Disclaimer: I still don't own Naruto, it's very sad.
Warnings: This chapter contains coarse language, subjects containing death and homicide, blood, yaoi incest, skewed thoughts on rape, traces of sexual content, OOC, and he canon is still getting pummeled to a bloody pulp. This is also a long chapter (I really need to stop saying that, everyone knows these chapters are long.) There might also be some mistakes in this chapter that I didn't pick up. I HAVE NOW PUT THE LEMON UP DUE TO POPULAR DEMAND, IT'S AT THE END OF THE CHAPTER.
Pairings: ItaSasu and some SasuNaru
He loomed over his bed looking down at him; he looked peaceful as he was deep in sleep, his breathing gentle and calm. His blond locks were strewn messily across the pillow, his body rolled up in a loose ball. The kunai in Sasuke's hand was shaking as he tried to hold back all of the urges to take his own life instead.
"You thought that you could just leave me that night, Naruto?" he asked in a low whisper. "I'm not the kind of person who's going to condone that. You call yourself my best friend and you are, but…" he clutched onto the kunai tighter. "I have to… kill you."
Sitting on the bed he looked down at him with swollen scarlet eyes, his heart racing in his chest. He didn't see Naruto anymore, he saw the power his body craved, he saw that damn fox that Itachi had risked his life to get the whereabouts of. Detaching from who it was, he placed to the knife to the side moving his hands to run along Naruto's neck feeling the light pulse.
His fingers danced across the flesh, both hands grasping Naruto's neck tightly pushing him farther into the mattress. Tears streamed harder down his face as he looked down at his friend hearing him gag. Itachi was dying because of Naruto, Kakashi was in a coma because of Naruto, Sasuke wasn't going to screw up now. He let out a loud sob as he squeezed harder hearing him start to choke, his body moving as if he were trying to awaken. Through tears he could see the blue eyes looking up at him begging desperately.
"Sasuke? What are you…?"
Sasuke tightened his grip, sobbing loudly hearing Naruto start to struggle to breathe hands shaking as he moved to grab at the Uchiha's wrists trying to push them off. Fingernails dug into Sasuke's wrists blood spilling onto Naruto's face. A sickness went through Sasuke's body as Naruto suffered. Was this what Itachi felt while killing Shisui?
Naruto swallowed hard gagging loudly his eyes watering lightly as his body shook. "W-why? Why are you doing this?"
"There's something you don't understand, something that has changed inside of me. I'm not the same person that I was that night," he moved closer to Naruto's body his grip on his neck tightening. "In order to obtain power, I have to kill you. You knew this all along, you've heard of mangekyou sharingan, the sharingan in its highest form. My brother obtained that power it and he killed his best friend to do so."
He could feel Naruto's life start to slip away as his face grew pale, his body stopped it's shaking. His eyes were becoming glassy as he tried to fight it, he was starting to lose focus. Every breath felt painful, his chest struggling to rise and fall with every breath. With every second that passed, Naruto was falling deeper into death, the chasm of darkness that Sasuke had seen twice. He was dying.
He closed his eyes tightly as to not see those blue irises fade into a dim grey, his pupils starting to expand his life starting to flee from his body his throat struggling to cough. Sasuke let out a loud sob as he heard Naruto try to make out words, more empty pleas for this nightmare to end.
"S-Sasuke… I-I…" he swallows hard up against Sasuke's tight grip. "Y-you… you promised… m-made me…"
Sasuke closed his eyes, trying to block him out.
"M-made m-me… p-p-promise… t-that I wouldn't… let you hurt me… n-no matter… what…"
"Naruto," Sasuke hissed wrapping his hands around tighter. "Shut up."
"Open your eyes, Sasuke," Naruto was struggling to breathe, his voice tight. "I… I… I thought that you were different than this. You're letting Itachi push you around… that's not the Sasuke Uchiha that I know. You… you… you were strong… and I was jealous of you…"
Onyx eyes expanded as he tried to move his hands from Naruto's neck, something deep inside of his body telling him this is what he wanted to do. Move! Damn it! Move! Move!
"I-I told you… promised you… that I would help you obtain your dream… Sasuke… I-I…" he struggled to cough again. "I-I know… y-you… y-y-you will…" his hand moved from Sasuke's wrist struggling to touch his face, "uphold your promise… p-promise… p-promise me… that y-you'll s-survive… l-live… d-don't die… p-promise…"
Naruto's pupils took over his eyes, dilating to take over his blue irises his body going limp on the bed, blood running from his nostrils. His hand was loosening its grip on Sasuke's wrist as he tried to pull way from his best friend's neck. Naruto was leaving this world slowly; Sasuke could see the cursed realm of darkness in his eyes, glints of purple light deep in those cold dead eyes.
"N-Naruto?" Sasuke asked pulling his hands away seeing the blood rolling down Naruto's lips. "Naruto?" he asked again placing hand on his friend's cheek watching his eyes cloud more his life leaving his body. "Naruto!" he moved to grasp his body holding it tightly shaking his body violently in vain, his body was limp. "Naruto!"
He buried his face into Naruto's chest sobbing violently. What had he done? His stomach was burning, he felt sick. His eyes swirled through a haze of utter hate. The knife that was lying next to the pillows looked so appetizing. He could take off some of the pain not caring about Naruto anymore.
"I'm sorry," Sasuke breathed stroking Naruto's face gently looking into his dead eyes tears falling onto him. "I didn't… I shouldn't have killed you. Please, Naruto, don't go, don't leave me alone now. I was wrong… I was wrong to use you, abuse you. Now when I look at you all I see is another that I failed. Itachi… was this how you felt while looking at what you did to Shisui? Did you feel like your life was worthless? Did you feel like everything that you ever cared about was gone? Did you feel…?" he ran a hand through Naruto's blond hair. "I never wanted you to do this to you. I thought… I wanted to let go… but now… you're on the other side. Come back… come back to me."
Sasuke looked at the knife grasping the handle. "You know, Naruto, the look on your face right now, it hurts me. I know that I can get a little stubborn sometimes, a little hard to handle. But this, I…" he felt a pain in the back of his head. "No… not now… I don't want it! I don't want power!" he fought the thoughts of finally getting the power that he always wanted. "I don't want any of it! I just want you back."
Laying the blond boy on the bed, Sasuke looked down into his eyes. You're heart is barely beating… I let go before you could shut your whole body down. He felt the burning in his stomach return to him moving slowly up his throat. Tasting the traces of vomit he purged his stomach again this time onto Naruto's floor not caring about the stains that it was going to leave.
Failure, he had failed his brother. Itachi wanted him to kill the fox, but now here he was begging to bring his best friend back to him. Was it all in vain? Kakashi's sacrifice was because of Itachi's plan; he was now in a hospital dying. Sasuke lost his dignity because of the whole scheme of events, if he had killed the fox earlier then Itachi wouldn't had shown up that night. But most importantly, Itachi was dying because of this plan. He had to go through with it and let the last pulsations of Naruto's heart reverberate through his ears, sit back and watch him die. It was that easy.
It was easy, he could sit here and watch Naruto die, the pain of the beginning of the manifestation of the mangekyou sharingan burning through his brain, but the pain was too great, Itachi never said this happened. He could feel tears running from his eyes, the pain burning behind his eyes. This was the key to the kekkei genkai, this was the ultimate power of the sharingan, the price was too great.
Sasuke moved to Naruto's body, the pain in his eyes making obvious that Naruto was leaving him. His pulse was still beating was drifting away as every second went by. His breath was all that had been robbed of him; the dark bruises of strangulation were wrapped around his neck. If he was lucky it was just the shock that caused his breath to stop. If only he considered himself a lucky person.
"And you got out with your life, there are people your age that go through the same that you do and they aren't lucky enough to come out alive. They die right there and it's Hell. And not only are you alive, but no one has turned their back on you."
Kakashi had always called him a lucky person, maybe it was the truth. Luck had been on side the whole time ever since the night where Itachi attacked him. He was lucky that Itachi didn't unleash his full violent potential. He was lucky that Kakashi was only in a coma and not gone forever. Maybe luck would help bring Naruto back.
He pushed up against Naruto's chest tears still running down his cheeks. I swear that I won't let anyone hurt you. The words still ran through his head, whether they were Itachi's or Naruto's he didn't know.
