A/N: So it is hard to start writing this story after I wrote 2 one-shot's...That's right, Thin Love
has a sequel which hit an inbox recently so keep an eye out on that one and let me know
what you think of this one!

Also as promised more Callie in this chapter even if it's only with Mark, I had to setup their relationship
before I threw her into the friendhip that is Addison/Bailey.

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Chapter 6

After Mark left the room, she slid off the side of the bed and reached for her clothes and started to get ready to quietly leave the hospital unnoticed, she hoped by Derek especially. The door to her room opened and Meredith leaned against the doorjamb.

Addison gave her an eyebrow, "Was there something you needed Dr. Grey?"

Meredith nodded, "I owe you an apology, I should've learned when I was younger to make a distinction on whom and how I lay the blame on…You aren't the right person to deal with all of my anger and I'm sorry. I just wanted you to know that."

She turned to leave with the room when Addison called out, "Wait Meredith. Come in, I don't blame you anymore; it's not worth it. I'm struggling with one day at a time, but please know that you weren't the only one hurt in all of this, I'm here crying inside and I don't want you to think that it was Derek and I joining forces to hurt you, I don't operate that way."

Meredith pushed herself away from the door, "That's what sucks the most in this entire situation, I wanted to hate you. I tried to hate you; Derek would've had me believe that you were Satan for betraying him, but I found out he wasn't completely innocent. He was also guilty and to more of a degree than you ever could be. I feel naïve and I feel used and I hate feeling this way."

Addison cleared her throat, "I'm pregnant Meredith and I'm not telling you to rub this in but to let you know that even if I don't get back with Derek, we will always be tied to each to other through this child. I haven't even told Derek yet, and I don't know why I'm telling you but I just thought you should know because I get that you are trying to heal and it's not going to be easy to heal if I'm here rubbing it in your face. Just know that I'm not doing this on purpose."

Meredith nodded as she felt the tears come to her eyes, "Mark told me that you were pregnant but I want you to know how much it means to me that you feel okay with telling me and don't worry, after everything McDreamy has put me through, the last thing I want is to see his face."

Addison smiled, "I may not take him back you know, that is a possibility a very big one considering that I'm pregnant but I don't want to him to be with just because of our child and I'm probably giving you too much information in light of everything that's happened today. I'll shut up. You don't want to hear about how my thought processes and how they affect your possible love life."

Meredith smiled, "God why are you so nice? Why are you treating me like I'm not the one of the woman who put your life in chaos?

Addison grinned softly as she placed a hand on her stomach, "It probably has to do with the fact that we were in chaos before you came to the picture, you just helped define the players in this storm that was our life, I just wish you and Mark weren't blown up in our mess."

Meredith shrugged, "When I slept with your husband after you guys decided that you wanted to try your marriage I willingly threw myself into this storm of a marriage that you guys were in…. from the way it sounds though, you don't want out anytime soon. Are you thinking about staying with him?"

Addison shrugged, "I'm thinking about one day at a time, one crisis at a time for today all I can handle is dealing with the fact that my husband hurt you after I told him not to specifically hurt you again. I can't deal with his proclamations of love at the moment."

Meredith nodded, "I understand and for what it's worth Derek, will be over the moon about the child and the fact that you are carrying it. I can't forgive him, I can't even look at him but I want you to know that I hope everything works out for you and your child."

Addison held out a hand and said, "Thanks for your wishes Dr. Grey. You'll be in my thoughts."

Meredith took the hand begrudgingly and said, "Thank you Dr. Montgomery-Shepherd it's been a pleasure talking with you."

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"So tell me, what plans do you have for tonight?"

Callie stirred her finger in her wine glass as she looked at the menu and Mark met her eyes with an interested eyebrow rise of his own, "I thought you would be too busy sulking about Addison being pregnant that you wouldn't want to do anything, do you feel better about her all of a sudden?"

Mark shrugged his shoulders, "Whether I like it or not Derek is going to be in her life for a long time coming. I don't have the option of choosing who the father of her child is anymore than she does."

Callie decided on her dinner and closed her menu and sat it on top of her plate, "We spoke this morning Addison and I. I see why you fell for her, she's a class act."

Mark smiled and leaned over, "Are you deliberately trying to turn me on in the restaurant by telling me you see something in my ex?"

Callie rolled her eyes, "Everything about you screams sexual but I get that you have reservations as well…I hope we can be friends as well as lovers."

Mark shrugged, "The last time I was friends first I ended up causing the end of a marriage."

Callie laughed as she sipped her wine, "I don't think the marriage is over but that's between the two of them. So answer me one last question and I will put this to rest and you won't have to hear me ask about this again..."

Mark leaned back intrigued as he too sipped his wine, "I'm intrigued, ask me your question."

Callie looked him in the eyes and said, "Do you wish that Addison's child was yours?"

