make this quick." I said watching Shizuru nod and zoom away towards the harbor. I stood there until I could no longer focus on Shizuru's form upon the bike. It was about one in the morning. I had to get on the move.

Once I was in the city I managed to get the bike in and park it not too far from the hospital. I kept the helmet on as I walked to the east wing which contained the pharmacy. As I got closer I realized there was more than just a major presence of military personnel. It was almost like the hospital had been converted into the base hospital. I walked in tipping up the eye visor so I could see well.

"Natsuki Kuga!" A voice called out from behind me. Don't move, Natsuki. If you respond to that name they'll get you. But the question is who is it?

"Natsuki, it's me, Youko." The voice sighed. I turned around still with my helmet disguising me as best as possible. Youko gave me a severe glare. I can understand why. All this havoc started occurring as my disappearance happened. Youko grabbed my hand and pulled me into a restricted area of the hospital.

"Youko, do you have anything that would be a fast cure for a heart murmur?" I asked.

"Ha, this isn't the time for that. Did you know that Colonel Takeda knows you're in Vlas? He's on his way to the Harbor of Angels right now!" Youko said in a concerned tone.

"That's impossible, he was at the border not too long ago…" I said thinking about things. I was wrong. Shizuru is in danger. I felt something hit my arm. Youko was handing me, an eight by eleven by two, black case with the seal of the Webstein military.

"Here, it's a vial of nanoprobes and a specialized syringe for it. I'll meet you in the Harbor. Go quickly." Youko gave me a firm pat against my back.

I found myself struggling for air as I sped down to the Harbor with all my might. Shizuru, don't let Takeda get you. I saw the harbor in the distance and skid the bike across the ground and ran from it into the stacks of cargo tankers. My helmet hit the ground as I pulled it off. Hopefully Takeda isn't here yet.

I no longer feel like a trained killer. I'm lost here. My warped fairytale world is resurfacing. This is the part I hate; it is the end of the story. The tragedy brought full circle in a mournful way. The hero has gone insane in his pursuit of his maiden who is also insane. Within each other there is the cure for their insanity. Although the villain which is typically the scornful lover of another unfortunate character; the villain manages to keep the two apart. The villain is always fast on the heels of the hero. The broken princess on the other hand is faced with a dilemma of time. She is force to take another path to get to the hero and the path is longer. So the path delays her and by the time she reaches the hero, the villain has already mortally wound them and taken the cowards way out.

I am blind to my surroundings. Shizuru! Shizuru! Where are you! This is all in my heart, but pretty soon I will be shouting. The stacks are looming over me like giants of metal. Then I heard it; the sound of gun fire roaring like thunder throughout the stacks. Only one gun could make such a unique roar; the .50 caliber. My heart stopped as I heard the sound of something splashing into the bay. I started running furiously through the stacks the wind soaring by my head. Nothing else matters to me. Shizuru. No, no, this isn't possible, we've come too far. Shizuru.

I could no longer remain silent. "SHIZURU!!!" I screamed almost swearing I could hear myself in the distance at the same time. I passed several more stacks getting closer to the boardwalk by the bay. I saw the opening to one of the areas near the boardwalk and quickly walked to it until I heard a gun go off from behind me.

My body reeled forward and my footing became awkward. I looked down at my chest. There is a red welling spot under my left collarbone. I heard another shot and it zoomed by my head strafing my cheek. I felt the burning sensation even though the pain was dulled by the initial shock from the first bullet. I heard the gun fire again and my body reeled forward once more as I felt the bullet tear through my body. The shooter didn't give me anymore time before they fired again. This time they shot out my right knee from behind sending me falling forward. The pain was unimaginable as the shock took my body whole. I just knelt there on my knees as the blood soaked my shirt and slowly filled my lungs. This person was after something. I tried to open my mouth to call out for Shizuru, but only a gurgling choke came out as blood poured out my mouth.

