A/N: Here's the next installation, please let me know your thoughts...and yes we finally see
Callie briefly but she'll play a bigger part later on...Meanwhile, I'm on page 106 and I'm not seeing
an end in site for this story but I guess that's a good thing right?

"Where have you been, I've been looking for you."

Mark had been looking frantically for Addison after Miranda told him that Derek was on the warpath looking for her. He had almost given up hope until he decided to check out the locker room and thankfully he had found her. He sat down next to her and said, "Are you going to answer me Addison?"

Addison looked up with tears in her eyes, "I'm pregnant and I don't know why I'm telling you this but I wanted you to know. According to my latest blood work, I could be in the middle of a flare up and my life and the child's could be in danger."

Mark closed his eyes, "I'm sorry, I know that's the last thing you should be worrying about…Have you seen Derek, does he know?"

Addison laughed shortly, "I made a life of keeping Derek out of my business today is just another example. He's been looking for me since we started work today and I've been avoiding him since yesterday. What kind of mess am I in Mark? My ex-husband is once again back in my life and I'm…."

She was cut off from finishing her thought by the sound of her cell phone ringing and as she was answering Miranda came into the room followed by Derek on her heels. He lit up at the sight of her but she hadn't noticed him as she was focused on the conversation.

"Yes, Alexandra so is everything in order?"

Addison looked up as Miranda signaled to her but she was in shock, "What do you mean there's a problem? She stared at Derek in shock and pulled the phone away from her ear, "What did you do?"

Mark turned an angry glare on Derek as Callie came into the room. She noticed the tension and started to take her exit when Miranda cleared her throat and said, "This room is suddenly to big, Sloan take Callie out and I'll deal with everything over here."

Mark looked at her in disbelief, "I don't recall asking your opinion."

Callie shook her head in awe, "I can tell your still new here, come on McSteamy I'll treat you to a drink."

Miranda had her hands on her hips as she turned to Mark, "You don't know me yet but you will learn that when I give an order you follow it. Now go, I will handle this trust me no one is hurting anyone here which I know is the contrary of what would happen if you were allowed to stay, go."

Mark left a lingering glance to Addison who was still engrossed in her conversation and said, "Is this really what you want?"

Addison nodded and turned her back to him as she finished up her conversation with Alexandra.

Mark walked out with his arm around Callie's waist as the Shepherds and Miranda prepared for the battle ahead of them.

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Miranda didn't know if she should be grateful or terrified that the room had been cloaked in silence for the last five minutes. Addison had been focused on breathing in and out, today had been a strenuous day and the last thing she needed was to have a fight with Derek, not when she knew the extent of her illness.

She looked up to see him pacing across the room back and forth glancing over at her every once in awhile and she cleared her throat and asked the question that had been plaguing her since she got the call, "Why?"

Derek turned around and stared at her and walked towards her, Addison flinched back and Miranda shooed him away and directed him to the bench direct in front of her, "Sit there and then talk."

Miranda sat down next to Addison; she didn't want to touch her for fear that Derek would pickup on the need for Addison to have backing. "Addison, a lot of my mistakes were laid out in front of me the past couple of days, I've learned that you have fought single handedly for this marriage since the beginning and I'm feeling guilty. When Mark told me that you had lost our child and were almost killed while I was in surgeries or flying around the world, I felt the bottom fall out of my life. I had always justified my anger in my mind and heart against you claiming that there was nothing that could justify your betrayal but now I find that I wasn't the only one betrayed, I betrayed you as well."

Addison felt the tears in her eyes and started swiping them away in anger; the last thing she wanted to feel at this moment was anger at Derek. "I don't want to revisit every mistake we made in the past; I want to focus on my future which for up until a couple of days ago I was told didn't include you. I get that you're feeling guilty and I have told you that I don't hold any resentment against you; I just want to be free. Why Derek, why did you stop this divorce?"

Derek tried to stand up and come next to her but Miranda shook her head, "Uh uh, you can answer that question from where you were. Go sit down and say what you have to say."

Derek started pacing, "I don't know Addi, that's why I've been trying to find you all day but you've been avoiding me. I need to close this chapter in my life but I can't if my heart feels torn in two."