"Naruto," Sasuke breathed as he moved to his lips. "Breathe!" he pressed his lips up against his two breaths administered into his body, his chest rising from the air supply. "That means your airways are clear."
He continued to attempt to revive him. "Naruto!" the screams filled the room as he continued to push into him. "You said that you wouldn't let anything happen to me. You're a horrible best friend, Naruto! You're horrible! I really thought you gave a damn," he breathed into him backing away panting, sweat rolling down his body. "If you were jealous of my strength then why are you giving up? You were always a persistent bastard and a pain in my ass, and now you're giving up," he closed his eyes tightly. "I won't let you." every word was accented with a thrust to his chest. "Naruto!"
"You won't die," he breathed as he took the kunai cutting the palm of Naruto's hand watching him bleed, his eyes hurting as he stared at him. "Keep bleeding…"
The pain in his head was becoming stronger he could already feel the power. He didn't want it. He didn't want to be like his brother. The pain that he went through to get powerful, he killed his best friend and as he did he had to feel this horrible pain, none of it was worth the glory of power. How did he allow his body to go through this much pain? Why didn't he pull Shisui back out when he had the chance?
"You have no idea what ninjas do to one another; you've never been in that environment, you don't know the pain in a ninja's life. You don't know the torture. This is nothing compared to that."
Itachi's life was filled with all of the mistakes that he didn't want for Sasuke, so maybe he did him a favor that night, as sick as that sounded. He was happy that it was his brother knowing that he had no real intention of killing him or vitally crippling him. Itachi was probably the same way with Shisui, too sweet to the last moment. He probably wasn't this cruel; Itachi wasn't as cold as he thought.
Knowing that there was no way that Naruto was going to come back; he put one last breath into his lungs, the taste of blood filling his mouth again. He had failed this time; he was just like his brother. Everything was gone, only the burning throughout his whole body warm tears still rolling down his cheeks.
"It hurts…" he sobbed wiping one of his tears looking at his finger, on the tip there was a stain, a blood stain. "I'm bleeding," he didn't know what happened when you sought the power of the kekkei genkai, there's nothing but more pain.
Sasuke turned around wiping away the bloody happen to him, a headache, vomiting spells, bloody tears, why would he do it?
"Damn!" Sasuke sobbed the blood tears landing on Naruto's face. "Damn it! Naruto, wake up!" his vision was swirling as he looked down at him. "Wake up! It hurts! It hurts!" he fell on top of his body more bloody tears rolling down his cheeks panting heavily as he tried his hardest not to vomit again fearing that too had transformed into blood. I finally understand, Itachi, Shisui was the lucky one in this plan; he did have the easy way out, while you… were dying right by that river with the pain of your ultimate power. Why would you do that to yourself? This hurts! Did you hate yourself?
He moved from Naruto and vomited again this time screaming out in pain as he did so. Images of his brother by the river came into play, how the next few days he was different, his body moved painfully and he would stare off into space for hours. Now he was feeling the same way. As the remainder of his stomach contents hit the ground he closed his eyes tightly hearing the coughs that still sounded through his head. His brother was dying at his hands; the least he could do was allow him to die with dignity.
"S-Sasuke?" he heard call out behind him.
"N-Naruto?" he looked over to see the coughing form of his best friend. "Is that…?" he closed his eyes feeling the pain in his head start to die down. I guess the pain is there until your best friend dies or lives, while the soul is in between worlds, I'm the one controlling the balance. Who would have known that I had that control? I know the secrets to the clan, our true power, sacrifice the ones that we love to obtain great power, power in exchange for weakness. Well, I've grown accustomed to my weakness. I'm going to hurt myself to lose it.
He moved to wrap his arms around his friend's body. "It's okay; you're going to be alright, Naruto…"
Naruto's eyes started to close as he coughed. "I saw the other side for a second, Sasuke… when you were there, what did you see?"
Black eyes continued to well up with blood. "I saw nothing, darkness that was engulfing me but then I went into the white light and I was here and the first thing that I saw was Sakura's face. She was all that I could think about, her and you," he stroked Naruto's face. "I thought that I… killed you…"
"You won't kill me that easily," Naruto breathed heavily. "I'm not going to die as easily as you want me to, Sasuke. Regardless of how much you want to destroy your brother, I won't die."
"Itachi," Sasuke breathed. "He's been on my mind a lot lately."
"Really?" Naruto asked. "Why?"
"He was the reason that I was killing you, a ninja must be able to sacrifice from his own life to make everything stay in order. I thought that if I… killed you everything in Konoha would go back to normal. The whole village is in uproar ever since he came back. If I could kill you and get the power that I desire, maybe I could stop him," Sasuke looked over at him. You're in the way of Itachi's dreams, just like Kakashi.
Naruto looked over at him. "Power?"
"My brother killed his best friend to get the power he desired, he is the only person that I know of who unlocked the mangekyou sharingan. He's augments all genjutsu techniques being able to harness Amaterasu and Tsukuyomi, the powers of the Sun Goddess and Moon God. They're powerful techniques, Naruto, ninjutsu and genjutsu at the highest level."
"But to kill his best friend for power…? Is that really why you did it, Sasuke? Power?" Naruto coughed again looking up at him feeling warmth dripping from Sasuke's face to touch his own. "Oh my God, Sasuke, you're bleeding."
"It's nothing," he breathed wiping his eyes. "I had a headache…"
"It's more of that sharingan business isn't it? The… whatever it's called…"
"Mangekyou," Sasuke answered continuing to wipe his eyes.
"Mangekyou, I think that you should think about living your own life. Itachi is only going to destroy you if you let him do this to you. Why are you doing this all for a person that you hate?" Naruto asked.
"There's something going on inside of me, Naruto, something that will never be the same," Sasuke took a deep breath looking away. "Something that he's done to me, inside my mind. These days I only see his face, I can't shake the feelings he ran through my body."
Naruto weakly shook his head closing his eyes. "He may have taken your body, but that doesn't mean that you can just throw your life away. He may have had sex with you, but that isn't a good reason to give up. Why, Sasuke?"
"I can never be the same," Sasuke repeated.
"Sasuke," Naruto begged. "Tell me what's going on, I'm your best friend, I can keep a secret."
Sasuke's eyes looked down at him as he wiped more blood from his cheeks. "I think that I might have enjoyed it, Naruto."
"What?" Naruto asked sitting up. "You mean you enjoyed him raping you?"
The other boy nodded. "As he was on top of me, kissing me fiercely, holding me far too tight, I couldn't help but feel attracted to him. My body wanted to give into him, there was a time during the whole thing where I was kissing him back, moaning loudly…"
"Sasuke, he was raping you, you can't say that you were enjoying it," Naruto scolded.
"Naruto, I know that it sounds crazy and I know that you want more explanation, but there's something going on in my body, Itachi's done something to me," he looked over at Naruto. "Have you ever had a person who whenever they're around they make you feel as though nothing in the world can hurt you?"
Naruto shook his head, his body trembling as he struggled to catch his breath, a raspy sound passing his lips.
"Itachi was that person for me; he always made sure that I was safe and happy. He wanted me to avoid the life that he led; he didn't want that for me. He didn't want to watch me become a monster. The pressure was enough to make anyone break. He's back to make sure that I don't get the power I desire, but you probably don't understand the pain that I'm going through knowing that I have to work harder for the power," Sasuke's eyes closed tightly as he hugged Naruto tighter, tears rolling down his cheeks. "I was too weak to kill you… I was… too weak."
He thought about what Itachi wanted him to do. How hard was it to kill a twelve-year-old? He didn't ask him to do too much; all he wanted was to hold up his end of the bargain, but something had changed; Sasuke now saw how much pain Itachi had felt the day when Shisui died. The blood that stained Naruto's cheeks proved that there were some things in this world that he was never going to get around. The Uchiha Clan was a gateway to Hell, a door between the worlds deciding the fate of their friend's life with the manifestation of power.
Holding on tighter to Naruto, Sasuke remembered everything that his brother had told him about. The art of ninja, potential, self sacrifice, they all ran through his head as he thought of the blood running down Itachi's lips. He had to fight harder to make sure that no one was going to get Naruto, if they couldn't kill him they'd have to make sure that the organization that Itachi detested couldn't get at him.
