A/N: I like angst, I never thought I'd say it but I like good, old-fashioned angst as look as it isn't too
crazy (i.e third-party loves) so forgive me for kicking up the angst another notch. Don't worry I would
never, never, never leave Derek without Addison raising kids! That's not even a possiblity:)

P.S. Y para Juliana, solo para ti, la hice una pequena historia entre Callie y Mark porque a mi tambien me gusta mucho
esta pareja! Gracias por su palabras bonitas!

And now in English, I wrote a off-shot fic between Callie/Mark called Light Years Away if you
go to my homepage on Fanfiction you can read it. It has 2 parts and an epilogue so if you get a chance go read it and let
me know your thoughts! Thanks.

WIP23

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"Promise me." Addison looked at Derek with tear filled eyes begging for understanding, the doctor had prescribed her a mild sedative to calm her nerves but she was fighting with all of her strength until she had the assurance that while she slept her wishes wouldn't be violated.

Derek held her hand in his looking at the woman who filled his days and nights with happiness. He didn't know how to give her what she was asking for which was permission from him to close her eyes and possibly never wake up all so he could be a father. Derek shook his head as if trying to clear his thoughts, "Addison, this is your life. I know you are worried about the babies but if there's a chance that I can save you I will do it and I won't promise you anything otherwise because it would make me a liar."

Addison started to cry as she jerked her hand away from his and her head started rolling side to side in fear. "Derek, please. I want our children to have the best possible chances for survival if we take them out now they may not make it. If we can just give them two more weeks, they at least deserve that much of a chance."

Derek stood up and looked at his wife in disbelief. He had swore to himself that he wasn't going to pick a fight with his wife but when she was being so irrational he didn't know how else to act.

"Two more weeks, 14 days, each day your organs are struggling to survive. 14 days that I have to watch you slowly die just because you want to put your chances of survival behind that of our children. How the hell do you expect me to sit by your sides while you slowly die and then be what? Happy that you gave your life for our children?"

Addison closed her eyes and then slowly reopened them, "You know from the moment that I first found I was pregnant, all I could imagine was you with our children. I had all these pictures in my head of you carrying them around in your arms, playing with them at the beach, holding them when they got hurt. All of these scenarios I always imagined you by yourself, I could never find a way into those places and it hurt me that I couldn't put myself into those dreams. Now, I know why. Derek, I've done so many things wrong in my life. I nearly destroyed the only healthy relationship I had in my life, I broke up two best friends that should've been together forever and I've made mistake after mistake. The only thing I can do right is bring these children in the world even if it costs me my own life."

Derek sat down and put his face in his hands and started sobbing.

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Callie sat down and looked at Miranda who was sitting next to her with the same face of fear. How were they going to convince her to accept taking the twins early if she was determined to give her life for them?

Miranda laughed and said, "Of course, why didn't I think of it before?"

Callie looked at her in shock, "Think, think of what?"

Miranda checked her watch and said, "If I hurry, I can still ensure that she gets on a plane before the end of the day. Do me a favor and check out flights from Atlanta to Seattle. We need to get her here before the end of the day."

Callie nodded and said, "Do you mind telling me what we are doing?"

Miranda ran towards the nearest phone, "If she won't listen to us as a woman and a wife she'll have to listen to us as a doctor. How many times do you remember Addison talking about Dr. Martha Glover?"

Callie nodded and stood up, "I remember her talking about this doctor, she was like her mentor right? She told us that she went to one of her surgeries before and that the doctor was like her idol, yea I remember the conversation now. We teased her about how she had so much woman love and she said that hers was the only other opinion that she would respect in addition to her own. Hey are you thinking…?"

Miranda nodded and shrugged, "It's only an idea but it's one that we have to follow to completion. It may be Addison's only hope."

Callie started running for Addison's room and said "So what are we waiting for?"

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Derek came outside Addison's door with red rimmed eyes. He saw Mark sitting outside the door and he looked up and met his face with a curious glance. Derek was never one to admit a weakness but right now he needed his friend, he needed his humor, his strength as they both watched over the woman they loved dearly.

Derek sat next to Mark and exhaled, "It's bad Mark."

Mark nodded once but didn't show any other signs that he had heard him, "Callie and Miranda are working on ideas to make Addison change her mind."

Derek closed his eyes and leaned his head against the wall, the weight of the world on his shoulders making it hard for him to breathe. "I put her to sleep. She was fighting because she wants my assurance that I'm not going to violate her wishes while she's sleep. How do I tell her that the last thing on my mind is our children and as horrible as that sounds, it's the truth. I love Addison but I want her by my side to raise our children together, so I lied."

Mark leaned forward in shock, "You lied to your wife on her sickbed."

Derek nodded and opened, "You can try to judge me but I don't care, I love my wife and I love her enough to take over her decisions when she's incapacitated and not thinking clearly."