Addison closed her eyes, "What do I need to do so that you will give me the divorce? What do I need to say?"

Derek sat down, "Up until a couple of days ago, I was prepared to put everything on the line for Meredith but now I can't say the same which leads me to think that I don't love her at all, that she was just an outlet for my anger."

Addison laughed shortly, "What are you saying? That now you've decided you don't love Meredith anymore."

Derek nodded, "That's exactly what I'm saying, when I found out that you lost my child while fighting for your life and after you were completely drained from that physically and emotionally my supposed best friend took advantage of you. He took advantage of that and after I left you, you stayed with him, it fits Addi and that's all I ever needed. It was the release I never got in therapy, I don't hold anger against you, hell I don't even hold it against Mark. I just want to talk and fix this, fix Derek and Addison."

Addison closed her eyes, "Isn't that what were doing? So in other words, I've been under judgment this whole time and it wasn't until you felt satisfied with the answers provided did you decide to stop screwing around with my head and my heart?"

Derek winced, "I'm not proud of what realization, I came to but there it is."

Addison stood up and walked towards the door with Miranda close on her heels, "My lawyer will be contacting you in the morning to discuss a reschedule for the signing of the papers."

Derek swore under his breath, "Didn't you here anything I just said?"

Addison stood with her hand on the doorknob, "I heard every word you just said but that doesn't change the fact that I'm not prepared to give you anymore chances. I let you back in and gave you a chance which you used to pass judgment on my like you were some God, this was my life Derek. Why didn't you ask me or talk about it in therapy? You were the one who admitted that I wasn't there but you still weren't satisfied, it was until I was cut open for you and bleeding that you decided to give me a bandage. Well now, I'm the one who doesn't want to fix Derek and Addison."

Derek looked down and said, "Let's go somewhere and talk about this, not in the middle of this place. We need to leave here so we can discuss this in private please."

Addison had her hand on the doorknob determined to walk away when a thought stopped her movement. She turned around and looked at him in question, "What does Meredith think about this change of events, does she know that you didn't sign the divorce papers? I was under the impression she wasn't because just this morning she was giving me condolences on my marriage and providing me with apologies for her part in hurting me. If you don't love her as you say, what part does she play in all of this? Do you even know?"

Derek shook his head, "She believes that we are divorced, I didn't have it in my heart to tell her the truth until I knew where we stood. I don't want to hurt her unnecessarily, I've don't that to much to you and I'm not prepared to make the same mistakes with her."

Addison nodded, "I can't promise you anything, I won't promise you anything. I'm still broken from you and I need time, just give me time."

Derek smiled softly and walked towards her and said, "I don't deserve even this but thank you Addi, thank you."

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Addison closed the door behind her as Miranda was cool on her heels, "He didn't sign the divorce papers, my lupus has flared-up and I just found out that I'm pregnant, what more can happen in this day?"

"What the hell is going on here?"

Addison flinched at the anger she heard in Richard's voice and held onto the counter for support. Miranda turned a glaring eye on him and said, "Why don't you talk to your neurosurgeon in there? He seems to be the one who's causing all of these issues."

Richard noticed for the first time the look in Addison's eyes and walked towards her but she held up her hand, "Tomorrow Richard, first thing tomorrow I will schedule a meeting in your office and we can discuss what happened here today but for now I just want to go home and rest, I can't handle too much more."

Miranda put an arm around her shoulder as Richard was walking away and Meredith was coming up on the scene, "What's going on?"

Miranda fixed her with the patent Bailey glare and said, "Grey don't you have patients to attend to?"

Meredith nodded and then Bailey said, "Then I think you should be attending those patients instead of worrying about the ongoing hospital gossip. Go."

Meredith walked away and Addison smiled at her gratefully, "This is turning into a circus. I don't know what to do."

Miranda checked her watch, "First things first, you are leaving that hotel tonight. You can't be that near to either Mark or Derek."

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"So did you hear about the commotion in the locker room? Supposedly it was the Nazi, McDreamy, McSteamy and Satan behind closed doors. Then from what I hear Torres took out McSteamy and it was just McDreamy and Satan with the Nazi as referee."