I failed you, Itachi. I failed you, my brother. I failed you, don't kill me.
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"Look at what it did for Kakashi, he's in a Goddamn coma and it's all the guards' fault. His brain is gone, his heartbeat is leaving, he's struggling for breath every second that goes by. Asuma, look what that bastard did to him. Because he knew he was never going to be able to kill an Uchiha he was put into this state. That son of a bitch, look what he did to him."
Taking a deep painful breath Asuma looked into the river standing only a few feet from where the crime had happened. The deep marks where the sais were implanted were still in the ground, the mental images not being filled by the rain.
I made the right choice… I was right to let him go and not start a confrontation. I know that I was right to stop the madness before I got someone else hurt. Kakashi was enough, there didn't need to be anymore casualties, he clutched his rib cage coughing violently, blood falling from his lips. "K-Kakashi…"
"Then I'm going to have to make you stay, even if I have to break you arms and legs. I'm sorry, Asuma."
"Damn it," he breathed looking down into the water. The scene was windy, chilling just like that night when Sasuke was sitting down here waiting for his team. This was the spot where Sasuke lost his mind to his brother, the scene of the rape. What was going through his mind as he was pinned to the ground, his brother free to do what he pleased with his body? The way that Sasuke looked on the day when he was standing here with Kakashi looking down at Sakura's sobbing form holding tightly, Naruto's eyes looking like to bottomless pools of cold blue. Kakashi was the one who was holding them together; he was the one who was going to make everything right again.
Sasuke looked different after that day, only a few days after he went into cardiac arrest again. Sasuke was taking it harder than he should. It wasn't his fault that his brother did that to Kakashi; he had no control over the situation, but now that Kakashi was gone, everything was a nightmare because of it.
Gai had called the whole situation his now, saying that he was the only one who knew what he was doing. That was bullshit. Gai was only powered by hate for not being able to be there for Kakashi. Asuma was there, his hate should be stronger. He was so close to stopping him, he tried to pull him back, but it was to no avail. Asuma lost everything that mattered to him, his name was tattered and his days were numbered.
"What are you doing down here?" a voice asked.
Asuma looked over. "Shikamaru?" he was surprised to see his student out this late. "You shouldn't be out here, you'll freeze to death."
"Same goes for you," the genin retorted.
The jounin laughed. "I'm investigating."
"Investigating, eh?" Shikamaru asked. "You mean that rape? It must be hard on you, having to deal with a situation of this caliber. A student getting raped and then left to die, Kakashi must have been in some real pain."
Asuma closed his eyes not looking at Shikamaru; he didn't have the heart to. Thoughts took over his mind as he looked at the young boy. "Have you ever wondered what it's like to lose a student? What if this was Shikamaru, what would you do to save the boy's life? Would you do what you're doing now or would you issue an order?" Asuma closed his eyes tighter. I don't know what I'd do, Gai, if it were Shikamaru… I would have done what Kakashi did, I would seek revenge, but Kakashi didn't want me involved. I can't protect these children; I couldn't even stay at my post.
"Asuma?" Shikamaru asked. "Are you alright?"
"I'm fine," the jounin answered, looking at the ground remembering Sasuke's cold lifeless skin. The pain in his ribs returned, he coughed lightly thinking about the screams. What if it was Shikamaru who was being held down and killed? Would he be this detached from the situation? Was it because it was Sasuke that he didn't care? Why did he just sit back and watch Sasuke go through pain.
"Asuma?" Shikamaru started with a sigh. "Something's wrong…"
"What makes you think that?" Asuma asked.
The young boy pointed at his sensei's lips. "You're not smoking, there's something wrong…"
"My ribs are broken," Asuma answered looking into the water.
Shikamaru shook his head. "That's not it; you're staring off into the distance. What happened to you? You were never like this before, you always looked so positive, that's why I respected you, but now, all you do is mope around. Are you that guilty?"
"I failed," Asuma answered. "Shikamaru, I failed the village."
"You did the right thing," the genin argued.
"I let Itachi go, I should have stopped him right there, but as usual, I was the weak one out of the whole group. I was the one who let Itachi go after what he did to Kakashi. He put him in that coma and all I could do was watch his attacker jump through a window. Why was I so weak?"
"Sensei…" Shikamaru breathed. "It wasn't…"
"After all of the training, all of the principles drilled into my head, I still let him get the better of me. I was scared, Shikamaru, I was scared that he was going to destroy my life. He had taken everything from Kakashi, I thought that he'd come after you, Ino, or Chouji. I didn't want you to get involved in this. Itachi's ruthless, making the greatest ninja fall to the ground. He's an opponent that I hope you will never have to face," Asuma coughed, blood falling past his lips, his body shaking slightly.
"Asuma, you shouldn't be out here," Shikamaru soothed. "You're hurt…"
Asuma looked into the river. "Shikamaru," he looked up at the boy seeing the blood reflected in his eyes. "Don't you ever let someone walk all over you. Don't let anyone tell you that you're going to lose. If you give up, then what's the point in being there? Shikamaru, I know that it shames you to know that your sensei's weak, but what I did was a mistake that's haunting me forever. Itachi took my dignity, but I don't want you to go after him. Promise me that you won't go after him; promise me that you won't give up on living."
Shikamaru looked into his sensei's eyes. "You make it sound like you're going to die. Don't look at it like that…"
"I'm going after him," Asuma said strongly.
"Why? What makes you think that you'll stand a chance against him?" Shikamaru asked. "I need a sensei, I need you, Asuma. If you leave now, then I have nothing left. We need you; don't leave us like what Kakashi did to his team. Don't make us go through that. I'm not Sasuke, and Chouji and Ino sure as hell not Naruto and Sakura. We aren't going to sit by your bed and wait to see if you're still breathing. I don't want that. I saw the tears in their eyes, I don't want that either."
Asuma looked toward the river. "A boy was raped here, one who was your age. He might be able to walk now, communicate with his friends, but he's different. Everyone knows what happened, he lost his virginity to his brother in a way nobody should lose their virginity," he took a deep breath. "He feels touched and worthless, but when a paper is ripped to shreds it can never be whole again, but with a little effort it can become something new, maybe even more perfect than before."
Shikamaru looked away. "Don't tell me all of this…"
"Why not," Asuma smirked.
"Because I wasn't raped, dumbass," Shikamaru breathed trying to fight the tears feeling his sensei's hand cup his face. "Asuma?"
"Don't hold your tears back around me; you can let your feelings out. You don't have to be strong, Shikamaru. Cleanse your soul of all of the troubles that you've been holding back," the jounin begged. "There are things in this world that need to have tears shed; you can't allow the pain to take over you."
"Asuma…" Shikamaru whispered. "Itachi…"
"Don't worry about what he did."
"He's done all of this to the village, look at you! You've lost a dignity, I didn't want to see you like this, but then again I did come here for you. I know what the pain that you've been through, Ino and Chouji wanted to come too, but they were too scared to see you like this. We're worried about you, Asuma… me most of all. Asuma-sensei, I…" a tear fell down Shikamaru's cheek as he looked over at Asuma and then at the river. "I… I don't want you to risk yourself to get your dignity back. You're a better man than Gai and you have more sense than Kakashi. I don't want to lose you like this, don't go after him."
"He said no one was going to get hurt, if we don't attack him, then it's all going to be alright," he looked over at the young boy. "You know, I think it's about time you go home, your parents are going to kill me," he stood up helping the crying boy.
Shikamaru shook his head more tears rolling down his cheeks. "Come back… come back safe for me, Asuma. Promise me."
The jounin sighed. "I can't."
"Then just tell me that it's going to be alright. Make me feel comfortable knowing that you're not going to throw your life away for the well being of the country." Shikamaru begged still crying. "Asuma…"
The jounin looked over at his student. "You're going to make it; you're going to go on with Ino and Chouji. Even if I do get hurt, I want you to stay strong," he smiled. "And if the journey ever gets too tough," he handed him a box of cigarettes. "Here's something to help you pick up the pieces."
"I hate cigarettes," Shikamaru scoffed.
"I know you do," Asuma smiled.
The genin sighed. "I can't smoke these…"
"They're yours now, they're a gift…"
"No," Shikamaru stated looking. "Even if I did want to smoke them, I wouldn't be able to. I don't have a lighter. You out of all people should know that you can't smoke without a lighter."