Mark rolled his eyes, "You speak of judging, you speak of selfishness but you never knew Addison and you still don't."

Derek wanted to rage that he didn't know his wife either but since all of his energy was focused on ensuring that his wife survived the next 24 hours what his ex-best friend had to say really didn't bother him. "What do you mean, I don't know Addi?"

Mark stood up and started pacing, "The love of your life, you don't know her. You never understood how she could sacrifice herself but she does it…Did you ever stop to think what it must've done to her to be diagnosed with an auto-immune disease like lupus and keep it to herself because she thought you didn't care? Hell, as if that wasn't insulting enough she gets pregnant and is in danger of losing her life, I was sitting in the chair that you were in terrified that I would have to call you and tell you that Addison had died. I finally convinced Addison after pleading in rage for her to call you and what did I get for my trouble? You hung up on her, I don't think you heard me your wife was fighting for her life, she had to be put on dialysis and she was still focused on making you a father because she knew that had always been one of your dreams. Do you see how she's only lived for you, for your dreams? She's asking for the first time in this relationship that you give her, her dream which is to be a mother even if she isn't there to see it. That has always been my problem with you, she gives and gives and gets shot down in return, why can't you let her in like you were prepared to do with Meredith?"

Meredith walked up on the end of the conversation but hearing her name turned on her heel and was about to walk away when Mark sneered at her, "Don't leave, I'm leaving now."

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Miranda rushed into Richard Webber's office with her hand outstretched. "I need your credit card now."

Richard signaled to the phone in his hand and mouthed, "Later…"

Miranda shook her head and said, "No now." Richard had long since known that Miranda ran his hospital but she wasn't the type of alarmist who would haphazardly enter his office without good reason. He told his caller that he would return the call and then hung up.

He leaned back in his chair in curiosity, "What is so urgent that you interrupted a conference call with a hospital in Georgia?"

Miranda held out her hand, "You wanted me to do something to help Addison? I'm doing something but I need your credit card and I need it now."

Richard reached for his wallet without hesitation and as he handed it to Miranda, Callie came busting in the door and swiped it out of Miranda's hands saying she would explain later as she ran off to parts unknown.

Miranda smiled at him pleased, "I guess you put your money where your mouth is."

Richard nodded and signaled to a chair behind her and said, "Sit and tell me why I just gave Dr. Callie Torres my credit-card with a zero limit."

Miranda nodded, "Well you wanted results and we are determined to get them for you, Callie and I both love Addison but we know how stubborn she is and she won't listen to us. She just won't but when I was outside of her room pacing, I remember how she always talked about Dr. Glover."

Richard started to nod in agreement as memories flooded his head, "I remember her now, Dr. Martha Glover. I never saw Addison's eyes light up as much as I did when she spoke of her, she was one of the top neonatal surgeons in her field and…."

Miranda cut him off to finish the thought, "And she's the only person that Addison would trust to ensure the safe delivery of her children. I needed the credit card because I called her hospital and spoke to her, she's flying out on the first plane out. I briefed her on Addison's situation and surprisingly enough she remembered her."

Richard smiled in agreement, "How could she forget Addison Forbes Montgomery? With her bright eyes and wonderful smile she was a pleasure to have around any hospital. Thanks for keeping me informed and let's hope this works because if we can't convince her then we are running out of options and I don't even want to entertain the idea of alternatives."

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"Son of a bitch." Callie raised an eyebrow as she took time to breathe from scheduling the flight and talking to Dr. Glover who Callie had to admit was as personable as Addison described. She had gone into her office for a few moments of quiet time when Mark came in the room and sat down in the chair and started cursing.

Callie stood up and said, "Okay what's wrong now? I was coming to tell you good news but from the look on your face nothing I could say could change your attitude. What's wrong?"

Mark grimaced and said, "It's Derek, he's being an ass again."

Callie rolled her eyes and said, "The only time I've known the man to be an ass is when he's dealing with Addison and since she's sleep he must've done something to you, right?"

Mark shook his head and said, "Unfortunately it was still against Addison, he lied to her. He told her that he wouldn't do the procedure if she fell asleep but he just got finished telling me that he lied. He said that he told her what she wanted to hear so she would get some rest but when it came down to it, he wouldn't keep his promise to her. It just pisses me off that he has a extraordinary woman like Addison by his side who doesn't ask him for much but when she does, he has the nerve to lie to her. He lied to her on what could conceivably be her death bed."

Callie closed her eyes and pulled him into her arms and started stroking his hair while he buried his head in her neck. "God, I love how you smell, it always reminded me of being at peace if there is such a smell. I don't know how I could get through this without you, if I ever start to take you for granted, hit me on the side of the head and tell me to get my act together because I can't lose you Callie, I can't."

Callie shushed him as she cradled his face in her hands and kissed him softly, "Hey McSteamy? Me? I'm not going anywhere."

