A/N: OMG, I totally didn't expect such a warm reception but it has fueled me to give you an
update sooner than I was expecting. Thanks for all the replies, I really appreciate them. Also,
while it may seem that Callie's absent in the beginning, I'll start incorporating her bit by into the
Addison/Bailey friendship because I think she's important.

Next Morning

Addison leaned against the door of her hotel as the room swam and her stomach revolted. She had set up in bed to quickly but she knew that she didn't have another choice. If she wanted to be 100 sure that she was pregnant that morning sickens was definitely a positive sign.

Miranda peeked out at her from under the covers, "Menopause my foot. You are pregnant and don't try to deny it."

Addison slid down the door jamb and nodded in agreement, "I think you're right Dr. Bailey. What's your next suggestion?"

Miranda sat up in bed and walked into the bathroom, she came back out carrying a warm washcloth and a cup of warm coke. She placed the warm washcloth on her head and handed her the cup of coke.

Addison peered into the cup and then looked at her friend in confusion, "Coke, what about ginger ale?"

Miranda put her hands on her hips, "Does it look like the 7-11 in your room? I'm working with what we have besides we were shopping last night and you didn't buy anything to help out your symptoms either."

Addison nodded and sipped the coke and said, "I'm not married anymore and I'm pregnant. God, do I know how to screw things up or what? I mean for months all I wanted from Derek was an assurance that I was important in his life, an assurance may I just say that I never got. Then yesterday when I've finally given up and have put him out of my mind and heart he comes at me with I'm sorry, I want to work on it….Meredith who has put her life on hold twice…"

Miranda cleared her throat, "Don't talk about Grey to me not now. She was the victim in the beginning granted, she didn't know that McDodo was married but after you introduced yourself she should've backed off completely but she backed off alright and right into the exam room and slept with him. She doesn't get any sympathy from me on that, you have to stay focused now. You are a single mother who is pregnant with her ex-husband's child."

Addison nodded, "Derek worries me Miranda. I'm not going to be okay with him hovering over me."

Miranda shrugged her shoulders, "Then don't tell him."

Addison looked up at her in shock, "Dr. Bailey, are you condoning me keeping the truth from my husband or ex-husband as it were? I'm shocked."

Miranda laughed, "I'm doing no such thing I'm simply assuring that you are protecting yourself first. Get confirmation before you worry yourself into a tizzy about being pregnant and telling Derek."

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Meredith woke up alone as she realized that Derek hadn't spent the night. After his confirmation that he was free she asked him if he wanted to spend the night and he had looked at her for a moment with what she could swear was disgust but she shook it off as he pulled her into his arms for a hug and then stated that it had been an emotional day and that he would call her in the morning.

She looked at the time on her clock and swore to herself softly. If she didn't hurry she was going to be late for work.

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At the Hospital

"Verified by 3 independent tests, you Dr. Addison Forbes-Montgomery Shepherd are six weeks pregnant."

Addison looked up with tears brimming on the corners of her eyelids, "I always swore that this would be the happiest day of my life and I can't stop thinking about how screwed up it is that I get confirmation that I'm pregnant the day after my divorce is final."

She slid off the table and reached for her blouse as she swiped away tears, "It's not fair you know. This used to be my dream….I mean after everything that happened."

Miranda put a arm on her shoulder and pulled her friend into a hug, "I'm here for you, you know that and not Mark nor McDodo are going to screw this up for you. This is your time to be happy."

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Derek had been waiting in the attendings room for the last 30 minutes. He knew that Addison had an early surgery scheduled for this morning and he wanted to ensure that she found out the truth about what happened at the courthouse before her lawyer called her and alerted her that their divorce wasn't finalized.

He had felt bad leading Meredith on last night but until he knew that Addison was okay and that they could continue their relationship as friends he wasn't prepared to sign away his rights to call her his. He was a selfish bastard; he had called himself many other names during the course of the long sleepless night as his mind gave him a full screen version of how he had been treating his spouse for the last 6 months after everything she had been through. The yelling, the blaming, and what he hated himself the most for was the words. All of the hateful words that he had spewed at her in moments of anger that she just took and kept on walking.

"Addi?"

Mark snorted as he pushed the door open, "No it's not Addison although, I can't wait to congratulate her on her newly divorced status. I may even take her out for a drink at lunch just so we can rekindle our friendship."