Asuma smirked. "You're a bright one, Shikamaru," he handed him his lighter. "There, now you can smoke them. Just don't tell your parents that I'm giving their child cigarettes, they wouldn't let me train you if they knew."
Shikamaru smiled a little as they continued to walk away from the river. "You're a good man, Asuma. You made me the person that I am today. Do me a favor though…"
"Yeah?"
Shikamaru smiled broader. "If you have to… kick his ass!"
Asuma looked back at the river. He raped a twelve-year-old. I will not allow Sasuke's pain be in vain. I'm going to beat you to a bloody pulp, but not give you the pleasure of dying. You can live a life of pain. You're mine, Itachi. Mine!
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Sasuke opened his eyes, hearing gentle breathing up against his neck. No matter how hard he tried he couldn't go to sleep. It was difficult time, the thoughts of dead blue eyes going through his mind, the bloodstains covering over him as well as Naruto. Naruto, he was holding him so tightly knowing that he couldn't sleep either hearing a few pained noises emerging from him.
"Naruto?" Sasuke asked, shaking his friend's body gently. "Are you alright?"
Naruto looked up at his friend. "I'm fine."
There was something in his eyes that showed that he was lying, the dark circles and the swollen areas surrounding them, he'd been crying. Sasuke hadn't even noticed. Did Naruto try to go to sleep and he was met with the nightmares again? The look in his eyes weren't against that theory, nor was the way that he was hanging onto him.
"Naruto, what's wrong?" Sasuke asked with concern.
The blond boy looked up and handed Sasuke a bloody kunai. "You wanted to kill me, didn't you, Sasuke?"
He watched the blood drip from the knife. "Naruto?" he grabbed Naruto's left hand watching the blood drip. "Why? Why did you let me do this to you? You promised that you wouldn't let me hurt you."
"I'm an abomination," Naruto breathed watching Sasuke look at the wound. "Don't… don't try to help me…"
Sasuke shook his head, sitting up looking at the wound. "You're not an abomination. You're a human damn it! You're covered in blood you clumsy idiot…"
"I know what you want," Naruto breathed looking away. "It's the mangekyou thing isn't it? The power that runs in your cursed blood? In order to obtain that you have to kill me, but if you don't want that, then why did you strangle me? Tell me something, Sasuke, what did your brother do to you in that room?"
"He talked…"
"That's bullshit!" Naruto cursed as he watched Sasuke look deeper into the wound. "You want to know something, you selfish prick. I don't know what he did to you, but you said that you weren't going to lose your mind in all of this madness. Tell me what really happened…"
Sasuke swallowed hard. "He kissed me…" his voice was weak.
"Where?" Naruto asked.
"On the lips," the Uchiha's voice was still quiet.
The blond boy's blue eyes wandered around the room. "Was it an evil kiss? You know, like he was going to hurt you again?" he felt Sasuke wipe the blood with his shirt. "Sasuke…" he winced feeling his fingers touch the scarlet liquid.
"It wasn't an evil kiss," Sasuke answered.
"What was it like?" Naruto asked looking into Sasuke's eyes. "I'm sorry to pry, but… I've never really ever kissed a person. Well, we did… but that was an accident. I mean truly having someone kiss me. You've kissed people, you even kissed Sakura."
Sasuke smiled. "You can count our kiss if you want."
"That's not what I'm getting at," Naruto breathed. "I never kissed someone with… tongue. What does it feel like? I can't even begin to imagine the feeling of someone else's tongue in my mouth. I know it must have been hard having your brother do that to you, but could you just tell me? Think of Sakura."
"Curious?" Sasuke raised a playful eyebrow as he continued to rub the cut. "I like that quality in you. You're always trying to gain more information. I'll tell you a little… it makes your whole body rush through a world where nothing can touch you. I felt untouchable by everything, nothing fazes you in those few moments," he closed his eyes. "It's magical…"
"Sounds electrifying," Naruto breathed. "Thanks for the info, maybe one day I can get to feel what you're talking about."
"You're interested?" Sasuke asked playfully.
Naruto nodded as he swallowed hard. "I'm the odd man out the team; it makes me kind of sad. I've been feeling really down lately, a state of complete hopelessness and even though I know nothing can get worse, it always does. Nothing good can come of this sensation I've been feeling," he looked into Sasuke's eyes. "I'm losing you…"
Sasuke shook his head. "You'll never lose me."
"Yes I will," Naruto breathed looking at the blood. "I thought that you hated me, but yet you saved me when I was dying. You strangled me and yet… you…" he looked at the blood all over Sasuke's body. "You saved me…"
"Of course," Sasuke breathed, stroking his face lightly. "Naruto… I was…" he swallowed hard, "supposed to kill you…"
"But you didn't," Naruto corrected.
"I was going to," he touched Naruto's neck again feeling the young boy shudder. "These bruises are going to look suspicious. I didn't mean to make it so obvious, Naruto, I don't know what came over me…"
"It's okay…" Naruto breathed as he looked into onyx eyes. "I forgive you…"
Sasuke moved closer to Naruto looking right into his eyes. "My brother said that his organization had an interest in you and out of stupidity I thought that the only way to save you from that dark fate was to kill you and obtain the power that I needed. But you…" he placed a hand up against the blond's chest, "I couldn't kill you, you're just too damn addicting."
"Well, maybe if you stopped being a drama queen," Naruto laughed. "You cut me to see if I was still alive, if the blood stopped you would know to give up. A little half baked, but you're plans usually are."
Sasuke looked deeper into blue eyes. "I can never kill you…"
"I never asked you to," Naruto smiled watching Sasuke stand up walking toward the door, his smile fading. "Where are you going?"
"Home," Sasuke answered as he looked back.
"No! I'm not going to let you go again, not after what happened that night!" Naruto yelped. "Please, Sasuke! I told you I forgive you, so get back into this bed. You can go in the morning. I don't want anything to happen to you."
"You know nothing's going to happen," Sasuke smiled looking back at him. "Make sure to keep that hand bandaged, and don't let it bleed too much. The last thing I want is another member of our squad to be in the hospital."
Naruto looked out the window. "It's dark and probably cold outside, are you sure you'll be alright out there?"
"I'm positive," he looked back at him. "I'll see you at the hospital tomorrow, Naruto, I promise."
The blond curled up in his bed his voice almost quiet. "I know you will…"
Sasuke walked out the door. I couldn't do it, for the life of me, I couldn't kill him. My vision's still blurred from the bloody tears and my head hurts, damn it, I didn't know that the true power was that bad. Most importantly, Itachi's going to be pissed at me for not being able to carry out his mission. In his condition do I really want to upset him? He stopped dead in his tracks. I'm not going to lose him, I'd much rather fuck this whole village than watch him leave me again. I would betray my country for my blood. That's my new nindou, my new ninja way…
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The house was empty, the cold night air adding to the eeriness. Itachi should have been there he had no reason to live. The moon was still high in the sky; the time was only one AM. Did something happen to him while he was "taking out the more powerful ninja"? Who was he talking about? The Hokage? The feeling of guilt sat in his stomach as he looked throughout the darkness.
"Itachi…" he breathed as he gazed into the courtyard, there was no way that he could have been killed, not without Sasuke knowing. How could he allow this to happen? The last few kisses that Itachi had given him ran through his mind. No matter how hard he tried he couldn't shake his face from his mind. Where was he?
Blood dripped from his clothes onto the ground as he looked up to the sky, tears still rolling down his bloody cheek. "Itachi…"
As he lost all hope he vomited more onto the floor sobbing violently feeling guilt run through his body. He had failed; he was a failure to Itachi's cause and needed to be disposed of immediately. The words that Naruto had said to him still cut through his chest like a hot knife.
"Open your eyes, Sasuke. I… I… I thought that you were different than this. You're letting Itachi push you around… that's not the Sasuke Uchiha that I know. You… you… you were strong… and I was jealous of you…"
"Naruto…" he breathed. "If only you knew why I did this for Itachi… I love him… more than anything…"
"I-I told you… promised you… that I would help you obtain your dream… Sasuke… I-I… I-I know… y-you… y-y-you will… uphold your promise… p-promise… p-promise me… that y-you'll s-survive… l-live… d-don't die… p-promise…"
He could still hear Naruto, struggling on the words as his blue eyes looked up at him. He was dead for a split second; he could feel the cursed power take over his body. He touched the blood on his body. "Naruto… I… I'm sorry that it had to turn out like this… but you and I are never going to be together again. We walk different paths… I walk with Itachi… I walk with my brother to obtain his dream. I will cast everything that I feel aside. My hate has turned into love; it's the magic of my heart. The things that I fear most will become what I love."