George came up on the group, "What was Callie doing with McSteamy?"

Christina slid down from the counter, "George sorry but from what I heard from the gossip mills it sounds as if they were together last night and will be again tonight."

Meredith walked up on the group, "Well that's weird, I thought for sure that McSteamy would hook up with Satan, I mean she's free now right?"

Christina shrugged, "I told you until you saw signed divorce papers you shouldn't trust anything that he says."

Meredith rolled her eyes, "He wouldn't lie to me about this, I'm just curious what they were talking about there in that room, and it was pretty heated from what I heard."

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Richard looked up as Derek came into his office and closed the door behind him. "Look, I know you're probably wondering why I'm still in the middle of chaos at the hospital but I swear it should be quiet sometime soon."

Richard leaned back in his chair and crossed his arms, he signaled to the chair across from him. "Sit."

Derek sat down and looked Richard in the eyes, "I saw an Addison I haven't seen in awhile a broken one. I want to know what you had to do with this if anything. She doesn't deserve to be treated like this as I'm sure you know and since I consider her like one of my children, I'm going to tread where it's not really my business. What happened, why does she look broken?"

Derek nodded and said, "I can't explain any of what Addison is feeling because I don't know, I wish I did. Of course I know that she's hurt as well as she should be but my hands are tied I'm just following your advice."

Richard glared at that one, "My advice? So my advice was for you to divorce your wife and cause chaos in the middle of my hospital all the while chasing the wife you just divorced? I think I would remember telling you to follow that course of action. What is really going on?"

Derek winced at the anger in his mentor's voice and said, "I screwed up big time and I don't know how to fix it. Just call me Selfish Bastard."

Richard sat forward, "I think it's time you tell me the story, the whole story uncut, uncensored truth so I can understand why the hell you are doing this?"

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Callie grinned as Mark scowled against the back of the booth. "Are you going to tell me what's the matter or do I have to guess?"

Mark leaned forward, "Who does Dr. Bailey think she is? Why did she get in the middle of the fight?"

Callie smiled, "I just let you in on a thing or two about Miranda to what anyone tells you, Richard Webber doesn't run this hospital, Miranda Bailey does and when she gives an order you follow it."

Mark rolled his eyes, "What does she expect me to do? I love Addison and I don't want to see her hurt anymore than she already is by that SOB."

Callie felt the smile fall from her lips, "You know if this wasn't a strictly sexual relationship only I could feel very jealous that you are proclaiming your love for another woman to me." She took a sip of her beer as he studied her from across the table.

Mark leaned forward and said, "So what's your damage? I know why I'm in this relationship, what about you?"

Callie rolled her eyes, "We worked so much better when we didn't discuss our love lives don't you think?"

Mark nodded and said, "I agree, you ready to go?"

Callie nodded, "Let's get out of here."

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"Miranda, this is not necessary I swear I will be alright by myself, I do alone just fine."

Miranda turned to her as she started throwing her clothes haphazardly into a suitcase. "You are going through too much right now and you don't need anymore stress. Both Mark and Derek know they can reach out and touch you here and that's unacceptable. In order for you to put your thoughts in order you need a neutral location and while Mark might still not be trained on me, Derek knows better than to come within 15 feet of my house or else I'll shoot him on site."

Addison laughed, "Well your right about that, but then I'll look for another hotel or an apartment in the morning, the last thing you need to worry about is me. Look Miranda, I appreciate everything you've done I really do but you have a wife and a husband that need you and you don't need a friend with my type of baggage that I'm bringing to the plate messing up your life."

Miranda sighed exasperated, "Will you get off your pity train? You have so much going for you and you need to focus on your pregnancy and your lupus. The last thing in the world that you need to worry about is what Derek or Mark are feeling."

Addison smiled at her, "You know even when I was in New York, with the exception of a couple of people, I never had a friend like you. Someone who was unconditional and just looking out for me. I really appreciate it but I don't want you to put your life on hold because of me so I'll stay here for tonight and in the morning…."

Miranda rolled her eyes, "You will not be staying here tonight and that's the end of that. Just get over it and get your stuff together. Let's go."

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