Derek stood up and looked upon his once time best friend with remorse, "I'm sorry Mark, for not being there for Addison and making you the fall guy."

Mark looked at him in shock, "What the hell are you up to Shepherd? For months you have been swearing up and down that I'm the traitor in this relationship, so now you know the truth and all of a sudden I'm your friend again?"

Derek sat down, "Look, what happened is in the past and I don't condone it or even forgive you for it but I get it now. I get why you protected Addison, someone had to….I just wish I had been a better man, a better husband for her and I had been the one doing the protecting and not putting it on you."

Mark sat down, "Do you know how many times when you were married, I used to pray you would say this and not to me because frankly I could care less about what you feel about me…..I was always waiting for you to come to your senses and realize that you were screwing over Addison Forbes Montgomery….the fantasy of every guy in Med school and your wife. She was yours and no one could've taken that away from you. It's just too late now man…she's given you the divorce, she's going to start over and I just wished you had the wake up call before it was too late. I'm an SOB and I'll admit it to anyone but I never wanted to see someone hurt the way you hurt her. Just leave her be, live your life with Meredith and don't make the same mistakes you did with Addison."

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"Dr. Montgomery-Shepherd?"

Addison kept walking as she realized that she wouldn't hear anyone call her that anymore. She turned on her heel and was met face to face with Meredith Grey. "Dr. Grey, how can I help you?"

Meredith came up to her intimidated by the woman who was put together in front of her, "I just wanted to say I'm sorry. I know your divorce was finalized last night and I just wanted you to know that even though I may have benefited from your divorce, I'm not pleased about the way things ended."

Addison felt the urge to slap her but held herself in tact, "Dr. Grey, my divorce or lack thereof had nothing to do with you, it started years ago with Derek not caring, not trying and I'm not going to go into this any further with you because I have a surgery scheduled. I just hope for your sake that you never find out what it feels like to be abandoned by Derek Shepherd because then I will be the one apologizing to you."

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Mark came up behind her and cleared his throat. "You know you really need to change your cologne I could smell you from feet away. What do you want, Dr. Sloan?"

Mark suppressed the impulse to wrap her in his arms; he knew this was an Addison on the edge. The one she put on for the world so that no-one could see how torn apart she was inside. He had once told her that she missed her calling, she should've been an actress no one could put on a show better than she could. "I just wanted to know how you were feeling. Last night, your divorce became final and I was upset to see that my cell phone didn't have any messages from you nor missed calls."

Addison turned around, "What you were expecting another booty call? I've apologized for making you feel that you have a chance with me but what am I talking about anyway the gossip around the hospital is that you hooked up with a doctor from Ortho last night."

Mark flinched visibly and swore under his breath, "I told Callie…"

Addison held up her hand, "In defense of Dr. Torres there was nothing for you to say. You went to the common bar in town and Joe knows everyone and everyone knows Joe and you and Dr. Torres aren't exactly people that are inconspicuous. A janitor tells a resident who tells a surgeon who spreads it around the hospital…Anyway it doesn't matter to me, I have no hold over you and you are free to do whatever you want."

Mark put a hand on her shoulder and said, "What if I told you that the only thing I dream about is you wanting to put an hold on me. I want you to want me but I see that it will never happen."

Addison removed his arm from her shoulder, "I know what this is about Mark. You think I'm going to self destruct and you want to ensure that you are there to catch me when I fall right? It's not going to happen, I admit I had a moment of weakness for which I dragged you right back into the middle of my mess which is the last place you deserve to be. Please let me just be, I need to be on my own for awhile. Enjoy your fling, romance or whatever with Dr. Torres but don't hurt her. She doesn't deserve that, no one does."

Mark nodded and decided to change the subject before he got too depressed about the subject matter, "I saw Derek this morning he's been looking for you."

Addison nodded, "Why do you think I'm hiding out here when my surgery was complete hours ago? What does he want?"

Mark looked down and swore, "You, he wants you. This is the Derek I always promised you would one day return when I would comfort you when he would leave you alone. He realizes the things he's done, he's spoken and he wants forgiveness."