Footsteps walked closer to him. "Sasuke? What happened to you?"
Sasuke turned to look at the form of his brother, he looked haggard, tired, he was working all day long pulling strings to get his dream. Even through the fatigue he saw something in his eyes, he looked concerned.
"Itachi?" Sasuke breathed running to his brother hugging him tightly. "You're alright… I as so scared when you weren't here…"
The older brother's eyes were still fixed on the blood. "Who the hell did this to you? You're bleeding…"
Sasuke watched as Itachi dipped his fingers in the blood. "I'm sorry…"
Itachi's eyes widened as he swallowed hard. "Who the hell did this to you? Who hurt you?" he stroked Sasuke's face spreading the blood down his cheeks. "Sasuke… what happened? Tell me!"
They made deep eye contact, Sasuke's eyes welling up with tears. "I'm sorry…"
Itachi wrapped his arms around him tightly feeling the blood drip to the ground harder. "Sasuke… what happened to you? I thought you said you could handle it? Were you just trying to act strong for me? Sasuke, running into danger doesn't make you strong. I know more than anyone that you're not the type to admit that something hurt you. Tell me, Sasuke, what the hell happened?"
Sasuke buried his face in his brother's shoulder sobbing violently, his body shaking up against his. "You make me feel like an eight-year-old again, I feel so weak right now. I couldn't do it…" he swallowed hard trying to muffle his cries. "I tried, I really tried, but it hurt so much… I couldn't see straight…"
The embrace around Sasuke became tight as if out of shock. "Couldn't see?"
"Blood was running from my eyes…" Sasuke continued.
"Blood?" Itachi closed his eyes tightly hissing the words. "Mangekyou sharingan."
Sasuke sobbed viciously. As he cried harder he tried to make out words that seemed like they were going to kill someone. When he said it though, they were like a blade that Itachi never wanted to hear.
"Don't kill me," the young boy desperately. "Don't kill me, Itachi…"
Itachi wrapped his arms around him tighter, his eyes filled with emotions for once in Sasuke's presence. Was it guilt? Was he starting to feel like he was responsible for all of the pain in the young boy's life? The words had fazed him, his heart beating harder in his chest running through Sasuke's body, making him tremble passionately.
Suspended off of the ground, Sasuke held onto his brother tightly, repeating his plea almost screaming as he sobbed violently. He was begging for his life hoping that his brother would find some mercy in his heart, but as he was pressed up against his bedroom door looking straight into Itachi's eyes, Sasuke knew that his fate was here. What he didn't expect was to feel his brother's lips up against his, kissing him lovingly. His tongue was making love to his mouth forcing the blood to run cold in his veins. Tightening his legs around Itachi's body he leaned forward into the kiss, Sasuke's hands running through his brother's hair.
"I won't kill you," Itachi purred. "You did well, better than I thought you would. If your eyes were bleeding… that means you saw the power of the mangekyou…"
"You never said it hurt," Sasuke breathed pulling harder on raven hair.
"I never said it didn't…" he looked into Sasuke's eyes.
Sasuke panted as he returned the gaze. "I screwed up… I was fixated on the pain that I brought Naruto back. He's my best friend, Itachi, and looking into his eyes, watching the blood run down his face, I lost my mind for a second. It hurt to breathe, and every heartbeat was torture…"
"But you're alright now. He's alive," Itachi licked along Sasuke's pulse point hearing him moan loudly. "Don't cry anymore… I hate to see you like this."
"But…"
"Please don't cry, Sasuke," Itachi soothed. "I'm not going to kill you even though you couldn't kill him. As long as that organization didn't get the fox it wasn't a total failure. You tried; I'm going to let that pass. You felt as though the life of your best friend was too great of a price. That's understandable. It was easy for me to give up Shisui, but I thought…" he closed his eyes as if he was remembering a harsh cold memory. "I should get you inside."
Sasuke thought about all that Itachi had gone through, he remembered the way that Shisui looked at him. He heard their talks outside of the house, the sound of his brother crying muttering suicidal words. Shisui was always there for him, why did Itachi kill him? Itachi had once told Shisui that he loved him? How could Itachi give something so dear up for power? Did he hate the clan that much?
He felt his body fall to the bed as they entered the room, the look in his brother's eyes representing deep thought. "Brother? What's wrong?"
Itachi looked back him. "The bleeding from your eyes… I never wanted to imagine you like that. I mean, I know what that feels like. I forgot that the fox was your best friend and I forgot that was the exchange for these damn eyes! I thought you'd be different."
His brother was usually stoic, but as he rested his forehead up against the wall he was showing more emotion that he thought he was capable of recognizing. "It's alright, Itachi… I'm not hurt… he continued to sob as he looked at the blood on him. "I'm fine…"
"You're crying," Itachi breathed as he moved to his brother's body pulling off Sasuke's shirt.
"Itachi…" Sasuke gasped. "Stop it…"
"I just want to get the blood out of it," his brother smiled. "Come on, Sasuke, we don't want you to ruin your clothes do we? We've already ruined enough of them throughout our whole journey."
"Don't bring that night up. God it wasn't even rape…" Sasuke breathed as Itachi pulled his shirt off.
"What?" Itachi asked raising a curious eyebrow.
Sasuke swallowed hard. "I-I liked it… I liked having you inside of me that night. I have been denying my body of what it truly wanted for too long. I wanted you since we were young, Itachi, those nights when you held me…"
Itachi rolled Sasuke's pants down his legs. "Don't say you liked it, you were sobbing, Sasuke. Those tears didn't represent rapture, you were in pain. You don't have to lie to me just because you're scared. You don't have to fear me; I'm not going to hurt you. I promised… I promised you that I wasn't going to rape you again," he looked into Sasuke's eyes touching his face lightly. "You sit here and wait for me to come back. We need to get these stains out."
Sasuke licked his lips as his brother kissed him lightly, his skin shaking as he was kissed deeper with every movement of his lips. He reached out to grab his brother's body trying to pull him closer to the bed. The resistance coming from Itachi who pulled away quickly made a tear run down his cheek.
"Itachi…" Sasuke breathed. "I… feel so exposed."
He felt something heavy drape over his shoulders, it was Itachi's robe. It smelled wondrous. It smelled like jasmine, the same scent that Kakashi had said gave him away in the hospital. The scent made Sasuke's body tense in pleasure feeling his body grow warm with passion. He had to make a choice as he watched his brother walk away. Did he want to stay here with Kakashi, or did he want to be with the one that he loved more than anything? Kakashi or Itachi? Friendship or love? Security or passion? What did he want out of life? What did his heart want?
Wrapping the robe around him tighter, Sasuke closed his eyes trying to figure out his inner enigma. The way that Itachi was acting around him made him feel wanted. His hands up against his face made him feel like he could finally hold onto all of the memories that he held dear as a child. The memories of how Itachi used to make him feel brought him to tears, he reached him. Itachi was back.
"I love you… I love you more than anything, Sasuke."
Sasuke wrapped his arms around himself tightly thinking about all the blood that was shed from their clan by Itachi's hands, the same hands that had made his body feel so secure. They were filthy, depraved, but to Sasuke, they were spotless. The blood of the clan could never be washed away, but why was he dawdling in the past? He was destroying his life looking back on what happened. Itachi did it for him.
Itachi… he breathed as he wrapped the robe around himself tighter hearing footsteps walking into the room again.
"They can be saved," Itachi stated as he looked over at the young boy on the bed. "Are you alright, Sasuke?"
Sasuke watched as his brother sat on the bed next to him. "I was just thinking."
"Thinking?" Itachi questioned.
Sasuke nodded as he looked over at his brother. "I… throughout this whole thing I've been exposing myself to you… but you… I was thinking about all of these years how I've longed to see you." he touched his brother's chest lightly. "I want to see you."