Mark took her hands from her face and wound them around his waist as he pulled her against him and said against her mouth, "Prove it."

Callie looked at him in shock, "Mark, we are in the middle of my office…"

Mark put a finger over her lips, "I know all about that but lock the door and prove to me that you're not going to leave me, we all have issues but right now mine is that I can't go another moment without being inside of you. It's been a long morning and I need that reassurance, please."

Callie nodded and exhaled softly, Mark had never been the type of person to ask for anything but she knew what he needed, what they both needed actually which was reassurance that they were here and able to love each other unlike their friends outside. She walked to the door locked it and then turned back to him as she reached for the button on his shirt to prove to him that she wasn't going anywhere.

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"So…"

Derek looked up as he realized that Meredith was sitting next to him. "If you're waiting on me for to start a conversation you've got the wrong one. I'm in a bad mood and I might say something to hurt your feelings like I did with my ex-best friend Mark."

Meredith nodded and leaned back in her chair and smiled, "You don't scare me Dr. Shepherd. I admit when we were together you did have the ability to break me which you did many times, good point why would I want to talk to you?"

Derek shrugged as he leaned back in his chair and covered his eyes, "Mark's pissed at me because I lied to Addison."

Meredith nodded silently waiting for him to continue. He looked back at her and said, "She wanted me to promise her something before she went to sleep from the sedative the doctor gave her."

Meredith winced, "Was it something hard?"

Derek nodded as he decided to explain to his one-time girlfriend the dilemma he suddenly found himself faced with, "She wanted me to promise to not to allow the doctor's to do an emergency cesarean on her without her being awake and agreeing to it."

Meredith gasped at him in shock, "But that could be the end of her life if she doesn't agree."

Derek grimaced in agreement even while he flinched at the blunt tone in Meredith's voice, "Can you not say end of her life? It makes it sound so final."

Meredith flinched as Derek called her choice of words into question, "I apologize you're right, but the surgery could save her life if she has it within a reasonable time frame right?"

Derek nodded, "She wants to ensure that the twins are giving every chance to make it into this world without complications."

Meredith looked, "Wouldn't prolonging her pregnancy cause even more serious danger to her life? Wait, is that what you lied to her about…Derek."

Derek closed his eyes in shame as he listened to the admonishing tone in her voice, "God, why is everyone trying to making me feel like I'm such a bastard for not carrying out what could be her final wish? I just want my wife to be by my side, I'm not asking for anything more than that and I don't think it's too selfish to wish that she would listen to reason and not keep risking herself for our children. We could still adopt or…."

Meredith shook her head and stood up, "Derek, you and I may never work out but you have to know that not following your wife's wishes is the last thing that she would want. She trusts you, and that is something that at one time you told me that was a problem for you, for you to trust her. She trusts you and if something happens to her or the twins and you didn't follow her wishes to the letter, she'll never forgive you and then where will you be?" After speaking those parting words, she walked away leaving Derek with his thoughts.

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Miranda sat in the chair across from her friend with her hand clasped gently in hers. She laid Addison's hand back on top of Addison's stomach that even in sleep curved around her belly.

Miranda looked away as she spoke gruffly but her voice tinged with emotion, "So you want to play this the hard way huh? Well let me tell you that you aren't going to win, you have too many people in your corner so you need to stop this foolishness and let us help you live. If something happens to you, I'll never forgive you."

Miranda felt the tears come to her eyes as the absurdity of her words hit home, "Addison, I love you. When I was growing up, I was always alone and I never really felt like I belonged but when I came to this hospital, to Seattle Grace I thought finally I found my niche. I know you felt the same way when you got here but something was missing from our lives, I mean I had the perfect husband, I was now a mother but I didn't have any friends. Within no time at all you and Callie opened me up to a world that was more than friends, even more than girlfriends, it was more like sisters and I'm not going to sit here while you act stupid about your life. I won't lose you, not after I found you after all these years. It's not fair to me and it's not fair to Callie who loves you just as much as I do."

Miranda swiped the tears that had fallen from her eyes and exhaled a deep breath as her tirade ended and the door opened and Derek shuffled into the room. Miranda looked at him and rolled her eyes, he was coming to apologize again. She could always tell when Derek was in the wrong by the look on his face, she stood up and pulled out the chair and pointed.

Derek walked obediently over to the chair and sat down, "Thanks but you didn't have to get up, I'll wait my turn."

Miranda walked up behind him and put her hands on his shoulder and squeezed, "You need to apologize to her and I don't think you want an audience for that right?"

Derek opened his mouth in shock as he stifled a sob and nodded. Miranda patted his shoulders and said, "That's good why don't you sit here and talk to her? After your finished come outside and we will talk about the next steps."

A/N: Thoughts please? I'm trying to pull my people back together and I love my trio together!