My body, it's going cold and yet I feel it; the warmth of my very own blood escaping my body. It is pooling around me slowly. My grip upon the vial box loosened and it fell to the ground beside me. I heard laughter from behind and footsteps accompanying that laughter. My killer came into my view as I staggered some of my remaining strength to look upon them. No, this is poetic. Takeda and he's holding my gun; my SIG-230. He only fired five shots. I left a magazine with six bullets in there. He has one more. This is truly poetic though. I am to die by the very same instrument that killed over several hundred numbers of people. I tried to speak again, only to gurgle more blood out my mouth. This isn't how I wanted to die. I'm dying a pathetic death. I felt his hand upon my head grabbing my hair and shoving the gun against my head.

"Now, you filthy bitch…" Takeda almost howled. "I'll blow you brains out just like you did to poor Yuki that young private that had so much promise!"

I knew I couldn't talk, but I could try and laugh. This passionate display could kill me before my blood loss would. I started to laugh making a moist coughing sound instead, but it did what I wished. Takeda's right eye started to twitch uncontrollably. I smiled a bloody smile at him. That sent him over the edge.

"You fucking bitch! Die Kuga! DIE!" Takeda screamed. Takeda started tightening his grip on my hair and shoving the gun closer to my skull if it were anymore possible than where he had it. His nostrils flared and his eyes glowed with murderous intent as he tilted his back a bit. My senses are starting to go. The pain in my body is now just a dull throbbing.

"NATSUKI!!!!" I heard Shizuru, and her voice was followed by the thunderous roar of the .50 caliber gun.

The large caliber bullet blew off the shoulder to the arm holding the gun and his body was immediately pelted by another bullet. This one blew off the other shoulder. The final bullets destroyed what was his head. The first bullet to strike his skull blew off the top right. The proceeding bullet took care of the left side of his head and the final bullet blew the jaw off the neck. I could hear a clunk against the ground followed by running. Amazingly enough Takeda's body remained standing after it was dismembered by the .50cal bullets. A hand appeared on the body pushing it to the bay making one last splash. My green eyes locked onto terrified red orbs that suddenly became level with mine as Shizuru fell to her knees.

Shizuru, look away, please. However my word only came out in garbled chucks of blood which caused Shizuru to cry hysterically. I cannot move my arms anymore. No, why? Why? I cannot touch her one last touch time. I want to comfort her. Shizuru looked down and reached for my hand. She has it in hers and I can't feel it. I can't feel it! Her skin against mine and I can't feel it. I started to cough as tears rolled down my face. I'm dying. I really am dying. I tried to speak again. I want to tell you something Shizuru. I need to tell you something. I love you. More blood poured out of my mouth. No, she needs to know this. I love you. More gurgling and thick blood came from me.

"Natsuki, stop…stop…don't try it anymore." Shizuru sobbed still holding my hand. "Remember, let's take it slowly…" Shizuru cried some more.

My vision is going. No, no, no, no! I don't want to leave this world not being able to see Shizuru! No, I'm falling into the darkness. Shizuru, Shizuru…I can't feel you. I can't feel you! My body is getting much colder so very cold. I can't feel the throbbing pain anymore. I'm fading away. I'm fading away without you in my arms.

Shizuru's POV

It wasn't supposed to be this way. It wasn't supposed to turn out like this. Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! There I was on my knees in front of Natsuki. I'm supposed to die. Not you. Not you. Natsuki's body slumped forward against mine. No! No! Oh god, Natsuki, don't leave me. This is…I can't…why is that…no…no…she's trying to breathe still. Oh but these wounds. I looked around. I don't know what to do. I don't know!

I heard the sounds of feet approaching. I don't care anymore. The soldiers can find me. I'll provoke them to kill me and then I'll be with you. A figure appeared from the stacks. It was the doctor friend of Natsuki's.

"Oh good God…" Youko said seeing Natsuki mortally wounded body. "I take it she didn't get you your nanoprobes." She soullessly said.

I glared at the doctor with a burning hatred. She grabbed the box by Natsuki body and placed it into her pocket.

"Come on. You see that warehouse-like building just over there?" She asked and I nodded. "My research lab has been moved there because the Confusion. We need to get Natsuki there immediately. Moving her will decrease her chances of survival, but it must be done. Takeda's troops where given orders to come in after the colonel." I just nodded.

Somehow we got to the laboratory and there lie Natsuki on an examination table. I stood by her watching the heart monitor furiously beep the dwindling life of my beloved. I felt a sharp pain in my arm and a sudden burning in my blood. I looked over at the doctor bewildered as I watched her go to her desk in a calm fashion putting down a syringe. I'm supposed to be the heartless killer; this woman is something else. The monitor started beeping wildly. I looked back at Natsuki and the doctor who stood by with an annoyed expression.