Itachi stroked his face lightly. "You don't need to see me…"
"I want to," Sasuke said in a tone that brought him back to the days of their happiness. "Brother…"
"You won't like it…"
Sasuke ran his hands up his brother's shirt. "It would mean the world to me."
Itachi looked up at him. "You're still crying. I'll break my promise if you take off my clothes. We both know what will happen. While you're sobbing there's no guarantee that I will ease you pain by having sex with you, even if you want to."
The young boy wrapped his arms around his brother's body moving to untie his forehead protector before kissing him passionately hearing his brother purr out loud. Fingers moved through Sasuke's hair untying his forehead protector to, the clang of metal filling their ears as they hit the ground simultaneously.
"But Itachi…" Sasuke breathed as he looked into red eyes. "I want to…" he was interrupted by a kiss that pushed him deep into the mattress letting out a whimper of pain. Itachi was with him, it made him feel safe as he felt his heart beat up against his.
"I know you do…" Itachi moved his hand to pull his own shirt over his head looking down at Sasuke. Quickly he undid his pants his vision not breaking from his brother. "Sasuke… I love you…"
"I-I love you too," Sasuke breathed as he looked at the fair skin of his brother's chest. "More than anything…"
Itachi smiled as he moved down to wrap his arms around him the warmth of Sasuke body was sending chills through the genin's flesh. Sasuke let out a moan feeling his brother kiss him so sweetly. Why was this happening now? The person that he swore to kill, vowed never to forgive, was now the only source of comfort that he had.
Sasuke knew what Itachi wanted from him as he held him slow closely underneath the blankets kissing him fiercely. Sweat formed on Sasuke's body he was pulled closer to his brother. He moaned Itachi's name softly wrapping his fingers through his necklace rolling his hips up against his brother's hearing the moans fill the room his breath caught in his throat as he opened his eyes.
"Itachi!" he breathed, pressing his hands up against his shoulder blades. "I…"
"Shhh," Itachi kissed at Sasuke's neck. "I'm here now and I'll be damned if I let you go," he bit lightly as hearing the young boy scream out in rapture. "I love you…"
"Me too…" Sasuke breathed; throughout everyday he never thought that his brother ever loved him. He wanted to know why Itachi hated him so much, why he insisted on making his life Hell. But this showed it, he wasn't trying to cage Sasuke's capacity or hinder his potential, this was all to release that fire that was inside of him. He loved him, and he spared him that night for a reason.
Sasuke kissed his brother's forehead running a hand through his black hair, his body temperature rising as he bit lightly at his lips. Although he knew that he was never going to let him go, the thoughts of taking sexual pleasure from him were flowing through his mind.
"Itachi…" he moaned. "Are you going to leave me tonight? Or are you going to stay and scold me for what I did to your plan," he took a deep breath. "I'm sorry that I couldn't do it, but don't hate me for it. I tried my hardest, I got his breath to stop, but… all I could think of was Shisui…"
"I don't want to hurt you," Itachi breathed. "You're still crying, the last thing that I want is to see you in pain. You tried your hardest, Sasuke, you did well," he kissed him again. "And I'm not going to leave you tonight; you need me tonight more than anything. The last thing that I want is for you to hurt yourself because you fear me," Itachi embraced him tightly. "Don't fear me… I'm not going to hurt you."
Sasuke could feel him breathing, it soothed him. The gentle beat of his heart ran through his body relaxing his nerves. Itachi was here for him, he was going to help him every step of the way no matter how much it took. He could smell the jasmine rolling off of his body as he looked up at him, the combination with the sweat making Sasuke's body shudder as if he was shivering.
"Itachi…" Sasuke breathed holding onto him panting.
"Sasuke…" Itachi breathed back as he rolled to Sasuke's side holding the young boy close. "You did well… your potential has blossomed into something to be jealous of. You aren't the little boy that you were back when I last saw you. You've developed well since then."
Itachi held onto him breathing gently in Sasuke's ear holding him close to his warm body closing his eyes softly as he tried to relax with him. Sasuke touched his chest lightly as he looked up, Itachi was beautiful right now. He was just how always Sasuke wanted him.
Sasuke loved him more than anything, he always would.
"Itachi," Sasuke breathed looking up into his brother's eyes shaking his body lightly, hearing him let out a moan. "Wake up…"
Hearing his brother moan he smiled kissing at his chest. "What is it Sasuke? What's wrong?" he stroked his younger brother's face licking his lips lightly as he was holding back the urge to take those lips in one last kiss, but his hand was innocent as it ran through his hair pulling loosely.
Sasuke rolled over on top of him, kissing his viciously hearing his brother purr loudly stroking his back. He never thought that Itachi would surrender to him like this, completely crumble beneath him. Hands moved to push Sasuke off of long desired lips only to be met with crimson eyes.
"What are you trying to do?" Itachi asked, wiping one of Sasuke's tears away. "You're in no condition to do this, and I don't want you to have sex with me as an apology for messing up."
Sasuke's eyes watered. "I… I wasn't…"
Itachi moved to kiss his lips pulling him closer to his body, the way that his tongue was moving inside of Sasuke's mouth was sexual, hungry for passion. He could feel more sweat start to form on his brother's body. It made him grow hard as he took in the aroma of jasmine. He was going insane.
"Itachi!" Sasuke breathed as he looked back into Itachi's eyes. "I…"
"Shhh," he soothed, his body was loose and passionate, his fingers trailing down Sasuke's body stroking lightly at sensitive skin hearing Sasuke cry out. "I won't hurt you, Sasuke."
Sasuke breathed heavily holding onto Itachi's wrist his body pulling the limb to his own kiss. Running his silken tongue along the palm Sasuke let out a short series of breaths trying moistening the flesh.
Itachi quickly pulled his hands away and took his lips another, emotion pouring through his lips. The colors that danced behind Sasuke's eyes made his whole body freeze in rapture. He was with him again, kissing him in the dark room only the light of the moonlight to guide the way. The colors danced faster, vivid reds swirling with tenacious yellows. Moans filled the room bouncing off of the walls back into his ears.
Hands moved under the blankets coaxing Sasuke to hardness, slowly and gently. His brother's hand wrapped around his growing erection made his whole body freeze. Itachi's bloodthirsty hand showed qualities that were absent outside of this room, outside of this bed. The tight grip, the sympathetic running of his flesh running up and down sending electricity through his body, his lips were kissing lightly at his shoulder.
"Itachi," Sasuke breathed bucking his hips into his brother's hand fisting the sheets in his fingers. "Damn you…"
The older ninja's lips curled into a devious smile. He moved lower on his body moving deeper into the darkness of underneath the blankets.
Sasuke felt his eyes water harder as he continued to sob as he felt Itachi's wet tongue run along his erection. "Itachi!" he closed his eyes tightly trying to hold back the sensation that commanded him to peak. "Stop it."
A small laugh emerged from under the blankets. "Do you really want me to?"
Sasuke swallowed hard as he felt the tongue wrong him again. "I don't know if I can… I… I…"
"Sasuke?" Itachi breathed stroking the hard flesh softly. "Don't hold back your feelings. Let them out…"
With those words, Sasuke pushed Itachi off of him pinning his back to the mattress, kissing him on the lips passionately watching as purple painted fingernails dug deeper into the sheets. Sasuke felt a rush go through his head as he looked down seeing that he was in complete control of his brother. Seeing scarlet eyes gazing at him with a strand of hunger made his whole body shake. He wanted him. There was no way that he was going to be able to fight the sensations that were going through his body.
Trailing kisses down Itachi's body, breathing heavily, Sasuke moved to his brother's semi hard erection. With a quick flick of his tongue he licked against it hearing Itachi moan out loud. A smile went to Sasuke's lips as he heard the purrs bubbling from his brother's throat.
"S-Sasuke…"
Sasuke looked up to see the raw passion in Itachi's eyes. "What is it? What happened to being a twisted sadist, Itachi?"
"I guess I deserved that last remark," Itachi breathed as he looked into Sasuke's eyes before closing them tightly.
Sasuke took in the hardening flesh, the warm of his mouth making Itachi moan louder. Sasuke had no clue what he was doing, but as he ran his tongue along the flesh he knew that he had to be doing something right.
"More," Itachi breathed his voice rising in pitch.