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Addison sat in the hospital cafeteria poking at her roasted chicken and vegetables uninterested and focusing on her conversation with Meredith. For all the hate that she once had for the woman who she swore was the reason that her marriage was over as looked at her a couple of moments ago, once again broken by Derek the only emotion that she had felt for her was empathy. How could it be possible that one guy had the ability to make women around him ready to fight over him when he was as wishy-washy with his feelings as women were stereotyped as being? She was focusing on her next move when it came to Derek when Derek came up behind her. He kissed her on top of the head then took the chair in front of her and sat down. Addison inhaled softly as she tried to focus on sticking to her guns and not falling under the pull of his McDreamy smile.

"I returned to your room after I changed my scrubs and you weren't there, I was worried. Are you feeling better?"

Addison nodded and said, "I am feeling better but I spoke to Meredith, you hurt her again Derek. I thought I told you to make sure you didn't hurt her, since you've done enough of that already don't you think? After everything the only thing you could try to do would be not hurt anymore women but you still managed to break Meredith…"

Derek shrugged, "It was inevitable, I needed to be honest with her and not lead her on anymore than I already have but I didn't come here to talk about her, I just wanted to see you. What happened today Addison, is it the lupus?"

Addison felt tears come to her eyes at the concern she heard in his voice, "I didn't mean to scare you it was a long day. I had a doctor's appointment, a meeting with Richard and then that confrontation with Meredith."

Derek interrupted her ramblings with a touch of his hand, "I know that you've had a difficult couple of days partly because of me which is why I'm here, what's going on that you aren't telling me? I'm worried about you Addison and ever since I told you of my decision to halt the divorce until we talked you've been avoiding me. I'm not perfect and what I did at the prom was inexcusable but I need you to give us a chance, hell we may not work it out but at least we will both be giving 100 this time."

Addison smiled as she listened to his speech, "You broke me just like you did Meredith but apart of everything that you did, and I can't and won't lie and tell you that I don't still love you, because I do. And with everything that's going on, I think it would be remiss of me if I didn't consider this as another opportunity for us. But if I give you this chance, does that mean you'll back off, that although we will be trying you'll still give me the space I need? I'm not going to pretend to tell you that it's going to be easy, I'm still very hurt about everything that happened between us but I think, no I know we deserve to give this marriage a shot."

Derek shot her a grin full of promise as he leaned forward and brushed his lips against her outstretched hand, "That's all I ask, although I may be the worse judge of how to be a husband and a friend I want you to know that I'm willing to still try as long as you're by my side."

Addison nodded and then pulled her hand away, Derek tried to hide the flicker of hurt that came across his face at the thought that she didn't want his touch but he squelched that thought instead focusing on what he could do to change which was the look of fear that was in her eyes when she looked at him. She reached into her purse and said, "This was actually supposed be a surprise that I was planning on giving you after the prom but as you and I both know things didn't really turn out the way that I planned so I was unable to give it to you. And then coming on the heels of you sleeping with Meredith, asking for a divorce I couldn't find a good time to sit down with you and tell you this news. And then after you not signing divorce papers there just wasn't a good time…"

Derek flinched as the thought of Addison's face ran through his mind, "I will always apologize to you for what I put you through this last couple of months." He opened the envelope and looked at the picture in shock and disbelief. He felt the tears come to his eyes, "Is this picture what I think it is?"

Addison nodded as she was moved by the look of joy on his face, "That is baby Montgomery-Shepherd, taken this morning. According to my rheumatologist who is also an OB/Gyn the baby and I are doing well. He did recommend because he was concerned about my blood pressure and the inflammation in my joints that I take a couple of days off so when I got back to the hospital today I spoke with Richard about taking a couple days of leave to regroup. I have to look for a place to live since the hotel is only transitory until I find a place for both myself and the baby."

Derek traced the outline of the fetus on the picture. When he heard that last sentence he looked up however and met her eyes with a questioning look, "What do you mean until you find a place for yourself and the baby? Your place and the place of our child are with me always."

Addison smiled sweetly, "Derek, I'm not moving back into that trailer, I'm not and especially now that I'm expecting your child, it's just not happening."

Derek rolled his eyes, "Of course I know that, I meant we can look for a house together. It'll have to have at least 3 bedrooms because I don't plan on our child growing up as an only child and we will need at least 2 more for our study. I'll get on the phone with my realtor and we can decide how and when we want to look for houses."

Addison listened as Derek discussed plans for their future and was moved to think that just a couple of hours ago she was preparing herself for life as a single parent. Hearing that Derek was so enthused about the upcoming birth of their child had her hormones in a flurry, so much so that she promptly burst into tears.

Derek stood up frantic and pulled her in his arms, which was no easy task seeing as how they were currently in the hospital cafeteria and the chairs weren't exactly deluxe and accommodating for husbands who were trying to cradle their pregnant, sobbing wives in their arms. He started stroking her back until the tears calmed down and he focused on finding the issue.

"Addi, I'm kinda lost here. What happened? What did I say?"

Addison swore to herself, "It's these damn hormones. You were talking about the future and how many children we were going to have and how many bedrooms we needed and I just remembered the Derek I fell in love with. The Derek, who in med school promised me that we would always be together and never apart and the one that I never stopped loving even though I swore that he stopped loving me. It just reminded me of better times and I guess I got a little nostalgic and then that made me cry…I'm sorry."