Addison smiled softly, "The day after the divorce he wants to mend fences? I think I'll stay where I am for awhile it's safer that way, I don't know what I would say to him if I saw him right now. If Miranda or Richard come looking for me, please tell them I'm out here and I just needed a couple of moments to regroup."

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"Derek?"

Derek spun around on his foot as he heard Meredith call out to him, he walked over to her. "Can I help you Dr. Grey?"

Meredith squeezed his shoulders in excitement, "What are your plans for tonight? I was thinking we could go to Joe's and then head back to my place, we really didn't get a chance to….."

Derek cut her off in the middle of her ramblings, "I'm on call for the rest of the week, and I had to help out with some surgeries now that Preston's still out. I'll probably won't get home until late…We should shoot for something next week."

Meredith tried to stifle a sigh of exasperation but nodded, "I spoke to Addison this morning."

Derek's eyes lit up at this, "You saw Addison when, where?"

Meredith flinched at the amount of excitement she saw in his eyes at the mere mention of his ex-wife when moments before she was expecting the same kind of excitement when he realized they were free to enjoy their relationship in public. "She was on the way to her surgery; I apologized to her for my part in hurting her."

Derek looked at her shocked, "You apologized, what did she tell you when you said that?"

Meredith shrugged, "That was the weird part, she just told me that she hoped that one day she wouldn't be the one apologizing to me."

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Addison walked up to Miranda holding her pager, "Dr. Bailey, I was in the middle of a consult with an intern before surgery did you need me for something important?"

Miranda looked at her friend, "I thought you would want to see these test results the minute they came in. They were in addition to the ones we did this morning, I want to run a full battery of tests but I think you know what they mean."

Addison opened the paper and skimmed briefly over the results and leaned against the counter, "Are we sure about this?"

Miranda nodded, "Since when do I ever page a surgeon during the middle of surgery on a hunch?"

Addison leaned against the counter in resignation, "It's happening again then?"

Miranda crossed her arms, "I'm not sure you ever told me the whole story and I for one as your friend and possible doctor I need to know what happened."

Addison nodded and looked up and pulled her to the side, "I was pregnant before and was diagnosed with SLE lupus. I lost the baby during the middle of a flare up and the doctor was actually pleased about this change in events because he thought my life was in danger if I carried the baby to term. This was the big secret that Mark gave Derek the cliffnotes version of before the divorce proceedings. Derek feels guilty because he wasn't there for me during that whole time. It's true I was abandoned at this point by my husband but I don't feel the need to try to relive the past. If these tests are true…."

Miranda looked at her and said, "Then your doctor might insist that for your health and the health of your baby that you get an abortion before your life is in danger."

Addison flinched at the word, "That is not an option. I will not kill a child just because life may become too difficult for me."

Miranda rolled her eyes, "I swear you suffering types are the worst. We are talking about your life here Addison, not some game. You have to go see a doctor and then talk to Richard. I'm not prepared to sit back and let you die because of stubbornness."

Addison checked her watch, "I'll be back in time to talk to you about this after I finish this surgery."

Miranda shook her head and said, "We are going to deal with this here and now. You need to be under doctor's care, this isn't a game. Have you had any of the symptoms?"

Addison looked away, "I've been feeling more run down than usual and it's been getting harder and harder to get out of bed but I just attributed that to the stress of getting a divorce. I'm not going to focus on this because if I do I'll lose it….I have to go back in and there and save some lives and once I'm finished I will meet with you and discuss our next option."

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Later

Miranda looked up as a disheveled Derek Shepherd came at her and started speaking, "Where is she? She's obviously been hiding from me all day and I'm not in the mood for any games, I need to see her."

Miranda turned her full Bailey glare on him in disgust, "You just don't come into my area of work barking out orders. You better learn some manners, Dr. Montgomery is currently in surgery and once she's finished in surgery, she has a meeting with me and Richard so whatever it is, it will just have to wait."

Derek grumbled under his breath and started walking away, "Dr. Montgomery-Shepherd."

Miranda cleared her throat and said, "What was that Dr. Shepherd?"

Derek spun around on his feet and met her glare with one of his own, "She's still Dr. Montgomery-Shepherd, she kept the name in the divorce."

Miranda nodded once and turned back to her chart with a smile on her face.

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So that's it for now, I'll probably update on Friday after I've had a chance to review some revisions that I'm making.