Sasuke parted his lips taking Itachi's erection into his mouth, sucking lewdly as he moved up and down his hard shaft hearing his brother's breathing accelerate. It had to have been a while since he had this kind of contact. The past month he had been in Konoha seeking out Sasuke, Itachi had no time for something as mundane as sexual pleasure unless by his precious little brother.
He tightened his hand around the base as he moved up to gently lick at the tip. The panting and purring echoed off of the walls sending Sasuke deeper into his own utter madness his mouth taking in the flesh again.
"Sasuke…" Itachi breathed as he fisted the sheets tighter.
The salty tang of pre-cum made Sasuke's mouth water, he wanted to fully taste him. With every pulse he knew Itachi was closer to his peak. Hearing the way that his brother was moaning so gently and fervidly, it was going to come in no time. As he continued to suck the pulsing flesh, Sasuke felt a hand run through his hair.
"Sasuke…" Itachi breathed as he turned away. "I love you…"
If he hits his peak now, will we be able to…? Sasuke sucked harder as he thought about it, his brother could probably do it. He was still young, how hard could it be to conjure up another erection? Before he could even think about all of the pros and cons his mouth filled with the taste of semen as Itachi moaned loudly.
Sasuke backed away with a mouth full of semen as he fully took in the taste of it. This was his brother's. He swallowed a small portion of it; it wasn't absolutely repulsive like how he feared. Sasuke swallowed all of it savoring the taste as the warmth moved down his throat.
"Itachi," Sasuke breathed looking up at his brother. "I love you…" he watched as his brother pushed him onto his back as they both now lay with the sheets covering them. "What are you doing?"
Itachi licked at Sasuke's neck. "I'm going to have sex with you…"
"But you just…" Sasuke started. "Aren't you?"
"Give a few minutes," Itachi breathed stroking Sasuke's semen lacquered lips, "unless you're worn out already," his fingers trailed down Sasuke's body grabbing onto the young boy's erection firmly, the young boy's body tightening.
Sasuke closed his eyes tightly as he heard Itachi's breathing in his ear. His whole body was one fire feeling Itachi's hand stoking him, his tongue licking along the lobe of his ear. He was losing the internal battle. His body was bucking into every movement of his brother's hand as he panted louder and louder.
"Oh my God!" Sasuke cried out his hand moving to claw into Itachi's shoulders. "Itachi! I-Itachi! More…"
Sasuke moved to kiss Itachi's lips passionately feeling the hand leave his hard flesh grabbing at his face. He could hear his brother's moans as they kissed each other for what felt like an eternity, the seconds flying so slowly for these few moments. Sweat formed on Sasuke's body as he felt Itachi's tongue enter his mouth taking hold of him. Passion flew through his body rapidly with every heart beat. He wanted him now more than anytime before.
"Itachi," Sasuke breathed between kisses. "I…"
Slender fingers moved to wipe Sasuke's tears away. "You still haven't stopped crying, Sasuke, you know that I could never hate you," he kissed him lightly. "I'm just glad that you came back to me…"
The kissing started again, the sheets becoming wet with the salt of their sweat. Sasuke's hands moved to touch his brother's chest feeling the pulsations of his heart ever so clearly; his own heart was almost beating at the same tempo as they stopped to look into each other's eyes.
"Itachi…" Sasuke breathed stroked the soft hairs of Itachi's ponytail. "I… I…"
With a smile Itachi slipped his fingers past Sasuke's lips the younger ninja sucking at them shakily. He loved the taste of his brother, every single taste that he had to offer. The hint of salt on Itachi's fingers made him moan wetly his hand resting at the nape of his brother's neck. Those damn fingers, he knew what those damn fingers meant.
"Sasuke," Itachi breathed looking into his eyes licking his lips watching Sasuke relishing in sucking the fingers, a light blush across his face. "Say if you want me to stop…" he withdrew the fingers as his left hand spread Sasuke's legs farther apart.
"I-Itachi…" Sasuke breathed as he felt a single finger tip enter him. "Fuck you…"
The older sibling laughed. "Such horrible language toward an elder."
Sasuke let out a wince as the finger entered him, he was never going to get used to the feeling of something actually being inside of him, no matter how much pleasure it caused. Feeling the finger inside of him moving closer to brush against his prostate made his heart race.
"Itachi…" Sasuke breathed. "Another…"
"Begging for more?" Itachi asked. "That's not like you…"
"Put in another damn finger," Sasuke demanded as the digit that was inside of him pressed up against his prostate making him scream loudly.
Just as he wished another finger entered Sasuke joining the first in a passionate collaboration, he could hear Itachi getting hard again with every moan that filled the room, the two fingers were more erratic in their prepping. Sasuke clenched tightly around them as he let out a half scream of rapture.
"Itachi…" Sasuke breathed barely able to speak. "I'm going to… I'm… going to… c-cum," a third finger entered him as his legs shook trying not to lose it. "I… I… I-Itachi! I'm not… I-I can't take this anymore…"
The fingers stretched out, Sasuke screaming his brother's name loudly. He swallowed hard as the digits twiddled around, teasing him to madness. The fingers weren't enough to satisfy him no matter how much pleasure they gave to his prostate. As the third left he could finally breathe imagining the blood that must have been shed. The two remaining fingers just continued to brush his sensitive spots on the inside, Itachi's left hand grasping Sasuke's lightly.
"Sasuke," Itachi breathed kissing at his stomach.
Sasuke shook his head. "No more fingers…"
Itachi raised an eyebrow. "You're ready?"
After swallowing audibly he nodded. "I'm ready, Itachi… you can do it now. We've had enough time to tease each other. But my body is telling me that I can't last much longer without you. I need you."
The finger exited his body as he let out a wince, his brother moving his hand to run up and down Sasuke's shaft a few more times. "We're going to need some lube…"
Sasuke's eyes widened. "You're going to use my semen as your lube? But will I feel anything during sex if you do that? I don't want you to get the pleasure out of it and I don't get any," he let out a loud moan feeling closer. "Itachi… I…"
"Shhh," Itachi soothed, his hand ran rhythmically up and down Sasuke's shaft the young boy letting out a few small breaths.
With every movement of Itachi's had Sasuke felt like he was getting closer to his peak. The colors that were swirling behind his eyes along with the electric crackling made his body shiver out of passion, heat roiling forth.
"Itachi!" Sasuke screamed as he came warm hitting his stomach. "God… Itachi… I… I… l-love you…"
Fingers ran through his semen Itachi moving one of the fingers to his mouth sucking on it passionately, his hands moved to take more of the semen onto his fingers gently pushing a single digit back inside of Sasuke's body, the young boy crying out.
"I said no more teasing," Sasuke breathed feeling the finger delve deeper inside of him, the fatigue that he had experienced from his post-orgasmic moment still rolling around in his head. The moist finger went deep hitting his prostate lightly, his muscles clenching again. "Itachi… I…"
"What?" Itachi asked looking into his eyes.
Sasuke swallowed hard. "I can't take it anymore," Sasuke breathed. "All of these years without you, I could last all of those but these few moments where you touch me so tenderly," he let out a loud moan, "I can't take not having you…"
"Sasuke?" Itachi asked as he wiped a single tear from Sasuke's cheek. "I'm here for you now, just because we're going slowly doesn't mean that I'm not here for you." he moved his finger in deeper. "I'm not leaving you anymore…"
Sasuke's legs trembled as the finger left him slowly, taking every ounce of pleasure away. The look in Itachi's eyes brought Sasuke's heart to a rapid pace, the hunger that was deep in there made Sasuke know that he was going to receive what he wished for this whole time, all of the minutes that had gone by where he begged for this moment was now here. He heard the creak of the mattress as Itachi shifted his weight, moving his hands to either side of Sasuke's body. His hand dipped into the cum coating his erection with it quickly but entirely.
"Sasuke," Itachi breathed through moans, moving the tip of his arousal to Sasuke's entrance. "I love you."
"I-I love you too," Sasuke breathed as he closed his eyes moving up to meet Itachi's kiss, pressing his hands up against his brother's shoulder blades moaning softly at the passionate movements of Itachi's tongue, saliva rolling down his chin.