"Doctor! You have to do something!" I shouted. Youko looked at Natsuki and sighed.

"Listen, there is nothing I can do. This thing is going to die." Youko sighed. "All that data, too. Such a shame."

"What in the hell is wrong with you! How can you be so cold?" I said as the tears rolled down my face. The heart monitor flat lined. She's dead and I'm alive. No…

Youko covered the body up with a sheet which absorbed the blood underneath it. "Me, cold. I'm trying to advance medical technology! In the name of medical science any life is worth the data!"

I slumped down on my knees in defeat. My world has no meaning and I've got to stay with a psychotic doctor.

"You cruel bitc…." I growled but was cut off.

"Before you start your evil name calling. I thought I should let you know. That wasn't Natsuki…" Youko said with rather bored tone.

"What?" I was completely astonished by this statement. That is Natsuki…it had to have been Natsuki.

Switching to 3rd person

An hour had passed at the Harbor of Angels as the sun stretched its lazy rays across the bay horizon. Youko sat quietly in her research laboratory typing furiously away at her computer putting in all kinds of complicated data. She switched to a laboratory report for her personal files titled, 'S.H.E.L Experiment'. The acronym stood for Spare Human Extra Life. No, it didn't make the least bit of sense, but she was horrible at naming her projects and inventions.

All of a sudden soldiers came flooding into the research laboratory and took up positions everywhere jarring Youko back into reality.

"Who the hell do you think you are!? Get out of my laboratory!" Youko demanded.

A soldier cut through the crowd and met face to face with Youko. "Dr. Youko, I am Major Izumi. We are here on request of our commanding officer Colonel Takeda who seems to be dead. At least we assume he is dead since we found parts of him not too far from here. We are pursuing a trader, Colonel Natsuki Kuga and her accomplice Shizuru Fujino, Red Princess. Have you seen them?"

Youko place her hand on the Major's shoulder and made them face to their left. To their left there were two examination tables with two covered corpses. One sheet was heavily saturated in blood whereas the other was just over the head region.

"It took me forever to clean up the brain matter on the ground. But there they are. The Red Princess came in here with Colonel Kuga demanding that I save her. I tried and tried my best to save the Colonel, but in the end she had sustained too many severe injuries for me to save her. The Red Princess was so distraught that she killed herself moments after the Colonel flat lined. There was nothing I could have done for the Red Princess." Youko sighed. The Major breathed deeply and shook their head from side to side.

"Thank you doctor. Troops! Move out!" The major shouted leaving the lab.

Behind the laboratory the sound of an engine starting could be heard at the same time that the troops had started theirs. Youko stood at the back doorway of the laboratory sighing and smiling at the military vehicle that slowly drove off under the light of a rising sun. She turned around again and walked over to the second body that had the head wound and pulled the cover back. Underneath the covers was not the body of Shizuru Fujino, but someone else who sat up.

"Youko, I finally come out of stasis and you smear blood all over my forehead and tell me to lie under the covers next to some dead shell." The obviously alive corpse said.

"You helped me out, Midori. Besides, under the military records, you're dead anyways." Youko said wiping the blood off Midori's head. She sighed. "Escaping is all they really wanted…"

My name is Kara Papas, I thank you for letting me entertain you with this fanfiction. I hope all of you enjoyed it. Please don't hurt me. LOL I want to give special thanks to ALL who encouraged me to keep this "horrible" story going. To my fantastic myspace buds and my sempai! I give a very special creditting to my real life older sister who helped my hash out endings for this story. We talked and went through about 20 plus endings. Most of which she really came up with. So this is the one I chose. Thank Miki-oneesama for that! Glowie, I hope that shield of yours didn't break. Oh, kookie, thank you for writing HSD, I was able to get laughs as I suffered through my last chapter.

Quick edit for the postscript: Thank You Keman!!!!

There is a possibility of me writing a sequel, but school is around the bend, but if I get lots and LOTS of reviews...I'll think about writing the first chapter of the sequel. Until then there is Living Forever in You and its AU.

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