Derek started to wipe the tears that had fallen from her eyelids away and brushed the hair out of her face and leaned in to kiss her when Addison jolted up. She scrambled out of his lap and into the seat across from him. "Derek, I really don't think we are at that point do you?"

Derek blinked his eyes out of the sexual haze he had fallen into so quickly at the thought of her his arms, kissing her and loving her and he nodded, "You're right, I apologize. I sometimes forget what its like to be with you. This constant need, desire to be inside of you, forgive me for rushing you. Anyway, the only thing we can agree on is that for now we are definitely holding off on the divorce correct?"

Addison nodded and reached for her cell phone, "I call Alexandra right now and let her know that we won't need to reschedule a date for the signing of the papers as we are going to try to reconcile."

Derek smiled pleased that she had at least agreed to that and said, "You've barely touched your dinner, is there something wrong with it?"

Addison shrugged as she held the cell phone away from her ear and said, "Your baby had a taste for Chinese but the doctor says I should eat more protein."

Derek stood up to go get a to-go box and said, "Why don't you let me box this for later and I will take you out to the Chinese place that's close to the hospital and you can have protein and Chinese?"

Addison nodded as she pressed send, "It's a deal."

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"Interesting question, I'm curious though before I answer why that question? Does it change our relationship for the good or bad depending on what I say?"

Callie shrugged, "Let's just call it a fact finding mission. I've been with guys who are too hung up on their exes or their girlfriends to give me the proper time. I know we aren't in a relationship but I still like to know where I'm heading even if we don't necessarily have a future together."

Mark nodded pleased with her explanation and said, "No, I don't wish the child was mine."

Callie nodded as cut up her chicken fettuccine and spooned some onto her fork and chewed thoughtfully. She sipped wine and Mark stared at her, "Does that surprise you?"

Callie laughed, "Does it surprise you that the answer to that question is no? I'm just pleased that you were honest with me and yourself. Sometimes guys in the middle of feeling things for lack of a better word confuse it with commitment, I was just curious if those feelings of yours were real for Addison and you just confirmed that they weren't."

Mark squinted at her in disbelief, "I've been in love with Addison Montgomery-Shepherd for the last two years of my life, and I think I would know if I loved her. How does saying that I don't wish the child she was carrying was mine change the fact that I love her?"

Callie put up her hands in surrender, "The answer to that question I posed you says a lot. You want to be with Addison but not for the long run. Addison as I'm sure you know is the type of person who needs one guy who will love her completely and selflessly and will devote himself to her and their family and you aren't that guy. You would get jealous of any kid she would have because you would think it would take away time from her loving you."

Mark sat back in his chair and said, "You claim to know me so well, what if I tell you that the dreams you had with George were just that a pipe dream. George was never going to give up being in the lap of 3 gorgeous women for one, one of the three who he's already slept with."

Callie smirked, "When you get mad, you get defensive and lash out. It would be cute if I wasn't already learning you. Don't worry Mark; your secret is safe with me."

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Meredith sat on the couch with a beer and George on one side and Cristina on the other side. "He broke me again guys."

George pulled her into his arms, "It'll be okay Meredith, you survived once and you'll survive again."

Meredith shook her head, "I didn't survive that's the point George. I was just living from day to day with this cloud of McDreamy hanging over my head and I didn't know what to think or how to act so I decided to self destruct instead."

Cristina sighed from the other side of her, "I just wonder what Addison is going to do with McSteamy and McDreamy after her."

Meredith whined in disbelief, "We are supposed to be talking about my issues not Addison's."

George looked at her in shock, "When did she become Addison and not Satan?"

Meredith sighed and said, "Since I realized that it was me who was the interloper and not her. She's pregnant you guys, and she's going to give Derek a child. A child, who with its birth, will bind the two of them together forever whether they are apart or together. I can't compete with that, I don't even want to try."

Cristina slapped her on the leg and said, "Come on enough moping around the house, we are going to Joe's to pick you out a hot guy that's not McDreamy or McSteamy."

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"She'll have an iced tea with three lemons on the side and honey if you have it." Addison smiled as the waiter looked at her for confirmation and she nodded.

"Very well, I'll be back with your drinks and to take your order."

As the waiter shuffled away Derek turned to her in disbelief, "He didn't believe me, I guess he thought I was making it up. I just happen to know what my wife likes."

Addison smiled softly, "It's nice, this is nice I mean. You and I talking just the two of us like we are connecting again, I missed that."

Derek nodded, "I promise we will never get that far apart again."

Addison smiled softly, "I hope so. So, tell me about this place that you brought me to for dinner. In all my scouts out, I don't think I've discovered this little niche."

Derek grinned, "This is the elitist of all Chinese restaurants I'll have you know Dr. Shepherd, it comes highly recommended from the wait staff on the Neuro wing. They swear by their wonton soup."

Addison smiled back, "Then I'll have to thank them if I like the food."

Derek grinned, "Of course you will thank them, three days from now after you get some rest, I have a call in to Richard and hopefully he'll let me take off those three days with you."

Addison's smile faltered as she dropped the menu she was perusing, "Derek, I want to be alone those three days, I thought you knew that. We can obviously spend time together but I need time to recoup and gather my thoughts, I thought we were clear on that point."

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