In the height of the kiss Sasuke felt something push into him, passion filling his whole body as the flesh inside of him pulsed rapidly sending vibrations through his abdomen. A loud moan passed his lips into his brother's kiss, fingernails digging into the smooth flesh of Itachi's back traces of blood staining Sasuke's fingertips.
"Itachi!" Sasuke breathed as he swallowed hard his eyes shut tightly. Every single muscle in his body clenched feeling his body adjusting to being filled with hard flesh. But the thought that made Sasuke's blood run cold was that with every pulse, that was Itachi inside of him. Though it was the third time, he couldn't shake the great sensation that it made flow through his body.
The moments of sweet kisses while Sasuke's body calmed down were over as the first thrust was pushed into him. Heavy breathing passed Sasuke's lips as he held onto Itachi as tightly as he could, closing his eyes until they were watering violently. His body told him that it wanted another orgasm, told him that he had to peak again. The thrust running through his body weren't telling him not to.
"Itachi…" Sasuke swallowed audibly. "More…"
"More?" Itachi breathed onto Sasuke's lips thrusting deeper into the young boy's body hearing him scream. His eyes closed at the heat deep inside Sasuke's body letting out a moan as he kissed lightly at his neck. The thrust became harder, deeper, faster with every pant that passed Itachi's lips, his heart racing causing the pulsations inside of Sasuke's body harder.
"Itachi…" Sasuke breathed clenching his legs tighter closing his eyes with every throb.
Itachi moved to look into Sasuke's eyes stopping his motions for a few moments, thrusting more gently, his breath thick with lust. "Sasuke…"
Sasuke let out a low moan as the slow thrusts moved inside him sending electricity down his spine, his legs tightening around his brother's body. Slower was better in this case even if it was deathly slow. His hands moved to grasp back onto Itachi's necklace pulling him closer his lips touching his in a passionate kiss.
"S-Sasuke," Itachi breathed, kissing him back moving into him deeper than he had ever gone before hearing the young boy cry out. The slow tenderness of their intimacy was gone replaced with raw hard sexual passion, blood rushing to Sasuke's growing erection. His second orgasm was starting to come closer than before.
His body moved with Itachi's as he looked straight into his eyes his pulse rushing up against the skin of his neck. Every movement that Itachi made brought Sasuke deeper into the relishing heat of their intimacy. Itachi was being so gentle with him, treating him with care with every movement of his body.
"Itachi," he breathed clinging on tighter to him, his eyes clouded with all of the pleasure that ran through his body. All of the kisses that Itachi planted on his lips were absorbed into the moment as more sweat rolled down their bodies. Sasuke let out a low breath as soon as Itachi's lips were gone. "I…"
Itachi backed away pulling out of Sasuke hearing the young boy cry out. "Shhh… it's okay…"
"Itachi" Sasuke breathed watching his brother lie down flat on his back looking over at him. "What are you doing?" he let out a small moan as he rolled over looking into his eyes. "You can't do all of these position changes…" Sasuke breathed grabbing his brother's erection tightly. "It pisses me off…"
"Really?" Itachi purred watching Sasuke move on top of him pushing the tip inside, the tight heat teasing him once again.
"Yeah," Sasuke answered with a smile spitting on his hand. "You piss me off with your sporadic changes. You can stand still… if you weren't comfortable you could have told me. I can make adjustments," his hand moved behind him coating Itachi's erection again.
"Sasuke…" Itachi panted.
Itachi and Sasuke let out a simultaneous moan as they were once again connected grabbing onto one another. Fingernails scraping at flesh trailing blood. Itachi was breathing heavily as he moved into Sasuke's body the mattress creaking loudly with every movement.
"Itachi!" Sasuke cried loudly closing his eyes tightly. "I…" he felt a hand wrap around his erection moving up and down the hard flesh, it was Itachi's hand, the ring on his ring finger digging painfully. "God… touch me…"
More colors swirled as he felt his brother's hand move up and down his shaft harder and faster with every thrust making it difficult for Sasuke to focus. Moving forward he took Itachi's lips in another long kiss bucking his hips into the hand as well as meeting every thrust. The smell of sweat and jasmine ran through his nose making his whole body shake more.
"Itachi…" Sasuke breathed heavily almost sobbing. "I… touch me more…"
"Sasuke," Itachi moaned back as he continued to thrust into the young boy his hand moving faster as their breathing sped up. Everything was synchronized, the beating of their heart, their breathing, every drop of sweat that rolled down their bodies.
Sasuke moved his hands to Itachi's chest pushing him back a little to hit the mattress leaning down to look into his eyes. He moved gently against Itachi's erection, resting his hand up against his chest. With every small movement he never broke eye contact.
"You little… brat…" Itachi breathed clutching the sheets tightly, closing his eyes as they started to water. "I love you, Sasuke…"
Sasuke moved to kiss at his brother's lips moving harder up against him. The heat in his abdomen was swirling harder with every pulse, every moan that passed from Itachi's lips as they moved harder and faster made his orgasm come sooner, his eyes clouding with the traces of the white glory.
"Itachi…"
"Sasuke…"
The moans filled the room as the height was almost reached, both Itachi and Sasuke's bodies starting to tremble. For once in all of these years, Sasuke could see tears run down his brother's cheeks, the look of the swollen eyes accenting the dark ruby irises made shivers run down his spine. Every time he opened his mouth there was another deep breath of pleasure, his second orgasm on the way.
But Sasuke felt the flashing white heat run through his head first feeling as his prostate was shown no mercy. He's going to give in soon; the blush on his face is proving that he's battling with his own body. It looks as if my all powerful big brother is letting his age get the better of him. I wonder how much longer it will take. He closed his eyes letting out a low moan that built into a loud scream of pleasure. "Itachi!"
Itachi's lips curled into a smile as he looked away, he breathed biting his lip blood rolling down his chin. "Sasuke…" he breathed holding onto Sasuke's left hand.
"I… love you…" Sasuke breathed the fatigue from his orgasm starting to take over as he softened in his brother's other hand feeling the warm liquid from his orgasm on his stomach. "Itachi…"
Sasuke could feel the last dramatic throbs of his brother's erection as he felt the end, heat rolling into his body, his brother letting out a low whimper squeezing tightly on Sasuke's hand. It sounded painful, but as Sasuke looked to see the passion in Itachi's eyes let go of the hand trying his hardest to catch his breath.
"Damn," Itachi breathed as Sasuke climbed off of him feeling the young boy fall next to him. "You learn fast…"
Sasuke kissed gently at Itachi's neck moving closer to him, the smell of jasmine still present on his body. Looking at both of their bodies he saw the passion of their intimacy: claw marks down their arms and Itachi's back, love bites all over their neck, bloody lips, and the bite marks that were still on their flesh from their previous times. Sasuke might have been tired, but he had never been this happy in his whole life.
"Itachi," Sasuke breathed resting on his brother's chest. "That was amazing…"
Itachi ran a hand through the young boy's raven hair, fingernails tickling his scalp. He kissed lightly at his lips holding Sasuke closer to his body hearing the young boy moan more. The more Sasuke moaned, the more Itachi kissed him, it was beautiful torture.
"Itachi… I… love you," Sasuke breathed as he rested on top of Itachi's body trying to catch his breath. His eyes began to get heavy becoming conquered by the fatigue.He breathed happily as he snuggled closer to Itachi's body letting out a small sigh feeling more kisses on the top of his head.
The sound of pants running through his ears made him feel safe, Itachi's arms holding him tighter. As he fell deeper into the chasm on sleep he felt secure, like there was nothing that was going to harm him. Itachi was here, and he wasn't going to leave.
"I love you," Itachi breathed again. "I won't let anything happen to you…"
Sasuke took another gulp of air. "Even if I messed up?"
"Even if you messed up," Itachi breathed pulling Sasuke closer. "I made a promise… I'm not going to let anything destroy you."
Sasuke closed his eyes tightly. I know you won't… that's why I love you so much. He placed a hand up against his brother's chest feeling his heart beating slowly.
Author's Note: know that this chapter was a little too over the top, but it was necessary to deepen the bond between the brothers. So what do you all think? Good? Bad? Upset that I put the lemon in? Tell me what you think. I love to hear honesty.
This arc is going to go to more extremes, but the next two chapters are going to feed into the next few arcs which are the most important in this story. The realtionship between Itachi and Sasuke is going to face more challenges than they wanted to.